A/N-Hope you all liked the last chapter!!! Please continue to read and review!!! Some sections get a little "lemony" hence the M rating! Enjoy!
This is also a long chapter-I wasn't too sure where to end it so I just kept going until it felt right!
As the kiss grew deeper, thousands of emotions were running through my veins. My hands wrapped around his neck, pulling him closer. His hands were stroking my back, his touch leaving a trail of fire. My mouth was hungry for desire and it wanted to taste Jacob.
The rain continued to pour down on the garage. We could've cared less. The world could be ending and we were just engrossed in each other at the moment. Jacob groaned slightly as he noticed I had yet to pull away from our embrace. I desperately needed to breathe but was afraid that if I stopped again, my nerves would prevent me from continuing again.
Jacob's hands moved down lower onto my back and eventually landed on my butt. He lifted me up, his lips never leaving mine, and placed me onto his lap. I was straddling him, my legs wrapping around his back. My arms moved from around his neck to his back, pushing him closer. My mind was moving so fast that I didn't have time to fathom the whole situation of what was happening. I could feel a pleasant burning sensation in my lower abdomen that I have not felt in a LONG time. I could tell that Jacob was enjoying himself from my position in his lap. I could feel his erection through his shorts. Shockingly, that made me even madder with anticipation and I groaned out loud.
Jacob removed his lips from mine and made a trail of kisses down my neck and nibbled my ear lobe. I leaned my neck back, breathing hard and inviting him to taste me and never take his lips off of me. My hands were now in his hair, grabbing on to it and my fingers roving through it.
"Oh Bella," he sighed, his lips finding crashing into mine again. There are no words in the English language to describe what I felt from this kiss. I didn't think that I would ever be able to kiss like this again.
Our mouths stayed connected and Jacob's hands made their way under my T-shirt. His hands on my skin were smooth and comforting and he gently massaged my back and moved his hands. His hands traveled up my back and I could feel him untying my bikini top. The strap fell down and his hands moved from my back to the front, grabbing my breasts.
"What are you doing!?" my head screamed at me.
"She's fine-let her be! Jacob is the one for her now. He'll never leave her like HE did and Jacob makes her happy!" my heart answered.
I gasped as I realized a bickering session was occurring between my head and my heart and I tried desperately to ignore it. I brought my focus back to Jacob's actions. My body was reacting to his touch in ways I've never felt. As he continued to rub my breasts, I moved my hands under his T-shirt and lifted it over his head, our lips breaking apart for a nanosecond. I kissed his neck and chest, pushing him down so that he was lying on the floor of the garage. I was on top of him now, my legs between his. I knew we should stop but couldn't bear to do it. The change in position caused his hands to move away from me and I groaned as if in pain. He quickly turned us, using his strength and we changed positions so that I was now lying on the floor and he was on top of me.
"You are going to regret this, if not now then soon afterward," my head said at me.
"She is the happiest she has been in a while and she deserves it. Jacob was there for her when no one else was and he was patient and he waited for this moment. If she wants it, let her get it!" my heart retaliated back.
Jacob's hands lifted my T-shirt slightly so that my stomach was exposed. He kissed my stomach ever so gently. My head was spinning and I thought I was going to pass out from the lack of breathing. I felt the shirt go up higher and higher. His hands found his way back up to my breasts, and this time, so did his mouth.
"Oh!" I yelled out, shock and desire ripping through me. His tongue moved back and forth on my nipples. His mouth was all over my breast, kissing and sucking as he went. My breath caught in my throat. His face and mouth had settled in my chest and my hands and fingers were entangled in his hair.
"NO! NO! NO!" my head.
"YES! YES! YES!" my heart yelled simultaneously.
"Bella?" We both froze, panting and listening again.
"Bella? Jacob? Are you guys out here?" Charlie asked from outside the garage, thankfully out of view.
