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My Personal Hell. Part 2

Eric POV

"Harder, harder…" I couldn't remember her name and I didn't even care. I was just fucking her and that was all I could think about when she was under me.

I increased the pace, not because I was enjoying it but because I wanted to finish as soon as possible and get out of there. It wasn't an act of love, was not romantic or special or intimate, it was just sex and it was just a necessity for me.

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"Why?" Felicia always asked me the same question when I told her what I had done the night before. Never in my whole life, someone had asked me 'why?' so many times.

"I don't know."

"Yes, you do, Eric."

"Then why do you need to ask me?"

Felicia chuckled and stared at me. "I don't need to know, Eric." She breathed deeply for a few seconds and kept talking. "The reason because you keep doing this is because you really can't understand why you're doing it. Tell me, what was her name? The woman you slept with last night, what was her name?"

"I didn't ask her."

"Why not?" Again with the fucking 'why?' I was beginning to be tired of hearing it. "Tell me, why didn't you ask her for her name? You didn't want to know or just didn't care?"

"I didn't care. I was in a bar, drinking a beer and she was across from me. She kept looking at me all night and when she gathered enough courage to talk to me she told me that she wanted to fuck someone, me, and she didn't care anything else. Only one fuck, that's what she said." I could remember perfectly her words because I had heard them too many times and although it was sad every night the same story repeated for me and I didn't care.

"Have you ever had behaved like this before?" I frowned but she kept talking. "Have you ever needed to be in a relationship to have sex with a woman?"

"Yes."

"Even with your fiancée?"

"Yes."

"What has changed?"

What had changed? Well, my fiancée was dead and I didn't care about anything else; that was exactly what had changed.

"Eric, have you stopped giving importance to sex?"

"Sex is important."

"I agree," she said chuckling, "but it is not the only thing important, is it? Sometimes we let ourselves go by our passions because we believe there is nothing stronger but that can even be dangerous. You've let yourself go too much, Eric, and you need to come back to reality even if it is a painful world where you don't want to live." Was she right? Had I escaped from reality? I couldn't be sure of anything anymore.

"Eric, I want you to do something for me."

"What?"

"I want you to go out tonight, I don't care the place, a café, a bar, movies, anywhere, and I want you to talk to the first person, man or woman, you find in your way. No matter what you talk, just tell your name and hold a conversation or just don't say anything else. Only one person, just look for a person and talk. That's all."

"Why?"

"I thought it was me who asked that all the time," she said grinning, and I couldn't help but chuckle. "Back to the real world, at least for a moment."

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Could I return to the real world?

Felicia had never suggested anything like that before and I had to admit that I was scared. I wasn't good at talking to people, much less to strangers and the only person with whom I had related, other than my therapist, was with my sister Pam.

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"She wants you to do what?" Pam asked me surprised. We both knew I wasn't the social one of the family, I had always left that work for Pam. "Eric, are you sure it's a good idea?"

"I have no idea, Pam." I huffed and dropped myself on the couch. "I guess there must be some new technique or she's just looking for a way to entertain me, I don't know, but I don't care."

Pam sat beside me and put her hand over mine. "Eric, you're my brother and I love you but I hate seeing you so depressed and although I've never been a fan of psychiatrists, therapist and all that stuff but I have to admit that you seem better since you've been seeing Dr. Donovan."

"You think so?"

"Eric, you know I've always supported you, in everything, but I can't bear seeing you sinking slowly."

Many people might say that my sister was a heartless bitch but no one knew her better than me. Pam was always hard and distant because she liked to maintain her independence but I knew she was really someone who cared about me and I had no idea where I would be today if it hadn't been for her.

"Are you going to do it?"

I stared into nothingness without saying a word, just thinking about what Felicia had proposed to me.

Was I really ready to go out to the real world without wearing my mask? To talk to a person without looking for something else?

"Eric…"

"I want to."

"Good."

"I don't know if I'm ready." I leaned forward and put my face in my hands trying to think clearly. "It's been so long…I don't know, maybe I am not able to do this anymore."

"It's about talking to someone, Eric, not to prove there is life on Mars." I couldn't help laughing at my sister's honesty. I knew I could always count on her and she was the only person she would always tell me the truth. "I think you should do this, perhaps it helps you to return to being a normal person."

