Soft Medicine - 4

A/N: Read it or not, review it or not it's all your choice. I could tell you that life's been bitch on my again, but I'm not sure you would believe me anymore though it's true a few things happened bad enough for me not to write anymore. Thank goodness for me, I managed to turn things around just enough to find my love of writhing back and though writing is a BIG part of my life but IT ISN'T MY ENTIRE life.

I rewrote this chapter several times, before, finally posting this. So for the purpose of this story let's pretend no one knows about Gibbs' daughter, and his ex-wife not even Ducky. I know I wrote that the spoilers were for "Red Cell" but I wanted to clarify that.

Thanks to Laci and Maria for always having the word that makes me smile again and want to keep going. Thanks also to Reseda for being such a wonderful support to me, even if sometimes, I'm not so easy to deal with.

Thank you to my readers, who keep following me, Thank you so much.

Thanks to Mark Harmon, Pauley Perrette, Michael Weatherly, Cote de Pablo, Sean Murray, David McCallum and all the other for giving life to the wonderful characters of NCIS

WARNING: None really for this chapter.

Previously on "Soft Medicine"

Watching as she rode her orgasm, he held her, and this time, he let it completely die out and helped her sit down on the chair, placing one hand in the small of her back and the other at the base of her neck, he held her.

"Welcome back, my little squint." He murmured against her throat before kissing her lips softly.

Abby kissed him back softly, unable to move any other part of her body just yet. As their lips parted, she murmured "It's your turn now. You know, you weren't supposed to my medicine, I was supposed to be yours."

"But you are, Abbs, you are."

FOUR

At his words, a foolish smile appeared on Abby's lips and she leaned again to kiss him languorously. Standing on her feet Abby reached out her hand to him. Gibbs smiled back at her and Gibbs took it wordlessly.

They slowly went upstairs, Abby climbing the steps one by one never letting go of Gibbs's hand. As he followed her Gibbs watched the curves of her back moved with each step she took. His body ached, not so much from the bruises he had from his earlier fight, but rather from need for her. He wanted her. It had been such a long time since he had wanted a woman the way he wanted her. He had almost forgotten how it felt. Pure desire for someone, he wanted to be one with her, he wanted to be connected to Abby in every possible way he could.

Abby could feel his eyes on her back and she couldn't help the smile that appeared on her lips, it had been such a long time, since she'd felt so desirable, so wanted, no men had made her feel the way Gibbs did. He made her feel good about herself, safe, cared for. Abby couldn't wait to show him how he made her feel.

She had waited and fantasized about this moment for so long, and after what he had done to her just moments ago — she could still feel her insides tingle — after the amazing things he's done to her. She'd had her fair share of boyfriends, even had some experimental moments with girlfriends, but those were more for fun, testing the grounds, to know what it was like, she even did a threesome ones... All of it to discover that she loved men, but none of her feelings for them could be compared to what she felt for the man she was holding hands with and leading to his bedroom. None.

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When they arrived in the bedroom, they didn't even bother to close the door. They were the only two souls in the house anyway. Gibbs just hoped that for once in his life, he'd thought to lock the front door. He didn't seem to be remembering anything. His focus was Abby right now. And only her.

The women he loved looked at him with mischief in her eyes, and he knew that he would be begging for her mercy soon, but right now, he didn't bloody care. Abby was finally here with him, where he had always wanted her to be, all he wanted to do now what a repeat of what he had done to her down stairs, but now he had the bed to show her how much he loved her and that would be even better. He wanted to hear her call his name over and over when he made her come again.

But he knew he would have to wait for his turn to come again because, she wanted to heal his body with hers, but the word heal might not be the appropriated choice, right now, kill on the other hand was fitting so much better. Gibbs' body wanted her so much, hell he wanted her so much, his entire body was hurting.

Gibbs watched as she took a halt when they were standing in the bedroom, she turned herself to look at him. And found him looking intently at her naked body, she should have felt exposed, but instead she felt excited, he was looking her over as if he was about to eat her alive and that was exactly what she wanted.

