I want to do a lot more with this story and I didn't want the funeral and wake to drag over the course of 5 chapters. Hope this wasn't too rushed but like I said there's a lot more to come! Thanks for all the reviews and I hope you like the story so far.

"Bella we should probably get off the floor"

I was still sitting in his lap on the shower floor while the hot water had recently turned cold. I didn't feel like moving though. I had finally gotten my mind off things-well at least for a little while.

"But I'm comfortable here" I whined

"I know but it's time for bed" he leaned over to shut the water off

"Round two?" I asked hopefully

He shook his head and I pouted. He stepped out of the shower and wrapped a towel around his waist. I followed his lead and he wrapped a purple towel around me.

"What with you, your hormones are crazy. Are you starting your monthly cycle?" he laughed

I slapped his arm "Don't talk about my womanly issues and no I'm not, next week"

"Mmm" he smiled and walked into the bedroom to get dressed

"My mom didn't hear us did she?" I was suddenly embarrassed

"I don't think so, though you are quite loud if I do say so myself"

My cheeks flushed a million different shades of red. Once I was ready I quickly brushed my teeth and jumped into bed. Edward was on the phone, with Carlisle I presumed. Though their conversation was getting lengthy, I was getting antsy. I scrambled onto his lap so I was straddling him. I squeezed his thighs and he groaned.

"I got to go…yeah I'll call you tomorrow" he placed his phone on the nightstand then grabbed my hips, only he surprised me by lifting me up and placing me beside him "Bed Bella"

"You're such a prude" I joked my eyes getting sleepy

"Uh-huh sure I am" he laid down so he was looking into my eyes

"How are the kids?"

"Fine I can tell Abby misses us though, Esme said she keeps saying our names and she's having trouble sleeping"

"Oh my poor baby" I sniffed

He leaned in to kiss my forehead and wrap an arm round my waist.

"They'll be okay now get some sleep. You've got to wake up early tomorrow"

"I love you"

"I love you too"

Breakfast went pretty well. Emma was pleased to see us. She said she was glad to hang out with someone she doesn't see everyday. And I was happy because having her around made things a little bit happier and it filled the void I had for my children. My grandmother had on a pink robe and was covered in blankets. My aunt was holding her head up as she fed her some eggs. Her skin seemed to have lost another shade and was even paler. She was worse.

"Hi grandma" I whispered

"Bella" she rasped

The doctor came in the room and asked to speak with us outside. My aunt stayed with Emma inside while we followed him out.

"I don't want to alert you but her vitals are getting worse. There's not much more we can do and her body can't handle any more treatments"

I took a deep breath and buried my head in Edward's chest.

"So what does that mean? Are we just giving up? I mean there's nothing else we can do?" my mom was in tears grasping at straws

I pulled away from Edward curled into my moms side, trying my best at comforting her.

"No I'm sorry, we've ran out of things to do. My only suggestion would be to just keep her comfortable"

"Mom?" I asked

"Come on let's go inside"

She released me and walked back into the room. I knew she was upset but she probably didn't want me to worry over just how much she was worried.

"Come on" I wrapped an arm around my husband's waist and towed him back into the room.

"Phil we need to go now" I head my mother wail

"Alright just let me wake up a little"

At first I thought I was dreaming but it all sounded too real. I rolled over to grab onto Edward but he wasn't there. Then I noticed that the bedside lamp was on and he was dressed. I squinted and rubbed my eyes wondering if I was seeing things.

"Edward what's going on?" I whispered

""Your grandmother's gotten worse, they don't know if she'll make it through the night"

"How long have I been asleep?"

"Couple hours"

I stretched and looked down at my hands. Edward walked over to pull me into a hug but my mom burst through the door.

"You guys need to get… oh you're already up" she sighed

She walked over to me and placed a hand on my thigh. I just continued to look down at my hands, not wanting to meet her gaze. Edward walked back into the bathroom.

"Bella look at me" she pleaded

I shook my head and I knew she was upset with me.

"Tell me what's wrong" she said sadly stroking my hair "I know this is tough but you've been a little off since you got here"

"I feel like I did this to her…" I cried

"What!" my mother cut me off "Isabella you did not do this. Why on Earth would you think that baby?"

"Because when she got sick I should've been here. Maybe if I was here she wouldn't be so sick and she would have more reason to fight it. I should've been closer and now Ryan and Abby will never know her…I feel so guilty"

She pulled me into my arms and started rocking gently. I cried into her shoulder and I saw Edward give me an apologetic look through the open door.

