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Chapter three

Lying in bed, lying to you

Waking up was always the worst way to start off the day. Edward was worrying me deeply. He was sleeping and lulling around the house. He was even having various coughing spells. It was horrible. He assured me that he was just worn out from the fight, and he would get better. But some how I couldn't bring myself to believe that. I breathed out.

"Edward? Are you awake?" he rubbed his head up against my chest. I looked down at his naked form, so beautiful. Despite everything that is going on, we are closer than ever.

"mmmhhh?" he mumbled.

I twisted at his bronze hair, running my fingers through it. Tracing his facial lines. I kissed his forehead. "are you okay?" I took in his scent.

"mmmmhuh." he nodded.

"Edward tell me the truth what is going on?"

"nothing." he growled, "let me sleep woman." (gasp!) I stared at him open mouthed. He had never talked to me like that. It was so hostile so, mean. I moved away from him, laying staring up at the ceiling. I thought I was going to cry. Is he bored with me already? Annoyed that I am being too nosey? I had a right to be nosey, didn't I? I couldn't breath. This was ridiculous wasn't it? Well he was the one acting like this.

"I-I'm sorry Edward…" he didn't say a word. I let the tears out, they rolled down my cheek.

I got up and traveled hastily down stairs, falling on the last step only to be caught by my big brawny older brother. "hey Squirt, what's shaken bacon?"

"he-he doesn't love me anymore Emmett…"

"he does love you Squirt, why wouldn't he?" he whispered picking me up and setting me on the couch.

I was sobbing loudly soaking Emmett's fancy shirt.

"I don't know what's going on with him either Squirt. We're all worried about him too." he was trying to be helpful, but it wasn't doing justice.

"he is keeping something from me Emmett and I don't know what it is. But I'm so deeply worried. He just called me woman." I was sobbing. A part of me hoped he could hear me, hoped he would realize what he had done and come down here and beg me for forgiveness, but another part of me hopes he doesn't. hopes he doesn't hear how much this effected me. How hurt I am. Maybe I'm overreacting. Maybe I'm not.

Emmett shook his head, his curls loosely shaking in my face. "it'll be okay Squirt…I promise." he held me tight like that for hours, whispering soothing words. He promised if 'old Eddie boy treated me like poopie again that he was going to get a beating. You got to love Emmett, even in times of troubles he still finds a laugh. I closed my eyes, snuggled to his engorged icy chest and fell asleep.

Everyday was harder, Edward rarely spoke to anyone. Alice decided that it would be a good idea to postpone the wedding. I trusted her, she said in the end it would be okay. I wasn't sure if she was lying to me or not. I prayed she was telling the truth. All we did was lay in bed, Edward holding me and occasionally crying. Jasper and Emmett would drain animals and bring the blood up in water bottles for him. I thought it was utterly disgusting, but it helped since he refused to move. It was hard for me to see him like this, so depressed and so sick. I felt like it was my fault.

At times he acted like a PMSing teenage girl, and I was due to start any day now and I wasn't very excited for us being at each others throats for a whole week. I've been feeling funny lately. Like my stomach felt awkward, I don't know exactly how to put it. Just strange. Different.

I've had Alice keep a close tab on Edwards future. She said nothings changed, he just gets worse and worse. It hurts, but I'm glad they're telling me. I went to talk to Carlisle once and he just told me, "When Edwards ready to let you know, you will know." that really hurt. That he may know what's going on and is definitely not telling me about it.

I was lying in bed with him, snuggled close to him. Worrying deeply about him when he whispered something. "Bella?"

I looked up at him, he hadn't talked at all in two weeks, or at least not that I have heard. "yeah honey?" I whispered trying to be soothing.

"I'm sorry…"

I shook my head, "sorry for what sweet heart?" I turned to look at his honey eyes, they had a hint of green circling the sides of the gorgeous topaz I've learned to love.

"I haven't been good to you lately." he whispered his voice was soft and childish, and most importantly sleepy.

