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MPOV:
How could everything go so wrong? I loved Jane more than I loved anyone or anything else and I thought she felt the same. The simple fact is that even though I had never really told her how I felt about her, and she had never really voiced it to me, I thought that we just knew. But apparently I was wrong. Because I thought we were moving forward towards that next step. That is until my "friend" Hannah stepped in. Sure I had noticed the promiscuous way she held herself, but she was still my friend, supposedly, so I never thought she'd betray me like that. I guess I underestimated her.
I walked into the morgue just like any other day, but I knew. Oh I knew from the way the atmosphere changed that something wasn't right. And oh how right I was. For the moment that Jane got in about half an hour later she came straight to me, as usual. But this time she also brought Hannah, which was unusual. And then she told me they were dating.
I couldn't believe that it was possible that I had misinterpreted all those sleep overs and 'alone' time we had spent together. Sure nothing had actually happened, but I thought that the way things were going that they would eventually. I never thought that it was possible that Jane didn't care for me the same way I cared about her. Except I did. Back in the very back of my mind I always thought that it wasn't possible that she actually liked me. I mean I was nothing special or beautiful. Not to myself at least, though guys were lining up for me that wasn't what I wanted.
"Maura..? Maura?" Mrs. Rizzoli yelled as she tried to snap me out of my uncaring stupor.
"Oh, uh s-sorry what?" I said as I shook away my troubling thoughts.
"I said are you still coming for dinner tonight? You cancelled last night and the night before that." She said as she searched my eyes.
"Look Mrs. Rizzoli I don't think that's such a good idea anymore. I mean Jane and her girlfriend are going to be there, and I don't want to intrude upon them..." I said as I tried to cancel again.
"First of all I have told you to call me either Angie or ma. And second not only are you Jane's best friend, but it's my house and I'm the one inviting you, so even if she doesn't like it she'll suck it up. Besides Maura you're just as much a daughter to me as she is." She said smiling. I smiled back. I knew it was pointless to argue the point further, not that I had the energy to anyways. The past weeks of avoiding Jane but still getting work done had exhausted me to the point of remission.
"Fine Mrs... Ma, I'll be there tonight." I said sighing.
"Good. And you know I really wish the two of you would just suck up your pride and admit that you love each other, this pretending is a tad tiring don't you agree?" She said as she smiled at me knowingly.
"I haven't a clue as to what you mean." I said looking away knowing I didn't sound convincing and that I was fixing to give in. Yes, that one glance towards her was all it took before I could feel the dam breaking.
"Okay fine, yes it is. And I thought she felt the same and then three days later she showed up with Hannah saying they were dating, so I was wrong. Way wrong. And now she's happy and as much as I want her to be happy, I can't stand to be around them because Hannah was supposed to be my friend and then she betrayed me and now I'm avoiding Jane as much as possible because I can't watch them together." I gasped out.
"Maura sweetie, she loves you too, even if she won't admit it to herself. And I also invited a young man to meet you to help distract you and to help make Jane feel a little bit of what you're feeling right now." She said as we stood to leave. After talking a few more minutes I left to go home and change before driving quickly the familiar route to the Rizzoli family home.
The story starts when it was hot
And it was summer
And I had it all
I had him right there where I wanted him
She came along
Got him alone
And let's hear the applause
She took him faster than you can say sabotage
I never saw it coming
Wouldn't have suspected it
I underestimated
Just who I was dealing with
The night that followed went in a blur. George, the guy Mrs. Rizzoli had brought home for me, proved to be charming and also got under Jane's skin thoroughly. Thought George was no Jane I flirted and laughed and enjoyed his conversation, so much so, that I took him home with me. And that was the first one night stand of many to follow.
The next month I always went to the bar after work, no matter how I felt, and drank. A lot. And not my normal couple glasses of wine, just upped, oh no I drank hard liquor, tequila if we're being totally honest. I knew from various studies that alcohol consumption didn't actually lessen the pain felt by an individual, but I was determined to forget the sting of Hannah's betrayal, and losing Jane. By the end of the month it had actually worked. I had taken home various people along with my alcoholic state, and after about four men it had worked. But one of those men had accidentally been a friend of Jane's from a long time ago. Someone she hated, but I still needed to tell her.
