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Even though my scan was a few days ago now, I have never felt so good about myself. With the scan for proof, I now know I have a healthy baby growing inside me which I need to look after and protect. I've started using the gym just around the corner from my house so I can do exercise to keep healthy. Also I've started to eat healthier too! Since I'm eating for two I definitely need to make sure what I eat isn't all junk food. Don't get me wrong I treat myself every now and again, however, overall I eat foods such as grilled chicken salads, pasta, natural yoghurts, fruit, vegetables and so on. You get the idea. Sam is pretty disappointed that I'll only have junk food once a week so I always make sure that when I do treat myself, he's there. He's actually been really sweet the past few days. He's gone out and bought me food when I've had a craving, makes me drinks when we're sat at home playing video games and he even did me the curtsey of slipping the scan into Brittany's locker subtly. I watched him do it and even though I wanted it done, it made me nervous just in case she found out. When I got home after my scan I wrote on the back he number of weeks the baby was at the time of the scan and the due date. We were careful though and did it once the halls were clear with Brittany nowhere to be seen. We know what the people in this school are like so we even did it after school since hardly any people, aside from teachers, are there after three. Still, I was happy I did it.
Over the last few days I had Ben keeping an eye on Brittany. The day after we put the scan in her locker, I saw her open it and see it. I could tell because I was at my own locker at the time and when I glanced over she was looking at something that made her face warm up a little. She had been smiling but had a shocked expression on her face. Well she kind of went from showed to smiling and back again, but she still looked cute. I wanted her to know it was mine so bad, but I couldn't do it. She wasn't ready and even if she never was, I wasn't about to give her the shock of my life telling her now. Maybe in a few years I can message her about having a son or daughter. But right now it just isn't the right time. She wanted to graduate and go to a cheerleading college I was sure of it. She just had to pass her maths to do it and I was going to help her. It was weird though, she kept being nice to me during our study sessions. It was creeping me out a little. I don't know if she secretly knew and felt as though she had to be nice to me or what. I know that I'm skinny so I'm probably showing more than I would like, however, I do wear bigger hoodies to cover it up. Well, I hope that was what was going on. Otherwise she has another motive and that scares me. It makes me nervous.
I was currently sat outside the Principal's office currently. I had been asked to see him for an unknown reason. My tutor, Mr. Dickinson, had been approached by a number of teachers expressing their concern so, of course, he had to report it to the Principal and now here we are. I didn't like being here one bit since everyone could see me waiting here. Luckily it was registration right now, so no one was around the corridors lingering. I got more and more nervous the longer I waited. I hadn't been sent here before and even though I knew I wasn't in trouble, it didn't make the wait any less agonising. I decided to focus on something else when I felt someone sit next to me. I turned my head and sighed when I saw Brittany.
"Lopez? What the fuck are you doing here?" Brittany asked laughing. "You are the school's goody-two-shoes."
"Apparently a number of different teachers have expressed their concern for me." I responded rolling my eyes. "Not that it's any of your business."
Brittany smirked. "I know everything."
I felt the colour drain from my face. "You…You d-do?"
"Duh. You're dressing differently for a reason."
I bit my lip nervously. "I am?"
Brittany moved her arm around the back of me leaning it on the seat. "Oh yeah. You're trying to impress me. I have to say…it's doing something for me."
I hit her hard on her arm whilst she burst out laughing. She is such an idiot sometimes and she annoys the fuck out of me. I got worried for no reason because of her! Even if she is cute I hate her attitude. It really pisses me off. I roll my eyes going back to focus on the wall ahead.
"Have you not got a freshman to go pick on or something?" I asked irritated. "I really am not in the mood for your games today."
"Wow…what crawled up your ass and died?"
I hit her again even harder before folding my arms not wanting to look at her. Why did she have to be sat here right now? I didn't need this and I certainly didn't need her making fun of me. She was making me insecure with the way she was looking at me. I was extremely uncomfortable. I sighed in relief when Principal Figgins walked out of his office.
"Miss Lopez? Thank you for waiting so patiently." He said before motioning to the door allowing me to get away from Brittany by walking into the office. "Miss Pierce, get to class."
"Fine I don't have anything better to do." Brittany grumbled before standing up, rolling her eyes and walking away. I don't know why but it made me smile.
Principal Figgins walked into the office closing the door behind him. His office was pretty standard with a desk and boring stuff on the walls, however, it also had a sofa and a table with magazines on it. They weren't anything exciting really, but it was a nice gesture at the end of the day. I sat down on the chair which was situated the other side of the desk. He had a professional black leather chair which looked as though it would look perfect for gaming. I put my bag on the floor resting my hands in my lap. Principal Figgins put his hands on the desk locking his fingers together.
"Do you know why you are here, Santana?" Figgins asked in which I shook my head in response. "Well, your teachers have expressed concern for your wellbeing."
"I'm fine." I mumbled looking at my lap. "They didn't have to be concerned."
"Are you sure? If there is anything you want to tell me, it's okay." He stated with a look of concern on his face.
I stayed quiet for a few minute before raising my head. "You won't tell anyone but my teachers?"
