Things start to become more complicated in this chapter for both Logan and Jules… you have to remember it would only take one slip up for Julian to figure out it isn't Derek who has been texting him. I know this one ends in a cliffhanger but I have more on tumblr if you want to read it there. I'm julianwillwakeup on tumblr :) I hope you enjoy this chapter!
"So Jules… you know the fact that you've been texting Derek. Well, it's me… Fuck!" Logan says as he picks up his toothbrush. He stares at the mirror and tries again. "Okay, Julian. I know you think that you have been texting D but I really changed his contacts and it's me… shit!" He says, glaring at his reflection.
His eyes are a bit swollen from the lack of sleep. He had spent the night pacing his room, throwing various objects around it, and eventually just lying on the floor (the bed was too far away for him to move to) and staring up at the celling. When the text comes, Logan grabs onto his phone like it's the last cup of coffee in existence.
(7:14)
I think I'm going to get out of bed today…
(7:15)
Like… go to class.
Julian knows it's not normal to want Derek's reply this much. He holds the phone in his hand as he gets dressed in his uniform for the first time in two weeks; he keeps it next to him as he brushes his hair; he even places it in his lap as he checks his email.
(7:27)
Why the change? (not that I don't think you should obviously)
(7:30)
Why so curious ;)
(7:32)
I'm just tired of staying in bed. It won't make it go away. It won't fix anything.
(7:35)
And who has been telling you this for TWO weeks?! (sorry I had to)
(7:38)
I know I know but I needed to figure it out. It's not like I enjoy listening to other people. Even you D.
(7:41)
What about Lo?
(7:46)
Especially Lo
(7:53)
You ever wondered why?
(7:36)
why what? Why I don't like listening to Logan?
(7:38)
yeah
(7:43)
Because it's fucking irritating. More then half the time he's right or I agree with him and I hate that we have it in common so I pretend. It's easier.
(7:45)
So you act?
(7:49)
Cover it up with a million dollar sneer. Yes, I act.
(7:53)
Don't you get tired?
(7:55)
The fuck I get tired! But what can I do… I'm an actor. I pretend I'm not tired.
(8:02)
That's really awful, Jules. It's sad.
(8:04)
No shit Sherlock
(8:07)
All right I guess I deserved that… but do you ever wonder if Logan acts too. I mean everyone acts a bit… some suck at it, others are better then we think. I mean it took me forever to figure you out. I had my guesses but I didn't know for sure.
(8:11)
I don't know. I don't think Lo could pull it off.
(8:15)
I wish I was more like that.
(8:20)
Like what exactly? I'm sure you don't mean the politicians gay son who needs medication part.
(8:23)
Haha! Yeah I don't really want that part. Although I do love that about him.
(8:27)
How can you love the fact that his dad is a fucking crazy politician who wants his son to be anything besides what he is.
(8:34)
He's a fighter. And he's not afraid I guess. I wish I could be bold like that.
(8:37)
I don't think he's as bold as you think he is.
(8:50)
Why do you keep acting like you know something? You've been doing this for days now. Spit it out, Derek.
(8:52)
It's nothing.
(8:54)
I can tell when you're lying… even over text.
(8:58)
Fine… he's been talking about you. More then usual. A lot.
(9:10)
What has he been saying?
(9:14)
Just stuff in passing. Small comments. But you should talk to him more. Seriously. Stop hiding!
(9:23)
I'm in class! I'm not hiding!
(9:25)
You're still hiding from HIM.
(9:28)
Oh, that could mean so many things, couldn't it.
(9:34)
YES IT COULD. AND HE SHOULD KNOW.
(9:39)
Well I can't tell him.
(9:47)
Why the fuck not?
(9:50)
I just can't.
(9:52)
You're scared.
(9:56)
Wouldn't you be?!
(9:59)
Yes, but I wouldn't hide from it. I'd face it.
(10:03)
You hypocrite! What about Casey? You found a lot of confidence with her, didn't you.
(10:08)
I was wrong. I screwed up with Casey.
(10:11)
I don't think I've ever heard you admit you were wrong before, D. Impressive.
(10:14)
i'm trying to be better about that.
(10:16)
I have an idea!
(10:19)
Uh oh
(10:26)
Okay, so we both act like idiots. Don't even try to deny it.
(10:27)
Not going to… but where exactly is this going?
(10:29)
We should set goals for each other. We can come up with it for each other.
(10:40)
That's the lamest thing I have ever heard. I'm in.
(10:46)
All right. Let's start now. You give me my first goal.
(10:52)
You start. You came up with it.
(10:54)
Fine. Have a normal conversation with Logan. Just don't hide more then you need to about what you're thinking.
(10:56)
You're not serious.
(11:37)
I'm dead serious. You're amazing, Jules. And if you want Lo to realize that, you have to talk to him without sounding like you want to rip his head off and sell it to Windsor for $5.
(11:48)
I don't feel like that… and his head isn't worth $5. Maybe $2.