"No baby no, you did not do anything wrong. If anything you made her better. She lit up so much when we told her you were coming and when she saw you. Baby it was like she was already in heaven"

"Promise" I sniffed

"Yes. Now come in we need to get to the hospital"

She kissed my head then released me before leaving the room. Edward took that as his cue to comfort me. He kneeled down in front of me and I fell into his arms. He didn't say anything but just having him close was enough.

"Come on love" he whispered lovingly

I quickly threw on some dark sweatpants and a t-shirt then ran down the stairs.

"Edward we're going to take separate cars in case anyone needs to head home. Do you mind driving? You can follow us" my mom said

"No problem"

She quickly handed him the keys and they were out the door without as much as a goodbye. Edward grabbed my hand and led me out towards the dark driveway. The ride there was quick and before I knew it we were walking towards her room. My mom entered without knocking and took her seat next to the bed. My grandmother looked worse-if that was even possible. It's only been a couple of hours. The guilt suddenly started to invade my mind again.

"Bella" I turned around to see my aunt carrying Emma in her arms "Can you sit with her outside? I don't want her to see her like this"

"Yeah sure" she quickly passed her over and ran inside

"Come on" Edward placed a hand on my back and guided me to the waiting room chairs

I was cradling her to me as I sat down laying my head on his shoulder and she clung on for dear life. The last hour had been a blur. I went from peacefully sleeping to sitting outside in a hospital waiting room.

"Can I go see grandma?" Emma asked sadly

"No we have to stay out here" I told her

She just nodded and laid her head against me, quickly falling back into her peaceful sleep. I wish I could fall asleep just to escape this nightmare for a little while. Different nurses and doctor's kept walking in and out and every time they did, I feared it was to deliver bad news.

"I think it's time to call everyone and tell them to start making arrangements to fly down" I whispered

He nodded and rubbed my arm soothingly "I was afraid of this coming so soon"

"I'm glad we came when we did. If we waited till tonight we might've been too late"

He shifted me off his shoulder so he was facing towards me. He gave me a concerned

Look and I was afraid of the talk that was coming.

"Did you mean what you said to your mom? Is that why you've been so…weird?"

"I believed it more when I thought about it. But saying it out loud to my mom made it seem like I was being selfish. Like her dying depended on me. That I'm the center of it all, the only one she wants to see" it felt good to let that out but after I said it, it sounded like I was even more crazy

"You don't really believe that do you? I don't like you feeling so insecure about yourself. You know everyone was happy to have you here, they all miss you" he stared down at the sleeping girl in my lap "Especially Emma. I've never noticed before but kids seem to be drawn towards you"

"They like you too, you know and I'm not insecure. I just always second guess my feelings around my family. Ever since I was little I always acted as the tough one" I shrugged

"You never have to do that with me"

"I know" I gave a timid smile

I heard rustling inside the room and Edward started moving uneasily in his seat. I sat up more, concerned that something was happening.

"Your grandmother is having some very morbid thoughts" he looked at me sadly "It's time love"

I nodded and he held his arms open, indicating that he'd take Emma. I didn't get why he was doing this, I really didn't want to he in the room when it happened.

"Edward I can't" I cried letting tears slip

"Yes you can"

Taking a deep breath I quickly gave him a kiss and made my way over to the door. I knew this time would come; now I just have to be there for my family. With that I walked in.

EPOV

Emma shifted from the change in skin temperature but didn't wake. I held her with such care as if it was Abby or Ryan I was holding. And just like Bella's aunt didn't want her in the room, I wouldn't want my children in there either. I could hear Bella crying along with Renee. I feel so bad that she has to go through this. She been under enough stress lately and the next couple of weeks were going to be even harder.

"Mom its okay you can let go now. You've done more then your fair share of fighting" Renee cried

I shook my head in sadness for them. I wanted nothing more then to have Bella wrapped in my arms while she cried. But I knew she needed to be with her family and I was more than happy to watch Emma.

"You take care of my great grandkids Bells" she rasped

"I love you grandma" she cried

"I love you too love bug"

And just like that I heard her heart take one final thump of life and never resume beating. I hung my head in silence as Bella, Renee, and her aunt cried relentlessly. I figured it would be a couple of minutes before they emerged so I quietly got up, keeping a firm hold on Emma. I went around the corner and dialed the house phone.

"Edward, Alice just saw. How's she doing?" Esme worried

"I'm not sure, she's in the room now" I told her "I assume you guys already started making arrangements?"