"I swear." Figgins promised with a smile. "What is it?"
"I'm pregnant." I admitted before letting out a breath. "I suppose it was going to come out eventually, but I don't want everyone knowing."
Figgins nodded in understanding. "Of course. I'll have to email your teachers about this, but apart from that, no one will know. You will have to take it easier in Physical Education too. How far along are you?"
"13 weeks, sir."
"Well in future when you have an appointment just write a note and hand it in to my receptionist." Figgins said with a smile. "Does that sound good?"'
I nodded smiling too. "Thank you, sir. I really appreciate your help."
"Are your parents aware of the situation?" He asked. "Because I can ring them and-"
"No!" I cried out before realising that was the worst thing I could have done. "My mother is a lawyer and my father is a surgeon; they work long hours so contacting them wouldn't be necessary. Anyway, I've already told them and they are willing to help me."
"That's great." Figgins said before standing up. "Now would like you to make an appointment with our guidance counsellor to support you once you've left here before going to class. It's just for extra support, okay?"
I nodded before standing up myself. "Thank you Principal Figgins I'll do that before lesson. Also thank you for supporting me too. I appreciate it a lot."
"Of course, that's what I'm here for." He smiled walking me to the door. "My door is always open if you need anything. Just let me know, okay?"
"I will do. Thanks again." I walked out of the office sighing in relief.
Thank the Lord I could relax now. I felt a lot better knowing someone else aside from Sam knows about the pregnancy. Looking around, I made my way to the guidance counsellors office. Emma Pilsbury might be a bit weird at times but she cared about her students. She loves her job and that was the main thing and she was actually pretty decent too. I had seen her around and, also, there was that time last week she came and checked on me saying her door was always open for me if I wanted it. I knew Ms Pilsbury meant it too which was more than what I could say for some of the other teachers in the school.
I knocked on her door before walking in. "Ma Pilsbury? Can I talk to you?"
Emma smiled. "Of course you can. Take a seat."
Nodding, I took a seat in the one which was motioned to me. "Principal Figgins suggested I come talk to you."
"I'm glad you listened and came to me." Emma said. "What can I do for you?"
I looked down at my lap before looking at Ma Pilsbury. "I'm pregnant."
Her eyes looked at me in shock before changing to a warm look in a matter of seconds. "Well I'm happy that you could come and talk to me about this."
"I'm just glad I'm not keeping to myself anymore." I admitted because it was true. It was hard keeping a secret this big away from everyone. "Do I need counselling?"
Ms Pilsbury chuckled. "Of course not but if you ever have days where you can't handle the pressure you can always come and see me, okay? How about I give you some information on the subject?"
"Thank you, that would be great."
Ms Pilsbury turned to gather different kinds of leaflets before handing them to me. I was given three. 'Congratulations, You're Pregnant!', 'So You've Ruined Your Life' and 'You Had Sex And This Is The Result Of Your Mistake'. Well aren't these just joyous?
"Take a read of them to properly understand what you are going through right now, then if you have questions you are welcome back anytime. I would also like to see you once a week, if that's okay? Just to see how you're getting on."
I put the leaflets away in my bag. I can easily read them when I get home tonight or when I have a free period. "That sounds great. Thank you Ms Pilsbury."
"Of course. Anytime."
I smiled walking out of the room when the bell went off. Registration was over already? Or was it first period which was over? Most likely first period. I made my way towards my next class when I saw Brittany at her locker looking at the scan again. It made me smile knowing she was looking at it t least, however, what was surprising me was the fact that it wasn't a onetime thing. She kept going back to it as though she was trying to figure out who gave her it. Not that she would. She was most likely the last possibility in her list of people to ask.
"Hey San." Sam whispered making her jump in surprise. "What you looking at?
"Yeah just frighten me half to death then casually ask what I'm looking at." I hissed before shaking my head. "Brittany. She keeps going back to it."
"Probably wants to know who put it there to get revenge on." Sam shrugged in response. "Come on Matthews will kill us if we're late to class."
I took one last glance at Brittany before leaving with Sam. I had so much on my mind right now. I had school, work, the baby, worrying whether her parents were going to kick her out when they find out and, last of all, Brittany. I thought she would go around school snapping at everyone who got in her way but she was being surprising quiet today. Well there was that few minutes when she was sat outside the office but, in general, she had been quiet. Sam even mentioned how she had been quiet all the way through Science. Maybe she actually cared about this baby. Maybe she wanted to be part of the baby's life.
Just when she was about to consider telling Brittany, the girl bumped into her hard walking past her.
"Move, Lopez." Brittany snapped before walking ahead to join Quinn.
I rolled my eyes in response. Right, that was why she was concerned. She didn't have a caring bone in her body. That's why Brittany could never be part of the baby's life unless she changes. What kind of influence would that be on the baby? They'd see that as a toddler or something and think that's okay. I'm not saying she would be a bad mother, because I'm sure she wouldn't, I just didn't trust her. She seemed to have times where she was her usual self then when we were together she just changed. It was as though she felt that she needed to be kind to me, but that may be the fact that I'm tutoring her in Maths. To be honest I had kept how I feel about how she treated me to myself, however, if she continues I will be letting her know exactly how I feel about it. Why should she be allowed to just go around the way she does because she happens to be a Cheerio? If I can't get her to pass this class, which would be her own fault, then she won't even be graduating. The thing is, I know it scares her because she practically pleaded me to tutor her, yet, if she actually listened in class she would learn something. Funny that, isn't it?
