Chapter 4
Sidekick
I knew it was coming, I really did.
I just didn't expect it this way.
Or at this time.
Was I really that blind?
Apparently. I never was known for my intelligence that was her job. The only ones who really knew what was going on the entire year are currently staring blankly out the window next door, or in a white tomb.
This stupid prophecy, and those blasted horcuxes, really enough to ruin any ordinary bloke's day.
It simply drowned Harry's though. I can see it in his eyes; he's not really with us anymore. Slowly drifting away.
In fact come to think of it, he hasn't been 'normal' since fourth year. Fifth year he was angry at everything and last year he was paranoid according to me and nearly everyone else. Was he ever really there?
Did I fool myself into thinking Harry and I were on the same level? Perhaps we never really were, because he's always been better than me in everything. Everything.
So, I beat him in having a real girlfriend, but not by much. I'm not really proud of that period of time either; it was just an endless songfest between me and Lavender. Not that it wasn't nice at the time, but now it seems pointless.
I should have realized he was having problems, he was in trouble. Then perhaps he would never have been so weak and alone at the end with only Dumbledore believing him. And I call myself his best friend. Heck, Hermione's been a better friend than me and seeing how she's always got her nose in a book that's saying a lot.
What about the infamous rumor-mill though? Am I really destined for someone?
I doubt it. I'm not denying I have had a pretty long crush on someone (who will remain nameless despite your protests), but I'm not stupid enough to think she'll like me when she so clearly does not.
My job is that of a friend and sidekick, and no matter how much I may hate it I'm going to do it. I'm going to swallow my pride and become the friend I've always claimed I was. I'll stand in the sidelines protecting his back while he saves the world. He'll take the glory, and I'll probably be dead.
And after looking at how I behaved this last year I probably deserve no less.
If he can give up so much for so many who will not even comprehend the depths of what he did, the least I can do is be selfless and support him.
He has his destiny and I have mine, and it's time to meet them like the Gryffindors we truly are…
A/N: Sorry for lack of updates!