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Chapter 4: On My Way
Sam jerked awake as the bus came to a stop at their second rest point of the day, which was somewhere between Phoenix, Arizona and Los Angeles. Sam really didn't care as long as they got to LA before the day was over, he had stuff to care of and loose ends to tie up. Once more looking at his watch, Sam found out that it was only 5 O'clock, which meant that they'd only been driving for about five hours, also meaning that they had about an hour more to go, an hour more until Sam would get to see the love of his life again. The girl he'd asked out and loved more than he'd loved anyone outside of his tiny family, after the first month he'd met her. He remembered when he'd told her everything, it had been the day after they'd officially began dating.
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3 years and eleven months ago, give or take a few days ago: Sam's pov
For once Sam actually had a free day, as in no research, no training, or anything supernatural related, but he was more scared than he'd ever been in his life. Today, he was going to go on his first date with his "girlfriend", Jess, and tell her everything about him, and by everything he meant everything. He wanted her to know him for who he was, like…hell, love him for it and so he was going to do it, something he'd never done before, he was just gonna spill his heart out and put himself out there.
Taking a deep breath, Sam entered the neat little café that he and Jess had picked for their first date, Silo's. It was a regular hangout for the local kids and had homemade biscotti and cakes that were to die for, well they would be if Sam wasn't already dying, upon thinking this, Sam chuckled, man he was so weird…Sam stopped thinking when he saw her, Jess, she looked like an angel. She was wearing brown, Capri-gaucho pants and a pink, Hollister top.
Walking up to her, Sam said, "Hey," then looking around awkwardly, "Wanna sit down?"
Jessica smiled and slipped her soft and small hand into his calloused and much larger hand, "Yeah," she answered, pulling him toward a corner booth. Sitting down, but still holding his hand she asked, "So what's up?"
Gathering up his courage, after all he had been fighting evil creatures all his life, Sam said, "Um…Jess…" and she looked up, something in his voice making her do it.
"What is it, Sam?" she asked, worried about him.
"It's nothing," Sam said, and then taking a deep breath continued, "It's just there's something I need to tell you. Something about me that you should know."
Sam looked up at her, she didn't look scared or angry like most girls would be right now, she just looked expectant, ready to face whatever came her way, God he loved her. 'Crap,' Sam though his eyes widening, he loved her, Jessica Moore, with every fiber of his being and here he was putting himself out to be rejected, but if there was one thing his family had done was teach him to be brave and hey, if she said no he only to deal with it for four years. It's not like he had a lot to lose, so, Sam started to talk, "My mom died when I was six months old…" and was interrupted by Jessica.
"Yeah, I know, you already told me this."
"Yeah, but what I didn't tell you was that she was murdered by something…" here Sam was once again interrupted by Jess.
"You mean someone…" this time it was Sam who interrupted Jess.
"No, I mean something. That's the first part of what I have to tell you, Jess. My dad, he's not a travelling salesman, Jess, he…he's a hunter and so are my brother and me." Sam looked up once more trying to read her expression.
"Your dad's a hunter, that's your big news?" She asked, looking incredulous.
Sam was shocked, why in the world wasn't she freaking out? Then he realized she thought he meant hunter and not hunter. "Jess, I don't mean like "let's go kill a deer" hunter, I mean like "ghosts and werewolves and demons" hunter." Seeing that she still didn't look scared, Sam said, "In case you didn't get it yet, we hunt supernatural stuff, going from city to city looking for whatever killed our mom and kill all the evil stuff we meet on the way."
"Ghosts and demons exist?" Jess asked curiously.
"Yeah," replied Sam. Then incredulously asked, "So I tell you that my family and me are a bunch of nomads who go from city to city killing evil shit, and all you do is ask, "Ghost and demons exist"? Aren't you at all freaked out, don't you think I'm crazy?"
"No, I don't, It's you, Sam and I know you," she answered seriously, then jokingly asked, "Why, do you want me to be scared of you and run away?" She realized what the answer to that question was when he didn't answer, "God, you do. You want me to be scared, you want me to run away, you…you want me to…to…leave you. Why…why did you ask me out if you didn't want us to be together, Sam? WHY?" she asked angrily, looking hurt.
Holding his hands and looking at her, Sam replied, "God, Jess, you don't know how much I want to be with you. I want it more than anything, but if I do, I'll probably end up hurting you, leaving you alone." Jess tried to interrupt, but Sam didn't give her a chance to, holding up his hands as if saying, let me say this, if I stop, I probably won't be able to continue, and continue he did.
"When…when I was eight, Jess, my…my brother and dad…my everything, my world…died. They died, Jess and I…I made a deal, Jess, a deal to bring them back. It gave me ten years to live, that means four more years and I'm gone, done for, dead, and when that happens, Jess, I'll be leaving you alone and I can't do that to you, Jess. I just can't," Sam explained, looking close to tears.
Jess quickly getting over her surprise and grief after seeing Sam's pain, grabbed his hand, the one she'd let go of in the middle of his explanation, said, "Well luckily for the both of us, Sam, that's not you decision to make, it never was. I love you, Sam and I want you for as long as I can have you."
Then getting out of her side of the booth, she walked over to his and hugged him. Feeling him mumble against her neck, more than hearing him, "Well you've got me, for as long as you want me." Then after taking a deep breath, he mumbled the three words that meant the world to her, "I love you, too."
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Things had been great after that, he'd just grown to love her more, so, for her sake when they'd moved he had broken it off and she probably knew it too because they were still in touch. She was the only purpose he could talk to about the deal and how scared he was back then and now, she was the only person who knew everything about him, even more so than his dad and his brother and in about thirty minutes he was going to see her, after almost four years. God, he was excited, even though he knew the closer he got to her, the closer he got to death, but for the life of him he couldn't bring himself to give a damn.
…TBC…
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