I sat myself down in my seat when we got to History but instead of being keen to learn, my mind was elsewhere. It was weird for me since I was usually all for learning, but this lesson I wasn't. I just wanted to stay inside my head. My thoughts were going all around the place in there but I didn't mind. I had so much to think about such as buying clothes for the baby, figuring out where I would live in New York, how my parents haven't found out my secret and if Figgins would keep to his promise. I had applied to NYU in New York and I was just waiting for a response now. I couldn't wait to get away from Eastbourne. It was lovely, don't get me wrong, I just wanted to go somewhere that was bigger. City life really intrigued me and I had always wanted to live in New York, so it's why I decided to go there for University. Just waiting got me more and more excited every day. Plus, if I got to move there with my best friend it was even better. We could just have fun and find our soul mates there. I just couldn't wait to leave here with my baby and best friend. It was going to be an exciting experience.
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I was walking past the Glee Club rehearsal room and, for the first time in a long time, Brittany was smiling and it looked as though she was enjoying herself. Fucking hell, when does that happen? She must really like it in there that was for sure. I didn't actually mean to walk past the room; I was literally just trying to find somewhere quiet to sit and write. I loved writing in my notebook and finding a quiet place to do it was impossible. Outside the footballers were practicing, most of the classrooms were locked and the library was full which was weird for a weekday. I thought the choir room might be empty but apparently today is not my day. I made sure I wasn't seen. come on I'm not an idiot, but I continued to watch. The way her body moved to the music was amazing. Brittany and Mike could blow up a storm with their dancing and it was spectacular just watching them. They seemed to be doing some kind of dance. Who knew? I didn't keep track of show choirs. Frankly, I had no idea if they were even a thing. Maybe they just all got together to hang out. Not that I care or anything...
I shook my head before walking away down the corridor towards the front of the school. I couldn't go home since my Abuela was there. I know it sounds weird that I wouldn't want to see her but, the thing is, she is very observant. And I mean extremely observant. Basically if I went over there she would know I was pregnant and it just wouldn't go down well. I got to outside the school where the car park was deciding the sit on the wall. It was pretty quiet which helped when it came to writing stuff down so I took my pen and notepad out writing down about stuff that had happened that day. About how I was feeling. For example, recently I had felt fat. I just looked in the mirror and my stomach just made me feel unattractive. No wonder I didn't have a girlfriend because they would in no way want me looking like this. I sighed shaking my head. Some days I had good days where I felt pretty but not now. The good feeling I had when I saw the scan had gone so now I just had all these horrible thoughts in my head. Fat. Ugly. Gross. Unattractive. I just allowed myself to write anything down that came to mind.
I sighed before laying down on my back looking up at the sky with the notebook on my stomach. At least the sky looked pretty I didn't know why I was feeling so unattractive right now since there was a reason I was gaining weight and getting bigger. There was a reason behind it and here I was being irrational about the entire situation. I had no reason to be feeling so bad about myself yet, here I was. It was after three and instead of being at home I was laying on a stone wall looking up at the sky instead. Maybe it was time I went and visited my favourite thinking spot. Maybe it would give me some insight on everything, however, I wanted to just stay here. Just lay here until I was ready to move. I laid my head on my bag so it didn't hurt that much before closing my eyes. It was hard being pregnant let me tell you. I felt tired. Exhausted. On a daily basis I slept twice as much as I used to do. I didn't know why though since I was only 3 weeks pregnant. Maybe it was because I hadn't gone through this before. That had to be it.
"Lopez?"
I knew that voice instantly. Brittany. What was she doing out here though? I swear she was in rehearsal like five minutes ago. Maybe it was that boring she got bored and left. Why am I even questioning it? She had her own life. If she wanted to leave, she could.
"Mhm, it's me. " I conformed not moving. "Just walk by and go home. Nothing to see here."
I heard her chuckle before slowly making her way over. I only knew that because I could hear it. There was gravel on the ground so it was pretty easy to hear where she was walking. Basically she was making it very easy for me to know where she was. If she was a thief she wouldn't get very far since I'd hear every step. Not that she would or anything. She was an ass but, deep down, she was a decent person. You know...deep down. Like in the depth of her heart.
"You know there is an invention called a bed." Brittany stated from, I could only assume was, above me. "You don't need to sleep out here."
I peaked one eye open and oh my god. With the sun shining down on her she looked like an actual goddess. Literally she looked like one of the goddesses from the Greek time. Well, probably not, but she still appreciated the fantastic view. "I don't sleep outside, don't worry."
"Well...you had your eyes closed...you're outside...I'd say what I saw was pretty accurate."
I laughed nodding my head. "Maybe so, but I do have a home. I'm just unable to go there right now."