(11:54)
Uh huh. Sure. And I know you don't feel like you want to kill Logan (fuck him maybe but not kill) but he will never know that if you don't actually talk to him like two civilized human beings.
(11:57)
DEREK! NOT FUNNY!
(12:12)
I'm going to point out that while you said it isn't funny you didn't deny it.
(12:16)
Yeah well… do you want to have sex with Casey. That's a yes. So that should answer your question.
(12:19)
We are getting off topic. Talk to Logan! Please. If it doesn't work then you can go hide in your room for the rest of eternity.
(12:23)
No, if it doesn't work I will beat the crap out of you, cut your head off, and give it to Windsor for free.
(12:36)
Very funny, Jules.
"Hey, Jules!" Logan calls, smiling in a way that's only slightly sarcastic. The other boy freezes for a second, but it's the kind of thing Logan wouldn't have noticed unless he had been looking for it. He must have looked satisfied as Julian turned around because he notices the scowl widen on the actor's face.
"Hey," he says shortly.
"You're actually walking around! Impressive. I forgot you had legs!"
"Yeah that's funny," Julian rolls his eyes, then remembers his promise to Derek. Logan notices the slight change in his facial expression; the way his eyes soften slightly even though the sneer remains intact.
"So what have I missed while I was dying? Anything interesting?" He asks Logan who laughs. Julian looks at him sharply because the laugh is pure and free of sarcasm, a feet Julian had never managed to achieve for as long as he could remember.
"What do you think? Work. Coffee. Work some more," Logan says and it's Julian's turn to laugh. Logan looks oddly happy when he does so, so the actor folds his arms across his chest.
"Yeah that's what I thought. I think Derek had twelve cups of coffee last night. It was crazy," Julian says. Logan takes his time before responding somewhat carefully.
"I didn't sleep much last night. I don't know why," He says.
"Really? Did you have too much coffee again?" Julian teases lightly.
"No, I only had four cups. And that was before midnight, too. I'm not sure what it is," Logan says. He had decided that he was going to try reach for the goal he had given Julian. He couldn't tell Logan the real reason he wasn't able to sleep but he could at least tell him some of the truth… and that was better then none, right?
"Only four cups? And you were still up all night?" Julian asks, slightly puzzled.
"Yep," Logan shrugs and the two of them walk in silence for a minute.
"I'm glad you're back, Jules," Lo says as he reaches his class. Julian realizes his own class is art… on the other side of the campus. When he looks, he realizes Logan is smirking at him. "Have fun being late to art," Logan says. Julian manages to shrug it off and just laugh.
"Oh shit! I have been gone a long time! I totally forgot. See you later, Lo," He says hastily and runs off.
"Bye Jules…" Logan says quietly. He predicts that a text will come no less then three minutes later. And sure enough, the text comes right as he's taking his seat.
(2:03)
I talked to him.
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And?
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I don't know. I'm confused.
(2:14)
What did he say?
(2:17)
It wasn't what he said.
(2:23)
Then what was it?
(2:27)
I don't know!
(2:34)
So let me get this right: you know there was something but you don't know what it is.
(2:38)
Yes
(2:40)
That's messed up, Jules. And I'm clearly not the only one who can't lie.
(2:43)
What?
(2:48)
Not very convincing, Jules.
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I don't know what you are saying…
(3:04)
Oh yes you do. I can't lie to you. You can't lie to me. What's going on?
(3:06)
NOTHING
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Liar.
(3:22)
Do you need me to spell it out for you?
(3:26)
YES! Because you're not telling me something.
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What was that? I can't read it.
(3:34)
I'm not doing that again, D. Sorry.
(3:36)
And now I know for sure that you are lying.
(3:39)
Why do you think I'm lying?
(3:42)
Because you wouldn't go through this much effort to convince me otherwise. You would just say whatever and move on. You act like I don't know you at all ;)
(3:50)
Shit.
(3:53)
I thought so.
(3:56)
Now what's going on?
(4:21)
I don't know
(4:28)
YES YOU DO! Maybe it just isn't me you want to admit it to. Have you told yourself yet, Julian?
(4:30)
NO, and I don't plan on telling me anytime soon!
(4:37)
Well you basically just did, so now it's your turn to tell me.
(5:50)
I don't need to tell you anything. It's too confusing.
(5:56)
Is it about Logan?
(6:12)
No.
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Yes.
(6:13)
I don't know!
(6:18)
What did he say to you?
(6:23)
it's not about what HE said.
(6: 25)
Fine. What did YOU say.
(6:28)
It isn't about what I said!
(6:34)
Then who?
(6:52)
You know what… it's okay. I don't care. Find someone else to help you, Jules.
(11:38)
D?
(11:42)
Oh look who decided they wanted to talk to me.
(11:42)
Yes…?
(11:45)
I have a question.
(11:47)
Will I be able to answer it?
(11:54)
I don't know.
(11:57)
I'm kidding, Jules. You can ask me anything. What's your question?
(12:00)
Do you think It's possible to be in love with two people?