"Yes, Alice is on that right now. They'll be up in two days"

"Okay, thanks Esme" I sighed

"No problem honey. When you see Bella tell her that we love her and we're all so sorry"

"I will"

"Edward?" I heard a soft voice cry

I rounded the corner and saw Bella's tear stained face staring at me. Her aunt came over and grabbed Emma, cradling her closely to her chest. I ran- at human speed- over to Bella and pulled her into a hug.

"I'm so sorry love"

"I'm okay really" she tried to tell me but her fingers digging into my back told me otherwise

"Where's your mother?" I asked

"Talking to the doctor. I was going to stay with her but I couldn't… Edward she just closed her eyes and she…she was gone" she cried

"Shh, I know love. Come on let's go sit down" I held her close as we went back to the waiting room

She laid her head on my shoulder trying to take deep calming breaths but her heartbeat didn't slow.

"I want to go home"

"Okay well we did bring two cars so I can bring you back"

"No I want to go home" she hid her face in my shoulder and I could hear her sniffling

Renee and Phil emerged from the room looking 5 times worse then Bella. She came over and stroked Bella's back before taking a seat.

"The first thing we need to do is make arrangements for a wake. Lucky for us Phil's friends with the people at the funeral home, so we can probably set it up in a couple days"

"Will everyone have enough time to get here?" her aunt asked "I mean Edward your family has to fly in from Washington"

"Yes but they'll be here in time"

We stuck around for another 2 hours or so just making arrangements and crying every time someone brought up a memory. Emma's father finally took her home, saying that she didn't need to be here for this and needed to sleep in her bed. Phil was currently on the phone with the funeral home and they were stopping by in the morning to move the body for the wake. They had decided for a closed casket along with a proper burial next to her husband. At around 4 in the morning Bella's eyes were closed.

"Baby why you don't head home and get some rest" my mom said

"No, I'll stay with you" she protested

"No come on. You've been here for hours. There's nothing else you can do, I'll be home soon too. You need some rest" then she looked at me "Take her home"

I nodded and literally had to drag her out of the hallway. Once we got to the parking lot I just picked her up and then placed her in the car.

"I'm not going to be able to fall asleep" she yawned

"Well you can at least try" I gave her a small smile and grabbed her hand

On the way home she put the seat down to get more comfortable. I shrugged out of my jacket to lay it over her. By the time we got back to the house the light was already starting to break through the sky.

"Can you carry me in?" she asked

"Of course love" I laughed

I easily lifted her from the car and carried her in the house. It was very dark and lonely. It was very rare that we were ever alone but I knew now was not the time to take advantage of that.

"Do you want to go upstairs?"

"Yeah we can watch some TV"

Once upstairs I flipped the TV on and turned down the bed while she went to get ready for bed. When she emerged she was in very short shorts and a flimsy tank top. Was she trying to kill me? She jumped into bed and rested her head against my neck, wrapping an arm around me quietly slipping her fingers under my shirt. She traced circles on my skin and I did the same with her back slipping my hand under her tank top. I loved having skin to skin contact with her.

"I think my mom shut the air conditioner off"

"Are you sure you okay?" I asked

"Honestly I might have a nightmare tonight but I'm doing better then I thought I would be" she was looking at her hands again "But the next couple of days might be rough. Thank you for being here. You've been my rock" she nudged my chest

"You know I'll always be here" I leaned down to kiss her "I love you so much"

"I love you too"

And with that she turned her attention back to the TV never falling asleep.

Today was the day of the wake. My family was coming down today and in fact I had to leave to pick them up. Bella was going to stay here and get ready to head over to the funeral home early. She was currently in the shower after refusing to eat something…again. I did everything I could to get her to sleep, but no luck. I gave her a warm bath, warm milk, hummed her lullaby, and even rubbed her back.

"Bella" I opened the door to the bathroom and the steam poured out "I'm leaving now"

"Okay, I'll just meet you at the funeral home. We're probably leaving soon anyways"

I walked into to the bathroom and pulled the shower curtain back a little. Bella stuck her head out and gave me a look of disapproval.

"I'll be with you again soon okay? I'll call when I'm on my way back"

"Okay"

"I love you and please eat something or I will force feed you"

I pecked her quickly on the lips and she returned to her shower. Renee's door was still shut and I didn't want to intrude on them. They didn't get home till about 6 and it was already 9 in the morning. Anyways she already said I could take the car to go and pick them up. I got to the airport rather quickly. They took the earliest flight possible. I walked up to the gate just as my siblings were walking out.

"Edward" I heard Alice yell before she jumped on me "How's Bella?"

"She's…handling"

"Oh I can't wait to see her"

She wound an arm around my waist as I hugged Rosalie, Jasper, and Emmett. I noticed that they were already dressed in their best; Alice must have known we were heading right over.

