A.N - I'm not sure if I mentioned this at the beginning of the story but it is an AU story so the characters may not act the way they normally do in the show. And I know Carter would never be this mean and it's bee n hard to write him this way but I wanted to try it. I wrote this story last year but decided to try and re-write it. I hope you all understand and enjoy it.
Susan stood watching Carter and Lily. She couldn't believe what he was doing. He used to be her best friend, someone who told her everything. Now she felt like she didn't even know him. Abby had chosen to stay away tonight. Wise choice Susan had told her. She didn't' need anymore stress in her life. Neela had understood. It was her and Michael's rehearsal. They weren't getting married for another two weeks but this was the only time they were both free along with most of their friends.
Susan was so busy watching Carter that she hadn't noticed her mobile going off. "Honey, your phone." Chuck told her.
"Thanks darling." She reached into her bag to answer the phone as she left the busy room. "Hello." She listened intently. "Abby slow down." She paused again before breaking into a run. "Okay Abby. I'm on my way." Susan ran all the way to her car. She was sure Chuck and the happy couple would understand why she had run off.
Upon reaching Abby's apartment Susan let herself in. She couldn't hear anything. Walking into the apartment she couldn't find any sign of life. Abby wasn't here. She couldn't understand. Surely Abby wouldn't have left without leaving some sort of note telling Susan where she was. She had sounded in pain, Susan couldn't help but worry about her best friend. Where was she and what was wrong?
After a day and two nights of frantic searching for Abby, Susan finally found out that she had been discharged from Northwestern. No-one could tell her what she had been in for or what had happened only that she had left that morning. Susan went straight across to Abby's apartment but didn't find her there. She was confused. Abby had just spent two nights in hospital and wasn't at home. Perhaps she was at one of her usual haunts.
Her shift didn't start for another hour so she walked down to the river. She carried on down to the bench Abby and Carter always sat at. It wouldn't have been the first time Susan had found her sitting there, especially on cold night. But today she didn't find Abby there. She went to the new coffee shop just down the road from the hospital but still no Abby. She eventually gave up and went to work. She knew she would have to or Weaver would kill her. Walking in the entrance she saw Jerry at the desk. He would know if she had called in. "Hey Jerry, you haven't heard from Abby have you?" Susan inquired as she pulled her arms out of her jacket.
"She's here. Started her shift about an hour ago." Jerry didn't see the look of surprise on Susan's face. "She's in curtain two with and LOL."
"Thanks Jerry." Susan ran quickly into the lounge, threw her jacket into her locker before heading to curtain two.
As she got closer she could hear Abby's voice. It sounded throaty, the way it did after she had been crying. Susan glanced around the curtain. Abby stood at the side of the old ladies bed speaking in her soft voice. She looked terrible, her face was a white as the sheets that adorned the beds in the room. Her eyes were red and puffy, with dark circles under them. "Hey there, do you need a hand in here?" Susan let her presence be known.
Abby looked up quickly at her friends before looking back to her patient. "No we're all done here aren't we Mrs Gillespie. Now remember what I told you. Be more careful when your chopping vegetables." The old lady laughed before Abby exited the room quickly.
Before Susan got the chance to follow her, Chuny caught up to her with a patient that needed looked at. Susan sighed before following Chuny down to exam one. She would eventually find Abby somewhere.
An hour later and Susan finally had a spare moment to find Abby. "Jerry, have you seen Abby?" Susan enquired.
"Think she's on a break." He replied. "Is she okay? She seems a bit quiet today."
Susan's only answer was a shrug of her shoulders. She headed into the lounge where she found Sam sitting with Gabriella in her arms. "Hey you two" Susan tickled the little girl under the chin. "How are we today?"
"We're fine. She finally got over that cold she had. We're just heading up to day-care before I start." Sam said as she began to gather all her stuff.
"Abby hasn't been in here, has she?" Susan asked.
"She came in but left really quickly. Didn't say hi or anything." Sam seemed a little disappointed.
"Thanks, see you in a bit." Susan said before departing the room. She had a feeling she knew where Abby would be.
Abby stood on the roof watching the hustle and bustle of the city below her. She heard the door open and knew who it was. "Took you long enough. I figured you'd be here ages ago." She exclaimed with the hint of a laugh in her shaky voice.
