When Kara met her in the lab, it was awkward to see her sister looking at her with no love. It hurt, and all she could was smile and pretend like her heart wasn't aching. She missed her Kara more than anything in the world, and she would gladly give up everything she had just to get her back, but instead, they walked in awkward silence to the parking garage.

"Wouldn't it be faster if you just flew me?" Alex asked.

Kara looked at her in mortification. "Agent Gr-"

"Alex, please call me Alex. We've been through this before," Alex said with a tired smiled.

Kara nodded. "Right, Alex." She said curtly. "Alex, don't think flying with someone unnecessarily would be all that safe. I've never done that before, but if I ever did, I would only do it out of necessity. My mother always told me that showing off would earn me the wrong kind of friends."

Alex bit her cheek. "Do you ever ignore your mother's wishes?"

Kara shrugged. "She's the only family I have. Clark doesn't want me; he abandoned me as soon as he could. So, why would I risk upsetting her?" She asked as she hopped onto Alex's motorcycle. "Besides, she's kind of right… If people are only friends with me because of what I can do and not who I am, then there's really no point in sticking around them, y'know? My mom would be furious with me for flying without reason, and I don't want to risk losing the one person that genuinely loves me, over something so little."

Alex fought the urge to call her mother and chew her out as she nodded her head. "Yeah, I get that." She croaked as she put her helmet on and started the engine. I definitely get that. She thought sadly.

XXX

Sitting on her couch next to Kara was admittedly the hardest thing she had ever had to do. Not being able to snuggle her like they always had before just reminded her of the Kara she'd lost. Sure, this was the same woman, but she was much more alien than she'd ever been before. So, she'd been fighting to keep herself from touching Kara all night.

"This is my favorite part!" Kara said half-heartedly as she concentrated on the screen.

Alex chuckled, as she watched Meredith Grey actively shot down Derek Shepherd once again. Mine Too. She thought.

She noticed that the gap between she and Kara was slowly growing smaller by the minute, and she wasn't quite sure who was the culprit until she realized that she was on the same cushion as Kara now… Which was not the cushion she had sat down on at the beginning of the night.

Kara looked at her bemusedly. "Are you a cuddler Agent Grey?" She asked with a raised brow and a confused smirk.

Alex blushed, she knew that Kara was like a magnet to her, she just hadn't realized how severely until that moment. It was impossible for her not to touch Kara, and she hated herself for how weak she was. Kara didn't know her like this anymore. She didn't know her like Alex knew Kara, and every time the agent reminded herself of that it sliced just a little bit more at her heart.

"S-sorry… When I watched Netflix with my sister, we always ended up cuddling. It's just a habit." She admitted melancholily as she moved to scoot away.

When she made to move to the other cushion, however, Kara's strong arm wrapped around her and pulled her into her side. "No need to apologize, I just have never really had anyone snuggle me before."

Alex's heart broke. Oh, Kara… You have. You have. I'm right here, sweetie. I've always been here! "Why wouldn't anyone want to cuddle you?" She asked as she fought the urge to cry.

Kara shrugged. "Winn always wanted to, but I don't know. I could never really find someone I felt comfortable with enough to let me hold. Besides my mother of course."

Alex's heart lifted a fractionlet. "So, you feel comfortable enough around me? Out of everyone else?"

Kara nodded, not removing her eyes' focus on the television screen.

"Why?" The brunette asked as hope reverberated through her voice.

The Kryptonian's head turned, and her eyes bore into Alex's. "I'm not sure, really." She admitted. "I just feel this strange draw to you for some reason. I know that sounds stupid, but…" She trailed off and pursed her lips.

Alex couldn't help the minute infinitesimal upward curve at the corners of her lips. "It doesn't sound stupid at all."

"Yeah?" Kara asked with her brilliant, yet nervous smile, something all so reminiscent of the woman she was before her memory was swiped.

Alex nodded. "Yeah," She asserted. "Because I feel it too."

Kara's eyes lit up. "I'm glad I'm not the only one." She said, almost sounding relieved.

"You aren't, Kara. I promise."

Kara smiled and nodded as she squeezed the brunette tighter. "Good."

A few hours passed, and when Alex looked up at the woman she hoped would soon remember her, she found that the young hero was asleep. She smiled at the site, and paused the show, getting ready to stand, but just as she began to move, the arm around her tightened its grip, holding her in place.

She chuckled lightly at that, loving that Kara was still just as cuddly as she was prior to the 'incident'. She stayed wrapped in the Kryptonian's embrace and smiled furiously. "I love you, Kar'" She zealously whispered. "Please come back to me."

XXX

The next morning, she awoke with a start and looked up to find that Kara was no longer on the couch. She frowned, worried that staying the night had caused Kara to flee and never turn back.

She stood up from the couch, as she ran her hands through her short bark-brown hair as dread crept over her like an icy chill, numbing her body, but before it could wholly consume her, she noticed a napkin with a note scribbled on it.

Thanks for the companionship, it was very much appreciated. We should do it again sometime.

~Kara

Alex smiled, her anxiety that had just built itself up inside her melted into nothing. Kara had enjoyed their time together and wanted to spend more time with her.

Kara… Without remembering everything that Alex had done for her, without remembering their past, without remembering that they were sisters, still wanted to spend time with her.

