So what's a girl like me to do
Drowning, drowning in you
And who's to save me from the blue
Carry, carry me through
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Cause now my body's weak - so just give me a reason
And my make-up's off - so just give me a reason
And my defense's down - so just give me a reason
I am strong enough - so just give me a reason
Now my body's weak - so just give me a reason
And my make-up's off - so just give me a reason
My defense's down - so just give me a reason
Give me a reason
The Corrs – Give Me A Reason
I watch him disappear down the corridor, his words circling my head, I can't. I want to know why not, is there some reason in particular, is it no longer there, does this darkness mean there is something wrong with the TARDIS. The darkness that had comforted me before was now closing in on me. I run after him, fear taking hold firmly, it's cold grip on my heart pushing my feet faster. I cross the threshold into his room for the second time tonight and can only let the fear overcome me. I fall to the ground at his feet and plead with him. I feel weak and pathetic but there is nothing I can do to stop myself any longer. This is my fault, I should have let him leave, I should have not let any of this come so far. I should never have said yes, should have stuck with my original answer, should never have come with him. Should never have let the crush decide my future because now it had taken hold, it had ruined everything. I knew the first time I had kissed him that it would spell the end of this, that it would end up here. I should have said no and let it die, instead of letting it lead here. To where my heart was no longer my own, where everything depended on him and his whims. I am no longer Rose Tyler, I am only what he wants of me and what he lets me be. The only word leaving my lips now is, "why?" Over and over I ask, voice straining with the pain, the need to make him answer. I ruined all this with my love for him, a love I knew would never be returned, a love that was my own to suffer through. A love he punishes me for over and over. He bends down, hand reaching for my cheek and I jerk back, I won't let him touch me again, this is his fault. As unfair as I know that thought is I am not strong enough to think otherwise, I have no real strength left, he has taken it all from me. The word still leaving my mouth, more and more strained, voice dying as the desperation fights the fear for control. I mouth the word, why, needing to know. As he takes my chin between his thumb and forefinger harshly, turning my head up to look him directly in the eye, I truly fear him for the first time.
"You're mine."