Paul was leaning on the stringer, waiting.
PAUL: You took a lot of time…
GINA: John wouldn't let me go, he's like a baby
PAUL: John is my friend, but I must warn you, he has a good heart, though sometimes hurts people around him.
GINA: John?
PAUL: Yes, he has always been problematic, his mother died, his father abandoned him and lives with her aunt.
I cringed when I heard that .
GINA: Oh … that's horrible! But he wasn't mean to me,he was just … just John.
PAUL: You know what is best for you. You have already entered their game, he wants to seduce you , you know?
John seduce me?!
GINA: Ha, I don't think so
PAUL: Yes, he has taken a fancy, the other day discussed with stu because he was filtring with you.
Now I understand everything.
GINA: I don't want anything with him, I won't be one more in his list of conquest, and less if he makes fun of me the whole day.
PAUL: That's his tactic, it seems that all the girls want John, the bad boy.
GINA: Oh yeah? And will it work? do you do the same to flirt?
-Laughs-
PAUL: haha no …
GINA: You don't need that, the girls go to you because you're so sweet! - I shouldn't have said that, just thinked of it, didn't want to say it out loud! -.
Before I knew it we were in Edge Hill, Paul had walked me home.
PAUL: Do You think so? - He said with a mischievous smile.
GINA: Yes … - dead of shame -.
PAUL: Thank you! - He shook my hair as a joke.
We went in front of my door.
GINA: So Paul .. Are you okay? You were crying …
PAUL: Well, you were gossiping, so, you'll know why. -Shit … he realized - I saw you peering down the alley while I was talking to Dot.
GINA: I'm sorry, I …
PAUL: It doesn't matter. I'm a little in shock, a child is too much for me. I love Dot, but … I don't see a lifetime with her, now we're fine, but we have all the life ahead and I want to live.
GINA: You'll have to assimilate it.
PAUL: I know … let's talk about another subject. Today I've talked to the girls. We'll go at the home of Stu tomorrow night to play cards and drink.
GINA: Do you never get tired of drinking?
PAUL: Never hehe
GINA: goodnight Paul , see you tomorrow
Q. See you Gina
He stroked my arm as a younger brother and headed down the street with his leather coat and shoes worn.
I woke up at lunchtime, Mom had boiled potatoes, again? . With a full stomach I went for a shower, it's said it is not good, but I have never had any problems with that. As the water fell to my face I thought on John , misjudged him, I thought it was bad by nature, but in reality, he's a poor boy tormented trying to to fill the void in his heart … I was getting sentimental, shook my head and I took the towel to dry me.
Jules knocked the door insistently.
GINA: Hi Jules!
JULES: HI Gina, change your clothes and go.!
GINA: change? This is what I'm wearing tonight.
JULES: are you kidding? I won't go to Stu's with , come to my house right now , and I will dress you properly.
I couldn't reject, I recognize that my clothes are a bit bland.
JULES: UUUh , Stu isn't going to remove an eye on you.
GINA: I don't like Stu!
JULES: Yeah, right … - said facetiously
I was wearing a red corduroy skirt to the knees, a black blouse with square neck a fine cloth, and black leather boots, I thought I would freeze me from the cold.
GINA: Hey Jules, do you know if John will be there? Yesterday was very drunk.
JULES: John is always everywhere, he will board a hangover with another!
-Laughs-
An evening of poker and alcohol in Stu's apartment. Stu lived alone since he entered art school and his flat was turning into a sort of meeting place.
By 22:00 we turned up at the apartment. The door was made of wood, red and scratched, wouldn't imagine that I was going to that hole.
we Rang the bell and Pete opened he door ,( his family owned the Casbah.)
We climbed some stairs with little light and we got into a hallway, in the end we found an open door where we could hear noise and some dispel light.
Upon entering, the atmosphere was thick with smoke, the boys were sitting on the carpet without shoes, surrounded by bottles and cigarette packs.
STU: Girls! Welcome to my cave.
JULES: Shut up and take the beer.
Stu and George came to us, George took our jackets and Stu came beside me looking me up and down.
STU: Gina, I think I'd better not drink more today, because I have bad intentions with that skirt
I intimidated, but I dissipate the tension with a smile.
GINA: Thanks for the compliment, let's go with the boys.
On the balcony there were some people, and I could hear a girl in the kitchen, I sat between Paul and Pete, I was looking for John, he wasn't anywhere.
PAUL: If your looking for John…he's busy in Stu's room …
Busy?