It made no sense, it felt unreal, but Alex's chest was filled with so much hope, so much happiness, so much love, that she didn't quite care.

Kara liked being in Alex's presence, not for their past, not for their familial roles, but for Alex herself, and that was something Alex would never ever stop smiling about.

She walked to her closet, with a spring in her step and a hum in her throat. She picked out an outfit and started running her shower when she heard her phone ring. Still humming, Alex walked over to her phone and answered it.

"Danvers!" She answered before wincing. "I-I mean..."

"You're lucky it's me and not Kara, Alex," J'onn said sternly.

With a sigh, Alex responded. "I'm sorry J'onn but going almost thirty years as Alex Danvers is kind of hard to reverse."

"Mmm." He hummed in agreement momentarily before speaking. "We found him, Alex. We've got him."

Alex's body froze. She didn't want to believe what she thought she was hearing; too scared that she wasn't understanding correctly. "H-him? Who's him?"

"Lord. We've found him, Alex. We've found him."

Alex's mind flooded with possibilities. Filled with hope that this would be it, she could interrogate him, and make him spill every single detail she'd need to get her Kara back. The one that wasn't always in such internal agony. The one that opened up about everything to her. The one that loved her, and trusted her, and remembered their childhood, their romance, their bond. The Kara Zor-El Danvers that knew Alex better than Alex knew herself… Alex's Kara.

"Where is he?"

XXX

Alex walked into the abandoned DEO headquarters from the 1970's with confidence in every stride. It was about forty-five percent smaller than the DEO she was accustomed to, but it had almost the exact same design, which made it a breeze for Alex to navigate through.

When she reached the basement, she punched in the PIN into the numerical keypad and waited for the door to unlock. Once she was in, she walked over to a table in front of the chair that had Maxwell Lord tied to it, and smirked. "I took everything from you?" She asked angrily, trying her hardest to fight the urge to punch the man as she set her briefcases on the table and sat down in the chair opposite him. "You still had most of your money; you still had a home to go to that night. You still had somewhat of a reputation, and still had your brains. All I did was take away your toys." She said wrathfully. "You took everything from me, and you're going to tell me how to get her back." She ferociously averred.

Maxwell, who was chained at the ankles to the chair he resided, and hands handcuffed to the table before him; chuckled. "What makes you so sure about that?" He asked narcissistically. "I suspect that you assume I am going to give you the information you are so desperate to get, in exchange for… what? My freedom? You can have it. I don't need it anymore." He said with a shrug. "I mean… by now it should be pretty damn obvious that Supergirl doesn't need you, yet for some reason you still want her to remember you. Now, why is that?"

Alex bared her teeth, trying her hardest to refrain from opening her briefcase and showing her hand too soon. "Maxwell, you are going to want to cooperate with me because without your cooperation, your life… you know, the one that you are pretending that I destroyed? I will genuinely destroy it. I will hurt you in ways that you never thought possible."

The man smiled fiendishly. "There's nothing you can legally do that will get me to talk."

That caused Alex to smirk as her hatred and wrath took over her. She unlocked her briefcases and smirked. "You're right, Max." She chirped in a façade of friendliness as she showed the man her torture tools. "Legally, I can't do anything but interrogate you." She admitted. "But since my agency doesn't even exist, well… I can do whatever the fuck I want to you."

Max's face paled, as his eyes widened. "Y-you can't do this. I have rights!"

Alex morphed her face into one of indifference as she shrugged her shoulders. "You made the love of my life forget about my existence, so really, I don't give a damn about your rights."

After her declaration, Alex hovered her hands above a few of the objects in her smaller briefcase. Over a screwdriver, a high-voltage stun gun, a cautery knife, and finally settled over a handheld blow torch.

Normally she'd be against torturing right off the bat… But when it came to people who fucked with Kara? She just didn't care. This man was the scum of the earth, who had not only tried to kill Krypton's gift to humanity but had ended up falsifying her memories as a sick joke… So, did Alex really care if she had to get her hands a little bloody in order to get Kara's memories back?

The answer was no. She'd gladly chop off each and every one of this man's fingers if it meant Kara would remember her again. She hummed gleefully as she assembled the flame gun and walked around the table. "Are you sure you aren't willing to tell me how to get my sister back?" She asked with a raised brow.

Maxwell was visibly trembling as Alex grabbed his shoed foot. "You don't have the guts to do this. Not even for her." He ground out.

Alex laughed. She'd let the whole damn world burn for Kara. Winn, the DEO, hell, even her mother if she was honest. There was not a damn thing that Alex wouldn't do for that Kryptonian goddess, and everyone but Kara knew that right now. "Well... you're wrong, but… You'll realize that in a moment."

She took off his shoe and saw the fancy sock that covered the man's foot. She contemplated for a moment and then decided that she'd just burn it along with his foot. She put it up to his foot and placed her fingers on the ignitor buttons. "You have one more chance, Lord. Speak now, or forever lose your foot."

He was breathing erratically now, and Alex adored it. He deserves so much worse than this. She thought to herself as she regarded with expectant eyes.

"You're just trying to scare me; you won't actually do i- AHHH!" He screamed as she ignited the torch and burned his sock-clad foot. "YOU CRAZY BITCH!" He yelled once the infuriated woman let go of the ignitor.

"You think this is crazy?" She chuckled humorlessly. "You haven't seen anything yet."

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