Wounded Hearts
Hinata
Today I expected the most intense trainingsession that would leave me sore for weeks. I was right, " C'mmon, I know you can do more!" Naruto cheered me on. He doesn't even looked tired, well I guess we can thank that Kyuubi inside of him for that. I'm so tired, but I want to do so much more. I take off my jacket and stand up again. " There you go!" We continue to spar.
I sent the first blow, aiming for his shoulder, but it does no good, his hand grabs my wrist and throws me on the ground. I let out an 'Ouch'
"Woops, sorry." Naruto helps me up and sits me down on a log, we are sparring right next to Konoha Lake, its a beautiful place, surrounded by trees and a big open sky.
" This is hopeless.." I whisper, how is this going to get me to become head clan if I keep losing. I feel so vulnerable and weak, what do those mad men want from me anyways.
" Hey, this is not hopeless, you are actually improving little by little. I can see it." Naruto smiled warmly at me, it gives me a glimpse of hope.
" Really?"
" Of course Hinata-chan! You just need confidence." I looked down sadly, I'm not a very confident person.I have such a low self esteem, I thought I grew out of it but now.. It just gets worse. Looking out, I see that the sun is setting, there's this beautiful orange/purple reflection in the lake. Naruto.. He looks so bright, like an angel.
He turns around to see me staring right at him. Crap.. I quickly turn my head to the other side.
" Hey, you know what Hinata? You are really something special, and I know you can do this. I believe in you." Wow, I turned around to see him smiling, his eyes are just so.. beautiful. I couldn't speak. " Lets go get some dinner, my treat." He stood up and offered his hand, I took it.
I love him. I sacrificed myself for him, proclaiming my love, we have never talked about it. Never, and I still love him.
But he loves someone else.
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Naruto
" Hey! Hokage-sama, long time no see!" Said Ayame, I brought Hinata here so that maybe it would cheer her up after our training session. Unfortunately, I am as sore as hell, she really doesn't know how good she is. I nearly passed out.
" Hey, its Naruto to you." It's just weird when people address me as the Hokage. Especially when its friends.
" Oh I see you brought a date, good for you! Its about time." Ayame said, I felt Hinata beginning to feel uncomfortable.
" N-no, I'm just a friend." She turned bright red, its kinda funny.
" Is that all I am to you Hinata? A friend?" I pouted pretending to be dissapointed.
Her eyes widened, " W-what? Naruto of course y-your.." She stopped and smiled to herself, " You are terrible you know that? Teasing me and all." We both laughed.
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Naruto
" So what do you guys want tonight?" I ordered my usual, which contained numerous different kinds of ramen bowls, Hinata ordered a pork ramen special.
She and I talked about different things, it was a pretty random conversation at first. But we hoped from topic to topic, like favorite color, flower, animal. Anything, then we talked about my work and all the crappy stuff I have to do as Hokage. After we talked about our friends, shared some memories . You know the usual stuff, pretty fun right? Yeah I thought so too until I touched a very ~very touchy subject.
" Do you remember when the Akatsuki came after me , and destroyed the village? When we were sixteen?" God, why did those words come out of my mouth? That was the day Hinata nearly killed herself...I am still shocked that she loved me back then, but she probably changed her mind..
" How could I forget?" She played with the vegetables in her broth, looking so distant. Why am I such an idiot? Why did I even bring this subject up? What possessed me to do that?
!Maybe it's because you wanted to know if she still loves you.
Chills went straight up my spine.. What the hell. Hinata looked at me funny, Shit. She knows.
" Naruto... What's wrong?" I didn't look at her, right now, I have to process what just happened.
Was that.. Kyuubi?
!Hehe, happy to see me again kit?
I pulled out my wallet and paid the bill, and walked out, without saying a word to Hinata or anyone.
What the hell is happening to me? Am I going mad?
Sorry, kit, I'm the real deal.
Shut up. It's impossible, I destroyed the Kyuubi 10 years ago, along with Mandara. It's just not possible..
" N-naruto, y-your chakra level is.. unnatural..almost as if.." I turned around and looked Hinata straight in the eyes.
" Almost as if what?" Please, don't make this true..
" As if t-the.. Naruto, understand that, I'm tired and I might be delirious. And.."
" HINATA!" She jumped about ten feet, she looked scared. I feel bad for yelling at her, but this important. " I need you to use your Byakugan and look at my chakra, I want to know for sure sure."
I watched as Hinata's eyes changed. She began to scan my body, and seemed shocked, Hinata gasped and backed away.
" Y-your...The Kyuubi's e-energy is.. back" She managed a whisper.. I feel like everyone around me is closing in. The dinner is crawling back up my throat.. I have to get out of here.
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Hinata
Naruto must be shocked, I knew something was bothering him.
It seems as if the Kyuubi's chakra is back.. Does this mean that Mandara is controlling It as well? I have to find Naruto, He might get too emotional and might release something..Where could he be? I look to the Hokage Monument. Please, Please, Hokages of the past and present, help me find Naruto..
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Naruto
Feeling the crisp night winter air, I close my eyes, attempting to relax. The number one question going through my head. What's going to happen? Why? WHY. Why me? Why me father? What made you do this to your own son..
I haven't cried in a very very long time, and I hated crying, I promised myself that I would try hard not to cry. Today, I think I might make an exception.
Sobbing my eyes out, it did nothing to ease my pain. I slowly stopped, surprisingly fast. Am I under his~ control again? How did this happen? Can I get rid of him?
Why. Wont. It. End.
" I can't take this anymore! What in the world do I have to do to not worry, or to actually be happy?!" I yelled to the world as I stood on the Third Hokages head. I'm going to explode..
" Naruto.." I turned to see Hinata and Sakura. Their worried and concerned looks made me crumble down to my knees and sob..
Wounded Hearts
I am deeply sorry, my internet has been soo horrible lately, and I accidently spilled hot chocolate all over my laptop.. Well, it just hasn't been a good month for me.
Thank you soo much for your help, and for reading. I'm currently working on Neji's and Tentens story.
Love you all!