XXXXXXXXXXXXXX 4 DAYS LATER AT WORK XXXXXXXXXXXXXX
"Hey Jane can I talk to you?" I said brightly in the homicide pit. She got up without a word and walked into an opening elevator as I followed.
"What?" She said as I reeled back at her hateful tone.
"I... Need to tell you something..." I said hesitantly.
"What?" She asked impatiently as she crossed her arms.
"I accidentally slept with Grant..." I said as I closed my eyes waiting for the yelling that I knew was coming.
"How the hell did you 'accidentally' sleep with Grant?" She asked furious as she stopped the elevator from moving.
I explained that I had been drunk and didn't realise who he was until that morning. And now I was knitting and dating a vet. She was still furious though. I sighed, started the elevator and then got back out and walked into the homicide unit. Then after a snide comment from Jane I snapped.
"I shouldn't have told you about Grant." I said while we stood with Frankie, Frost, and Korsak.
"No, I'm glad to know about him, and the vet. You really get around." She replied.
"What did you just say to me?" I asked as Korsak, Frost, and Frankie tried to leave. "No! Stay!"
"It's unforgivable." She huffed.
"I don't remember asking you to forgive me." I snapped.
"So was the knitting a phase? Who's next? John? I hear he sleeps around too. You'll have that in common." She said bitterly. And that was it, I snapped.
"You do not get to call me a whore. When I met you, I thought I had found the person I was going to spend the rest of my life with. I was done! So all the boys, and all the bars, and all the family issues, who cared? I was done. You left me. You chose Hannah. I'm all glued back together now. I make no apologies for how I chose to repair what you broke. You don't get to call me a whore." I said before leaving. I ran all the way to my car and just left. I ended up at her mother's house, and didn't know what do. I eventually decided that whether I thought I should or not, I was going into that house. After all, hadn't been just a month ago that her mother had said I was as much her daughter as Jane? So I mustered up an inner strength I didn't know I was still in possession of and walked up to her mother's door.
I rang the doorbell, and before the last ring could finish ringing her mother was at the door. When she saw me she didn't waste anytime ushering me into her house and out of the cold. It was at that moment I wondered exactly how haggard I looked. But I shook the thought from my head and opened my mouth to speak, but was cut off.
"Save it. I know what happened. So just tell me what you need." she said. "Frankie called me." she added at my look of confusion. And of course I should have expected that one of the witnesses to what had just happened would have called her. Why wouldn't they? After all they all knew too well that with Jane no longer my confidant, I had started running to the next best thing: the advice of a mother.
"I... I can't stay here. I can't come to dinner tonight and act like nothing happened. I can't keep going to work pretending she doesn't exist, and that we aren't best friends. I can't go back and pretend that this whole thing isn't hurting me. After today I... I just can't pretend anymore..." I said as I started sobbing so hard I was shocked that she could still understand my words.
"Maura... If I may, might I ask what exactly was said. Frankie merely said you had argued and that you had snapped. But he didn't say over what." she said as she rubbed my back and held me. So I took a deep breath and explained everything from the beginning, all the way at Grant.
"Then she made a comment about how I really get around... And I... snapped as Frankie put it. I told her that she didn't get to call me a whore. That when we had met I was done because I thought she was the one. I'm not very proud of the way I put myself back together after the whole fiasco with Hannah, but she has no right to judge how I repaired what she broke. Then I ran. I couldn't stand there for her, and Frost, and Korsak, and Frankie to comment. So I ran to my car. And I drove around. And then I ended up here. It took me ten minutes to even get out of my car..." I admitted sheepishly.
"Maura sweetie... I think you should go to work. I think you should finish the next," she glanced at her watch, "three hours left on your shift. And then decide what you want to do."