"Really?"

She shook her head from side to side thoughtfully. "Yes. Look, I don't think you're going to change overnight and everything's going to be happiness and smiles all the time but I'm sure if you return to normal world for a couple of hours wouldn't be something so horrible, don't you think?"

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So there I was, in a downtown café on a cold night and drinking coffee sitting on a stool.

There was no one beside me, just some people at the tables, so I was failing miserably in my mission.

It couldn't be my fault, could it?

"A cup of hot chocolate, please," I suddenly heard a sweet voice near me and when I looked up I saw a beautiful woman next to me. "Hello."

"Hello."

Her voice was sweet and her face angelic but there was sadness in her eyes.

I continued looking down at my coffee, trying to think if I could talk to her or she just leave before I had the chance to so I decided to go.

What could I lose?

"I'm Eric."

"Sookie."

The waitress placed the cup on the bar in front of her but I was faster than Sookie.

"I invite."

"Thank you, but you don't have to."

"I insist."

Sookie smiled weakly at me and nodded gratefully.

"Thanks for the invitation."

She left and sat on a free table and pulled out a small notebook and a pen from her purse and began writing.

Maybe she was a student or she just liked to write.

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When I got home I felt satisfied with myself. For the first time in a long time. When Felicia asked me to talk to a stranger I was hesitant at first because I knew it wouldn't be easy but when I met Sookie I was sure that I had done the right thing.

For some reason I could not stop thinking about her, she was beautiful with her long blonde hair and big blue eyes but I couldn't help but think there was sadness in her eyes.

Maybe she had problems with a boyfriend or at work and I really would love to know the truth, I'd have seat at the table with her to talk about anything but I didn't want to invade her privacy and she probably could have thought that I was some kind or perv who were harassing her.

Why was I still thinking on her?

She was the first woman that had awakened any interest in me in a long time and I couldn't avoid pronouncing her name in my head over and over again.

Sookie.

Sookie.

Sookie.

I was getting a little obsessed with her but couldn't understand it. I did not think of her as I used to with other women I met in bars at night. No, she was different, with her I could think of taking a walk, talk like two normal people or even go to the movies or dinner.

Sookie.

Even her name was unusual. For me it was just Mandy, Tiffany or Kelly, almost all of them with a Y at the end of their names but I wasn't one to judge them for it. I just slept with them, fuck them and then I disappeared as if nothing had happened.

"Hello brother," Pam greeted me from the living room and I grabbed my chest tightly.

"Fuck, Pam! I almost had a heart attack. What the fuck are you doing here? You left when I did."

"I know." She said rolling her eyes as if it were obvious. "I went shopping and then wanted to go home but for some reason something stopped me all the time." She sighed and I knew she was going to say something that was not easy for her. "I couldn't stop thinking about you and in that thing you needed to do tonight so I decided to go back and wait for you."

"Are you serious?" I asked her grinning. God, it had been so long since the last time that I really smiled. It was great. "Pam, I'm fine, no need for you to stay."

"I know but at least I wanted to know if everything had gone well."

"Everything was…" Was I ready to tell her what had happened? It wasn't really a big deal but I couldn't help but be excited. "Fine. Everything went fine."

"Fine? Just fine? Have you talked to someone?"

I nodded but said nothing.

"Oh my fucking God!" Pam yelled like crazy and I knew my neighbours wouldn't be very happy with me tomorrow. "You've talked to a woman! You did, didn't you?"

God, how could she know?

"Eric, come on, I am your sister; you have to tell me. Is she beautiful?" Yes, she was beautiful but I was sure it was not exactly what it was exactly what Felicia would expect from this when she proposed it to me. "Yes, she's beautiful. Eric, seriously, you can tell me anything."

"Pam, I'm not in the mood, I'm tired and want to go to bed."

"Are you kicking me out?"

"You can stay if you want but I'm going to sleep. Good night."

Ten minutes later I heard the front door closing and I knew she was gone.

I took a quick shower and got into bed. I couldn't stop thinking on her and I wanted to see her again.

But, was I going to see her again?

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