"I've been trying to find you for the last day and a half." Susan told her. Susan took a closer look at her best friend. She looked like she had gone to hell and back, but still trying to put on a brave face.
"I know, I'm sorry I called you and then disappeared, figured it was best that way." Abby's voice sounded shakier than ever.
"What happened, where have you been?" It was only then that Susan noticed Abby's stomach, it appeared to be flat.
"I went into early labour two nights ago and was taken to Northwestern where I delivered the most beautiful baby boy in the world." Abby's voice was on the verge of breaking. "He lived for four hours." Tears gathered in both sets of eyes. "They let me hold him the whole time and all I kept thinking was that I am a doctor and I couldn't save him. I couldn't save my own little boy." As she finished her little speech Abby broke down in tears. Susan listened in amazement. She pulled her best friend into her arms and held her. "I lost my little boy. My baby is gone." Abby wailed.
Susan couldn't stop the tears from falling any more. She listened so intently to Abby's story. She sounded so brave. Susan couldn't imagine losing Victoria. She couldn't imagine what Abby was going through but wanted so badly to help her. "Abby, I wish you had called me and let me know what was going on. You shouldn't be here today, let me take you home." Abby simply nodded her head, she had had enough, but she felt she had to come into work. No-one had asked her anything when she started so she felt safe. She allowed Susan to guide her back down the stairs and through the ER to the lounge. Everyone seemed to be at the admit desk.
"Abby where do you think your going?" Kerry bellowed as Abby came back out the lounge with her jacket on and headed out into the ambulance bay.
"Are you all blind?" Susan said to them all. "For smart people you are very dumb. Didn't anyone catch how bad she looks, how flat her stomach is. She had her baby two days ago and he died. I'm taking her home." Susan stalked out the door after Abby, leaving everyone speechless.
Carter walked into the admit area to see everyone watching the Ambulance bay. "What's everyone looking at?"
He got everyone's attention but no-one seemed to want to tell him why. Kerry took him aside. "John, Abby's had your baby but he died. I'm sorry to tell you."
"Kerry I keep telling you all she wasn't carrying my child."
"John, she was. It was me who did the test and the ultrasound. She cried tears of happiness when she told me that she was going to make you a father." All John could do was stare after her.
Susan stood watching Carter and Lily. She couldn't believe what he was doing. He used to be her best friend, someone who told her everything. Now she felt like she didn't even know him. Abby had chosen to stay away tonight. Wise choice Susan had told her. She didn't' need anymore stress in her life. Neela had understood. It was her and Michael's rehearsal. They weren't getting married for another two weeks but this was the only time they were both free along with most of their friends.
Susan was so busy watching Carter that she hadn't noticed her mobile going off. "Honey, your phone." Chuck told her.
"Thanks darling." She reached into her bag to answer the phone as she left the busy room. "Hello." She listened intently. "Abby slow down." She paused again before breaking into a run. "Okay Abby. I'm on my way." Susan ran all the way to her car. She was sure Chuck and the happy couple would understand why she had run off.
Upon reaching Abby's apartment Susan let herself in. She couldn't hear anything. Walking into the apartment she couldn't find any sign of life. Abby wasn't here. She couldn't understand. Surely Abby wouldn't have left without leaving some sort of note telling Susan where she was. She had sounded in pain, Susan couldn't help but worry about her best friend. Where was she and what was wrong?
After a day and two nights of frantic searching for Abby, Susan finally found out that she had been discharged from Northwestern. No-one could tell her what she had been in for or what had happened only that she had left that morning. Susan went straight across to Abby's apartment but didn't find her there. She was confused. Abby had just spent two nights in hospital and wasn't at home. Perhaps she was at one of her usual haunts.
Her shift didn't start for another hour so she walked down to the river. She carried on down to the bench Abby and Carter always sat at. It wouldn't have been the first time Susan had found her sitting there, especially on cold night. But today she didn't find Abby there. She went to the new coffee shop just down the road from the hospital but still no Abby. She eventually gave up and went to work. She knew she would have to or Weaver would kill her. Walking in the entrance she saw Jerry at the desk. He would know if she had called in. "Hey Jerry, you haven't heard from Abby have you?" Susan inquired as she pulled her arms out of her jacket.