Abby came closer to him and pressed her lips to his, but when she felt that he wanted to deepen the kiss she pulled away from him, and when he made an attempt to reach for her she took a step back, stretching her arm in front of her and placed her hand on his chest to keep him had a distance, Gibbs could easily reached for her if he wanted it and she knew it too but to her pleasant surprise, he decide to play by the rules, at least for now.

"Huh huh, no. My turn, agent Gibbs." She told him playfully.

All Abby received in response was a sexy sound coming out of his mouth. She smirked at him and, came closer to him, not moving her hand from his chest she leaned in a pressed a soft kiss on his bare shoulder then another one. Her lips, pressed against the base of his neck after that followed by a second one and another one until her lips came in contact with the skin of his other bare shoulder, the hand that was still on his chest slowly started to move following the same path her lips just had. Gibbs closed his eye at the wonderful sensation that the brush her lips created on his skin. If this was only the beginning, he couldn't wait for the rest to come. Her lips started to press tender kisses on his bare shoulder again so Gibbs thought she would repeat the kiss all over again, but to his surprise, her lips lingered in-between his shoulder blades.

Her lips went down then and kissed the line shaped by his spine. The hand which was still on his chest slowly started to follow, he loved it, the sweet caress of her lips and her hand. No woman had ever done this before. He himself wasn't sure he would have thought of doing it to a woman he slept with — not that there would be any other, — but that was something he wouldn't tell her, at least not yet. Her lips went down to his lower back and kiss him there too, they lingered there just a moment longer like her lips had between his shoulder blades. Her palms places on each shoulder, slowly very slowly, Abby walked around him and faced him again. Gibbs felt her arms around his neck and he opened his eyes. His intense blue eyes met her smiling green once.

"Hi." She smiled.

"Hi" he smiled back.

Abby kissed the tip of his nose then she rubbed her nose with his gently in a very intimate way that Gibbs discovered he loved very much. Her lips then played with his, teasing him without really allowing to kiss them.

Gibbs groaned in frustration.

"Patience, my silver haired fox."

"I've always hated that word."

Abbs laughed lightly at his words. "Why am I not surprised?"

"'cause you know me, Abbs, you've always known me better than anyone else."

"Now that is something I don't entirely believe."

One of his eyebrows lifts up then. "Don't you believe me?"

"It's not that I don't believe you, Gibbs, it's just... well..." Her voice trailed off.

"It's just what Abby? Tell me." He urged her softly.

What hadn't see let it go? Why did she had to open her big mouth, now the mood was ruined, nice way to show him how much he means to you, Abby. She told herself. This was definitely not how she had envisioned it all. And she was the only one to be blamed for.

Abby sighed heavily. "I suppose we can't just go back to what we were doing?"

He simply looked at her, before walking over to sit on his bed, then he hooked his index finger and stretched it again before hooking once more telling her without a word to come to him. Abby chose not to come sit next to him on the bed. Instead she sat on the floor at his feet.

Abby couldn't help but giggled as a thought struck her. He looked at her questioningly.

"If anyone should see us now they could think we're playing a scene, you being the dominant and I the submissive one."

His lips went up in a smirk, but his eyes were serious. "I'm not into that kind of games Abbs... though with you..." Gibbs purposefully didn't finish his sentence. "Talk to me. What is bothering you about me?"

"It's not something about you, you're just you and that is perfect for me, it's just that sometimes I have the impression I don't know you at all."

The forensic scientist saw a flash of hurt pass in his eyes and she could have easily slapped herself for being the cause of it, but she knew that with the NCIS team leader, the best way to act was to tell him the truth. Abby couldn't help but wonder what his reaction would be, she apprehended it somehow, what if it would end the something between them that had merely just started? It was too late now anyway what was meant to happen would happen no matter what.

"Abbs?" He said her name in a questioning tone.

He could help but be hurt by her words. How could she say that? Didn't she see? Didn't she know? Yeah, sure he wasn't really a man of big words, he was more the one to act on something. And the things he chose not to tell her was because he did want to protect her. Didn't she know that? Apparently not or she wouldn't have said what she just did.

"I have a feeling you're keeping things from me?"