Brittany raised her eyebrow smirking at me before sitting beside my head. "And why is that?"
"My grandmother is there and I can't be dealing with her noticing things I don't want her to."
"Such as?"
I looked up at her before laughing. "You are so nosey."
"I can't help myself." Brittany said quietly as though she didn't want me to hear. I saw her look towards the entrance as though someone was going to come out and see them. Yup. Still the same Brittany. "Sorry."
"It's okay, I get it." I sighed. "I'm too unpopular for you to talk to."
Brittany flashed me a sad smile telling me I was right. "Yeah...kind of. But not completely."
"What's the other reason?" I asked but before she could answer I saw Quinn walk out of the building making Brittany stand up. Moment ruined. "I'll see you tomorrow in the library then for our next tutoring session."
She nodded her head. "Right. I'll see you later."
Before she went she traced her fingers down my arm, as though she wanted her fingers to linger there for a few seconds, before she walked away. My arm felt as though it was on fire from her touch. I wish what I felt for her would go away, but it was pretty hard when she gave you a baby. She made a life with me. I sighed moving my hands to rest on my stomach. Maybe going to my thinking spot wouldn't be such a bad idea.
I stood up picking my bag up before making my way to Beechy Head Cliff. I first went there when I had a bad day first day of High School and I had always gone back since. It helped me think with the waves crashing against the cliff, the sound of the seagulls as well as the breeze. It was just a calming environment and I needed that right now. With how I was feeling right now and the entire pregnancy thing having time to myself was just...it made sense to me. No Sam. No Brittany. No parents. No teachers. No one. It was just me and calming sounds of the ocean and breeze. What more could a person ask for?
When I got to where I wanted I just sat and looked ahead. I noticed rippling in the water due to the breeze and even though I came to think of myself, I couldn't help let my mind drift back to Brittany. I looked down at my stomach and smiled thinking of how I got here. How we both made this baby. It was the most perfect night of my life...
October 2015
Tonight I was currently stood in the kitchen talking to Sam at a party that everyone had been invited to. It was some Footballer's party but all the seniors were invited. Yup, that means everyone in the year was under one roof. Saying that when Sam and I turned up we didn't expect the house to be pretty much a mansion. It was weird seeing nerds here though even if they did just keep to themselves Thing about me and Sam is that we are nerds but we are higher up in the social ladder than the ones who are really nerdy. You know, like the ones who sit inside and play video games and read comic books all day. I mean that Sam is into sports and stuff that guys generally like and I do like dancing which a lot of girls I know do, so we're different. Higher up than some nerds but below the regular people in the school.
"What do you think of the party?" Sam asked, taking a sip of his drink
"Not bad. Can't believe all of the seniors were invited."
"I know, right? Even JBI and his set of AV nerds showed up."
I laughed and turned my head to look outside when there stood Brittany. God, she is gorgeous. Her hair flowed perfectly down her back and her eyes shined bright when she was talking with her friends. Don't even get me started on her smile. It is beautiful. Okay so, as you can tell, I have a huge crush on Brittany Pierce. It all started when she started middle school. Apparently her parents moved from California and you could tell since she had the beauty of a girl from there. At any rate, I saw her when she walked in and I couldn't help but feel my heart beat faster. It only got worse whilst time went on and here I am now; sneaking looks at her when she isn't looking. Sam knows about the crush I have on her, but he can't talk because he has a crush on a girl called Mercedes who he is too chicken to go and speak to.
"San, she'll notice." Sam smirked, leaning against the wall. "You're being so obvious."
"She's not even looking so shut it." I hissed at him and he laughed getting another drink. I rolled my eyes before looking back at her but this time she was looking in my direction. Shit, what do I do now? I looked away and watched Sam who had just spilt his drink all over the floor. I rolled my eyes at him again and walked to help him. He was seriously clumsy I tell you. He once knocked my vase in my room over which had flowers and water in them and it was so close to pouring all over my laptop. I could have killed him.
"San, don't panic but Brittany is coming over here." Sam whispered looking up then looked back down. He wasn't being serious, was he? He couldn't be. I turned around and there she was; standing right there looking sexy as ever. I've never really been this close to her before. It felt awesome.
"Hey." She smiled putting her hand on the counter looking at me. "I couldn't help but notice you staring at me."
I blushed looking down. I can't believe she noticed me looking at her. I can safely say I won't be looking at her for the rest of the night, just to be sure she doesn't notice again.
"Sorry. I'll try not to look at you, so you don't feel uncomfortable. I just can't help looking at beautiful women."
I saw Brittany shake her head with a smile on her face. "No, I liked it. Makes me feel hot knowing someone other than a cheerleader is looking at me." Brittany assured me. It did make me feel a little better. "By the way, you're gorgeous too."
"Oh, well, you're welcome, I guess?" I responded shyly not knowing what to say. I don't usually get called gorgeous so that kind of made me speechless. Plus, she never usually notices me so I am a little confused right now. I heard Brittany laugh and I have to say...Sexiest laugh ever.
