Hey there guys... so since I'm doing a night shift tomorrow night I have to stay up late so I can sleep in tomorrow and that is the reason why I am uploading this chapter tonight because I have time on my hands at the moment.

Anyway I'm so glad that you guys love this story just as much as I do and thank you to the reviewer who pointed out that I made a mistake... Lucas's surname is Roe not Scott just so you guys know.

Enjoy!

This wasn't right… sneaking around with my bestfriends fiancée was just wrong, but for some reason whenever we meet up I just let it slip my mind that his engaged to Peyton and we just have so much fun. Like yesterday he took me out of town for the day, we went ice skating and I must admit it was properly one of the best times of my life. He made me feel special like no other guy I have dated in the past. Lucas Roe is different… yeah his engaged to my bestfriend, but I saw him first and that is the only defence I'm supporting right now.

But now it's 4 weeks later and I haven't heard from him. No text. No call. No email. It was very weird, but I let it pass. I saw Peyton now and again, but not Lucas until one party we were all invited too, but he avoided me the whole time…. Weird I know, but everyone was there… but then I found him alone outside I took this as my chance to confront him and even then I didn't get much out of him.

"Why you avoiding me?" I ask sliding the double doors shut so no one could hear us, but he said nothing "Lucas… why you avoiding me?"

"I'm not avoiding you Brooke" He replies obviously lying. He couldn't even look at me. He just looked ahead at the beautiful New York lights.

"Oh really that's why you haven't called me in almost a month" I respond "Ditching my calls Luke, if that's not you avoiding me then I don't know what is"

"Brooke…" He finally turns to me and goes to speak again when the double doors slide back open.

"Oh there you are baby" It was Peyton "My two favourite people ever" She continues stumbling over to Lucas and planting a kiss on his lips.

"You drunk babe?" Lucas asks as they pull apart. He looks at me then back to his fiancée.

"No" Peyton protests and Lucas just gives her a look "Okay fine maybe a little"

"Yeah that's what I thought" Lucas held her up "Come on babe let's take you home"

And then Peyton grabbed Lucas and planted a big kiss on him which he didn't stop of course. He was the one that deepened it and I don't know whether he was making a statement to me, but I got the message loud and clear and even if that broke my heart; I knew he was never going to call the wedding off.

"Yeah I'm going to go" I say not that they were listening "Bye" I whisper as a tear slipped down my cheek. I wipe it away walking pass them and see Lucas's eyes lock with mine. He saw the tear. I just closed my eyes and headed out of the party.

Then ever since that night at that party Lucas had been trying to call me, but I just ignored it. I ignored him and it was driving me nuts because I had been falling for him and as I was starting to get sucked in he spat me out, so I messaged him saying 'it was a mistake. Everything was a mistake and it happened and now it's over' He didn't like that because he replied 'None of it was a mistake Brooke. Please just listen to me', but instead of replying I just left the conversation hanging and hadn't spoken to him since. So here we are now pulling up to the cabin in the 7 seated car we rented. I stopped and turned off the engine. The whole ride was full of awkward silences. Haley and Rachel grunting at each other. Nathan not saying anything then you had the big awkward mess between Lucas and I which I tried to avoid eye contact with him at all times and then you had Peyton who would bring up the wedding every 10 minutes or so. It was the longest ride of my life.

"Finally" Rachel grunts sliding the car door open and jumping out "I forgot it takes 3 hours just to drive up here"

"Yeah tell me about it" Peyton mutters taking her bag from the trunk and heading inside.

"We should really talk Brooke" I hear Lucas whisper from behind me as I retrieve my bag.

"There's nothing to talk about Luke" I whisper back "It happened and it's done" I avoid eye contact as I push pass him and heading into the cabin myself.

-x-

We've been here for about 5 hours now. Everyone was doing their own thing, so I walked into the kitchen to see Rachel preparing dinner for the night. She never was a good cook, but lately she had gotten better. Not as good as me of course, but she wasn't too bad. I walk over to her as she stirs the pot once more "You need to be nice to Haley" I say to Rachel as I jump up on the counter while she makes some food for us all. She hadn't even tried and I was trying for Nathan's sake.

"No I don't" Rachel shakes her head "I agreed to come didn't I; isn't that enough?"

"No it isn't Rach, why can't you at least try?"

"Because I don't like her and everyone here knows it including her" She replies turning to face me "Nathan is dating her and I feel sorry for him, but the Haley James I know is and always will be a bitch and I don't want to befriend her" I the thought back to the time when Rachel had officially hated Haley James...

Rachel was dating big shot soccer star Ryan Jackson. They had been dating 2 years when she had finally let all her guards down and fell in love with him. After everything she went through throughout life she found it hard to trust people because she was use to people leaving her and that screwed her up in so many ways since her parents left when she was 10.