"Such as?"

"I don't know. The way you are with children for example."

"What's wrong with it?"

"Nothing. Nothing Gibbs and that's just it. You love them that is obvious, when I see you interact with them, it's as if you are someone else, like it's the old you coming back to the surface, the you that you have buried deep inside. I have the feeling that you have been a father — that you are still a father — at least in here..." Her voice broke slightly as she reach up her arm to able to placer her hand on his chest right above his heart.

Leroy Jethro Gibbs close his icy blue ice for a brief moment. She could almost read him like an open book. He had never realized how good she was at it until now. Abby could observe people almost as well as he could apparently. He sighed heavily. Maybe he could tell her part of his story, after all Abigail Sciuto wasn't like any other woman. He loved her.

"Abby..." He started, but she cut him off.

"I'm sorry, I should have said those things, it's your life and it's your right not to want to keep it private."

"Maybe. But maybe it's time that I talk to someone about it. I you are the person I trust the most. I just hope you will find it in your heart to forgive me." Gibbs told her sternly.

Abby simply looked at him wondering what he might have done that should need to be forgiven. "Why don't you let me be the judge of that?"

"Don't you want to come in bed, first, you must be cold."

She hadn't really paid attention to that, as she had focused all her attention on Gibbs, but now that he'd mentioned it, she had to admit that she was feeling bit cold. So she nodded, he helped her up, stood up himself and pulled the covers, they climbed in together and when they laid comfortably in each other's arms, Gibbs started to tell her his story. Not his entire story though for that it was too soon.

Kelly, his daughter and Shannon, his wife had been killed, by a Mexican drug baron, Pedro Hernandez. He also explained to her while after a while he had decided to omit that he has been married at all, it had cost him three ex wives after all. He didn't want to take any risk of her started to compete with ghosts again.

Abby cuddled even closer to him and asked him "I'm so sorry Gibbs, and I promise I'm not saying this out of pity."

"I know, Abbs, I know." He said softly as he lazily traced circle on her back with his fingertips.

"What happened to Hernandez?"

Gibbs' body tensed he didn't want it to, but he couldn't help it, he knew the question was coming, he had even expected it, but still earring her ask it didn't make it any less easier for him to give her an answer, because he would mean that he was exposing himself, and he wasn't sure he was ready to face the consequences it could have on his relationship with her.

Did she love him enough? He knew she had faith in him and that she trusted him with her life, but this wasn't a trifle, he had killed a man. Hernandez wasn't the first man he'd ever killed, but he was the first he killed because he decided to take matters into his own hands, and that something Abby might not understand, hell he wasn't even sure he understood himself what made him kill the man. Rage, grief, sadness. All of the emotions mixed together, he wasn't even sure anymore, but did it really matter he couldn't makes thinks undone anyway. He had done what he felt he had to do. Hernandez couldn't kill anyone anymore, but his the Cartel still could. Gibbs stop thinking liked that, it has no use. Abby was curious it was in her nature, but Gibbs wasn't sure if he could tell her the truth about the man's death. Of course would she asked about what happened to that bastard. Abby sometimes you're really too perceptive for your own good. Gibbs thought to himself.

"He's been killed," he answered her after a while.

The fact that his body had tensed up at her question had been lost to Abby, she pushed herself up a little bit to look at him for a long moment without saying a word. Then "I'm not saying that I'm okay with it, but I understand."

Gibbs felt a wave of relieve wash over him, Abby was an amazing woman.

"I love you, nothing will ever change that Gibbs." She leaned forward then and kissed him trying to put everything she felt in it."

TBC...

A/N #2: first of all thanks for reading. To be honest with you guys, I didn't plan for this chapter to go like this in the first place. It kind of wrote itself, and I must say I love the end result, because it cuts and cools things off a little bit between Abby and Gibbs. I promise you there will more M rated parts to the story, but life doesn't only turn around sex.

I hope you will like this chapter and that some of you will let me know. Thanks also for sticking with me. Thanks to those who favorite, follow or review this story it's very much appreciated.

I apologize for the mistakes and mess ups