This scene takes place some years before episode one. It is right after that moment, when Obi-Wand and Siri decided to ignore their love for each other. In the book they were 16 or 17 years old, but I don't know it correctly.


He felt the tears on his cheeks, when he stared in front of him. Some seconds before, a young woman stood before him. A beautiful young woman he loved, but it was forbidden to love somebody. That's the reason why he was alone now. He stood there in the silence of the Room of the Thousand Fountains and thought about the last days.

Some days ago, he believed that everything would be fine. He was the luckiest boy of the galaxy, because of Siri. He couldn't even say when he realized his feelings for her and it was uninteresting for him, because she loved him too. On the last mission with their master, they were seperated and alone in a space ship, which was expected to explode. They confessed their love for each other and decided to stay together...they hadn't thought about the consequences of their decisions.

He couldn't say how, but his Master Qui-Gon Jinn recognized his feelings for her, because of his changed behavior. After the mission, he talked to Obi-Wan about his feelings. He also told him about his love to Tahl, another Jedi-Master, who died. He was the only person in the Jedi Temple, who understood Obi-Wan, but he didn't agreed with him. And that is what Obi-Wan couldn't understand. The conversation with Yoda followed right after the talk with Qui-Gon. Yoda was understanding, but he wouldn't change the rules just for Obi-Wan. Qui-Gon was so kind and gave him a moment to think about it, but appealed to his mind. Obi-Wan knew what would have followed after they had left the Jedi. Obi-Wan would regret his decision and his love to Siri would suffer from it.

He talked to Siri about this topic. Siri reacted, how he expected it. She was really sad about it, but realized that he was right. But she couldn't face him anymore. The crack in her heart was to deep. Obi-Wan wanted to touch her a last time, to feel her soft skin and hear her soothing voice. But when he reached after her, she ran away.

Now he stood alone in this room. He couldn't move a muscle and he didn't care, if anybody would find him in this situation: Crying and unmotivated. He didn't care about any soul in this temple, instead of Siri.

That was the moment, he realized that he didn't wanted to be alone. But he also didn't wanted to ask his Master for comfort. Qui-Gon dealed with other problems of his own and couldn't think about his student. Obi-Wan shook the head. He cried after his love, who was still alive and didn't thought about his Master, whos love died some weeks ago. The pain in his heart rose faster and he had to sat down on the ground. His legs couldn't stand anymore. He realized that he missed his former life. He missed his Master Qui-Gon, who was there for him and he missed Thal. She was like a mother for him and had helped him, when Qui-Gon wasn't able to do it.

But he missed Siri the most. She was different than his other friends. She was friendly, but always said shared his opinion with him. Not on a friendly way...with a strict tone that showed that Siri knew what she wanted. She was a strong, brave woman and Obi-Wan was attracted to her. He always thought that he hated her, but he didn't. Most of the time he admired her.

She was the first person, he loved that way. And he was sure that he wouldn't love another woman the same way.

He closed his eyes. His friends couldn't help him through this hard time. They wouldn't understand his feelings. Bant would listen to him, but would clarify that this was the right way and this wasn't exactly what Obi-Wan wanted to hear now. Garen would say that Obi-Wan couldn't say what love is and that it was just a phase in his life. Siri was the last person, he could talk to. She said that they would stay friends, but he couldn't believe it. Siri was so downcast that she would avoid him the next weeks. H e knew that why he knew her. The only comfort for him was the fact that her Master Adi Gallia had accepted a mission and they needed to left Coruscant within the next days.

Obi-Wan opened his eyes and realized that he still sat on the ground. He stood up carefully. His legs trembled, but he could move. He walked slowly out of this room to his quarters. He ignored the confused gazes of the other students. He was glad that he couldn't see a Jedi-Master, because they would ask him what happened instead of the students. He also didn't saw one of his friends and was happy about that. The last meters he started to run. When he reached the door, he opened it and rushed into his room. He couldn't stop his tears from falling and let himself fall onto the bed. He layed down on his stomach and hidden his head between his arms. Then he started to cry and he didn't try to stop it. He ignored the sounds, which came out of his mouth and he ignored the awkward feeling of crying.