"Was she in the room when it happened?" Rosalie asked

I nodded sadly "Yep"

"She must've had horrid nightmares last night" Emmett sighed

"I wish she'd actually got to sleep. By the time I brought her back it was around 4 in the morning and I tried everything to get her to sleep but she was too scared" I explained "She warned me that she'd have nightmares"

"Poor Bella" Jasper sighed

We all jumped in the car and I pulled out my phone to call Bella. Luckily she picked up on the first ring.

"Hello" she answered

"Just want to let you know that I'm on my way. Are you guys there yet?"

"Yeah we just got here, Phil is setting up the picture poster boards and I'm helping bring the flowers in"

"Wait for me before you lift anything heavy. I don't need a huge flower pot falling on top of you. And don't stress yourself out; this is your day to mourn not to work"

"Edward I'm fine…and please I can't deal with your over protectiveness today. I like keeping myself busy" her voice was starting to shake

"Okay okay I'm sorry, just please relax and I'll see you in a little while"

"Fine" and with that she hung up

I knew she wasn't really upset with so I just let her express her feelings. But I knew I had it coming when I show up.

"She sounds mad" Alice said

We arrived at the funeral home in record time and people were already lining up to pay their respects. One in the parking lot I drove around to the back to park. Bella said there were spaces to park at behind the building. There was also a door that led right into the main room, so we didn't have to weave through the crowd. We didn't dress up in suits; we just wore dress shirts and ties.

"Are we ready?" I asked

The main hall was very elegant, there were people kneeling down by the casket and crying. I didn't spot Bella yet but my family went to go sign the guest book. While I waited I looked at all the pictures scattered around. Many were of her at her wedding and her kids. But I even saw many of Emma, Bella, and her other grandchildren. One picture of Bella standing in front of the Disneyland castle had me curious. She's never mentioned that before. I heard some laughter and turned around to see Emma and a couple other kids playing in the back room.

"Edward" Bella's aunt came up and embraced me

"I'm so sorry" I whispered

"Thank you" she sniffed and looked over at the kids "She still doesn't understand. She knows that she dies and went to heaven but she doesn't understand that she's not coming back. Emma stop horsing around and come say hi to Edward!"

She ran over and jumped into my arms.

"Hi, aunt Bella has been waiting for you. She's been crying a lot"

"Will you help me find her?" I asked

She nodded excitedly and my siblings walked over to introduce themselves.

"This is Emmett, Rosalie, Jasper, and Alice"

"Thank you guys so much for coming, it means a lot to have Edward's side of the family here. Emma be good please"

With that she walked away and Rosalie was already fawning over Emma. I was concerned that Bella had been crying. I wanted nothing more then to hurry up and get to her.

"Bella!" Emma called

She turned around from where she was talking to someone and looked at us. She lit up when she s aw everyone and ran over.

"Edward's here" she wiggled to get down and she ran off to find the other kids

Bella pulled me into a hug and I kissed her cheek. My siblings then pulled her into a hug and said how sorry they were. Bella was wearing a very tight black dress that flattered her every curve. Her hair flowed flawlessly around her shoulders and down her back.

"I'm glad you guys could come"

Alice and Rosalie pulled her into a hug and that's when the waterworks started. They both rubbed her back and tried to soothe her but she suddenly pulled back and excused herself.

"Why don't you guys say hello to Renee I know she was happy you were coming"

I followed her to the bathroom where she was throwing up. I leaned down to lightly rub her back.

"Did you eat anything?"

"No" she whined

"Isabella…"

"Stop!" she yelled "Stop reprimanding me, I'm an adult. And for your information I tried eating this morning but I threw up again. I'm too upset to eat with all this stress. And even the smell of certain foods is making me sick. I'm not starving myself, I'm not stupid" she fell into my chest and started crying

"Of course your not stupid love. I'm not trying to be your parent I just don't want you to get sick, but by the sounds of it, you already are"

"I can't do this! I keep meeting people that I don't know and they tell me how big I've gotten and they miss me. Do you know what that's like? It makes me feel even guiltier. I need you more then ever right now. I need you to help me get through this" she was breathing in gasps and I wrapped my arms around her in a vise like grasp

"I'm right here Bella and I'm not going anywhere" I rocked her soothingly

"I don't think I'm going to be able to handle tomorrow"

I've been waiting and waiting for this to happen and I guess it was finally here. Bella was at her breaking point.

Next chapter will be the funeral and the homecoming with Ryan and Abby! Can't wait to finally get this story going. Next thing I post will be the very first chapter of "Split Second"

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