Jacob quickly stood up, lifted me up, and placed me on the couch. I desperately tried to smooth and fix my hair, my shirt, and retie my bikini top. My breathing was still erratic. Jacob put his shirt back on and sat down on the floor. We kept our eyes focused on each other. Jacob's breathing had slowed down to an almost normal pace. I was trying really hard to relax but my heart pounding in my chest was not helping. The recognition of what had just occurred, and what COULD have happened was sinking in, and I was astonished to realize that I was upset we were interrupted.
There was a knock on the garage door. "Come in!" Jacob said quickly, just as I finished tying my strings for my bathing suit. Charlie walked in.
"Hey dad," I said, my voice not quite sounding right but hoping he wouldn't notice. "How was fishing with Billy?"
"It was nice until the skies opened up on us," he grumbled. I then noticed that his clothes were soaked and his hair was matted to his face. He looked at me and noticed that I was wearing different clothes. "You got caught in the rain too I assume?" he said at me, a small smile spreading onto his face.
"Yea, we went to the beach and got caught in the storm so Jacob lent me some of his stuff," I answered back.
Jacob spoke up then, "Hey Charlie, you guys staying for dinner?" He quickly glanced at me, a sparkle in his eyes, hoping for more time with me.
"I would love to but I really feel grimy and just need to go home, shower, and change" Charlie said. "Maybe tomorrow we'll head over here for dinner because there is a game that I wanna catch with Billy. I just came to find you and tell you that we're gong to head back to Forks now. You up to cooking some fish for dinner tonight?"
"Of course dad," I said.
"Alright, well finish getting your stuff together. I'm gonna go tell Billy I found you guys and then meet me by the car," Charlie said. "'Night Jacob," he continued, shaking Jacob's hand, walking out the door, and closing it behind him.
My body instantly reacted. In a flash, I turned around and my legs ran me over to Jacob. I jumped up into his arms, wrapped them around his waist, and threw my lips to his. He kissed me right back.
"What the…" my head said.
"It's about time she opened her eyes and saw Jacob for what he was," my heart stated, matter of factly.
It was like the devil and angel were having a battle in my body.
Jacob's hands held me close to him, the kiss deepening and becoming more intense. I desperately wanted to go back to what we had been doing before and I was ignoring the constant, "No, no, no" that was resounding in my head.
Jacob pulled away from my lips, breathing hard again. "Even though I would more than love to continue kissing you and touching your body, Charlie might get suspicious and come looking for you again. If you stay here, he might find you in a position that he may not like to see," he said, seduction in his voice.
He lowered me down and we kissed again, gentle this time. He pulled me close into a tight embrace and whispered to me, "I'll sneak out and come see you tonight. Leave your window open and I'll climb up."
I nodded my head. I was dizzy and my head was foggy. I couldn't' really think straight. I got my clothes and shoes and walked to the door. "Thanks for letting me borrow your clothes. I owe you a new pair of socks because by the time I get home, they'll be filthy," I said, chuckling.
"Don't worry about it. I'd rather you owe me other things instead of socks," he said back quietly. I could feel a blush creeping up my neck. "See you later Bells."
"Bye Jake," I said, looking at him one last time before exiting the garage. The rain had stopped thankfully and it was getting dark out. I walked carefully to try and avoid as many puddles as possible but soon my socks, or I should say Jake's socks, were damp. I saw Charlie waiting by the truck with Billy, talking.
"There you are," he said. "I was about to come looking for you again. What the heck were you two doing in there?"
I stammered, "Uh, we were uh, just talking about working on his new car tomorrow and what parts he needs." I looked back and forth from Billy to Charlie, trying to read the expression on their faces and if they believed me. Thankfully, they did.
"Well, okay then," Charlie said, opening my door for me. I got in the passenger seat, buckled my seatbelt, and took a deep breath to try and relax. He said good-bye to Billy, shook his hand, and walked over to his door and climbed in. He slammed the door closed, started the car, and off we went.