He hadn't cried very often in his former years. Maybe when Bruck teased him, but this stopped many years ago.

He felt terrible and he wished that this feeling would stop. This uncomfortable pressure on his chest and the fog in his mind. The crying didn't help to stop this, but he felt better, when he could let it out.

After some minutes he stopped screaming. The energy to do this had left him. All he could do was breathing and waiting until his tears would disappear. Right at that moment he felt a familiar presence around him. Then he heard a knock on the door.

„ Obi-Wan?"

It was his Master Qui-Gon. He must felt Obi-Wans feelings through their bond. Now he stood in front of his door and waited for Obi-Wan to let him in. Obi-Wan knew that Qui-Gon could manipulate the door with the will of the force, but his master accepted his privacy and understood it when Obi-Wan wanted to be alone. But in that moment, he felt that Obi-Wan didn't wanted to be alone. Until now, Obi-Wan didn't realized it, but he needed his Master now. Qui-Gon was the only peron, who understood him. Both lost the person they loved, both felt the same pain and his master could help him to live with it.

„ May I come in?" asked Qui-Gon again. His voice sounded calmly and he felt comforting waves through the force. Obi-Wan wipped his tears away and sat up on his bed.

„ The door is open", he replied, but his voice sounded broken. He wasn't sure if Qui-Gon understood him, but when the door opened and his master came in, Obi-Wan relaxed. He must look terrible with red eyes, pale skin and tears all over his face.

„ I know how you're feeling, Obi-Wan" said Qui-Gon and walked over to the bed. He sat down next to Obi-Wan and watched him. Obi-Wan didn't met the gaze of his master and continued looking forward.

Qui-Gon layed a hand on his shoulder. „ The pain will never disappear, but you can learn to live with it."

Obi-Wan noded paralysed. This was not the kind of conversation he needed.

„ I know that you don't want to hear this" continued Qui-Gon. „ But you need to know this. You loved Siri and you will always love her. Like I will always love Thal...But this is not the way of a Jedi."

„ This is unfair" murmured Obi-Wan and surpressed a sob.

„ I didn't say that this isn't unfair. I totally agree with you, but this is the way we had chosen for our whole life. I know you better than anyone else and I know that you would regret your decision, when you would leave the Jedi."

Obi-Wan turned his head and looked in his master's eyes.

„ When you stay here" replied Qui-Gon. „ you're able to see her more often than usual. You're still a Jedi and live with Siri in the same temple."

„ I don't know if I could handle that!" And that was the truth. This was not what a jedi would say, but this was what a boy would say. Qui-Gon knew that.

„ I promise you that I'm always there for you, if you need me. We fight the same fight, Obi-Wan. We both lost the person whe loved, but could you live when you lose a second person, you love?"

Obi-Wan looked at him questioningly.

„ If you would leave the jedi, I would lost you and that would be the worst, my dear student!"

Now Obi-Wan realized the consequenzes if he would leave the jedi. He would lost Qui-Gon, his master and the only father he knew. Would he be able to live with that pain? Maybe it was easier to live without Siri, a person heloved for some months, instead of Qui-Gon, the person he loved for years. He couldn't compare the love for Siri and Qui-Gon, but he had to agree with his master. Siri would always stay in his heart, but for him it was more important to have a caregiver, instead of a lover.

Without a word, he turned around and wrapped his arms around Qui-Gon. Qui-Gon hesitated, surpised from his student's behavior, but rested his hands on Obi-Wans back and closed his eyes.

Obi-Wan enjoyed the comfort of his master and he knew that they would handle this together. With Siri in his mind and Qui-Gon in his arms, he closed his eyes and accepted his destiny.