PJ's P.O.V.

The way Chris Kendall left my life for good: It had been 6th months since his last video so I don't know how he's doing.

(Flash back)

We were at Dan and Phil's place, We had been drinking. Why do bad stories always start like that? Anyway, Phil and Dan were talking in the kitchen and . . .

"Peej I need to tell you something, I'm in love with you" I laughed at that.

"I'm not joking!" He sounded under duress and his northern accent got thicker.

"Oh god Chris erm sorry, I thought you were joking, oh my god really?"

"Yeah. I dont supose. . ."

"No Chris, I'm sorry but I'm in love with Phil"

"I'm I supposed to pretend I didn't hear that?" said Phil's voice from behind me. I whipped around, I must have looked terrified.

"I don't supose . . ." I had said mimicking Chris.

"Dan, I'm in love with Dan and he's in love with Cat, they sleep together, whenever they're drunk anyways."

"I'm sorry"

"You should tell em" said Chris suddenly

"Who?"

"Dan you prick the your in love with?"

"No way" We argued a bit whether or not Phil should tell him, and we are drunk which doesn't help.

"Well I'm tellin em" as Chris goes towards the door Phil in who I have never seen so much as kill a moth grabs him by the shirt and pushed him to the floor, I gasped "Oh my God Chris I'm so sorry!" Phil reached down to help him up but Chris pushed him away."I don't need your help" Chris spat. Just as Dan walked into the room "Whats going on he said in a cheerful voice. "Phil is . . . " Chris began I reached down and covered his mouth. he looked at me with such reproach that I Immediately felt bad. Dan shrugged it off. Chris got weird when he was drunk sometimes. The next day there I knocked on his door. When he opened it his eyes were red. He yelled at me a bit I yelled back. Then suddenly he was kissing me I pulled away in shock and walked out the door. When I went back he was gone. I haven't seen him since.

End Flashback

There was a knock at the door I opened it to find Phil standing there

"What is it Phil" I said then I noticed the red under his eyes

"Oh god what happened?"

"I . . . Dan . . . .I told . . . I said"

"Oh God. Why?"

"I. . . " he burst into tears as I swept him inside and sat him down at the kitchen table

I made tea as he told me what happened between tears

I noticed how his voice cracked when he was repeating something that Dan had said and I wondered to myself is this how Chris had felt, Had I hurt him this bad? Or worse? THen there was another knock at my door.

"Who is it" I called

"It's me Dan" came a voice

"Please i need to talk to you it's urgent!"

Phil looked panicked I pointed silently motioning for him to hide in my bedroom, then called out

"Just a second then" to Dan I tidied up, aka I put Phil's cup in the sink and closed the door to the bedroom where phil hide. Then I opened the door with a sigh

"What is it Dan?"

"I've done something awful and I . . . " his voice broke

He told me basicly the same thing Phil had but with a lot less crying ending it all with

"It was just such a shock I . . . never would have said that if i'd just . . ."

Then it was my turn and I told him the truth about our falling out with Chris because I didn't want him to make the same mistakes I had.

Eventually he decided to go home and wait for Phil

"He left his phone at home so I can't . . ." he said lamely then he noticed something. It was Phil's coat, on the coat rack in my hall he stopped and stared at it for a second then glanced at my bedroom door

"SO" he said a bit louder "Phil was here"

"Yeah"

"He must have forgotten his coat, I'll leave it in case he comes back for it" He gave me a meaningful glance

Then proceed to say in a very loud voice

"If you see Phil, Tell him i'm sorry and I'll be at home waiting for him, I want to talk."

He walked out the door glancing at the door hiding Phil one last time.

When he was gone I went into my bedroom to find Phil lying curled up on my bed crying silently.

"Phil" I began

"Don't . . . please just don't"

"i'm not going back Peej I can't" croaked out phil as he lay on his side crying.

"I wish I could but I can't" he said

"I just can't" he finished lamely looking at me miserably.

"That's ok, you can stay here tonight on the pull out couch"

"Thank you Peej and I'm sorry that I don't love you . . . " his voice broke, it seemed to be doing that a lot.

Phil never made it to the couch he fell asleep on my bed crying.

I slept on the floor.