It hurts.
It hurts so much.
It hurts everywhere, like someone is sitting on top of your heart and punching it.
Oh how it hurts.
When Brittany kisses you, the pain is gone, if just for a moment.
It disappears, and in it's wake is happiness.
A spark of love, erasing all of your regret.
It doesn't last long, but you find yourself clinging to it.
Until the pain in your heart demands that you fall back into reality's painful grasp.
Oh how it hurts.
You realize you get the same feeling from Quinn when she kisses you.
Even if it will only last second.
But you're with Brittany, and she makes you happy.
She keeps you grounded.
So you can't be with Quinn.
You can't, even if you love her.
"San?"
"Yeah, B?"
"...I love you."
You smile, because the happiness is back.
"I love you too."
And you do.
But you're mind somehow brings you back to when Frankenteen wrapped his arm around Rachel and kissed her forehead.
And now you're not happy, and this burning sensation is joining the pain.
So now you have pain, even though you won't admit it, from mild heartbreak.
And you have jealousy.
You wish Brittany would just kiss you so that these feelings would go away.
"I have to go, S."
"Oh uh.. okay. See you later, B."
She kisses your cheek, and it almost makes the pain disappear.
But no, she's gone.
And about thirteen minutes later, a crying Quinn replaces her.