"She's here. Started her shift about an hour ago." Jerry didn't see the look of surprise on Susan's face. "She's in curtain two with and LOL."
"Thanks Jerry." Susan ran quickly into the lounge, threw her jacket into her locker before heading to curtain two.
As she got closer she could hear Abby's voice. It sounded throaty, the way it did after she had been crying. Susan glanced around the curtain. Abby stood at the side of the old ladies bed speaking in her soft voice. She looked terrible, her face was a white as the sheets that adorned the beds in the room. Her eyes were red and puffy, with dark circles under them. "Hey there, do you need a hand in here?" Susan let her presence be known.
Abby looked up quickly at her friends before looking back to her patient. "No we're all done here aren't we Mrs Gillespie. Now remember what I told you. Be more careful when your chopping vegetables." The old lady laughed before Abby exited the room quickly.
Before Susan got the chance to follow her, Chuny caught up to her with a patient that needed looked at. Susan sighed before following Chuny down to exam one. She would eventually find Abby somewhere.
An hour later and Susan finally had a spare moment to find Abby. "Jerry, have you seen Abby?" Susan enquired.
"Think she's on a break." He replied. "Is she okay? She seems a bit quiet today."
Susan's only answer was a shrug of her shoulders. She headed into the lounge where she found Sam sitting with Gabriella in her arms. "Hey you two" Susan tickled the little girl under the chin. "How are we today?"
"We're fine. She finally got over that cold she had. We're just heading up to day-care before I start." Sam said as she began to gather all her stuff.
"Abby hasn't been in here, has she?" Susan asked.
"She came in but left really quickly. Didn't say hi or anything." Sam seemed a little disappointed.
"Thanks, see you in a bit." Susan said before departing the room. She had a feeling she knew where Abby would be.
Abby stood on the roof watching the hustle and bustle of the city below her. She heard the door open and knew who it was. "Took you long enough. I figured you'd be here ages ago." She exclaimed with the hint of a laugh in her shaky voice.
"I've been trying to find you for the last day and a half." Susan told her. Susan took a closer look at her best friend. She looked like she had gone to hell and back, but still trying to put on a brave face.
"I know, I'm sorry I called you and then disappeared, figured it was best that way." Abby's voice sounded shakier than ever.
"What happened, where have you been?" It was only then that Susan noticed Abby's stomach, it appeared to be flat.
"I went into early labour two nights ago and was taken to Northwestern where I delivered the most beautiful baby boy in the world." Abby's voice was on the verge of breaking. "He lived for four hours." Tears gathered in both sets of eyes. "They let me hold him the whole time and all I kept thinking was that I am a doctor and I couldn't save him. I couldn't save my own little boy." As she finished her little speech Abby broke down in tears. Susan listened in amazement. She pulled her best friend into her arms and held her. "I lost my little boy. My baby is gone." Abby wailed.
Susan couldn't stop the tears from falling any more. She listened so intently to Abby's story. She sounded so brave. Susan couldn't imagine losing Victoria. She couldn't imagine what Abby was going through but wanted so badly to help her. "Abby, I wish you had called me and let me know what was going on. You shouldn't be here today, let me take you home." Abby simply nodded her head, she had had enough, but she felt she had to come into work. No-one had asked her anything when she started so she felt safe. She allowed Susan to guide her back down the stairs and through the ER to the lounge. Everyone seemed to be at the admit desk.
"Abby where do you think your going?" Kerry bellowed as Abby came back out the lounge with her jacket on and headed out into the ambulance bay.
"Are you all blind?" Susan said to them all. "For smart people you are very dumb. Didn't anyone catch how bad she looks, how flat her stomach is. She had her baby two days ago and he died. I'm taking her home." Susan stalked out the door after Abby, leaving everyone speechless.
Carter walked into the admit area to see everyone watching the Ambulance bay. "What's everyone looking at?"
He got everyone's attention but no-one seemed to want to tell him why. Kerry took him aside. "John, Abby's had your baby but he died. I'm sorry to tell you."
"Kerry I keep telling you all she wasn't carrying my child."
"John, she was. It was me who did the test and the ultrasound. She cried tears of happiness when she told me that she was going to make you a father." All John could do was stare after her.