"You're cute." Brittany giggled reaching behind me. She got a drink from the side opening the bottle up. "You drinking tonight?"
"A little, but I'm not much of a drinker."
"Shame. You've got to get a little tipsy though." Brittany looked at the bottles on the side, started opening a few of them up before mixing them into a cup. I have no idea what she is doing, but it looked intriguing. She turned around eventually and thrust a drink into my hand. "Drink that. You won't regret it."
I did what she asked me to do and I had to admit, it was so nice. Whatever she did made drinking a lot more fun. Usually when I think of drinking its only really bottles and cans of lager or beer, which is technically true in this moment, but it was different. It actually tasted good.
"Okay, this is super nice. What is it?" I asked, drinking some more. She smirked and tapped her nose.
"My little secret. Glad you like it though."
I smiled and nodded turning round to see Sam had gone. Where the hell did he go to? Brittany put her finger on my jaw and turned my head to put my focus back on her. Well, that was unexpected to say the least. She smiled looking at me, drinking her own drink whilst I drank mine. There was something I liked about the blonde haired girl in this state. I could tell she was drunk, but she was being super nice to me. I loved it.
"Your friend went in the living room." Brittany said smiling. Wow, can she read my mind or something? "So it's just us here."
I nodded nervously. I hadn't been alone with the blonde before and it did make me nervous. I didn't know what to think or do. The urge to kiss her was stronger than ever when we were alone and I didn't have Sam to distract me.
"You look beautiful in that dress. It shows off your curves perfectly." Brittany said complimenting me before taking a step towards me. God is it hot in here or is it just me? She started to look at my body, checking me out if I wasn't mistaken, before resting her hand on my waist whispering into my ear."And I would really, really love it if you would come and dance with me."
I bit my lip turning my head slightly feeling my nose brush against her cheek due to being so close. "M-Me? Dance with you? Out there with everyone watching?"
She let out a small laugh moving a piece of hair out of my face. "Yes. Will you come and dance with me?"
Before I could stop myself I nodded and allowed myself to get pulled out to the dance floor, which was technically the living room, with my hand in Brittany's. Not many people were dancing actually so we had plenty of space to dance. She twirled me on the spot pulling me against her then let go of my hands. I watched as she moved her body perfectly to the music. I definitely couldn't dance like her and I didn't go to many parties so it wasn't like I could get any practice either. The music was loud so I just moved the best I could, but it was nowhere near Brittany's level of dancing.
I've never been afraid of the highest heights
Or afraid of flying now
I've never been afraid of the wildest fights
Not afraid of dying
But now I want off this ride 'cause you're scaring me and I don't like where we're going
I need a new fun fair 'cause you're scaring me and I don't like where we're going
More people were coming onto the dance floor and I could tell they danced a lot. I never realised this was what most people did on a regular basis. Sam and I were usually happy with just sitting at home watching movies and reading comics. I drank some more of the drink that was in my hand looking up at Brittany. She smiled moving closer to me.
And now you're gonna miss me
I know you're gonna miss me
I guarantee you'll miss me 'cause you changed the way you kiss me
I looked up at Brittany who was stood dancing in front of me. She moved closer putting one arm around my waist. We were both drunk, Brittany more than myself. I could tell since she had moved closer to me and had one arm around my waist then the next one had made its way to cup my neck. I looked up at her and before I knew it her lips were on mine. Fuck, her lips were soft. I closed my eyes and wrapped one arm around her neck with my drink in my hand with the other hand gripping onto her top. I was still in a state of shock here. She was kissing me. Brittany was kissing me! Her lips tasted awesome too. Could I taste strawberry? Probably since she was more than likely wearing lip gloss. Our lips began moving together with our hips moving together still slightly dancing. Fuck, this was amazing. I loved it. Kissing her felt right and it definitely confirmed that I was a lesbian. Before tonight, I hadn't kissed a girl. I just knew, you know? It's like if someone asks you how you know you're gay if you haven't kissed a girl or boy, but that's like asking someone how they know their straight. The kiss started to get deeper but before it got passionate we pulled away. She smiled down at me and leaned in to say something. She had to with this loud music.
"Your kissing is on point. So hot." She yelled into my ear so I could hear her. I smiled leaning in putting my hand on her shoulder, shouting back in her ear.
"Your kissing is spectacular too. Your lips taste like strawberry."
She chuckled and leaned back in. "Strawberry lip gloss."
I nodded and we went back to dancing together. She had her hands on my waist dancing with me whilst my hands went over her shoulders with the drink still in my hand, dancing with her. She pulled me closer and turned me around so my back was against her front. Her hands went to my hips helping with the move of my hips whilst she moved her hips with mine. Her lips moved to my neck grazing them against it whilst kissing parts of it softly. I can tell you, it felt really good. I took another swing of my drink dancing with the gorgeous blonde behind me who began grinding against my ass slightly. I was surprised when I felt something poke me, however, I didn't pay much attention to it. She decided to move her hand down my arm taking the drink from my grip taking a swing of it before handing it back to me. I smiled and started moving my hips with hers.
