A/N: Okay here is the the first of new chapters. I hope its not too long. Enjoy


I pace aroun the mansion, tryng to hide the worry and fear on my face from those who pass me by.

He's been gone for hous on end and I'm beginning to worry and wonder where he is. Could something have happened to him? Could Magneto's goons have gotten him? Sinister's perhaps? My mind runs wild as I begin to run down the hall way, ignoring those who see me until I run into someone.

I pick myself up off of the floor and when I look up I see you standing there in your blue jeans, white wife beater under your leather jacket, boots and a cowboy hat to top it off. I haven't seen you in months and at first I am startled to see you standing there but then I realize that you've just come back from another trip of trying to find yourself. Isn't it funny how you always end up back where you started? And your timing couldn't have been worse because I am standing here before you in a nervous wreck and my husband no where to be found.

You ask whats wrong and as I try to compose myself I tell you that everything is fine but you glare at me with your gental but stirn eyes. You know that I am lying and I know eventually you will find out if I do not tell you now and so I tell you the truth. I tell you that Scott's gone and has been for several hours. He left after a fight that we had. You've been gone for so long, that you don't know how things have changed. I tell you what happened to Scott and he hasn't been himself after he was Apocolypse's host. He nearly killed himself and if I hadn't been there to stop him, well I wouldn't be worrying about wherehe is right now.

Your face immedately changes from worry about me to anger at the man I love. The fact that Scott hasn't been himself doesn't phase you and maybe its because your thinking he has never been himself until now. You are afraid that he will hurt me, physically, now that you know what has happened to him and this only gives you more reason to want to protect me from everything, including Scott.

"Use your telepathy to find 'im." You say simply but sharply. You no longer met my gaze as you are, undoubtedly, all ready planning on how you will kill him.

"I can't." I simply replied but you don't understand and so I must explain further, "Since Scott was taken host by Apocalypse, I can't ge into his mind. Apocolypse may not have been a telepath but his mind barriers are damn good ones. There is a slight chance that I could get into his mind if I really really wanted to but he would have to allow me in through our specia connection but he won't let me in and when he doesn't let me in, somethings wrong."

"I coulda told ya that, Red." You say trying to make me laugh but I only give you a weak smile. Tears are in my eyes as I look away from you. Tons of ideas are cominh inton my mind as I try not to cry. We had had a fight. It was so stupid that I don't even remember what it was about.

Suddenly, I am over come with emotions and can not control them. I hate doing this infront of you but I can not help it and you seem to understand as you gently take me off my feet and carry me to my room as if you were my man but you know that your not. You lay me on my bed and are about to leave when I stop you with my words.

"Don't kill him Logan."

"What makes you think I'm donna kill 'im?" You ask innocently but you all ready know the answer. I am a telepath but I don't have to read your mind to know how you feel about the man I love.

"Logan, the look in your eyes is all I know how angry you are at Scott. Please don't harm him." I plead with you in between cries.

"Sure Red. Whatever ya say." You say and leave the room and close the door just before I can tell you the rest of the truth but I voice it anyway.

"I'm pregnate." I know you hear and I wanted you to hear. I had to tell someone before it drove me insane but I had something else to worry about. When I was talking to you, Scott allowed me into his mind through our link and I found where he was.

He was with her. The White Queen and he's been with her for the past five hours.

Does he know what he's doing?
Does he know that what he has done has not only hurt me but will affect his unborn child?

I can't pry into his mind any further for he has locked me out and even if I could I don't think I would because it would hurt too much.

My anger is now consuming me and I can't think about anything, anything but you.


A/N:Please Review. Logan's thoughts are next and then Scott's after that I think. I'll get that up as soon as I can