It was the small things Roy would remember.
The way the blond clicked his tongue when he was about to tell a lie or the way his nose twitched before the sneeze.
It was the touch and warmth of their first kiss Roy would hold forever in his heart, remembering it everyday, wnting, no needing to feel the touch again.
But his wish could never be resolved.
Roy remembered all to cleary, how his love was stolen from right beneath him.
They had been in the hospital, Ry holding Eds cold hand. He was weak, weaker than any one had intended and the doctors said he wouldnt love long.
He had been selfish not telling anybody Ed was hurt, when he told Ed that Ed chuckled an thanked him.
Ed complained, even to his last moment of his death. How tired he felt and how hard it was to keep his eyes open.
Roy wasnt dumb he heard the monitor beeping slower each seconed. He gripped the hand tighter but Ed pulled way.
"my mother died in my hands, i've felt burdened ever since. I dont want to give you that burden Roy" he said softly.
Roy felt tears well up in his black sahhpire eyes.
"Sleep Edward, go to bed ok?" asked Roy running his fingers through his golden bangs, his eyes didnt have the flare and pop they use to. They were dull and glazed over.
"I dont want to sleep, I know its coming though" said Ed sighing staring at his lover with a content gaze.
"I think dying, while looking at someone you love can be veiwed in two ways" said Ed.
Roy blinked and moved closer as Eds voice got softer an weaker.
"It could be traigc, and filled with guilt. Or it could be a wonderful thing." said Ed wavering back and froth his voice louder in some areas of the sentecne adn weker in others.
"Which is it or you Ed?" asked Roy hopingfor the better scenario.
"Its a wonderl thing, im relaxed and i feel completle. Ive accomplished everything i've wanted to do" said Ed smiling.
"Thats good, you'll do many other great things to" said Roy smoothing out Eds shirt.
"I hope so, i want too" said Ed smiling as he shut his eyes.
"Edward, I love you s much" whispered roy tears spilling from his strained eyes.
"I love you too, and please stop crying for me " he asked able to pull off one last signature smirks before the color left his face and the heart monior stopped beeping.
Tha was one of the most saddest things Roy had seen.
He remembered so many more things he wanted to ask the boy. So much he hadnt know, so much time he thought he had.
He smiled looking down at his lover whos face was smiling in his cushioned coffin. He wore sweat pants and a tank top.
He looked like he was sleeping.
It just he'd never wake up no matter how much the colonel yelled at him to wake his lazy ass up.
Ed had said to Roy he wanted to be wearing comfortable clothes when they buried him so he'd be comfortable beyond the gate. And Roy smiled that day that seemed so long ago when he and his lover were lying in bed talking about things.
He might have been joking but Roy took it to heart making sure he was wearing comfortable clothes in his coffin.
He stiffled a sob an saw the vision of Edward one last time before they closed up the coiffn.
Never would he laugh again.
Never would he talk or argue again.
Never would he smiled or frown again.
Never would he hold the colonel close again.
Never would the colonel wake up to see his lazy blond eyes staring back at him again.
Never would he feel his touch again.
It was true Roy could say Edward died with a smile on his face, it didnt mean he was happy though.
It was in nights like these when Roy remebered his Ed.
When the sun hung in the sky making it different shades of yellows and oranges and golds.
gold.
A precious color that invaded the colonels mind.
He smiled tonight however when he hadnt gotten up before the sun went down.
He watched the golden rays disspear as black and purple swallowed up the sky. The gold was gone, but it'd be back the next mornig. Along with the pain like every other day.
The colonel smiled becasue of Eds personality.
Hes just like the sun,he may go away for a while but hes never truly gone.