Suddenly I saw Bee coming from the balcony with Shotton, winked to me.
I saw a ukulele on the couch, so I took it.
STU: Can you play?
GINA:Yes - I said sheepishly.
STU: Play something!
Yeah, yeah, play! - Said the boys.
I took a swig of beer and got to it. Trembling I started playing the first chords of "Sorrow". [ watch?v=c8C7g0_9kCo]
Upon hearing the song, George joined me singing, what a duet!
Suddenly there was like someone opened a door. John came from Stu's room , disheveled and with red cheeks. He headed to us and sit next to me, a place that had emptied when Pete went to the bathroom.
JOHN: So you can play the ukulele …
GINA: Hi John, we missed you
JOHN: I know
John started drinking, didn't seem to remember his state last night.
I was having a great time, Bee was much of the time with Shotton on the couch, curled, also, I saw as Jules kissing Pete furtively , thinking that anyone saw them, I saw them.
At one point in the night, Stu suggested playing game "question or deal." I was already very drunk, so I had to answer their questions.
George started with a question for Paul.
GE: Paul, how was fuck with the nanny?
-Yes, yes, tell us the details - said the boys.
PAUL: I won't tell you, I am a gentleman - and took a drink.
Ooooh - booed him in a tone of disappointment.
It was Paul's turn.
PAUL: Question for John, to whom you would kiss before, Gina or Bee? - I blushed.
JOHN: Neitherof both. - And took a drink even having responded
Fucking John … Did I disappointed with their response?
JOHN: Question for Gina …-I expected a question like : ground swallow me please -. Have you ever kissed a boy in Liverpool?
Shit, I knew.
GINA: No, the boys of Liverpool haven't had that privilege - told to hide my shame .
STU: I think that in this room there is a suitor to be the first aha.
-Laugh.
Suddenly knocked on the door, was Dot, with a expression of shyness
Paul looked at her face .
PAUL: What are you doing here?
D: I've come for Cynthia.
suddenly , Cyn left the Stu's room, John looked at her , she said goodbye briefly and left with Dot.
Why Paul greeted so coldly to his girlfriend? Why Dot didn't come to the party? And why was Cyn locked in the room of Stu?
People were leaving. Stu asked me to come down to the backyard, to the warehouse, to take some ice for the last drink. So I went down to there. Everything was dark, I have to admit I was a little scared. Before arriving at the warehouse door, had to go through the hall, a little creepy. There I saw someone's shadow, was John, leaning against the wall, pensive, lonely.
I approached him.
JOHN: Are you following me?
GINA: No John, I just want some ice.
Suddenly he lunged me against the wall, his face was a few millimeters from mine, my heart was beating a mile a minute.
JOHN: Do you Like Stu? - He snapped.
GINA: eh …
JOHN: Do you like him? - Said loudly.
GINA: No, of course not.
JOHN: Don't play with me …
Suddenly, he grabbed me by the waist, put his chest against mine and ran his lips to mine. Quickly I take my lips apart avoiding the incipient kiss. Did he want to kiss me? Perhaps, but I turned away, I would not kiss someone who had been so nasty to me, but I couldn't hide the growing attraction that I felt for him, but John wasn't for me.
JOHN: What are you doing? That's what you wanted, I've seen you looking at me Gina … you know, I like you, you're my untouchable, so I fought with Stu for you.
GINA: I'm not anyone's. - I reproached.
JOHN: Promise that I'll be the first guy who you will kiss in Liverpool.
My automatic answer would have been no, but my brain played a trick on me.
GINA: Maybe.
Shit, too late, I've already entered his game.
John closed his fist tightly and stroked my hair.
JOHN: I really liked as you played Sorrow on the ukulele
GINA: Thanks - I said with a goofy grin.
The party was over, John had gone to Mendips and were me and Paul going home together again. It was nice to be with Paul, I could talk about everything with him
On reaching the gate I asked for Dot.
GINA: Why Doy didn't came to the party?
PAUL: She feels comfortable in this environment, She likes being at home and walk in the evenings.
GINA: opposite to you
PAUL: Yes, but sometimes I need a little peace,you know, but not for a long - winks at me and laughs mockingly.
Paul turned with intent to leave, but a thought came to my mind and I stopped him
GINA: Hey Paul, Can I ask you something?
PAUL: Of course.
GINA: Wh's cyn?
PAUL: uh, He didn't tell you …
GINA: tell me what?
PAUL: Cynthia is John's girlfriend