Rachel had stayed over mine because she didn't want to be alone one Saturday and Ryan was out at some party, but she didn't want to go... Rachel and I went to parties don't get me wrong, but this one party we decided not to go too so we made a night out of it and ate ice-cream. The next morning Rachel told me she was going over to Ryan's because she promised him she would go over once she was dressed. So I was tiding up everyone when I got the phone call of Rachel crying and telling me she needed me. So I dropped everything and went over to see her.

Once I got there I found her in her room sitting in the corner of her bedroom with her knees up against her body. Her head was buried in her knees and my heart broke seeing my bestfriend so broken. I slowly walked over towards her and bent down "Rachel" I mutter as I hear her low sobs. What the hell happened at Ryan's place "Rachel what happened?"

"He-He" She sobbed moving her head up so I could see her face. Tears were streaming down her cheeks and her hair seemed to be attached to her cheek by the wetness "He..."

"Rachel sweetie tell me what happened?" I move closer "What happened?"

"I saw them together" She says quietly that if I was so close to her I wouldn't have heard anything that came out of her mouth "I went to go see him like I promised and I saw them... they were there in his bed. The bed we shared"

I was lost... well actually I had a hint of what she was trying to tell me, but I wasn't sure if I wanted to be right. I didn't want to be right for her sake because then I can assure her that she's wrong, but right now my gut feeling was telling me that she was right... whatever she was telling me was the truth so I ask her the question that tastes bad on my tongue "Did Ryan sleep with someone else Rach?"Once I said those words a huge sob escaped her throat and at that moment I knew the answer to my question "Oh sweetie... I'm sorry" I pulled her into me and rocked her back at fourth soothing her. She cried into my chest and I wanted to so badly moved the pain from her, but I knew no matter what I do or say I will never be able to remove the feeling she was feeling right now.

3 hours after soothing and rocking Rachel she calmed down and sat back from me. I sat on my bum and crossed my legs looking at her. She moved some hair from her face and gave me a small smile and without saying anything I smiled back waiting for her to carrying on with what happened "I went to his just like I told you I was going to do" She says and I listened "And when I got to his place I knew the door would be open like always so I let myself in to surprise me like I always did when we were apart" She took a deep breath trying to steady her breathing and I knew why she was doing it, she was trying not to cry again "I walked up the stairs to his room, but I didn't hear him so I knew he wasn't up yet and that was good for me because my intentions was just to climb into bed with him and snuggle like I loved to do, but once I got to his bedroom door and opened it I saw her sleeping in his bed. He was on the ride side like always and she was on the left naked. They were both naked and my heart broke Brooke... and now I hurt... I hurt real bad" A tear slipped down her face again "I didn't think he'd do that to me" She says wiping the tears away "And with her of all people"

"Who Rach?" I ask curious moving closer.

"Haley" Rachel spat out "Haley James broke me Brooke"

And that is the reason why Rachel hates Haley James and I don't think she will ever be able to forgive her for breaking her first ever love apart.

I snap out of the flashback and look back at Rachel "Rach..." I go to say, but stop when I see Lucas walk in with Jake and Nathan.

"Something smells amazing" Jake says walking towards Rachel by the cooker.

"Yeah well I'm just an amazing cook" She smiles stirring the pot.

"Never use to be" I smirk at her as she sends me a glare.

"So what we talking about?" Lucas asks walking towards me stopping about an inch away. I could smell his aftershave. His way too close for my liking right now.

"Nothing" I shrug jumping down from the counter "I'm going out, I'll be back for dinner" I say walking out of the kitchen avoiding Lucas and his eyes.

-x-

I got back about 2 hours ago and everyone ate dinner and now were all sitting around the fire drinking and laughing with my friends felt like the old days when I met back u with Lucas at Brown and took him home for the holidays one year and he met everyone else, we came up to this cabin and sat around the fire like we are now and it just felt like home. It was our home. Lucas is sitting across of me and I can literally feel his eyes burn into me making me shift every 5 minutes under his gaze. I take the last gulp of my wine and stand up going into the kitchen to pour myself another when I heard footsteps behind me and I knew exactly who they belonged too because only one person I know broods like he does and that's him.

"Don't you think you've had one too many Brooke?" He asks to my surprise. Was he actually being serious?

"Who are you… my father" I spat back at him putting the wine bottle down after filling my glass "I can drink how much I like Luke" I tell him with a little slur "You can't tell me any different you're not my boyfriend remember that night was a mistake"

"I'm only looking out for you Dimples"

"Yeah well I don't need looking after Lucas" I put my hands on my hips "I'm a big girl" I state walking towards him giving him a little pat on his chest "How about you go and look after your fiancée" I snap turning on my heels and bumping into Nathan as I round the corner.

