Last Chapter
James took her to London. She stayed for six days, enough to spend some time with James and talk to M about the motorcycle incident. Then she had to leave. M decided that Raven was fine to keep the few secrets she had found out and she could go back home. James figured that he would never see her again. She would die and that was that. Cruel, but as clean as they could get.
Seeing Her Again
It had been months since James had seen Raven off. He'd done a good job of trying to forget about her. Still, though, she lingered in his mind. He'd gone on missions, killed people, but on these missions, he had never been able to have one-night stands like he used to. He kept seeing Raven. He was still a flirt, but now, sex held no interest for him. Not that it had held a lot of interest to him to begin with, but now, it was even less interesting
He was relaxing in his apartment. There hadn't been any missions for him in a few weeks, so M told him to go home and relax. It was hard for him. He hadn't relaxed in years. Not since he was a child. So he sat on the floor of his living room, wearing sweatpants, and did sit ups. He didn't care if he was supposed to be relaxing; he needed to stay in shape. A knock on his door surprised him. He had few visitors. Getting up to answer it, he was shocked to see who was at his door.
"Raven." She was leaning against his door frame for support. She was pale and extremely sickly looking. Her cancer was taking its toll. She was wearing sweatpants and an extremely large sweat shirt. Her hair was in a messy ponytail. Seeing her like this made James's heart skip a beat. He led her to his couch and went to get her a glass of water. When he got back, her sweatshirt was off, revealing how thin and frail she was. It also revealed her extremely swollen stomach. James froze.
Raven was pregnant. This was why she had come back. He was the father. She looked to be around eight months or so, the amount of time since they had parted ways. James handed her the water and walked to the window in front of the couch. He looked out, towards the city. But he also looked at Raven's reflection. He couldn't take his eyes off of her. After a few minutes of silence, Raven got up off the couch and walked over to James.
"You can't possibly tell me you never thought this would happen."
"No, well, I didn- for God's sake, I don't know."
"Well, its happening, so your going to have to get used to the idea. And you're going to have to take care of it. The doctors said I will probably die within hours, maybe days afterwards."
James was getting overwhelmed. He sat on the couch in his flat and ran his hand through his dark blonde hair. The woman, Raven, looked down at him, then sat beside him, having to go slowly due to her extremely swollen stomach. She took his hand in hers, and placed it on her stomach, where he could feel the movements underneath. He couldn't help but think back, almost nine months back, when they'd met, and spent several days- and nights- together.
(Go back to the 1st chapter. This is where that scene happens. Then it goes to meeting her and blah blah blah. Now it goes back to them talking).
"When are you due?"
"December 18." It was November 6th now. Her due date was just six weeks away. James only has six weeks to prepare for this baby, He only had six weeks to prepare to be a father. And he was going to have to be a single father, Raven would die of cancer, and he would be left with a newborn baby. He was getting overwhelmed...again. And that was a very hard thing to do with all his training. So James stopped thinking and focused on his hand. Raven's hand was on top of it and she was unconsciously moving it around on her stomach. James could feel the baby moving beneath their hands. The baby was kicking.
"Is the baby healthy?"
"Yeah. The doctors say that my body is protecting it and taking better care of it than my own body is taking care of me. But I guess that's kinda the point of being a mother."
"Most women get offended if you call their baby "it". But yet, you do."
"Well, I'm not most women. And I don't know what the gender is, so to me it's it. I 'm not saying it like it's something horrible or below me. I just say it."
"I want you to stay with me. In my flat, I mean." James said after a long pause.
"Well, good, 'cause that's what I was planning on. I sold everything I didn't need and put all the money in an account for the baby. I just have some outfits to wear."
"Good. I want to do whatever I can for you...Raven...there's something so different about you. I know this wasn't planned or anything, but I am kind of glad it happened. I get to have you for a little while longer. And, you'll help prepare me for what's to come. God, it's going to be hard raising a child, and even harder without you. But, bloody hell, you can get me ready."
"I love you, James"
"And I love you, Raven. And, I think I've already fallen in love with our baby."
Ok, so James bond gets a little mushy at the end. But hey, I finally updated. And I will update all my stories soon. Its really busy right now, ive got school ending and the fair where im showing an animal. But then I have a few weeks off before camp and I will really really really really try to update everything.