Memories: Esme

Esme POV

"Shush little baby, don't say a word" I sang, whilst rocking him in my arms. "Daddy's gonna buy you a mocking bird" I stared at him in marvel. My first baby. We had just got back from the adoption centre. As soon as I had seen him, I knew he was meant to be my first son. His big green eyes started into mine, and he gurgled. It was a smooth velvet-like sound. He was adorable and he was mine. Edward.

My eyes shot open. I was laid on the sofa. My cheeks were wet from the tears that I had shed whilst I napped. I needed sleep, but whenever my eyes closed, another memory flashed through my mind. I decided to try and sleep one last time before giving up.

"Mommy!" he yelled running through the door. He leapt into my arms and I wiped away his tears.

"What's wrong Edward" I asked, brushing his bronze hair from his face.

"Alice and Emmet banned me from the tree house" he sniffed, burying his head into my shoulder.

"Well, why did they do that?" I asked.

"B...because I've never kissed a girl" he cried.

"Tell them that they have to let you in the tree house, and that it doesn't matter if you haven't kissed a girl. You're five, you have plenty of time for that" I smiled and put him down. He beamed at me before running back outside.

Once again my eyes flew open. I moaned in frustration of not been able to sleep. I wanted to sleep so I could see him. But with the wanting came pain. My tears started to fall again. How was it possible to cry so many tears? The house had been filled with sounds of sobs, sniffles and broken hearts. Everyone was mourning my first baby.

He hadn't even been gone a day, yet so many tears had been shed. Just showed how anything can change everything. Like how she had changed him.

He walked through the door with a huge smile on his face.

"Why are you grinning so much?" I asked him. He hugged me and kissed my cheek.

"Because Mom, I think I'm falling in love" he smiled wider.

"With that girl?" Bella?" I asked mirroring his gleeful expression.

"She's the one, I know it" he said before walking up to his room.

He had finally found love.

I didn't dream that one, it just flashed into my mind. Played like a movie would. I sat up and decided to make lunch for everyone. Busy myself, and distract my mind.

I tried so hard to think of a meal that neither Edward nor Bella liked. I didn't want to set everyone off at one time. Mushroom ravioli? No that was Bella's favourite. Spaghetti bolognaise? No Edward's favourite. I moved away from the Italian selection and grabbed and recipe book from the side. I flicked to the Chinese food section. I had never used this part before.

I flicked through the pages until I found something that everyone would like. A King prawn Thai noodle dish, with some egg fried rice. I set out looking for all the ingredients I needed.

"Where are you going?" I asked when he grabbed his coat to leave.

"I'm taking Bella out for a meal", he smiled. He walked closer to me and bent down so he could whisper in my ear. "Don't tell anyone, because I want it to be a surprise, but I'm going to ask her to marry me" he whispered before standing up to his normal height again.

My eyes filled with tears and my smile was huge. I pushed him towards the door and watched him leave.

There he went, to get engaged. I couldn't believe it!

My tears fell into the sieve as I washed the king prawns. I couldn't believe they had only been married three weeks before it was all over.

Such, a cruel, cruel world.

Memories: Renée

Renée POV

I laid, awake, staring at the ceiling. Charlie had finally managed to go to sleep and was snoring loudly next to me. I didn't dare go to sleep. Because when the darkness took over, a scene played. A scene involving my beautiful baby girl. With her chocolate brown hair flowing down her back and swaying from side to side as she skipped. Her eyes wide with happiness and a smile that showed the world her feelings at that moment.

"Would you like to know the sex of your baby?" asked the nurse. I turned to look at Charlie. He squeezed my hand before nodding yes and taking a deep breath.

"Yes please" I said turning back to look at the screen. I felt something move over my tummy and the picture change on the screen.

"Mr and Mrs Swan, you're having a baby girl" she said smiling at us. I felt the tears well up in my eyes.

"It's Isabella Marie Swan then" I whispered to Charlie who also had tears in his eyes. I studied his expression-complete bliss.

The tears ran freely down my cheeks, but I didn't bother to wipe them away. What was the point? I knew that as soon as I had wiped them away that they would be back. Here I laid, wide awake, crying over my dead daughter. Pathetic! What was crying going to do? Nothing was the answer. Nothing! It wasn't going to bring her back was it. She was dead –forever. And I didn't know if I could handle that.

"Mom" she called from the bottom of the stairs "I brought a friend home from school today" I rushed down the stairs and saw a boy stood hand in hand with my baby girl. "Mom, this is Jacob...he's um sort of my erm...boyfriend" she said ducking her head and blushing a deep red.

So many emotions running through my mind: Anger at the thought that this boy was touching my baby girl and kissing her. Sadness at the realisation that she wasn't a baby anymore, she was 15. Happiness that she had found her first love. Jealousy at the thought that he might get to be with her forever. But most of all bliss. Bliss, because she had what she wanted, someone who loved her very much.

"Hello Mrs Swan, it's nice to meet you" said Jacob holding out his hand.

I laughed "Call me Renée Jacob" I said pulling him into a hug. Bella smiled hugely at me. I pulled her into the hug aswell.

"Thanks mom" she whispered into my ear.

How much I hated that boy. I knew I should've forced him to leave, done everything in my power to not have them together. How I should've told Bella that he was not right for her when I saw them together. I had always thought that he didn't look right next to my oddly pale daughter. How I should've given different advice when Bella rang me in tears saying Jacob had scared her. If only I had told her to come home and not go back to him. Not go back to him the time he cheated on her with Leah Clearwater. Just any excuse for her not to go back to him.

If only I had done all that stuff then I could sleep peacefully and Bella and Edward would be breathing.

"Mom" she cried down the phone. "Mom, he's been cheating on me" she sobbed. I gasped.

"Oh honey, oh baby girl" I soothed. "Do you want to come round and talk about it baby?" I asked.

"No" she said hiccupping "I'm not going anywhere, I'm scared he'll come after me. He thinks I'm going to leave him" she sobbed. I knew she loved Jacob dearly, but him cheating on her. He had gone too far.

"Bella, why don't you come here and invite Jacob and then we can talk about it here?" I asked.

She paused before answering "That's a good idea Mom. Thankyou for doing this. I just really want to sort everything out between us" she said calming down a bit.

"Bella, do you really want..." I said not finishing my sentence.

"Want to what Mom?" she asked.

"Nothing" I replied in a flat tone.

"Ok" she said hiccupping again "I'll see you in about half an hour with Jacob. Bye I love you" she said before hanging up.

"Want to be with him after all that he's done to you" I finished my sentence to a dead line.

Why couldn't I have just said that to her there and then on the phone. I got out of bed and walked down the stairs. I sat on the sofa and thought about how I didn't deserve to have everything that I had whilst Bella had nothing.

My baby girl had nothing.