I KNOW THIS CHAPTER HAS TAKEN FOREVER TO PUT UP BUT I'VE HAD SO MUCH GOING ON AND I HAVE HAD IT READY FOR A WHILE AND JUST KEPT FORGETTING TO PUT IT UP.
ANYWAY UM YEAH I'M SORRY AND I HOPE YOU LIKE IT, THERE WILL BE MORE AND HOPEFULLY IT WONT TAKE AS LONG. ALSO I KNOW THIS CHAPTER MAY BE A LITTLE BORING BUT IT IS WORKING UP TO SOMETHING.
ENJOY! =)
Naomi's story
"yeah bye mum" Naomi shouted down the stairs to her mum who was of to another protest somewhere in London. As Naomi lay on her bed attempting to read a book, a book that she had been reading the same chapter from for quite some time. All Naomi could think about was Emily, she was meant to be coming over and it was going to be the first time they would be in the house alone, she couldn't help but wonder how the conversation with her parents had gone. If it wasn't for Katie coming back from Danny's party early and catching them together in a rather compromising position then there would have been nothing to worry about except for the huge argument that occurred in the kitchen the following day. Actually it wasn't Katie's not so perfect timing that was the problem, it was her big mouth. She was so annoyed that Emily wasn't backing down on the argument that out off spite she told their parent's about them then left for Danny's, leaving Em to deal with it.
When Em phoned Naomi explaining what had happened she told Emily she could come over and they could talk about it then over ice cream and a film. Truth is Naomi couldn't understand why she was so nervous about Emily coming over. Her and Emily had been alone together loads of times, but not in her house and this time she just couldn't get this anxious feeling out of the pit of her stomach.
There's a knock at the door which knock's Naomi's train of thought right of the tracks. As she stands up she takes a deep breath, she then walks down the stairs and through the fogged up glass she see's Emily's silhouette and every worry Naomi might have had just disappears.
Naomi opens the door and standing there is everything Naomi had convinced herself she would never have, as Emily kisses her she then walks in and turns around and holds up a clear carrier bag which contains a tub of mint choc-chip ice cream "woo my favourite how'd you know?" "oh um I didn't but its my favourite so I just though you'd have to live with it" Emily does a little shy smile which causes Naomi's knees to feel slightly weak. What was wrong with her why did she feel so weird today?
Emily begins to walk into the living room but Naomi stops her " you know, there's a T.V in my room and my bed would be way more comfy then this sofa" Naomi gives Emily a cheeky smile and bites her lip and as she begins to ascend the stairs she turns her head to make sure Emily was watching her, which she was with eyes widened.
After they had been kissing for quite a while Naomi could tell there were other things on Emily's mind. " right well we should stop this right now and do what you came here to do which is talk about what happened after the last time we were, well doing this" Emily sighs at the thought of having to talk about it but she knew that she needed to get it out her system and who better then her girlfriend.
As Emily sat there she thought back to the argument between her and Katie. After she had caught her and Naomi together she just stood there for a moment looking half confused half angry and Emily could have sworn she saw a slight sadness behind her eyes but before Emily could say anything Katie slammed the door and left, Emily could see her standing outside on the phone and about 5 minutes later Danny was there picking her up, even though the situation was far from a good one Emily couldn't help but giggle a little when Danny tried to kiss her and she just pushed him away which was weird for Katie who never passed up the opportunity to make out with her boyfriend.
When Katie and Danny had finally driven of Emily turned to Naomi and explained that she needed some time to think about things but after seeing the worried look on Naomi's face she explained that it wasn't time to think about them but about how she was going to deal with the situation. Emily knew full well that if Katie knew then next would be her parents and then the whole collage, so Naomi left.
