If any errors remain, I apologise. Once again I have had to split this into two... It was too long. So now you just got 2,900 words.

These sobs seemed to Jac like they would never seize. She would forever be in this pool of misery. Irrational thoughts filled her mind; to her, her would was worthless.

Little did Jac know, however, that Mo hadn't given up, she had simply decided to change her tact, leaving the toilets to attempt the other option. Walking through the corridors, which she had never thought she had walked so quickly down, Mo headed towards Jac's office, where she had been told she would find Jonny and that whatever that was.

The way she had found Jac scared her, scared her a great deal. She hadn't a clue what Jonny had done, but whatever it was, it must have been pretty serious, and pretty irrational, even for Jonny. She hated to think what he had said, or what he had done, to make her act like she was. She seemed like she had given up, except Jac never gives up, and that fact played in the front of her mind.

She knew she has to sort this, sort out Jonny and Jac's relationship before Jonny threw away what had made him so happy, despite the fact it pained Mo to admit it. Her main priority was to have a persuasive, but abrupt chat with Jonny as to what was going on. She needed to make him speak to Jac. And make her see sense. The only way however that Jac would be anywhere close to seeing sense would be if Jonny saw sense first.

Turning the corner onto the main ward, Mo could already hear Jonny shouting. He was yelling pretty loudly, and the sound echoed around the ward. He was furious, Mo could tell that, but it was obvious as she approached that he was furious to the extent which scared Mo; she could not remember a time when he had been like this with anyone.

Briefly composing herself as she reached the closed office door, Mo wondered who she was going to find, why Jonny had been so angry and more importantly what that was going to be. Ignoring all sense of manners, as well as not giving Jonny a chance to tell her to leave him alone, Mo opened the door and spoke immediately.

Instantly she heard a piercing cry, a distressed cry, which so obviously was coming from a child, a young child, that was panicked, frightened or both.

In complete shock, and being too preoccupied focused on the screaming bundle which he held, Mo was not even able to look around the room to see who exactly Jonny was shouting at. "Jonny, a word."

Opening his mouth to protest, Mo added the defining word onto the end, "Now."

Jonny knew when he had been beaten and so telling the women who were in the room with him to stay put and that he would be back to resolve this slight issue, Jonny followed Mo out onto the ward, refusing to move more than a few steps from the door. It was at this point Mo decided to mention the unusual, unexpected pink, wriggling, yet screaming bundle, that Jonny held firmly in his protective arms. She now understood what Jac had meant by that.

"Jonny, who is that?" Mo asked suspiciously, for she had already almost realised what Jac had meant by he had chosen someone else with the kid and everything. Except Mo had no idea Jonny had a daughter, or that he had even caused a woman to be pregnant.

"This is Beth. Beth is erm... Beth is... Well she is... my... um... my daughter?"

"You what? You have a daughter and you never told me?! What other lies have you spun? And Jac didn't know either, I take it? Or she is crying her eyes out with tears of happiness locked in the toilets is she?" Mo was trying to remain calm, for Jonny was her best friend and she never wanted to argue with him, but under these circumstances, she was struggling.

"Alright Mo." Jonny began as he gently rocked the little baby, for she was only tiny, in his arms, trying to hush her back to sleep. "I didn't know ok. I have a lot of history, half of which you don't know, and I am sorry. But I only just found this ok, so please excuse me for being a little overwhelmed and upset by the situation."

"So you just got some random woman pregnant did you, and now she has come to find you?" Mo couldn't hold her tongue any longer, and the full tone of her sarcastic voice embraced the conversation.

"No Mo, not exactly, what are you taking me for? You remember Sandra, right?" Mo nodded.

Their engagement had been common knowledge and Mo had known all about it, being Jonny's best friend for many years previous to arriving at Holby, but she had not really known how it had ended, just Jonny had slowly become less and less happy. She had never agreed to the engagement anyway, she had always argued Jonny was too young and it was too soon after meeting her.

