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Big thanks to Jasper's woman AKA Karen for pre-reading this and picking up on any little mistakes I've made. Also her comments in the margin never fail to crack my ass up.
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This chapter we are back to the present for a while. Hope you enjoy.
EdwardPov:
July2011:
The sound of keys rattling interrupts my thoughts. Heavy footsteps on the metal framed landing outside of my cell, getting louder. A guard is on their way. It's visiting day and Bella's coming in with some good news apparently. How anything can be good while I'm stuck in here is a mystery. I've only been in here for eight weeks and it already seems like a lifetime. I have got fifteen years of this to endure and if I'm honest I don't think I'll last.
It's kill or be killed in this hell hole.
"Cullen, you're up." Officer Aro Volturi says as he opens the hole the thick heavy steel door.
I jump off my bunk "sure thing."
I notice my cell mate Felix is fast asleep on the upper bunk like usual. That's all that man does. Sleep. I was wary of him at first, he's full of tattoos and looks menacing, I mean I thought he was gonna torture me and make me his bitch. Thankfully he's a pussy cat, warm hearted, generous and has great life experiences that he shares with me. I enjoy listening to his past. He is in for murder as I am but he executed three men who he saw trying to rape an innocent woman. My perspective of that Isn't one of a crime, but one of a brave man trying to save a woman's life and for that he should get a medal or something not serve out the rest of his life behind bars.
I trudge my ass over to the door, turn with my back to it and slide both of my hands through the gap so he can cuff me. Once cuffed I take a few steps forward and turn back round as he opens the door and leads me down through the halls to the visiting block. I see Bella sat at a table, she looks just as beautiful today as she did the first time I met her. Pink, flushed cheeks, those big brown eyes and the smile that over takes her face when she sees me is just; just gorgeous.
Bella stands as I get closer. She's wearing some tight black jeans and a cream coloured blouse with a pair of flat black shoes. Officer Volturi takes off my cuffs and when I get to her I wrap my arms around her and hold her tight. I feel her arms wrap around me also and we just hold each other for a moment, relishing in the slight contact that we can have.
"Enough Cullen," Officer Volturi scolds.
I glare at him "why can't I just cuddle my wife for five minutes without you sticking your nose in?"
"Because Mr. Cullen you are a convicted murderer, that's why." He says grinning that smart fucking ass off of his.
I choose to ignore his comment, my wife is here and I will not have her any more upset than she already is. I look into her eyes and see that they are full of tears threatening to spill over. I palm her face rubbing my thumb underneath her eyes to catch the tears before they can fall.
"What's wrong baby?" I ask as we sit opposite from each other.
"I'm just happy to see you Edward. I miss you so much."
"I miss you too, like you wouldn't believe. It's slowly killing me not being able to be with you Bella."
"Edward, don't talk like that. You just gotta stick this out I know you can do it. We both can. I'll be still here waiting for you no matter how long it takes, I'll be here." She reassures me.
"I know you will honey, it's just hard." I force a smile, "how is everyone?"
"Fine. The guys send their love. I know Emmett and Jasper were due to come with me today but I needed to talk to you alone about something." Her eyes look down to her hands and she starts to fidget. She's nervous about something.
"What is it you need to talk about? Don't be nervous baby, you can tell me anything."
"I just don't know how your going to take it." Bella's eyes meet mine again and I smile genuinely this time to try and put her at ease. "Edward, I'm pregnant."
Come again?
"What?" I ask even though I clearly heard what just came out of her mouth.
"I'm three months pregnant. Your going to be a daddy."
I lean back in my chair and cover my face with my hands. Pregnant! She did just say pregnant... didn't she? As it starts to register, I feel the pricking of tears coming into my eyes, and the biggest smile taking over my face. I move my hands from my face and Bella looks horrified.
"You're mad aren't you? What was I thinking?" she says.
"Bella, no I'm not mad. I'm the happiest bastard on earth right now. We're going to have a baby, I'm going to be a dad."
She grins "you are indeed, I've already spoke to the prison officials and when the baby is born I will be able to bring him or her with me on the visits."
That's when it hit me. My child will have to grow up seeing me locked away. It will only be able to see me for maximum of two hours a week. What kind of life will this child have without me, it's father not being there while he or she grows up.
"Bella, no. I can't have my child seeing me in a place like this. I just can't do it." I blurt out.
My wife eyeballs me "don't be so ridiculous Edward. Your child will love you no matter what or where you are. You're not some kind of monster." I disagree! She continues "isn't your child better off seeing you in here for a short time every week than not seeing you or getting to know you at all?"
I guess she's right "yes, but I don't want it to grow up resenting me for never being there, missing important steps in their life."
"Everything will work out Edward, I just know it will. I have faith." She starts to rut around in her bag "so I went to the doctors office yesterday and I got this," she hands me a small piece of paper or what I thought was paper.
I take it from her, it's a picture. A picture from an ultrasound to be exact. My heart flutters when I see the small frame of a baby in the middle. So tiny. So beautiful even in black and white. Tears start falling silently. I can't take my eyes away from the vision that is my child all tucked up inside my wife's uterus.
"Edward." Bella says.
"Hmm," I reply because I just can't find the words to speak.
"You can keep that, they said it was okay for me to bring for you. It's time to go now baby but I'll see you in a few days."
I look at my reason for living as she stands up. I stand and give her a long lingering kiss on the lips. She takes my hand and presses it onto her stomach which I can feel is a little swollen.
"We love you Edward, don't ever forget that. We'll be back to visit soon with your brothers."
"I love you both. Before you go Bella," I run my fingers through my hair. "How's my mom?"
