A/N - This is the last chapter. Thank you so much to everyone who has read and been there right from the beginning and thank you to everyone who has reviewed.

I don't own Torchwood which is sad but if the BBC ever gave Torchwood away i reckon there would be lots of competition from everyone here and so i still wouldn't own it. Sadly.

Enjoy! One final time.


Days passed. Tosh spent a couple of days helping Jack in the Hub before she took some well deserved time off and someone from UNIT came to help out. His name was Barry and he and Jack got on well. They were always laughing together and Barry listened as Jack moaned about the rest of his team. Jack even taught Barry how to play poker (or rather, taught him how to win) and after a few hours, the Hub was unrecognisably messy.

17th February

Finally, I'm in a good mood. After all this time I can finally say that, just for today, I am happy. Barry helped me forget everything, Ianto, Owen, work – everything. We had a laugh and it was so nice just to relax for a while with no responsibilities or worries.

I still can't bring myself to talk to Ianto. I can't deny that he hurt me and, even though I Love him, I don't think I can forgive him. Not just yet…

As was common with most of Jack's diary entries, there was a gap where he had gone away and come back, often resulting in an abrupt change of mood or a random new topic. The last entry showed this well.

What the hell does he mean 'why?' Sorry, I should explain. Ianto came online and spoilt my good mood. He told me that he received the text I sent on Valentines Day. He said it was 'random'. Then he asked why I had sent it!

It should be obvious shouldn't it? And then, to cap it all, he tells me he is going out with Martina again. Does he think that I want to know these things? Sometimes I despair of him.

I have decided though, I shall detach myself from that sadness that washes over me when I see or talk to him. I am determined to be happy, I am immortal so I must stay positive – if I spent eternity lonely and sad… I don't want to think about it.

The next few days passed and Jack realised how alone you feel when there is no one in the Hub with you. Apart from a few hasty text conversations with Gwen, Jack was alone. He kept getting a sudden desire to just walk down the street, just to see people but when he did, he felt more alone than ever. Nobody knew him, nobody knew what he had been through, and no one so much as looked at him. 'I don't belong in this time, maybe I should go home.'

Jack wondered, if he just got up and left, who would miss him. Owen certainly wouldn't and now it looked like Ianto didn't care either. Jack resolved that Tosh definitely would miss him and possibly Gwen as well and that in itself meant that he couldn't leave, he couldn't hurt more people than he already had.

19th February

I must stay positive, there is no point in wallowing in self pity.

It is obvious that me and Ianto are never going to get back together and I am going to accept that, I have accepted that. All I want is for him to be happy, I hope he is. After all, if I cannot hope what else can I do?

I have resolved that I Love him and I always will but that's okay. I still Love Estelle. I can love more than one person, even if they are gone, or they don't love me back. One day I hope I will find someone who understands me and loves me for who I am, someone who loves me in the way I love Ianto.

As for Ianto and I, our relationship will probably never be the same again, we will probably never forget this and we will probably never be able to sit and talk the way we used to, before all this. But only time will tell, and I have a lot of time to fill.

One can only hope for the best and that is what I am going to do. I have discovered the truth and, though it hurt, I will take the experience and let it shape me into, hopefully, a better person. I still regret losing Ianto as a friend and I shall Love him forever.

I guess some things just aren't meant to be.


A/N - So this is the end. I am so incredably sorry for keeping Jack and Ianto apart but it seemed to fit the story. Please don't hate me but if you do please review so that I know that (hint) feel free to review even if you don't hate me (hint hint). Farewell

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