"Well you know I told you we fell out, and we broke up, and I just had to get away because there were too many memories which were upsetting me... So we moved," Mo nodded again, she too remembered this, dropping her whole life to up-stakes and move away to wherever Jonny needed to go, "Erm... my reasons were slightly different to that. It wasn't so much we fell out, it was more, I fell out with Sandra, I fell out of love with her, I was in too deep and I didn't want to marry her anymore. So I had to run away, I had to get away and never break her heart by telling her I didn't love her. I thought if I could just get away then things would be better, it wouldn't be as bad, but it turns out she was already pregnant, she just hadn't found out in time to tell me."

Jonny sighed, his life was turning into a complete mess; his mood falling dramatically from the comfortable, content way he was walking through the corridors this morning.

"You what Jonny? You mean you lied to me, couldn't face the consequences of your actions so made me run away from it all with you, whilst you were being a coward? And why is she here now..."

"Your right Mo, you are one hundred percent right. And I am sorry. I was a coward. A stupid, stupid fool. But that's how I was and what I did, I can't change that, I can only apologise. Sandra is here now to give me Beth, she doesn't want her anymore, told me children was my thing, not hers and she didn't want the screaming little brat. I mean who would say that about their own flesh and blood, about this little darling angel." Jonny questioned. His heart had melted for Beth, even though he had only come around to the idea of having a daughter a few minutes before.

"So you are stuck with the baby? But Sandra doesn't want anything to do with her. And she doesn't want any more to do with you?" Jonny nodded. "Then why does Jac think that you have chosen Sandra over her. She is in pieces Jonny, she is in complete tatters. You have done all this to her? I am not going to mince my words to make you feel better. You have destroyed her. One hundred percent knocked her over and completely and utterly broken her. I mean I thought you loved her, and she loves you, quite clearly, so why did you have to go and muck it all up by telling her it was over and you didn't want her?" Jonny looked stung, clearly hurt.

Jonny was hesitant. "No... I didn't say that... I haven't chosen Sandra... I just followed my heart... I did what I thought Jac would want. She doesn't want this; she doesn't want me if she has to have the baby. That is not Jac at all, no way. I was only trying to protect her from having to live a life she didn't want. I was doing what I thought was best for her in my heart. You have to believe me Mo!"

Jonny was in denial. He had truly hurt his most precious, the woman who was his life, and now he couldn't do anything about it.

"Well I think you are an idiot, Jonny Mac. I think you need to go and tell your supposed fiancé all of this, who will still be crying alone in the toilets after everything she has thought has happened. Because I think mate, you might have thought wrong. Your following your heart thing might possibly have ended the best thing you thought you had completely unnecessarily. Look just go now, go and sort out your life, because at the moment you are making one big muck of everything." Mo instructed, whilst sighing. Did she really have to tell Jonny every move to make to try to make this right?

"I can't Mo."

"What do you mean, you can't? I don't think you have much choice on that one."

"Sandra and her mother are still in the office, and I can't let them run away. They need to take Beth with them, I can't leave them for they will sneak out and be gone, and I will always have Beth. I need to sort something out with them!" Jonny was still in shock about the keeping the little baby thing.

"Look. Sorry Jonny. They won't take her. I think they have made their ground clear and firm. I will stay here and keep these two women locked in the office if it will make you feel better. But the best thing seems to be to let them go. Ok? Let them leave and try to piece what you can, without them interfering, because that for sure is not going to help with Jac at all!" Jonny was in limbo, he honestly didn't know what to do; though it seemed obvious to Mo.

"Go and speak to Jac, try to piece together what is still salvageable, please? She's in the ladies toilets. Oh and don't worry, you won't miss her, you will hear her crying." Mo shouted after him. When she had suggested this, Jonny had run straight away to Jac, his instinct was talking far more than his brain, and Mo knew instantly, that this could still be saved.

Hearing the door open once again, Jac tried to muffle her cries. She once again did not know who was outside the door; she had been caught out when Mo entered, so once bitten twice shy. Jac knew that there was nobody else in here, bar herself and this mystery enterer, and so if it was someone trying to find her, it would not be hard at all.

A slow, quiet knock was heard on her cubical door. It sounded like the knock Jonny always used to give upon her office door, but she quickly decided it could not be him, he had left her, and that was the end, no point dreaming, no point hoping; it would only lead her to more misery.

