Make me whole again

Title: Make Me Whole

Pairing: Butters x Kenny

Raiting: K+

Author: Crazyneko09

Disclaimer: I don´t own the characters in this story.

Chapter 3

One hundred tears, fifty handkerchiefs and a pot of Ben and Jerry's later I'm finally able to form normal sentences again.
I still sniff a bit and the handkerchiefs are still in my reach, but I already feel a lot better.
Even now it's hard to believe that I´m actually sitting on Kenny's couch, covered in a blanket that Kenny brought me the moment I started to shiver, probably mistaken my shaking for feeling cold.
Or maybe he somehow knew that what I needed most at that moment was something warm and comfortable to calm myself. Some kind of warmth to fill the big gap in my heart.
He could have just left me alone at that point, for he had already done so much for me, but he just sat there embracing me and whispering soothing words that I can't possibly all remember.
But that's exactly what I want, to remember every single nice words leaving his lips and brand them into my heart.
I don't know if I will hear such gentle words again any time soon and I'm scared that I'll forget them.
That this moment and all my memories will just vanish and I wake up to find myself alone in my room again.
"Oww", but a sudden pain brings me back to reality, making sure that I know, that this is not a dream.
I place my hand on my hip, rubbing the place where Kenny just poked me, hard.
"Why…did you do that?", I nervously look at him, not sure how to interpret the act.
He grins, poking my nose this time, but not so rough, just barely touching it. I still blink.
Just when I´m about to open my eyes again, he places his hand above my eyes, making it impossible for me to see anything.
"Kenny?", I could easily take his hand away, but I leave it there. Not even sure myself why I do so.
It just feels right, to trust Kenny. He's a….my friend isn't he? Friends wouldn't so something that would harm one another. And Kenny has proven more than once that he cares about me.
So I decide to surprise him, by not doing anything. Not shying away, or stuttering and showing him any kind of uneasiness.
"You´re not moving Butters", his voice sounds pleased.
Like I finally solved a really hard puzzle or some kind of quiz.
"I know. And it feels good…to trust I mean. I can trust you right?", the words come out more hushed than I wanted them to be.
This question means so much to me, yet I can't be sure that it'll mean the same to him.
What does trust mean to Kenny?
But I don't get an answer, instead he chuckles and leans his head against mine, our noses brushing.
I let out a surprised gasp, nearly forgetting not to move.
That's what this is all about right? Trust.
He's doing this to see if I'll shy away again. But I'm not going to, not this time.
I can feel his breath against my face and his hair tickling me just a little. All of this is so new to me.
This feeling of closeness, of being convinced that Kenny doesn't mean me any harm and that I can believe in him. It's so weird, but oh so mind-blowing.
I don't even question his intensions, as to why he is so close to me, he's just testing me right? That's what friends do, or not?
But the next question takes me by surprise.
"Have you ever kissed someone Butters?".
Of course I didn't. Who could I have probably kissed or better who would have let me kiss them?
But I'm not sure if I want to admit that yet. It could destroy the moment we have right now, making him realize that I'm really just some friendless looser.
"Of course I have…I mean I'm sixteen right? So I should have had my first kiss already, huh. What a funny question Kenny". I stumble upon my own words and I know that they sound fake, but what else can I do? Admit that I will probably never receive my first kiss, because I'm merely hated?
"It's nothing to be embarrassed about you know? You don't have to pretend Butters", he laughs, his face still close to mine and I can't help but shiver from the sensation of him breathing down my neck. I squirm a bit wanting to escape the ticklish feeling, but he doesn't let me and I begin to think that he finds this situation rather amusing, because he lets out a really long breath, teasing me and making me giggle.
"I wasn't lying…stop…please sto..op", I manage to say as another wave of air makes me chuckle.
"Not lying, hm?", he stops his attack to speak, " So then why don't you tell me about your experiences Buttercup? Or better, why don't you demonstrate them to me?".
He takes his hand away and I blush. Buttercup?
"You can open them, you know?".
But I'm not going to, how can I look him in the eyes now? That was a joke right?
No reason to get so worked up, Butters! Or to blush like some crazy schoolgirl who receives her first love letter.
Slowly I open my eyes and try to look calm. It's not working, though.
How could I be calm with Kenny's face just millimeters away and him talking about kissing?
Nervously I stare at his lips, how many girls have already fantasized about this chance, how many boys have lost their selves in those blue eyes?
"Why so nervous Butters, I thought you've done this before. Surely this will be no problem at all for you, right?", I don't have to look at his eyes to know that they have a teasingly gleam in them right now. Provoking me to do something I've never done and he knows that. I can hear it in his voice, he knows that I'm lying.
Of course Kenny would know, he's an expert at this kind of thing.
He titles his head a bit and I freeze, his lips barely touching mine, not moving just lingering there.
"Why don't you just admit that you lied?", his voice is soft as he talks against my lips with a calmness as if he is talking about the weather. How did it come to this?

A/N: I just love cliffhangers, don't you ;)?
This chapter is for Kylee Carr , because she oh so kindly told me to update soon :P

Til next chapter :) Oh and also: if you have any ideas or wishes for the story, feel free to write them down, maybe I'll put them in the next chapter.

Kenny

Butters

I don't want this moment to ever end,
Where everything's nothing without you.
I'd wait here forever just to, to see you smile,
'Cause it's true, I am nothing without you.

Through it all, I've made my mistakes.
I stumble and fall, but I mean these words.

I want you to know,
With everything I won't let this go.
These words are my heart and soul.
I'll hold on to this moment, you know,
As I bleed my heart out to show,
And I won't let go.

This song totally reminded me of the situation the characters are recently going through in this chapter : ) It´s "With me" by Sum 41