I have come to realize a few things,
If I could say soap operas suck monkey balls, I would be so happy! Token says they have a theme to them , bull shit
I feel so empty inside , I can't stop watching my best friend who doesn't for some reason , won't hang out with us anymore
I don't remember a thing From Cylde's party, I have no clue why but Tweek stopped talking me ever since the party when he asked; did last night mean anything? I told him I didn't remember anything, what was really bad …He looked heartbroken then walked away.
Other thing I have realized, I would used to punch myself if I ever found someone like Tweek cute but , now that I can see and proven myself a fag ,Yes I've come to accept the horrible fact, albeit quite Bitterly. So it fucking hurts to Watch someone you like a lot get, who is ignoring you almost the whole day.
Tweek is not sitting at our table, he sits with Stan group talking to Butters, I watch him as he smiles at Butters Even though I haven't looked at him Cylde is glaring at me " dude just go and tell him already! This has gone on long enough …" I finally look at him "what are you talking about?" He sighs "you are hopeless man… you have been drooling over spaz ever since he stopped taking to us" Token just nodded in agreement "we see how you look at him, it's not just us anymore" I looked down at my plate " does it really show?" yes they already knew, why bother hiding it? Clyde smirks "so lover boy finally gives in?" "Fuck off" I flipped Clyde off, I lay my head on the table "you know the worse part?" they look at me confused as they ask what "that it's of all People tweek…" I shake my head, ever since I can remember I had always hated Tweek , then when he became my best friend we became even more closer and after I got drunk at that party from last week, I don't remember " what do you mean? " I look at them both " you know I hated the hell out of him for a long time and I think he did too, I never thought I would find myself falling for someone like tweek, it's that feeling you get when you feel warm from the sun I guess.. " "Dude what the hell are you talking about? " I shake my head as I smirk "you guys are real assholes"
Token just smirks "I think he's talking about some movie, but really when are you going to tell him?" I look over at Tweek , who is still talking to Stan group " I'm not, he's not going to find out ether " I glare at them " so you're just going to wait and see how this plays out?" I just shrugged "for the most part" they look at each other, Cylde just glared " he's going to find out sooner or later, you know that" " and when he does, he'll ether tell me or-" Token cut me off " leave us?" I looked down, as much as I hated the idea, it would happen sooner or later, all I could do is wait, Clyde just glared "I can't believe you, even after what happen at the party?" "I told you I don't remember that shit "I found myself looking at Tweek again, I hear Clyde sigh" Craig you-"Token cuts him off as he punches him in the leg " shut up Clyde! Not yet" I look back at them confused as all hell "what are you talking about?" I asked raising an eye, Cylde growled at Token then just stood and left the lunch room "don't worry he'll come around" I just rolled my eyes "whatever" was else was there to say?
I wait by Tweek's Locker, hoping to finally talk to him and know why he is avoiding me all day, I type my foot as I look up at the ceiling Tweek should be here soon. I finally see in the corner of my eye, a blong with long blond hair I let a smirk play across my face as side glace at him " hey tweekers" He jumps a little and looks at me as he opens his Locker " Cr-craig!? " I smirk at him as I watched him put away his books and get new ones "wanna walk to class" "Nngh-no!" I blinked did I hear him right? "Okay, you want me to hold your books they look heavy" he finally closes his locker and starts to rush off, oh hell no! I grab his arm and stop him "what the hell is your problem?!" "L-let me go! Oh god! Please don't kill me!" He begged "not til you tell me why you been hiding from me!?" I started to pull out starting to have another one of his spaz attack "L-let go of me Craig! I can't take this! " He yelled, I tighten my grib on his arm "tell me! Aren't we best friends!? You tell me everything!" I finally let go, I found my anger taking over, and he ran off "GET BACK HERE ASSHOLE!" I yell at him. Fuck! I hit my head against my locker; I scared him away "Clyde stop!" I hear token and look to find Cylde storming down the hall to me glaring at me while Token was trying to catch up with him, I feel my cheek start to burn red as I feel to the floor "god damnit!" I looked up at the asshole who punched me; my eyes widen "c-Clyde?" he looked pissed off. He grabbed me and pulled me off the ground and shove me against the lockers " you fucking asshole! Do you even know what you are doing to Spaz!?" I yelled in my face, I glared back and kicked him in the balls; he finally backs away "back off asshole!" I punch him in the nose I can the warm blood as I look at it, I didn't like this.
