I have made my decision. Oh God please let it be the right one. I turn back round to face Jake.
"Look, Jake, I...I dont think this is working" I said, completely unsure whether I had made the right decision.
"Whats not working?" He asked.
"Us" replied instantly feeling guilty.
" But Lauren, I thought you loved me."
"I thought I loved you to and I am sorry for leading you on. Its, just..." I trailed off, unsure of what to say next.
"You still love joey." He said sighing.
"Emm yes I guess so." I replied close to tears. But what he said next made them pour down my face.
"Well lauren, you know what have your disgusting affair with your cousin. And dont come crying to me when he decides your to much to handle. Because honestly I think you are too loud and selfish to think about anyone other than the person staring back at you in the mirror. The only reason I dated you was 1 to get over my wife and 2 your good in bed. I dont know that might make me selfish but I am no where near as bad as you!" He spat
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I could stop myself from crying so I just ran, faster and faster until, THUD! I land flat on my face in the middle of the square. No one tried to help me up. It seamed like no one even saw me. Until I heard his voice, laced with worry even thought I thought he hated me.
"Lauren are you ok" he asked
"Yes Joey I am fine." Said feeling like aidiot but since my mouth and mind aren't connected I felt even more like an idiot after my next statement. " I was just inspecting the pavement. "
He laughed a little, clearly knowing that I was embarrassed, before saying " do you want a hand up?"
This is my chance I either push him away forever or let him in again. I decide to let him in "yes a hand up would be good thanks."
He reached his hand down and I reached mine up, I felt the sparks as soon as we connected. He pulled me up, once I was on my feet our eyes locked. I could look away. But then he did somthing I never thought he would ever do again.
His lips desended on mine. And he kissed me.