"What was that?"

"Nothing" I lie taking a sip of my drink looking away from him.

"Peyton's your bestfriend Brooke" He tells me like I don't already know that "Please tell me you're not sleeping with Lucas" I just look at him not saying anything "Oh god Brooke"

"It's over now anyway Nate, so it doesn't matter"

"I never thought you would do something like this" Okay so he doesn't have to make me feel bad. I already feel really guilty.

"Don't need to make me feel guilty Nathan… I'm already kicking myself" I tell him leaning against the wall to hold myself up as I take a big gulp of my wine.

"Just keep it that way" Nathan tells me and I just nod "Now let's not talk about it again. If it's over let's leave it that way" He then turns around and walks back into the room with the others me following in tow.

-x-

"Good morning Cookie" I see Nathan walking down the stairs and into the kitchen "Sleep well?"

"Indeed I did Mr Scott" I smile pouring myself and him a cup of coffee forgetting about what happened last night "Morning goodness" I hand him the coffee and take a big gulp. God I love this stuff.

"So did you talk to Rach?" He questions taking a sip of his coffee looking at me, he too obviously forgetting last night since his acting like it never happened, like he never gave me the judgment look. I give a small nod hiding my eyes behind my massive cup "And?"

"Nate you know they're never going to be bestfriends who braid each other's hair at sleepovers" I say taking a seat on the stool beside him "They just don't like each other"

"Yeah, but can't she at least try?"

"According to Rachel she doesn't want too" I shrug feeling pretty bad for my guy bestfriend "But you know Rach Nate, if she doesn't want to do something she won't do it and to be honest after what Haley did can you blame her... I'm surprised she still talked to you after learning that you and she had gotten together"

"Yeah I guess" He sounded disappointed "I know what Haley did wasn't right, but she's changed Brooke"

"Nate…" I go to say, but stop when I hear the others coming down the stairs.

"Hey baby" Haley says walking towards Nathan planting a kiss on his lips.

"Oh get a room" Rachel grunts with an eye roll.

"Oi Rach play nice" I warn giving her the look.

"Whatever" Was her response.

"So who's up to go shopping?" I ask trying to lighten the mood "And no wedding shopping Peyt" all the girls nodded with smiles. Oh this should be fun.

-x-

Shopping wasn't all too bad. I had to keep Rachel from Haley most of the time, but apart from that it went pretty well. No wedding talk what so ever. I was now sitting on the hammock on the front porch of the cabin reading my book when I felt a presence appear in front of me. I knew exactly who it was and all I could think about was Peyton catching us together so I didn't look up. I acted like I didn't know he was there.

"You gonna keep avoiding me?" His voice was low and husky just like when he wakes in the morning. I must admit it was pretty sexy. I didn't say anything I just flipped the page I finished reading and changed my seating position "God damn it Brooke!"

"I'm busy Lucas" I simply say keeping my eyes reading the same line since he spoke again.

"Everyone's out Brooke, so it's safe to talk" He sits down beside me and I shift from him a little pulling the cover I had around me tighter.

"There's nothing to talk about" I put my book mark in the centre of the book and close it slowly turning my eyes to look at him "I got the message loud and clear Luke"

"I'm sorry about the party" He says quickly as he sees me about to get up "I know what I did was wrong"

"You kissed your fiancé Luke… that isn't wrong" I justified with a small shrug "That's what you're meant to do" I then point between the two of us "What we were doing was wrong"

"Brooke…"

"It was the right thing you avoiding me Lucas" I cut in before he can say something that will play in my mind of what I was saying "This…" I point to him then to me again "Whatever this is or was… it's over now" I then stand up and go to walk back inside when he grabs my arm.

"Brooke…"

"No Luke…" I pat his arm away from mine "Your with Peyton and she's my bestfriend. This went further that it should have already"

"But you said you feel something for me"

"And I do. I shouldn't, but I do and I'm not going to act on it any longer. Peyton doesn't deserve this" I then walk back inside and head to my room sliding down the door once I shut it. I did the right thing… didn't I? I let the guy I'm in love with go again and for my bestfriend once again. I had to let this go. I had to let him go right?

-x-

"You alright baby" Lucas looked up to see Peyton walking in from the shower "You not sleep well?"

"Nah I just couldn't sleep" That was the truth. He couldn't sleep after the talk with Brooke last night. She had officially called whatever they were off and now there was no them or whatever they we anymore.

"Oh baby" Peyton stroked his face placing a soft kiss on his temple "I can think of something we can do to tire you out" She smirks playing with the corner of her towel.

"Oh Peyt not now, maybe later" He brushed her off standing up and walking out of their room.

