Title: Northern Star

Author: Tu

Rating: Pg 13/R (Language)

Disclaimer: Still broke, and don't own SG1

Author's Notes: The song Reflections is from the movie Mulan. This is the version sung by Christina Aguilera in the end credits.

Look at me

You may think you see who I really am

But you'll never know me

Every day

It's as if I play a part

Now I see

If I wear a mask

I can fool the world

But I can not fool my heart

Jack walked forward out of the camp like a robot. He was just a gun on this mission. Pl7-483 was a scientist's dream world. It was almost like Earth was during the platonic plate shifts. He was deep in his own thoughts. I am the biggest ass in the world. I hurt the woman I love, then bail when she doesn't want to talk after she was hurt trying to forget about me.

"Jack, wait up!"

Jack turned around. About half a click behind him was the rest of the team. Daniel hurried to catch up with him.

"Sorry, Daniel." He said.

" Are you okay, Jack? You're like a million miles away. You haven't complained once about my rocks or told me not to get hurt. Not to mention you were nice to Dr. Killington. Who, by the way thinks your going to kill him in his sleep now." Daniel said falling into step beside him.

Jack looked beyond him. Daniel followed his gaze. Sam and SG8 were setting up some equipment.

"What should I do, Danny?" Jack asked.

Daniel had to strain to hear jack's question. "Talk to her, Jack." He said looking at his friends with pity.

Who is that girl I see

Staring straight back at me?

When will my reflection show

Who I am inside?

Sam looked over at Daniel and Jack. They had been standing there not speaking or moving for the last ten minutes. It was a little strange. The two of them were always in motion. Sam stood up and looked at them. They looked like someone had just shot their dog. Sam waved at them. Daniel gave a half wave, and Jack just starred.

"Major Carter, I am worried about O'Neill." Teal'c said walking up to her.

"You and me both. Has he said anything to you, Teal'c?" she asked.
"No. He has said little since our arrive three days ago. Perhaps you should speak with him."

Sam sighed. She looked over at the other scientists. They all were looking at her. She raised her eyebrow, and they all looked down at the ground. Sam rolled her eyes.

"Teal'c watch them for me." She said as she walked toward Daniel and Jack. As she approached, Daniel said something and left.

I am now

In a world where I have to hide my heart

And what I believe in

But somehow

I will show the world

What's inside my heart

And be loved for who I am

Teal'c and Daniel watched as Sam and Jack walked further away from the group. They watched as they talked. Sam was waving her hands to get her point across. Daniel felt someone right behind him. Turning, he almost kissed Dr. Killington, who was way to close.

"Am I in your way?" Daniel asked sarcastically, "Should I move?"

"Yes, please, we can see." Killington said.

Daniel rolled his eyes and stepped to the side. Sg8 and the non-military members of SG1 watched Sam and Jack had a minni-fight.

"CRAP!" Daniel said as Jack walked away. Sam came walking back with the 'LOOK' on her face. Daniel heard the scurry of feet as SG8 hurried back to work.

"You get Sam, I'll talk to Jack." Daniel said to Teal'c as he walked away.

Teal'c only stared at him.

Who is this girl I see

Staring straight back at me?

Why is my reflection someone I don't know?

Must I pretend that I'm

Someone else for all time?

When will me reflection show

Who I am inside?

Sam sat on her couch in the dark. She was trying to figure out what to do. After Sg1 had come back from Pl7-483, Janet had pulled her aside at told her something that threw her for a loop. Janet had run into Candy, and told Sam what had been said.

"Excuse me? Your Janet right? I say a picture of you and your daughter. You know Jack O'Neill right?"

"Yes."

My name is Candy. Jack and I met a few months back at Oddballz. He help me with my car, then we went out for some coffee." Candy said, "Could you give Jack a message for me. Tell Jack to just do it. I took his advice and everything worked out. He'll know what it means. Oh, and tell Sam, that nothing happened. She's a lucky woman. I mean, I wish someone would talk about me like he did."

"He has a strange way of showing it." Janet replied.

"Oh, my god, you must think I'm the biggest slut in the world right now. " Candy asked. At the look on Janet's face she gave a sad smile. "I know trying to get him to sleep with me was wrong. I was just panicking. I had something's going on in my life, and well, anyway. Tell Sam, he couldn't do it."

Sam had just stared at Janet when she told her. Jack had almost slept with her. Sam felt like a jerk. She had never bothered to ask Jack what had happened that night. According to Janet, it seemed no one else had asked either. They had all just assumed that Jack ghad sex with Candy. Sam had gone straight home. She had been sitting in the dark, trying to figure out what to do since she got home.

There's a heart that must be free to fly

That burns with a need to know the reason why

Why must we all conceal

What we think

How we feel?

Must there be a secret me

I'm forced to hide?

Sam sat in her car looking up at Jacks front door. It had taken all her nerve to get this far. She wasn't sure if she could get out of the car and knock on the door. For the last ten weeks, she had been angry with him for all the wrong reasons. Sam got out of her car. She looked up and saw Jack sitting on his roof looking down at her. Sam smiled up at him. He nodded toward the ladder. Sam climbed up and sat down next to him.

"So, what brings you here Carter?" Jack said staring up at the sky.

Sam looked at him and took a deep breath. "I heard this story once, about these two people in love."

"Yeah?" Jack asked looking at her.

"Yeah. They were put together by their work. And they worked really well together. They complemented each other. They could always trust that the other had their back. They could even have conversations with out speaking." She said pushing a stray piece of hair behind her ear.

"Sounds like they had it all together." Jack said.

"On the outside, they seemed to be together. But inside, they were both afraid. They had both been hurt before. And even though these two knew that the other would always be there for them, they were afraid. Afraid to tell each other what they really felt. So, they would hurt each other, by going to someone else. When all they really wanted, was to be with each other."

"Sam.."

"Jack I forgive you. I need you to forgive me." Sam said.

Jack smiled at her and reached over to whip away the tear that had fallen. "I think we need to finish that conversation we started at the hospital."

"We didn't say anything." Sam said putting her hand over his.

"Look in my eyes and tell me that."

As they gazed into each other's eyes, they told each other everything they had to say.

Sam burst into tears and put her forehead against Jacks." I'm so sorry."

Jack wrapped his hand around her head.
"Love means never having to say your sorry." He whispered to her.

Sam just grinned.

Jack wrapped his arm around her and they looked up at the stars. Both knew that they had a lot to talk about still, but for now, all that mattered was that they were with the one person who made them whole.