A/N: So sorry I haven't been updating in a while. I'm actually still figuring out where I'll take this story. I mean, it's obviously – spoiler alert – supposed to be a Karmy story but I'm not sure yet if I want to take it really slow or rather fast. I'm leaning towards the first option, though.

Also, slight change in the story. I'm starting to write in first person perspective now rather than third person. I just feel like this is going to work better.

Thanks for reading :)

Present day:

Seeing Karma right then immediately sobered me up. I couldn't get over how beautiful she was. She always had been, the only difference was that she had matured and her whole body was just glowing.

Next thing I knew I was pulling her into a hug. „It's so good to see you!"

Karma was a little overwhelmed but just wrapped her arms around my back. „Wow! Way to make me feel welcome. It's good to see you, too!"

When I pulled away I just stood there and stared at the brunette girl that once rocked my world. But that was a long time ago. Which made me wonder. „What are you doing here?"

„I could ask you the same question."

Which made all the pain come crashing in that I tried to drink away. I looked to the ground. „It's a long story." I was trying very hard to hold my tears back. Earlier I was just mad at Reagan but now that I had time to think about it I felt sadness rolling through my body.

I felt a touch on my shoulder. „Hey! The way I see it, we have all night to talk about it."

So we talked. I told her about how I first met Reagan and that we seemed to connect right away. We spent so much time together the first couple of weeks we were dating that it was like there was no one else in this world. Of course the real test came when we told everybody we were dating. At that point I hadn't even come out, yet so it was tough. My parents didn't really mind but the worst thing was seeing so many of my 'friends' turn away from me because I was seeing a girl.

I watched Karma closely when I told her that I was gay but she didn't show any reaction, like she had always known.

When I got to the part where I caught Reagan cheating this afternoon I was close to crying again and Karma put her arm around my shoulder. „What a bitch! She doesn't deserve you!" Somehow hearing her say that made me smile. I took a deep breathe and pulled myself together. „So. Now you. What made you come back from the land of stars and fame?"

Karma looked a little uncomfortable when I said that. „Oh. Actually, I haven't lived there for three years. I live in New York now."

I just stared at her. And then it hit me how long we hadn't talked to eachother. It was mostly Karma who had tried to keep the contact alive during the first year. But for me it was tough. I couldn't quite get over her. So one day I just stopped texting her.

I wasn't over her until it got serious with Reagan, though. And even then...

„I'm sorry I never got back to you."

Karma just shrugged. „You must've had your reasons. But I always wondered what they were." She looked at me expectantly.

I felt my face turn red and swallowed. „Uhm, about that, I mean just -"

Karma chuckled: „Wow, didn't I catch you off guard there. It's ok, when I moved to New York my life got extremely busy and I wouldn't have written you as often as before anymore. So don't panic."

I was uncomfortable then so I just changed the subject. „New York, huh? What have you been up to there?"

„As you know I found this internship at a radio station in LA. Turns out journalism is really my passion so I work for NY1 News as a writer now."

„Holy crap! Karma, that's amazing, congrats!" I just looked at her with this huge grin on my face, dumbfounded.

„Yeah, it's really cool. How about you? Still at Top Bee's?"

That made my grin drop instantly. „Yes...it's not the same anymore, though. I'm thinking about quitting."

„What happened?"

„Well, ever since we started to expand everything changed. I mean I'm still getting along with Lauren and all. But now we have a store in almost every major city in the US so Lauren and I don't really get a say in a lot of things. It's all about money and more money now. It doesn't at all feel like a family anymore. It's just work now."

Karma just smiled to herself for a second and then said. „Remember what you said to me five years ago? If you don't go now you'll never go. And who knows what is waiting for you out there."

I just smiled at Karma and once more realized how beautiful she was.

Then I was distracted by someone entering the bar. Reagan. She stood in the door and looked at me. I looked back.

Karma noticed my distraction and turned around, too. Reagans eyes turned to Karma and she just shook her head before she made her way over. „Are you serious, Amy? You take me sleeping with another girl as a wildcard to jump on someone else.