My nose is bleeding as my eye is half close as I lay against the lockers, I'm waiting for the final but nothing happens, I feel someone wrap their arms around me when I open my eyes I can only see blond hair as someone holds me close while I watch Token with Mr. Mackey helping "alright who started it!" he glares at both of us "it was Clyde he did it!" Stan called from his group, Cylde finally breaks away and smirks "yeah that's right I did it!" he glared at me as Tweek held me close "n-no more... no more fighting Nngh- please c-Craig" He's crying , he's barely even twitching " tweek…" was all I could say before I hear Clyde yelling over us as he is dragged away, I can only do the thing that comes to mind as tweek cries begging me and asking me if I'm alright , I wrap my arms around him and tell him everything is fine.
One of the teachers dragged me away, taking me to the nurse office, finally she says I'm free to go, I thank her and leave.
I find only token waiting on me, he looks upset with me "you okay?" I shrugged "truth? No, I feel like the worse jackass that ever walked the planet "he just shook his head and asked how was he doing "look at yourself, Clyde did this" "yeah and I don't even know why, whatever I did it must have piss him off "Token looks worried at me we don't say anything, I finally asked how is tweek handling this
"He's upset and maybe even hiding, he was worried about you, I saw him up here but I think he was still scared and ran off when he saw me.
I sighed "Might as well look for him " he open his mouth about to say but stops himself "token, if you know anything about what happened and why Clyde did that, then you better tell me now" he looked down "do you really want to know what happened at party? Why Tweek hasn't been talking to you?" I look at him in eye, he knew this whole time, god damnit what could be so damn bad that my own friends are hiding things from me "Token what happened, I need to know" He sighed "I didn't anything but Clyde saw most of it, you were drunk out of your mind, Clyde told me he was about to have sex in the bedroom when he saw…" "What?" he looked down "you and tweek, were in bed having sex "it was a real brain fucker, I was speechless, I-I couldn't think of anything! I had sex with my best friend! This explains so much, why Tweek hasn't been talking to me or why he asked me if it meant anything. Which I still don't know, finally I found my words "and that's-that's why Clyde got pissed at me?" "When you told us you weren't going to tell him your feelings, Clyde just knew that plan wasn't going to work, you would just hurt Tweek more, his words not mine dude!" He sighed and looked at me, Token didn't side with me or Clyde it was weird, I felt bad for getting him into this whole thing " sorry " he looked confused " for what?" "For getting you into-"he cut me off "it's okay, but save your sorry for Tweek he still scared about what happened" "did you see which way he went?" Token pointed down the hall which lead to the library, we said our goodbyes and I walked away.
I walked into the library , I started walking down the rows of Books, I finally hear crying I looked at the back and found Tweek sitting down with his knees' held close to together, I slowly walked up, he snapped his head up "ACK!" he sniffed " well hello to you too, what are you doing here?" He sniffed still twitching "nngh- I was scared-scared, so much blood! I-I couldn't take it" I sat down beside him "hey calm down, it's not like this hasn't happen before-"He cut me off "b-but it was you and Clyde! I-I don't want to lose my friends over something so –so oh fuck! Like this!" I see new tears start to fall, I sighed and put an arm around him "you wanna get out of here and go for a walk?" He looks at me with his brown eyes his mouth is open half way and he nodded, I finally stand up and hold out my hand "you just going to sit there or are you ready?" he grabbed my hand; I pulled him off the ground "alright stop cry-" I think my heart just stopped as I feel Tweek hug me, no one has ever hugged me if they did I would kick there ass but I started to feel something , I've never felt this way before and this is because just by some simple hug?! We finally break the hug, his face is red. I sighed trying to calm down as I push away his tears "come on lets go "I grabbed his arm and pulled him out as we started walking off the school grounds.
We walk down the street not really seeing anyone, I didn't know what to say he would twitch every couple of seconds, I found him looking at my cuts and burses "Nngh! Ho-how can you stand doing that!? You could have been killed!" "If I was, then how am I talking to you?" I smirked as I notice we had stopped walking "No-not funny! You-you got hurt more then you usually do oh god! I should have stop-"I didn't know how to stop his tears, all I did was hug him "you really are a wreck Tweek" his hair was still as messy as always, I ran my fingers though his hair he looked up at me with brown eyes confused. I sighed and finally broke our hug smiling "you wanna talk over coffee?" I raised an eye, He nodded "o-okay"