After a while Brittany and I had gotten into a rhythm and were going off each other's movements. I was dancing in front of her, grinding softly back into her crotch whilst she grinded into my ass. It was so natural and even though we were drunk, I was enjoying it the best I could since tomorrow she won't remember a thing. I turned around to look at her. I put my arms around her shoulders and danced with her. I didn't want to miss any moment of this. She smiled and pulled me close to her. I couldn't help but feel turned on by all of this. She was hot. I felt warm now and this whole atmosphere really helped. I leaned up to her ear.
"I've got to go and pee. I'll be right back." I yelled in her ear and went to go when I felt her take my hand walking with me. Wow, this was amazing. This is what it feels like to have fun? I wasn't going to complain. I walked upstairs with Brittany looking for the bathroom. When I finally found it, it was so far away from the music I could actually hear myself think. Well kind of. I pecked her lips letting my hand fall walking inside. It was nice to feel someone, enjoying spending the time with me instead of ignoring me. I went to the toilet then finished washing my hands before walking out. I smiled at her and went to take her hand but instead she pushed me into the wall gently.
"I can finally hear you over the music." She said putting her hands on my waist moving her hands up my body. I enjoyed her touch a hell lot more than I should. Brittany reached down taking the cup from my hands putting it on the side. She leaned in and pressed her lips to mine once again. I smiled and cupped her neck kissing her back. She still had the hint of strawberry, but I think I kissed that off her lips earlier on. I felt fingers move to the back of my dress stroking the skin that was there. I couldn't believe how good that felt just by her fingertips stroking the skin there. I shivered. Smiling I felt the kiss deepen; our lips were moving in sync together. They moved perfectly and I just wanted more of her. I knew this would probably the only night I would be able to do this with her so I should enjoy it. Even if I was nervous. Brittany pulled away from the kiss looking at me.
"You want to go somewhere more private?" She asked, huskily.
I whimpered and felt myself nod allowing her to take my hand and lead me to a room. It just looked like a general spare room, but it was still big. She closed the door behind us locking it. I was looking around the room when I felt her arms come up behind me; lips on my neck. Her lips feels amazing and so soft. She kisses down my neck nipping on my pulse point. I gasped allowing my head to tilt back against her shoulder enjoying the feeling of her lips on my neck before she sucked and bit my pulse point. I gasped louder reaching back running my fingers through her hair. I felt my body react to her sucking my neck and it felt good. I had never felt this turned on before and I didn't want it to end. Her hands slowly trailed down my sides before moving to my stomach pressing me back against her. I felt her lips leave my neck, well not before she kissed the back of my neck once, her hands moving yet again but to the back of my dress this time and towards the zipper. I felt my heart race. I'd never been naked in front of another person before. I felt her unzip my dress slowly and step back up behind me pushing the straps down my arms. I let her push the straps down my arm before I felt my dress fall off my body to the floor at my feet. Her hands went back to my body feeling every bit of skin but, I did notice, she specifically kept going back to feel my toned stomach. Yes, I exercised a lot.
"You are so beautiful." She whispered in my ear before I felt something poke my ass again. "I'm going to make you feel really good. Would you like that?"
I nodded feeling my heart pound in my chest. I turned around and looked up at her. I was stood in my underwear which, luckily, was just a bra and some briefs. I moved my hands up and down her sides and I looked at her when my hands reached the hem of her top. She smiled and nodded so I held it and pulled the top up her body and over her head throwing it on the floor. Wow. She actually had abs. I gasped moving my hands over her stomach like she had done to me previously. She was as sexy as I imagined. I could have touched her stomach all day but Brittany had other plans since I felt her hand move on top of mine moving it down to her jeans. I bit my lip unbuttoning them before they got pushed down her legs. Damn. Her legs though. She stepped out of them and helped me up kissing me once again, but it was definitely more passionate. I moaned into the kiss without meaning to and before I knew it, I was on my back.
"I have to tell you something." She said looking at me moving her hand over my stomach.
"What is it?"
"I have a penis. Does that bother you?" She asked. I have to say it is a shock, but when I think about it, it actually made sense with reason to why I felt something poking me earlier on. It would have been her cock. She was still Brittany though and she wasn't any different to me. I shook my head in response which she smiled pushing me into the middle of the bed.
"I'm glad. I'm going to take care of you."
She moved her lips back to my neck and went back to kissing and nipping it. God, this felt so fucking good. I kept gripping and ungripping the sheets of the bed as she did. Her kisses were magic and I couldn't help but gasp when she moved her kisses further down until she was at my chest. Since I still had my bra on, I felt her hands on my breasts through my bra cupping and squeezing them. I hadn't ever had someone touch my breasts before and it felt amazing, even if it was only through the bra right now. I never thought I'd be turned on just by someone cupping and squeezing my breasts but I was. She pulled her lips away from my chest and looked at me telling me to sit up. I nodded and sat up like she asked and I watched as her hand went around to my back moving to my bra strap. I knew what she was doing it and it excited me. I felt her undo the clip and push me back onto my back whilst she pulled my bra off throwing it onto the floor. I looked up at her feeling her eyes on me. I hadn't ever felt so exposed which made me very nervous, nonetheless, her smile made me feel better. I knew she wasn't going to just fuck me. She was going to take her time. She smiled and straddled my waist moving her hands back to my breasts. I bit my lip. Her hands felt amazing on my bare breasts. I closed my eyes enjoying the feeling then let out a small whimper when I felt her rolling my nipples between her fingers. Fuck it felt good. I arched my back whilst she took her time with my breasts.
