Trigger Warning: This is where things get serious! RATED M!

First appearance of the Hummel-Hudson's! Someone makes a surprise visit! And Kurt decides something!

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Chapter Four: Dinner

Isat crying in my room until I heard my Dad call for me to come downstairs for dinner. I shook my head as a silent refusal to my father's request. I didn't need to eat, I was already too fat and Blaine was going to leave me!

"Kurt! Dinner!",my dad called again sounding more insistent. I wiped my eyes and felt my stomach growl. No! I thought to myself sternly. You don't need to be fed! You Cow!

"Kurt Elizabeth Hummel if you don't come down now you're going to bed hungry.",Dad called and I shook my head again, willing away the rumbling in my stomach. Suddenly there was a soft knock on the door.

"Kurt?",I recognized the voice as Rachel's and quickly looked at my red eyes in the mirror before pinching my cheeks and trying to make myself look as presentable as I could as Rachel continued to knock on the door. Once I decided I'd be alright I walked over to the door.

"Tell my Dad I'm not hungry.",I told her through the wood.

"Kurt open the door, I can barely hear you.",she said and I sighed before opening the door a bit.

"Kurt, have you been crying?",she asked her voice full of concern as she pushed the door open wider. I shook my head and looked down at my feet. Rachel looked at me with a strange look before she smiled softly, "Don't cry Kurt, everything will get better with Blaine, you'll see.",she said and touched my arm. I nodded in appreciation for her comment, "You know it's really too bad you're not coming downstairs. Burt said Carole made your favorite. She's going to be so hurt…",I sighed and looked down at my stomach, which was growling and giving me away. Rachel heard the growl and smiled up at me knowingly.

"Fine, I'll eat.",I sighed and Rachel gave me a wide smile as she took my hand.

I heard Carole and Finn laughing about something in the dining room as we got downstairs, but when I walked into the dining room I didn't expect to see four people sitting around the table waiting for us. I stopped in my tracks as I took in Blaine sitting there laughing with my family. Blaine looked up at me and gave me a small smile that didn't reach his eyes. "Excuse me for a moment please.",he said and got approval from Carole. Neither she nor my dad had noticed my presence at the door. Blaine walked over and took my hand from Rachel to pull me into the living room. Rachel let me go even when I gave her a look that was pure hatred for her trickery. Because I had noticed Carole had not made my favorite dish, she had made an old casserole that she and a twelve year old Finn had created one night before she had to go to work. She called it quick and cheap casserole. This was all a plot to get me and Blaine to talk.

"Hi.",Blaine spoke softly once we were away from the noise. His hand came up to stroke my cheek but I pulled away. Mostly because I didn't want him to feel how chubby my cheek had gotten, "Kurt, I wanted to text you but, you know that stupid mall doesn't allow anyone a signal.",Blaine said and I shook my head in disgust.

"So you still went, WITH HIM!",I hissed and a fresh round of tears threatened to spill.

"No, I cut him loose right after you left the Lima Bean. I've told you darling, he's nothing to me.",Blaine said and I repressed the urge to repeat my previous point, that it didn't matter what Blaine told me, all that mattered is what Blaine told Sebastian, but instead I just nodded softly. I didn't have enough energy to argue, "Your Dad invited me over, I came here to apologize.",he said and I nodded again, "I brought you your favorite pistachio ice cream from that shop in the mall that we always go to.",Blaine said, obviously trying to get some happiness out of me, but I only nodded once more. Do I look like I need pistachio ice cream? I thought as my stomach grumbled again, "You want to go eat?",he asked and I looked down at the floor and nodded again, "Okay.",Blaine said and wrapped his arm around me as we walked back into the dining room. I just noticed how close Blaine had to get to me to be able to reach all the way around my back. God it's sickening. I thought silently as Blaine and I took our places and began to make our plates.

I made sure to take a tiny helping of the main dish and completely pass up on the dinner rolls which usually I loved which is probably why I look this way. Carole and my dad exchanged a look before continuing their meal in silence, which I was grateful for. I nearly cried at every bite I took. I could literally feel every bite slide down my throat to store in my hips. Blaine's helping was at least double of mine and he ate it quickly as he continued a conversation with the rest of the family. Lucky Blaine could eat anything and still be beautiful, I thought enviously at my boyfriend. Blaine looked over at me. "You want some more Kurt? You barely had any.",he said offering his plate to me. But I shook my head and looked down at my food to try and hide the tears in my eyes. Every bite was one more reason for Blaine to leave me.

I finished my meal with a trembling lip. "Excuse me.",I muttered as I rose from my seat. Blaine got up to follow but I shook my head at him before walking out of the room. Once I was out of sight, I allowed a few tears to make their way down my cheek. I climbed the stairs two at a time hoping to burn away any of the impending fat that the food I just ate was threatening to create. Once I was at the top, I walked into my bathroom and locked the door behind me. I went to stand in front of the mirror and looked down at the porcelain sink. I stood there for a long moment before looking up at myself. Blaine would love me more if I was perfect. He would love me more if I was thin like Sebastian. I could be thin like Sebastian. It would help me get into NYADA if I wasn't as big as a house when I auditioned. My eyes locked with my reflection as my lips trembled. I knew what I had to do and with a silent nod I walked over and leaned over the toilet.

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