Okay, I've decided not to make Edward bi... or gay... but he's still a druggie emo. And yes, there is another reason for his druggie-emo-ish-ness...

As Panic! At The Disco once said... "Swear to shake it up if you swear to listen" or in other words, it'll get more exciting...

ON WITH THE CHAPTER I WROTE WHILE MY GRAN WAS IN THE OPTITIONS!! XD R&R plz

Chapter 4 - Edward Explains
Bella POV

Edward began, running his hand through his hair, "Bella, when you left without telling me, it tore my heart in two. I couldn't understand why you disappeared without letting me know first, hell, I didn't even understand why you left in the first place," he paused, "Wait, why did you leave?"

I sighed, "Fine. Charlie and Renee got into another fight, but this time it was worse and Renee actually did move out, taking me with her," I sensed what his next question was going to be before he asked it, "I kept meaning to phone, but I guess it just got more and more difficult as the days went on."

Luckily, Edward seemed to understand. But it looked as if he was avoiding the reason we were even out here as he was shuffling from foot to foot.

"Edward," I growled with a tone that plainly stated Please Don't Make Me Do This To You, "If you don't tell me all about your little addiction, I'll tell the whole of Forks about the time you asked where babies come from."

He chuckled, "Honestly, Bella, I think your answer was more embarrassing than my question."

My eyes narrowed as I changed my proposition, "Fine, I'll tell them about when you proposed to me."

He looked horrified at that particular prospect as he threw himself onto his knees in an overly dramatic fashion, begging, "Please, oh, please don't do that! I'll tell you everything you want to know!"

A smug smile spread across my face as I declared, "This doesn't mean I've forgiven you for being such an ass though."

The bell rung, but he was too wrapped up in thought to notice the students pouring out the doors.

He grimanced, "That figures. Now where to begin... Oh, yes. Bella, after you left, I was so depressed, I never came out of my room. The anguish was too unbearable to even eat. I became how I felt. Esme persuaded me to let a doctor up to see me. I told him my story and he nodded all the way through it. He injected something into my arm and in a few moments, I felt really good. The bliss wore off after a few hours, but luckily for my mental stability, the doctor left a few hits for me. I use it only sparingly, after a rough day, but apparantly, it's enough for my brain to convince my body I need it. About three months ago, this fact hit me. I tried to stop, but all it did was make me throw up. I decided I needed a permanent end to all this chaos."

It was here he shuddered.

"I tried to kill myself, Bella. The scars you see today are the affect everything's had on my life. If you're wondering why I'm still alive, you have yourself to thank for that."

Okay, now I was just confused.

"Before I could shove the knife any deeper, your face popped into my mind and as I hesitated, I thought to myself, 'What about Bella?'. And as if by magic, I've dropped the knife."

I nodded, trying to keep my cool and not burst into tears.

Edward POV

I couldn't believe it when She said, "I'll help you through this." I felt the grin hurting my facial muscles and was forced to stop before I pulled something.

I heard Alice's voice behind me, "So'll we. We heard everything and are willing to give you another chance. I for one still think you rather stupid, trying drugs and all that crap, and I still haven't forgiven you yet, but now is your chance to redeem yourself."

I shifted my gaze to Jasper, who nodded.

Now it was Emmett's turn to speak up, short-worded as it was, "Yeah, bro'!"

Rosalie rolled her eyes.

Now it was time to plan how to tell Esme and Carlisle, but I was interrupted by a squeal from Alice.

"OHMIGOSH!! BELLA!!" Alice flew at said person, enveloping her in a tight hug.

"Can't...Breathe...Alice..." was Bella's intelligent reply.

Alice reluctantly let go of her and she gasped for oxygen, but just then, it was Emmett's turn.

"Emmett!" squeaked Bella. Emmett let her go just as unhappily as Alice.

Said pixie exclaimed, "Bella, I promise I'll forgive you if you let me take you shopping! Do you agree?"

I let a crooked grin replace my usual look of apathy. If Bella said yes, she had no idea of what she was getting herself into.

Bella POV

When Edward grinned that gorgeous grin, I totally forgot Alice's question. I decided it was one answer or another, so I just nodded, hoping it was the right one...

Alice squealed again, "YAY!! Rosalie and Emmett can come too, and I'll get Mum and Dad to force Edward and Jasper to come with us!"

My eyes widened. Surely she couldn't be talking about...

"YAY!! SHOPPING!!"

Oh, no...

Oh, dearie dearie me. What has poor Bella got herself into? Review and I'll throw in bag torture for the boys! XD

Until next time! xox Hilary