Karma's jaw dropped and before I knew it the next words came out of my mouth. „I don't see how this is any of your business. You made it quite clear to me that we are over. So if I'm going to sleep with Karma tonight you don't have the right to say anything against it."

Now Karma just looked at me exasperated. I realized I went too far. „Reagan, just leave! I can't deal with this tonight."

„Amy, please can we-"

„You're not gonna leave? Fine! I am!" I stood up and hurried out of the bar.

I had walked a couple of minutes down the block when Karma caught up to me. „What was that all about?"

„I'm sorry I said that."

„So that's Reagan, huh?"

„I made it quite clear, didn't I?"

„Where are you going now?"

I shrugged. I still had no idea where I would stay tonight. „I guess I need to find myself a hotel room for the night."

„Do you want to come back to my hotel?"

„Karma, I wasn't serious earlier, you do know that, right?"

„I do. But certain people still fear that we are gonna do it tonight." She pointed back to the bar entrance where Reagan watched us closely. „So we might as well let her believe it."

Now it was my turn to let my jaw drop. „Uhm-"

„I'll just take that as a yes, so come on!" She just took my hand and we walked down the block while I knew that Reagan was boiling inside at the sight of this.

„So how about Liam and you? Is that still a thing?" Karma was staying at a small motel downtown. I offered to sleep on the floor but Karma refused to take that offer since she had a king size bed anyways and told me to stop being so ridiculous. After that short discussion I felt more and more comfortable with her so now we lay next to eachother and were watching TV.

„I don't know. I guess it's complicated. We moved to New York together but we're not living together. He's just so focused on his work as am I but we never really talk about our future. I don't know if he even wants one because he never mentions it and when I used to mention it – which I don't anymore because I don't want to push him away – he got all defensive and told me I should take it slow and not push him too much. After six years."

I could hear the pain in her voice when she talked about him like that. And that ultimately made me suffer, too. „Is that why you're here now? Because you haven't answered my question from earlier."

Karma made a face at that. „You're paying way too much attention to detail." She sighed. „But yeah, it is why I'm here. I mean obviously because I wanted to visit my parents as well but I also just need time to think. Which is why I booked a motel room rather than staying at my parents'."

„Yeah! Parents can be really exhausting."

We sat in silence for a while and just watched TV.

When I realized that Karma was watching me I just kept looking at the TV and crooked a smile. „What?"

I still didn't look at her but she shifted a little bit so I just assumed she blushed. „Well I just never thought you were, you know, a lesbian."

Now I looked at her with slight amusement on my face. „What? Because I still have long hair and don't have piercings all over my face? Or tattoos all over my body?"

She looked away uncomfortably. „I wasn't trying-"

I laughed. „Don't worry about it. You're not the first person to say that. And I do get the stereotype because they exist. But you were at that bar with me so you probably saw a couple girls that looked more feminine."

„I guess..I didn't quite pay attention to them."

I realized what she was implying but I didn't pay further attention to it. I wasn't gonna go there. „So to answer your question: it started in college when I developed a crush on one of my classmates. But I wasn't quite sure myself before I actually got with Reagan which was 2 years later. I only came out then."

„You didn't even tell Lauren?"

I shrugged. „Well she had just started dating Theo and ever since then I had felt like a third wheel in their realtionship. I was angry with Lauren for not spending as much time with me anymore. Of course I never told her that. I mean when I first started dating Reagan I was exactly the same and I was so happy that Lauren was ok with me seeing a girl. I think our relationship got stronger then, too."

„Wow! I think you are very brave, Amy."

I didn't respond to her but just stared at the TV. Eventually we turned it off and snuggled into the covers. If it would have been five years ago I wouldn't have been able to keep myself together.

And even now we lay here in the same bed together I realized it was the first time in a while that I was truly happy.

But of course it wasn't gonna stay that way.

Thanks so much for reading and sorry it's a tad short. But I really wanted to give you guys something.

Please comment to let me know what you think ;)