But then the other being in the room sighed. A heavy sigh. A weight of the world on your shoulder sigh. A Jonny sigh. "Jac..." his thick Scottish accent filling the room, making Jac's heart melt even further, if this was possible and causing yet another wave of tears to be recruited behind the current ones. "Jac please. Open the door, I know it's you. Mo told me. I need to talk to you. I really need to talk to you."

Jac shook her head furious behind the door. Why was he doing this to her? "Just leave me alone Jonny. You chose her, and I don't blame you. I knew it was too good to be true. Too good to last. Why would you ever stick around with me, living my unstable, unwanted life?" Jac sobbed but Jonny wasn't moving; he wasn't prepared to go anywhere until he had this sorted, found out really where his life was going.

It was beginning to seem like his life had two pathways.

Jac and this baby.

Or just this baby.

It was clear Beth was here to stay with Jonny, and in a way that already felt natural to him, but he was pretty sure the baby meant no Jac. And that is deeply not what he wanted.

Jac sighed. The only way to prove her point would be to face him. Opening the door quickly, she saw Jonny stood in front of her, still cradling his child. And it broke her heart. "I told you, just leave me alone! Run back to Sandra, play happily families!" Jac cried as she ran towards the door.

But as she reached the door handle a hand grabbed her arm firmly and pulled her backwards. Swinging her around slightly to reposition its owner and her, so that she was now stood where the hand had come from; and the owner was now stood in front of the door, blocking her escape.

"Why Jonny, why are you doing this? Just let me go, just let me go back to my old life, my old life before I met you. It's better this way!" Jac pleaded, not quite knowing how she could go back to her old life, with the secret she was currently keeping hidden, but she had to try, had to try to seem strong, like she wasn't torn into pieces over loosing Jonny. She was fighting a losing battle however.

"Because... I need to talk to you! I haven't chosen Sandra, I didn't choose Sandra, I never would choose..."

"Well then, why when I told you to follow your heart, and do what you really wanted, did you tell me to leave and her to stay? You wanted her Jonny, not me, and that understandable considering she is the one with the baby, the child you have always wanted." Jac spat back at Jonny, sounding like an attempt of venom in her voice, as she tried to regain strength and authority.

"That is not fair Jac. You need to hear me out. Sandra doesn't want me or Beth anyway, she has made that very clear, even you heard her..."

"Oh well that's just great...! Bring in the broken hearted, rejected, supposed-to-be-fiancé to play back-up Jonny. Is that what this is? Come here and beg me to come back, tell me you love me not her, just because you don't want to be alone with your baby." Jac's sarcasm had returned despite the still constant tears on her cheeks. Her defences were re-building, whilst being at an all time low.

"No Jac, I never wanted you to go... I followed my heart trying to..." Jonny spoke tactfully

"But you told me to leave!"

"Yes. No. I told you to leave here. And if you would please let me finish a single sentence I would truly grateful!" Jac, too stunned to reply, stared at the baby who Jonny held so very protectively, whose face was still stained with tears from all the crying from the earlier disturbance to her restful sleep.

"You told me to follow my heart. And in all honesty Jac, I did what my heart was telling me to do in that moment. My heart was trying to protect you. It loves you too much Jac, and it didn't want you to have to chose, so it tried to make it easy..."

Jac scoffed. "Now you say it, and you think this is easy!"

"No. My heart loves you and when you told me to follow it, it was telling me that you wouldn't want me in your life if Beth came with me. You would never be happy with a baby in your life, you are obviously not very maternal naturally and I wouldn't expect you to take someone else's child under your wing, that's just not fair. So I was giving you the easy option. The get out. I didn't know how I was going to survive without you, but I didn't want you suffering with a child in your life. I thought I was doing the right thing for you, I was only trying to love you and protect you as much as my heart does." Jonny hung his head in shame, upset with himself he had done so much wrong; he had ruined everything, he knew his life would be a mess but he had never intended to ruin Jac's life in the process.

Ignoring most of what Jonny had said, she only commented on one specific point.

"Well if I am so unnaturally maternal, and would never be happy with a baby in my life, it must be a brilliant, amazing thing that I have found out that I am pregnant with your child then! My life just keeps on getting better and better!" Jac yelled directly at Jonny, tears streaming heavily from her eyes, pushing past him and running out through the door onto the ward of Darwin once again.

Thanks, Hayley x