The next morning when Emily was in the kitchen after a pretty sleepless night pouring herself a coffee she heard the door slam and knew for a fact that this was it "Katie? Is that you?" Katie turned up behind her leaning on the door way " who else would it unless you've given that whore a key" "Katie please don't ok. No I haven't given her a key and don't call her a whore ok she's my girlfriend" Emily felt good saying it out loud and she loved standing up to Katie. "you're girlfriend! what are you retarded, Ems you cant call her you're girlfriend people will start to talk, you're not gay you're just being stupid" " Katie I'm not stupid and I am gay alright so you know what just, just deal with it ok I'm tired, I'm tired of living in you're shadow, of being 'the twin', I'm not you Katie and I never will be so just stop trying to change me"
"I'm not telling you to be like me I'm just saying that you cant like girls, you like guys ok end of story" "what! You know what Katie I'm glad I'm nothing like you, someone who just goes from guy to guy until you get bored and the only reason you hate that I'm with Naomi is cause you're jealous that I've found someone I love"
Emily was shocked by her sudden outburst but didn't regret it so she stood there not willing to back down no matter what Katie said to her but Katie just stood there, she seemed more shocked then Emily felt, she even looked hurt " you you love her" Katie spun around and went in to the living room and all Emily could hear was her life slowly falling apart around her.
"Em hey Em hello hey are you ok" Emily snaps back to her and Naomi in Naomi's room "hey em you kind of zoned out" "yeah sorry I was just thinking about it you know" " okay so what happened with your parent?" " well after Katie burst into the living room and blurted out 'Emily's gay and she's fucking a girl' well things just went pretty shit from there not that they where a bed of roses before but. So my mum calls me in right after Katie escaped through the front door you'd swear she was a ghost she was so bloody pale and my dad well he just stood up kissed me on the head and said he loves me no matter what then he too escaped out to the garage probably didn't want to get caught in the explosion that is my mum. Anyway mum just kind of sat there I thought she'd had a heart attack or something but then she just seemed to shake it of then she picked up her cup of tea and said that she would have words with Katie about telling lies then continued sipping on her fucking tea". "well then whats the problem, she thought Katie was lying that's a good thing right" After looking at Emilys face for several seconds Naomi knew that there was more and that she wasn't gonna like it. After taking a deep breath Emily continues "I was just so sick of everyone walking all over me, off never being noticed or listened to and I was so fucking pissed of that she was just sitting there sipping her bloody tea" Naomi could see that Emily was getting agitated which was weird cause she's never actually seen Emily so angry before, she'd seen her pretending to be angry to hide sadness but this was different, it was like the more Emily thought about it the more the sadness left her eyes and all that was left was resentment. "Em look just calm down ok. What did you say to her cause its obvious you didn't just leave it like that if it made you feel this way". "what could I say I just told her that Katie wasn't lying and I was even calm about it which is what shocked my mum more, the fact that I said it so naturally I just said that Katie wasn't lying and that I wasn't just sleeping with a girl but I was in love with her" once Emily had realized what she had said she wished she could have taking it back, not cause she didn't mean it but because she knew Naomi didn't feel that way about her. "Em I….I but I" Naomi was frozen she felt numb but she didn't want Emily to take it back but did she love her back. Was it love she felt, how would she know.
Emily stood up slowly in the hope that Naomi might grab her hand and reciprocate her feelings but Naomi did and said nothing so Emily quickly decided that she should leave so as to make things less awkward. "look I should go I mean I need to speak to Katie and my mum god knows what il say but um yeah so il see you soon" Emily gathered all of her things as quickly as she could while Naomi just sat there lost in thought and didn't even realize Emily had gone until she heard the door slam.
'Oh shit' 'Fuck' when Naomi had finally returned from her thoughts she had noticed that Emily had left. She wondered about why she had felt so weird all day, Was it love? Is that what this feeling was, this feeling she couldn't describe that made her feel like she was on a natural high, a high that no drug had ever given her. But while she had been trying to figure that out Emily had left. Naomi wanted to go after her but what could she say 'oh hey yeah Em the reason I totally ignored you when you told me you loved me was because I was contemplating if I loved you and I've come to the conclusion that I might but I'm not sure so don't hold me to it' 'Yeah nice one Naomi that will work' she laughed as she fell back onto her bed smothering her head with her pillow trying to wish herself back in time. She threw her pillow across the room sat up and screamed, not a loud scream but more of a pathetic excuse at a scream through her teeth.
She got off the bad grabbed her bag and her phone and went outside she didn't even know where she was going all she knew was that she couldn't think while she was stuck at home and she couldn't see Emily until she knew what this feeling was. She had been walking for what felt like forever stopping every now and then to see what was around her, like she was trying to find the perfect thinking spot and then she found it. The bridge, she'd passed it all the time and never really took much notice, to her it was just a bridge with water below it but now it just seemed to call to her like It was cosmic or something but whatever it was Naomi was drawn to it.