We drove in silence for about 10 minutes before Charlie spoke. "Bells, I just wanna tell you that I am so happy to see you back to your old self after….everything that has happened. Jacob is a great influence for you and I am so glad that you are friends. I'm happy that your year ended on a good note and you have friends who love and care about you." Charlie reached over and squeezed my hand. I was surprised that Charlie was so forthcoming with his feelings, seeing as how he normally kept them to himself. I knew how hard this past year had been on him and he was pleased that I could finally be a person again.
Charlie took his hand out of mine and placed it back on the steering wheel. He glanced at me quickly before turning his eyes back to the road. "Do you mind if I turn on the radio?" he asked very carefully. Charlie was aware of my aversion to music but I could tell he was trying to test the waters because of my change in behavior over the past few weeks.
I swallowed. After my day today, I was against the radio but I didn't want to disappoint Charlie so I said, "Sure."
I looked at him and saw a smile spread on his face. He leaned over, turned the dial and the music came on.
"…I might need some time to clear the hole in my heart and I've tried every remedy and nothing seems to work for me baby... the situation's driving me crazy and I really wanna be your lady…but the one before you left me so damaged…damaged…damaged…"
I rolled my eyes and chuckled quietly to myself so the Charlie would not hear me. It was all I could do without screaming out loud at the song on the radio and the truth behind it. I closed my eyes and continued to listen to the song and think about Jacob. The lyrics were pulling on my heart and I was begging it to open and take Jacob in with open arms. I thought about our kiss, our embrace, his mouth on my body and I could feel a smile spread onto my face.
The car stopped and when I opened my eyes, I saw we were home. I got out of the car and followed Charlie, who had his fresh catch in hand, to the house. We entered and he went to the kitchen to clean it.
"Dad, I'm going to go upstairs to take a quick shower and change, okay? Don't start cooking-I'll take care of everything!" I said as I headed up the stairs. I didn't want the house to burn down while I was naked in the shower.
I went to grab my bag of toiletries, a pair of green plaid pajama pants and a brown T-shirt and a pair of underwear and socks. I went into the bathroom and started the shower, making sure that the water was hot. I undressed quickly and threw the clothes on the floor. I wanted to wash them separately because I didn't want them to get mixed up with Charlie's clothes.
I stepped into the shower and let the hot water hit my muscles to try and relax them. I had thoroughly enjoyed myself this afternoon but my body could not seem to unclench. My shoulders felt as if they were up to my ears and I could feel a knot forming in my neck. I couldn't quite make sense of my reactions and thoughts so I just concentrated on the shower. I washed my hair with my favorite strawberry shampoo and once I felt clean, I turned off the water and stepped out into the shower.
I took my towel off of the hook on the door to dry myself off and I grabbed a second towel to put around my hair and twist onto my head. I wiped the condensation off of the mirror and gasped. On my left breast was a huge red mark-a hickey! My mouth hung open and my mind raced as the images of Jacob kissing and sucking on my breasts replayed in my mind. My muscles clenched up again and I felt a slight twinge in my stomach. I dressed quickly and grabbed Jacob's clothes to put in my room. I walked out of the bathroom and into my bedroom. I shut my door and sat down on my bed to think.
My foot was tapping impatiently as I tried to assess the situation. Was I in love with Jacob? What would have happened if we were not interrupted? Am I ready to move on?
Jacob was the one person I could count on and I knew that he loved me and cared for me. He made things easier and I knew that I could just be myself around him. We could do anything-talk, watch TV, go for a walk- whatever and just be happy. But deep, deep down, a part of me still wanted him. I had to be crazy to think that he was coming back to me after all of this time and I knew that things would be perfect with Jacob but I didn't know if I could fully commit to him like I had done with…well…you know. My body ached for Jacob but my head was making me think otherwise. Being apart from Jacob only made things worse because I went back to thinking about him and obviously that is not helping the situation after what happened this afternoon. I groaned and slammed my face into my pillow. What was I going to do?