Death awaits me,

Please just let me be,

I have no love,

So why don't I just let myself rise above?

~我愛你~

KAO POV

I was now alone. I have been alone in this world for the past week. My brother was gone and my acquaintances have just been coming in and out for no apparent reason. There was fresh food in the miniature refrigerator and cupboards, all of them of which we ready to eat.

The room was dark and stank of moss. It was probably some unused abode on Kyouya's land. Kyoyua's because he was the one that managed most of the Ootori land and he would be the one to know where to keep me. The criminal for merely living.

Even if I had died, there was no guarantee that I would've saved Hikaru right? The scientist were experimenting. I definitely… did not kill my own brother. I was just a human look-a-like… right?

I spent my days wondering about my past. Everything had seemed so real. Although everything I touch with my body, I really don't, it's all stimulated from fake nerves.

Everything about me from my skin and bones to my heart and love are fake. So why does this sadness seem so real? Why does this loneliness seem so genuine?

If I were fake, shouldn't my feelings be fake too? I really wish they were.

Hikaru was dead and I was cursed to live in this shack for eternity if I wanted to survive. I hated myself for not having the guts to die. I definitely wouldn't of let those bastards kill me and be successful, but I can still follow Hikaru's route and be with him. He's not too far gone…

I don't know who to trust anymore. My friends have betrayed me once before... my family... they're not my family. I doubt anybody could be as alone as me.

I sat on the foul smelling bed and rubbed my temples. Life is so hard.

Suddenly I heard a knock on the door and muffled low voice mumbled something inaudible.

"Hello?" called out, the door was locked so I if I wanted to keep to myself I could. Maybe Kyoyua wasn't such a heartless money lusting bastard after all.

The voice murmured again. From the low tone, I couldn't make out the owner of the voice. Usually my 'friends' tones were distinguishable.

Mystified, I walked around the eating table and stood by the door, "Who is this?" I put my ear to the door. The abode was so low-tech, there was no eye hole in the door!

Something is wrong. The person at the door is a stranger. None of my friends would act so oddly.

"Who is this?" I asked a second time. When hearing no answer, I asked another question, "What do you want?"

Ragged breathing started and something started pounding heavily on the door.

I jumped back, "You know this is private property! Get off immediately!" I knew Kyouya would've never told anyone where I was and the others most definitely... wait... they have betrayed me once before. Why am I trusting them again?

My mind stopped working when a blade pierced through the wooden door.

Stupefied, I did nothing but stand there and wait for the hole to get larger and larger. Chucks of wood clanked on the ground.

When it was big enough, a hand shot threw and reached for the lock.

That was when I finally came to my senses. I grabbed the vase Haruhi brought to hold flowers, dumped the flowers out, and smashed it on the hand. The glass cracked and fragments dug into the man's flesh.

The guy screamed and his hand retreated. What the hell is going on?

"Kaoru Hitachiin, you are to be put to death. You are now marked as a scientific experiment gone wrong," The man gasped in pain and then continued, "Surrender now or we will pull your friends into this," An eye appeared through the hole, "You can't get away."

I threw my hands up in defeat, "Dude do what you want, they've already betrayed me," I grinned like it were the old days, "I don't have anything left in the world. But I can at least have some fun."

The scientist laughed, "Oh you don't know how much fun you will have with us."

"Oh," I smirked, "I think I do." I had an idea.

"So do you agree to come quietly?" Pain was evident in the voice, "I you won't, then I will be forced to call… for assistance."

"Take me, kill me, do whatever you'd like."

"Really now?" The man chuckled, "It's not that simple is it?"

"Yes," I said, giving him a smile as sweet as hunny, "I have one request."

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