"Don't hold the noises in. I want to hear every sound that comes out of your mouth." Brittany stated winking at me. "Every moan, whimper and gasp I want to hear. I love knowing the other person feels good."
I nodded looking at her enjoying the sensation of her playing with my nipples. I closed my eyes wanting this moment to last forever. I gasped aloud when I felt her pull on my nipples slightly pinching them. She was trying everything tonight and I appreciated it. I opened my eyes to see her smiling at me with a look I had never seen before.
"Baby, you look gorgeous." She whispered. "So beautiful."
She leant down and took a nipple into her mouth. I moaned moving a hand to her head running my fingers through her hair. I was so turned on right now it was unreal. She was definitely making sure it wouldn't hurt too much when we got to her entering me. She played with my other nipple rolling it between her fingers then switched. I moaned at the feeling of her paying close attention to my breasts. Fuck, I was wet. When I say wet I meant my panties were soaked right now. I felt her start to kiss down my body to where she wanted to be. She got to where my panties were and I felt her tap my hip silently telling me to lift my hips. I lifted them so she could pull my panties down my legs. I put my hips back down to the bed whilst she took my panties in her hands. I watched as she smelt them. Fuck that was hot.
"God babe, you are soaked." She whimpered a little before throwing them on the floor. "Spread your legs for me, gorgeous. I want to see your gorgeous pussy."
I whimpered from what she said and spread my legs. I watched as she came closer to kneel between my legs. From what I could see, she was already hard and ready for me. I watched her to see what she would be doing next. She moved her fingers and moved them through my folds feeling how wet I am. I moaned as she did. Her fingers felt amazing. I couldn't wait to more of her; to feel her inside me. I was definitely showing how much I wanted her. Before I knew it, she had removed her fingers and stood up removing her boxers and bra. I watched and felt myself get even wetter. She was gorgeous.
"Stand up baby."
I nodded and stood up looking at her. She cupped my cheek and smiled kissing me softly. She pulled away and pushes my hair out of my face.
"Do you want to give me a blow job?" She asked stroking my cheek. "I know you've probably not done anything before, so I want you to choose."
She was so sweet. How could I say no to that? I mean I always wondered what it'd be like even if I was a lesbian. I mean, I was attracted to Brittany, not her dick. I nodded and knelt down in front of her not knowing what I should be doing so I just guessed. I opened my mouth and moved my mouth over her dick. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be, but it was only because I knew it was Brittany. I heard her moan above me and I felt her hand on my head guiding me.
"That's it baby. Your mouth feels so good." Brittany groaned holding my head.
I smiled to myself and took her dick in deeper moving my tongue up the underside of it. I was glad that she shaved so I didn't have hair near my mouth whilst I was servicing her. I moved my mouth faster up and down over it bobbing my head with my tongue moving up the sides. Her moans sounded so hot and I looked up to look into her eyes. Her eyes were hypnotising I tell you. Such a nice blue. Keeping eye contact I pulled away moving my tongue slowly over her tip. She had a look of arousal in her eyes which meant that I was doing a good job. I felt her hand push me away after a few minutes. I looked up at her.
"That was amazing babe, but I don't want to come in your mouth. I want to come inside you."
I felt my heart beat faster and I nodded standing up laying back on the bed. She moved towards me and knelt between my legs when I spread them. I watched whilst she moved her fingers between my folds finding my clit. I gasped when she found it. Pleasure went straight through me and I know she knew that it felt good. She had probably done this before. She began to make small circles on my clit and it felt so good. Brittany smiled at me and leant down kissing me. I kissed back cupping her cheeks whilst she kept up the stimulation of my clit. Her circles started to get faster and I felt her fingers starting to slip with how wet I was so I knew she had decided to move towards my entrance. My heart was beating against my chest but I didn't care. Her finger circled my entrance then slowly move inside me and I moaned into the kiss not being able to stop myself. I knew the discomfort would come in a bit, but right now, it felt good. Her finger kept moving slowly inside me until she got her finger inside me up to the knuckle. I gasped feeling her inside me. I am surprised at how gentle she is being for someone who is drunk. She deepened the kiss and started to move her finger in and out of me slowly, gradually getting faster. If this is how it felt to have one finger inside me, how is even more going to feel?
Brittany added a finger and another once I was used to it and I couldn't keep my moans in now. I gripped onto the bed bucking my hips up to meet her thrusts and it felt so good. It hurt a bit when she first added more fingers, but now I was used to it, I couldn't believe how good it felt. I had my eyes closed and I felt Brittany kissing my neck softly whispering sweet things in my ear such as, "you look so beautiful" and "I can't wait to be inside you" and when I heard her whispering in my ear, it made me fall for her even more. I felt the feeling in my stomach build up and up as she thrusts into me. I couldn't help it. She was good and I just wanted more of her. I whimpered when I felt her remove her fingers from my pussy. I looked up at her and she smiled pecking her lips moving between my legs positioning her dick there. I looked down and I watched her push in slightly. I gasped when she slowly slid inside me.
