Disclaimer: In chapter 1

Sorry if this is a bit rushed i wrote this pretty fast after having 1 hours sleep in the passed 30 hours, not good. If it needs editing i will go over it once I've had some sleep. I know my grammar is not the best so if anyone would like to beta this story please let me know i'd really appreciate it.

Anyway i hope you enjoy and please review and let me what you think. I've already got this story planned out, don't worry Swan Queen is end game but it's not without a few bumps along the way.

Regina's POV

Being with Emma and Ruby reminded me of old times today, unlike the last couple of years. We managed to get the Rabbit Whole looking semi decent although i would have preferred the party be held in a much more refined establishment but like Emma said this was part of our history and it's where Mary Margaret would want it. All in all once it had some decent music and decorations up it looked like a completely different place.

"Come on Reggie...shots shots shots!" Screamed a rather intoxicated Ruby. How she was this drunk by eight o'clock was beyond me.

"I suppose in the spirit of the party the odd one won't harm." I grinned and knocked the shot back.

"Oh please, you use to do them every weekend a few years ago."

"Yes, back in college Ruby."

My phone started to vibrate.

"Oh someone's popular tonight."

It was the third text message.

"No one important."

I promise this is the last text that i'll send, i just want to know if i should come to your place after the party? Abby :)

No don't bother, i won't be back till late. -R

I know it sounded cold but she knew the ten o clock rule and i was beginning to think maybe Abby was starting to think more into our arrangement than i was and right now i couldn't care less. Right now my sole focus was on the woman in the tight pink dress laughing with M&M as they danced on the dance floor.

"Come on lets do some more shots and join the others for a dance, i know you remember how to let loose Reggie, so come on, let your hair down for one night."


Emma's POV

I couldn't believe how fast the night was going, it was just like a few years ago when we'd all hang out together obviously minus the stripper now grinding on a blushing Mary Margarets lap. By midnight some how we'd ended up in some club on the outskirts of town, by that point we were all just a bunch of happy slightly tipsy friends apart from Ruby who was rotten drunk, Kathryn offered to take a cab home with her but in the end it was Belle who went along with the bride to be. It had been a great night. The rest of us carried on happily dancing with no care in the world on the packed out dance floor. Who knew Storybrooke had a place like this.

"Emma, you still got moves girl!" Kathryn grinned as she was dancing up against some tall dark and handsome guy, I'm sure he dated Belle before she married August.

"She's always had moves."

I turn to take in Regina close by me, i guess i had lost track of what was going on, to busy enjoying myself. Our hips were practically brushing up against one another as we moved a long to the beat of the music and the heat in the club was not helping the sudden heat i was feeling in the pit of my stomach.

"Damn straight and i got plenty of more." I couldn't help myself, this was our thing, our natural back and forth banter.

She stepped closer.

"I believe I've seen all your moves up close and personal dear, unless you've got knew moves I've yet to see."

We were practically breathing in each other we were so close.

"I..i need some air." And that's exactly what i did, i ran for the exit to get some air.

I stood back against the wall outside just trying to calm my raising heartbeat back down and hoping the cold air would knock some sense into my head.

"You'll catch your cold out here."

And there she was again, standing beside me, rubbing her hands up and down my arms.

"What are you doing?"

"Trying to keep your arms warm, what does it look like, it's freezing out here."

"You know that's not what i mean't."

"We agreed to a truce for our friend remember? It was you who suggested it."

"I know but it's just..."

It's so hard not to just kiss her when she looks at me like i'm her everything when i know i'm not anymore.

"Just what Em-ma?"

"When we're around each other, it's harder than i thought. It's like nothing happened between us and we go back to just being our usually flirty selves. We can't do that. We are both in relationships and i know what it's like to have your heart stomped on by someone your love."

I have to stand my ground but it doesn't stop me from seeing the hurt expression on her face that is gone seconds later.


Regina POV

"I know what it's like to have your heart stomped on by someone your love."

Those words are like a slap to the face and i can't help but close my eyes in that moment for it was i who caused her that pain.

"Me and Abby are not in a relationship and I'm sorry...i know i hurt your back then, but i didn't know how to open up."

"It's just took you three years to tell me you were sorry for cheating on me. That's three years too late, you never did tell me
why you cheated on me with him."

"Does it matter now? You wouldn't understand."

"He was my step brother of course it matters! Don't presume to know what i can and can't understand. You don't know unless you tell me."

"We wanted different things back then."

"I'm not taking that bullshit Regina, that's no excuse to cheat. That may have been a reason to break up but not to cheat. You wanted to hurt me, for me to be so hurt that i'd break up with you instead. What was the real reason?"

I can see her pleading with me now as her hand grips tighter on my elbow.

"I'll tell you but not now, after the wedding?"

I will tell her but i can't do it now and risk her storming out of town before the wedding.

"I'm going back to Boston With Graham, but i could always stay another day, as long as i get some real answers? All cards on the table?"

"All cards on the table." I nodded.

"Before we go back in there, can you tell me at least one thing?"

"What?"

"If things were different would we want the same things now?"

"A real family home and children?"

"Yeah." She smiles nervously at me.

"If we'd talked about it now rather than back then yes."

She just smiles sadly and walks back into the club.

Of course things would be different now, i no longer bowed to my mothers demands for one. If only i could rewind time. Now i realize how late my apology was, i was just so focused on protecting Emma back then i didn't think of the future. I owed Emma the full truth even if it mean't she'd go on hating me for the rest of her life, it was the least i owed her. I'm done hiding the truth.