"of course you have, your just sick that's all…" I smiled at him caressing his face. He shook his head and turned away from me again, refusing to muster another word.

Two more months went by exactly like that, we would lay in bed when he would fall asleep I would run and eat something, or try to pee. The whole time waiting for my period to come. It didn't. Edward would whisper occasional apologies every once in a blue moon. But only if I was lucky. I was starting to worry. Charlie came to visit every once in a while, checking on Edward and bringing flowers. He were being very understanding.

This morning I opened my eyes and felt sick, I stumbled to the bathroom and vomited into the toilet. I started to cry, I didn't know what was going on. It didn't make since, non of it did. I vomited again, and then I felt the familiar cool arms holding my hair up. He was finally out of bed, all because I puked. This thought made me smile, but smiling just made it come out more. Ugh.

When I was done I laid up against him on the bathroom floor. "what's happening to us Edward?"

"I-I don't know, and it scares me Bella…" I chocked at his words, he was just as scared as I was. "especially now that it seems that you are sick too." he seemed so pained by the whole thing.

"it-its not your fault Edward, you didn't plan this…"

Edward kissed me, holding my face in his hands. Bringing himself closer to me. Edward pulled his shirt over his head and turned on the water, he tugged on mine I lifted my arms so he could pull it off. He poured bubbles into the bath, and unbuckled his pants. Soon enough we were in the tub, the steamy water making my face red. I was lying on top of him. The bubbles covering us completely. He was kissing my hair, our fingers were intertwined.

I gripped my stomach, it had started burning. The burning was familiar. I couldn't put my finger on where I had felt it before though. "it burns," I chocked gripping my stomach. He stuck his big hand over mine.

"uh Bella?"

"mmm?" I mumbled my eyes clamped shut praying for this pain to go away.

"when was the last time you had your period?" my eyelids fluttered open and I turned to look at him.

"oh crap, but I thought?"

"so did I." we were both shaking our heads when I heard Alice squeal.

"does that mean?" I muttered.

"I think so."

"but how?" I gazed up at him, I was completely straddling him now. This was so confusing.

"that is a very good question, love." I smiled, he hadn't called me love in so long.

I shook my head, "COVER YOURSELVES!" Alice screeched. Edward quickly added more bubbles and put me back on top of him. She busted through the door seconds later, "awe! You guys are so adorable!" she snapped a picture with her camera. "you'll thank me later."

"um Alice so am I?" I murmured, knowing she could hear me. She squealed. I guess that is a yes. "but how?"

Alice rolled her eyes like it was so obvious, "um hello, Bella, how do you get…"

Edward cut her off before she could finish, "obviously we know that Alice, but why is she…" he paused, smiling lovingly placing a hand on my stomach. "pregnant. If you do remember Alice, we cannot have children."

"hmm, I suppose your right brother." she shook her head. "I don't know. But we are having a baby!" she grinned.

"no Alice I am having a baby." I couldn't bring myself to believe it.

"no, Alice, no Bella love we are having a baby." he was acting so different, its amazing how fast something can change.

"what did you see in your vision Alice?" I asked.

"well I saw you guys on the floor of your bathroom, crying and hugging. I think they were happy tears." so optimistic. I shook my head.

"um Alice, its not that I don't trust your judgment, but I want to get a pregnancy test just in case."

Alice winked at me and pouted, "fine!" she winked again and skipped out of the room.

"do you want to keep this baby Edward, if there is one at all?"

"absolutely." he smiled against my hair.

He pulled me up closer to him. "this is the happiest moment of my life so far, love." he smiled. He pulled me closer to him, and before I could agree with him he was kissing me, so utterly and completely. It felt perfect, it felt right, and finally I felt whole.

i loved writing this chap, so much. havin Edwards change of state. go from angry and annoyed to completely loving. it almost made me cry when he called her woman though...tell me wat u think PLZ! dont give up on me! REVIEW!!