"I want you to look at me, baby." Brittany requested looking at me. "Keep your eyes on me and tell me when to stop because I'm bigger than my fingers."
I nodded and I held onto her whilst she pushed inside me. I knew it would hurt and I have heard some really bad stories in the past about girls losing their virginity, but I felt safe with Brittany. I knew she wouldn't hurt me intentionally. Well, not tonight anyway. I winced in pain slightly when she started to get deeper, but Brittany stopped and looked at me kissing my face.
"Tell me when to move again." She whispered and I nodded in understanding moving my hands over her arms. She continued to place kisses on my skin wherever she could reach making me feel better, knowing she was going to take her time. I looked at her and nodded silently telling her she can move. She nodded and kept eye contact with me whilst she pushed in. Luckily I was wet enough that she could slide in easily, but it was still a tight fit since nothing this big had been up there before. I kept eye contact with her until she was fully inside me. God, I felt so full now with her dick fully inside me. She wasn't kidding when she said it was bigger than her fingers. It is definitely bigger than average.
"H-How big are you?" I asked panting waiting for my pussy to adjust to the size.
"7.5 inches babe" She whispered panting herself. I nodded knowing it would have been about that size.
"Britt...you can move now."
She nodded and started to thrust slowly. I whimpered whilst she built up a rhythm of her thrusts. Saying I am a lesbian, I never thought I'd ever have a dick inside me, but seeing as it was Brittany with it, I enjoyed it. It was Brittany who was thrusting into me and it was Brittany who was making my first time special. I held onto her as she started to build her rhythm up and thrust faster. Shit, it felt so good. I could feel her in places I knew her fingers would never reach and it felt so amazing. I felt amazing right now and my pleasure was only building up faster whilst she thrusts into me faster. She was also thrusting into me harder and staying deep inside me. I moaned louder not being able to hold it in. Brittany had her hands beside my head thrusting into me. I wrapped my legs around her waist keeping her where she is so she can't move. Where had this girl been all my life? I had never felt so much pleasure before.
"Oh god, Britt!" I moaned holding onto her. "You feel...fuck!"
"Oh baby, you're pussy feels amazing. It's so tight around my dick." Brittany panted, kissing my shoulder burying her face into my neck. "I'm not going to last long. I just want to fill you with my come."
I moaned hearing her talk. God, she sounds so sexy when she is aroused. Fuck, it makes me want her more. I felt my arousal building further. I knew it wouldn't be long until I was coming too.
"Faster, babe. Shit!" I groaned meeting her thrusts.
She nodded moaning and started thrusting even faster. I moaned loud as her pace quickened. I wanted all of her. Deeper. Harder. I wanted it all as long as she kept thrusting inside of me. Fuck, I wasn't going to last much longer. I really hope she is close.
"Babe." She whimpered above me as I tightened around her dick. "I'm gonna...come."
I nodded letting out a "me too" then we both came together. I moaned loud and my hips were out of control as I came with her. It felt so good feeling her come fill my pussy up. She was groaning and moaning just like I was. I opened my eyes and watched her come. It was so hot I can tell you. She was gorgeous when she was coming down from an orgasm. I held onto her as I came down from my own orgasm then she fell on top of me. I panted moving my hands over her back whilst we came down from our orgasms.
"H-How was that?" She asked me resting her head on my shoulder.
"It was perfect. Thank you." I told her honestly. I felt her smile into my shoulder so I closed my eyes and before I knew it, I was asleep dreaming about what had just happened that night.
January 2016
Now thinking back, I now knew how I had gotten pregnant on the first time. I know I had sex, which was clearly the main thing, but she hadn't pulled out. We were that exhausted we fell straight to sleep. Yes I woke up to her being gone, however she still kept her penis inside me all night. Shit. Bad move on our part. Well, as they say, you learn from your mistakes. I faced up to my consequences and now look where I am. Eighteen about to raise a child on my own. If that didn't say responsible then I didn't know what else would.
After a few hours of being around the cliff I knew it was time to go home. Abuela would be gone by now anyway so I was safe. I stood up, putting my bag on my shoulder, walking back towards the main part of Eastbourne. I really did hope things got better now I was past my first trimester. My sickness had been so bad that I didn't think I could be sick anymore. I felt my phone vibrate to see a message from Brittany. Now this is a surprise.
From: Brittany
Hey Santana. Can you meet me in the park tonight? There is something I need to discuss with you.
My eyes widened. Shit, she didn't know did she?
To: Brittany
Hey Brittany. Yes, I can meet you tonight. Text me the time and I'll be there.
I put my phone away walking home with my heartbeat racing like crazy. Please tell me she didn't know. I couldn't handle her questioning me right now. With that said, I decided to just get my iPod out and listen to music on the way home. I really hope things would be okay.