I sighed. I knew she was right. I knew that even if I wanted to leave the city it didn't matter I still had to work. At least until I made the arrangements for me to leave. And I also knew that she thought that if I went back it wouldn't be so bad and then I'd change my mind, but I was skeptical. So I said my goodbye, trudged out to my car and drove back to the precinct. I had two more autopsies to do and I knew that if I worked diligently that I'd get them both done and get to leave.
When I arrived I blew past the homicide unit and into an opening elevator that was, thankfully, empty. As soon as the doors slid open at my stop I started to fly out of the elevator, but collided with someone. They caught and steadied me before I looked up to see who it was. My heart stopped as I took in the beautiful bottle blonde that stood in front of me giving me a go to Hades look.
"Uh.. H-hey H-H-Hannah. W-What's up?" I asked trying to sound nonchalant and move past her. But her arms shot out and gripped my wrists painfully tight and she sneered as she replied.
"I think you know what's up Maura," she sneered my name as if it was unworthy to pass her lips before continuing; "I want you to stay the heck away from Jane."
"What do you mean? I never see her except for work and the dinners at her parents. How could I possibly see her less?" I asked a tad frightened as Hannah kept the hold on my wrists.
"I know that. And that's too much. I want you to leave. If you don't you'll regret it." she said as she twisted my wrists. I yelped in pain, but sucked in a deep breath before replying.
"I'm not going anywhere. This is my job and if I want to work here, I'll work here. And for your information Hannah, I may not look very intimidating, but trust me I am not a person to mess with." I said trying to sound braver than I felt. She smiled a condescending smile before she replied.
"But everyone knows there's no big bad Maura to mess with if something happens to you. It's the big bad Jane. But guess what? She's mine. Which means I'm not scared of you." as she said this she twisted my left wrist until the 'snap!' was audible. I screamed in agony as I fell to the ground when she released my hand and walked away. When I was able to swallow the pain I stood. At that moment I knew that I may have underestimated Hannah, but if there was one thing I was good at, it was revenge. And oh was I going to find a way to press Hannah's buttons while trying to win Jane away from her. I did the autopsies with the assistance of my intern before leaving for the emergency room. When my hand had been put in a cast and a sling I went home to get ready for the Rizzoli family dinner I had to be at in an hour.
She had to know
The pain was beating on me like a drum
She underestimated
Just who she was stealing from
She's not a saint and she's not what you think
She's an actress, whoa
She's better known for the things that she does
On the mattress, whoa
Soon she's gonna find
Stealing other people's toys
On the playground
Won't make you many friends
XXXXXXXXXXX AN HOUR LATER XXXXXXXXXXXXXX
I showed up at the Rizzoli home in the most attractive thing I had that was still appropriate for an informal dinner. When I rang the doorbell, Mrs. Rizzoli called for Jane to open it, and I smiled inwardly. The face she made when she saw me on the other side of the door was priceless. I saw her brown eyes glaze over with an emotion all too familiar: lust. But I said my polite hello, and entered the home, immediately looking for Mrs. Rizzoli. I went in the kitchen and began helping when an annoyed Hannah walked in. The moment she saw me her eyes narrowed and I almost couldn't contain the giggle that tried to bubble up.
I knew, however, it was too late to stop what I had in motion even if I wanted to, but I also knew that Hannah deserved this. I thought she was a saint, a good friend. But she's better known for her stunts on the mattress, and that angered me. The fact that someone could waltz into my life and shatter it so completely. So I put on a brave and knowing smile and kept working. Kept on like nothing was wrong. So when Jane tried talking to me the remainder of the evening and act like nothing had happened, I let her. And when she started flirting with me like she had before Hannah happened, I flirted back. A lot. So at the end of the evening when I left, I left behind a giggling and humored Mrs. Rizzoli, a flabbergasted Jane, and a fuming Hannah. But I couldn't bring myself to care. I laughed and skipped to my car and went home. The events from the night playing over and over again in my head. The days that followed were amazing. Hannah hated me. I could see it every time we passed each other. I was looked at like a trend that Hannah was over, and I didn't mind one bit. Because though she avoided me like I was the plague, the important thing is that Jane didn't. She thrust herself back into my life full forced, and I could feel the tiny bubble of hope form inside me. Hope that my plan was working.