-x-

"I'm sorry about Rachel?" I say walking into the pantry plonking myself down beside Haley. Everyone had gotten back about an hour ago so I felt it safe to come out of my room now that Luke and I were no longer alone. Nathan had protested it, but Haley dragged him with them and that look he gave me was a warning that I knew all too well.

"Oh it's okay Brooke" Haley tells me "After what I did I understand why she hates me so much. I don't expect her to ever like me... Nathan is just trying to smooth everything over, but I know he can't"

"He loves you"

"Yeah I know" She turns her head when she hears him laughing with the others in the kitchen "I love him too"

"I think because of your reputation and the way you treated us, the way you treated everyone and what you did to her. The way you broke her, she hasn't got pass that and if I'm honest I don't think she ever will and then there's her being really protective of Nate" I tell her.

"Yeah I understand all that, but you got pass it Brooke…"

"I got pass it a real long time ago Hales" I tell her with a small smile "I didn't take to it personally like Rachel did" I then stand up "And plus you never hurt me as bad as you hurt her"

"I'm not proud of that" Haley says looking away from me "I hate myself for treating people the way I did. I didn't mean any of the things I called her and I really did mean sleeping with Ryan... I know it hurt her and back then I didn't care… I was just in a dark place back then, but I'm sorry now. I know I did wrong"

"Just give her time" I look up at my red head bestfriend who was laughing at something Jake had said "She'll come around" Haley gave me a small nod which I returned with a smile before walking pass her to join the others in the kitchen.

-x-

We decided to head out to the local bar tonight. I was against it because I was too tired from drinking last night, but since everyone else were so determined to go I tagged along. The night had been going well so far. I hadn't really been drinking much. I might have had 3 drinks tops plus the 3 shots Rachel had brought me. My phone had kept going off though, this guy I met last year at a coffee shop on main. He worked there and we instantly clicked, but then he went travelling and now his back and wanting to go for coffee, but I've kept blowing him off. I held my phone in my hand seeing 'Julian' his name flashing, but I slide the rejection button across my phone and order Sambuca shot

"Why don't you just call him back?" Rachel asks walking up behind me as the girl behind the bar placed the shot down in front of me "That's the fourth time him ringing you Brooke" I glance up and see Lucas dancing with Peyton. She was grinding on him real close her ass on his crouch. His eyes cut over to me, so I quickly look away even though I know he catched me looking "Well…" I heard Rachel say "Ring him"

"Maybe later" I reply downing the shot "I need some air" I walk pass her and head out the back into the night air feeling the coldness hit my face feeling nice. It relaxed me a little.

"I know that feeling" I turn round to see Haley standing behind me "It kills you to see them together huh?"

"Erm… I don't know what you're talking about" I lie running my hand through my chocolate locks and leaning against the cold wall.

"I've been there Brooke" She walks closer leaning next to me "Nathan wasn't exactly single when we started hanging out"

"Haley I really don't get what you're on about"

"You and Lucas" She answers quietly just enough for me to hear her.

"Lucas and I are nothing" I make clear "His with my bestfriend"

"Doesn't mean it doesn't still hurt Brooke" I turn to look at her "When I use to see Nathan and Alex together I use to feel this sharp pain rip through my heart because we would sneak around and then at the end of the night he would leave me for her, so I understand the pain"

"Their getting married in 61 days" I let out a loud sigh "It's just all so messed up"

"He loves you" I snap my head around to look at her. How could she know that? I don't even know if he loves me or not. He hasn't said anything to me like that. His only told me that he feels something strong for me. She couldn't possibly know what he feels for me unless his told her and I doubt that.

"He doesn't love me Hales" I shake my head after adjusting to what she had really just said "If he did he wouldn't put me through all of this"

"Yeah that's what I thought about Nathan, but look where we are"

"Wait…" I lean up of the wall just realising what she had said all those minutes ago about her and Nathan creeping behind Alex's and Chris's back "Did you just say you and Nathan were sneaking around behind Alex's and Chris's back"

"Erm…" She froze for a minute not knowing what to say, but I didn't wait for her answer. I headed back into the packed bar and searched for my guy brunette bestfriend.

"You…" I march up to him when I spot him with everyone at the table we gained when we arrived "You're such a hypocrite. You go and judge me when you did exactly the same thing"

"No what I did was different" He states knowing exactly what I was talking about. Just by the look we shared "There's a big difference and you know it Brooke"

"No there isn't Nathan… you judged me when you did the same thing"

"No Brooke you don't know the full story so don't run your mouth" Nathan responded all eyes on us, Haley just coming in behind me.

"Oh bite me" I spin around on my heels and head towards the bar "Double Sambuca shot… actually make it two"

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