"Esme is just fine. Don't think that because she doesn't visit you that she doesn't love you because you couldn't be further from the truth. She's also elated about the baby, between her your dad, my mom and dad and your brothers and sisters I can't do a thing. They're all running around like blue arsed flies looking after me. So don't worry about anything okay, everything will be just fine," I nod and she kisses me on the lips. "I love you Edward."
"I love you too baby, see you soon."
Bella turns on her heel and heads out through the double doors of the visitation room.
When I get back to my cell, Felix is back in the land of living. "How's it going? How's the lovely Isabella?" He asks.
"Bella's um, pregnant." I tell him and I still cannot quite believe it. I hold the picture in my hand, looking, staring, admiring the beauty of this little baby growing inside my wife's stomach.
"Wow, congrats Eddie."
"Thanks, I still can't believe it. I'm going to be a dad."
"Being a dad is the best feeling in the world, I should know. I got two girls Heidi and Jane they were a hand full and still are according to their mother." He chuckles loudly. "They're grown up now though, teenagers. Chelsea, my wife is always saying that they just argue and fight all the time but I guess that's what kids do."
"Yeah, I guess. I know your daughters come to visit you in here but how do you think they really feel about it?" I ask hoping to get a feeling of what it will be like for me.
"They seem to be okay with it. Edward I've been here for nearly ten years my girls were three and five when I got time. They've basically grown up with me being in here. It's just the norm to them. They don't love me any less."
"That's what I'm scared of, my child rejecting me for not being there. I'm also scared that after some time I will start to hate myself for missing his or hers first steps, first words, first day at school, first school play. I don't know if I could live with myself knowing that I've missed all of that."
"You can't think like that dude. You're only going to do your head in." He puts his hand on my shoulder. "Look at it this way, you're stuck in here. Your not getting out for a long time, you have to make your own memories and make best of the situation your in. I know it's harsh but it's true."
I nod. I know Felix is right in what he's saying but I know it's going to take a while for all these thoughts and feelings to ease off. The hardest part will be not being there for the birth to hold Bella's hand through it. I lay on my bed and close my eyes, taking my thoughts back a few years.
March2009:
It's Tuesday the twenty-fourth. Three days after mine and Bella's night of passion. I swear to you, every time I think of it I get a wood on so hard it's almost painful. I'm sat at work doing pretty much fuck all. I should however be getting ready to see a client in like five minutes but Swan has just popped up on G-mail. Yes I got her email address and yes I also got her mobile number. Like I'm going to let her get away.
We still on for Sat hot stuff?
We most definitely are U saucy minx
So U gonna tell me where U r taking me?
no!
Why not? I told U I hate surprises didn't I?
Yes I know what you said woman but trust me you may just like this 1
Well don't hold ur breath Mr. Cullen
I feel pretty confident
I'm taking her to one of the two restaurants in Forks. It's called 'Isle Esme' and yes my mother owns it. She decided to buy a plot of land and build it from scratch. "Forks needs brightening up, it's always so miserable here." She told us. My father asked no questions, he just foot the bill. Once my mom gets an idea in her head nothing can stop her.
I'm sure you do, so you sat in that big office all alone? Imagine if I was there
That's very tempting to think that but I've got a client due in 5 so I gotta dash
OK, hope the meeting with your client goes well ;)
Thanks, talk soon gorgeous x
Bye x
I readjust my cock, not for the first time today I can assure you. I keep having some kind of flashbacks to when my cock was buried deep inside Bella's tight little pussy. The way she told me to give it to her, the way she moaned, the way she rode out her orgasm all over my fingers. Damn. She drives me nuts.
Rearranges the cock again!
I need to just calm myself down or my next client Ms. Swanson will be in for a shock. I can just see it now, me standing up to greet her with a big raging bulge in my trousers. Not professional.
Lauren, my PA knocks and enters my office holding a coffee that she places on my desk. Lauren has been my right hand woman for the past year. I would have no organisation if it wasn't for her. She's extremely good at her job and easy on the eye so it's an all round winner.
"Mr. Cullen, your two o'clock is here. Is there anything else I can get you?"
"No thank you Lauren, just send Ms. Swanson in." I say and look to my computer to close down unwanted tabs. I take some files from my desk and head over to the filing cabinet. I hear the door open "I'll be with you in a moment Ms. Swanson."
"Take as long as you want, I have all the time in the world." A sultry voice says. A voice I know. It catches me off guard, I shut the the draw quickly and turn around.
My eyes almost pop right out of their sockets when they land on Bella. Bella wearing a long trench coat that she rips open revealing what she has on underneath. I grab hold of the filing cabinet because I swear my knees are gonna give way any moment. The woman is stood there in a light blue sexy bra with matching undies. Black stockings, the ones that have the seem up the back of the leg and some thigh high boots. Her hair is down, she wears no make up, the flush under the skin of her cheeks is enough to illuminate her whole face.
I think I'm drooling.
"See something you like, Mr. Cullen?" she asks sexily, taking a step towards me.
I can't speak. I'm speechless. I'm just staring, my eyes roaming over every inch of this goddess stood before me. I try to move but it's like I'm stuck to the floor. I lick my lips, then bite my knuckles, then rub my palms on my trousers... they were getting rather sweaty. Bella stalks towards me, walking like a model, a fucking sexy model. She presses her whole body up against mine and grabs a hold of my dick roughly.
"You didn't really expect me to wait until Saturday did you, Edward?"
Thanks for reading... So Bella is up the duff! Please let me know your thoughts and feelings about this little revelation. I will be flitting from past to present but I will clearly state the dates and things. If you review I will send you a teaser of ch5 and boy it's a good one!
P.S HAPPY THANKSGIVING TO ALL MY AMERICAN READERS :) HOPE Y'ALL HAVE A GREAT DAY!