She should keep in mind
She should keep in mind
There is nothing I do better
Than revenge (revenge), ha
She lives her life like it's a party
And she's on the list
She looks at me like I'm a trend
And she's so over it
I think her ever-present frown
Is a little troubling
She thinks I'm psycho
'Cause I like to rhyme her name with things, but
Sophistication isn't what you wear
Or who you know
Or pushing people down
To get you where you wanna go
Oh they didn't teach you that in prep school
So it's up to me
But no amount of vintage dresses
Gives you dignity
She's not a saint and she's not what you think
She's an actress, whoa
She's better known for the things that she does
On the mattress, whoa
Soon she's gonna find
Stealing other people's toys
On the playground
Won't make you many friends
She should keep in mind
She should keep in mind
There is nothing I do better
Than revenge, ha ha
Then one day I was in the homicide unit talking to Frost about my findings on an autopsy when I heard yelling. I recognised the voice almsot instantly: Hannah. And did she sound ticked. So I followed everyone else into the lobby to see what was going on. But I was not prepared for what happened when I walked through the doors. I was in the back, and with my height I couldn't see over anyone's head; even in my six inch heels. But oh could I hear.
"You stupid whore! You can't break up with me!" Hannah screamed in pure anger.
"Uh yeah I can. And I am. I realise now that dating you was a mistake. You aren't the one for me. I have someone I'm in love with... I always have." Jane said thoughtfully.
"Ugh it's because of that skank isn't it? I can't believe you could love Maura! She's a whore Jane!" Hannah yelled and I felt like I was being stabbed in the stomach. I wanted to run, but I was frozen in place.
"You do not get to talk about her like that! And yes I love her. What's so wrong with that? At least she's nice to other people! At least she has feelings!" Jane spat.
What Hannah mumbled next I couldn't hear, but whatever it was spoke volumes to Jane.
"You're the one that broke her hand and gave her those bruises on her wrist aren't you?" Jane screamed.
"Yeah I am! And apparently that wasn't a good enough threat to get her out of here!" Hannah yelled back. By this point I had managed to weave through people so I was at the front of the crowd. Neither one of them had noticed me yet and I was hoping they never did.
"Why? Why would you hurt her like that?" Jane asked sounding completely ticked.
"Because she was a skank. And all skanks do is get in the way. She was in love with you, I needed her gone. But the stupid whore just couldn't listen. I break her freaking wrist and she still won't leave!" Hannah yelled angrily. I couldn't hold back the sob that escaped me as tears fell down my face. Then they both looked my way and noticed me standing there. Hannah's glare intensified as our eyes met, and Jane's face instantly softened. Then without another word Jane nodded toward Korsak who escorted Hannah out of the building.
As soon as she was gone, Jane ran towards me and pushed her lips on me. I kissed her back with everything I had as she wiped my tears away.
"I love you so much." she whispered before kissing me again.
I'm just another thing
For you to roll your eyes at, honey
You might have him
But haven't you heard?
I'm just another thing
For you to roll your eyes at, honey
You might have him
But I always get the last word
Whoa
She's not a saint and she's not what you think
She's an actress, whoa
She's better known for the things that she does
On the mattress, whoa
Soon she's gonna find
Stealing other people's toys
On the playground
Won't make you many friends
She should keep in mind
She should keep in mind
There is nothing I do better
Than revenge
And do you still feel like
You know what you're doing,
Cause I don't think you do
Oh
Do you still feel like you know what you're doing
I don't think you do
I don't think you do
Let's hear the applause
C'mon show me how much better you are
See you deserve some applause
Cause you're so much better
She took him faster than you can say sabotage
So I hope you enjoyed! PLEASE REVIEW! Oh and I would like to apologise for my previous chapter and not trying to make it unique! XD
