-Under my skin chapter Four-
Next Saturday was the basketball car wash fund raiser this one brought in a lot of people like most other times. When Santana and I get, there is five cars in front of us so we step out of the car and watch our class mates washing all the cars. Quinn is scrubbing a while dodge while shaking her ass to the music bumping She's running on her own there's nothing wrong with that . We glance to our right and see Puck standing in the cab of a truck washing the roof. He stops for a moment to left off is wife beater uncovering is tone abs. While dancing he points down to them and girls spoon over him even handing him money.
"I just want to make it clear that I am not supporting any of the activities of the cheer breeders or the straps I just like watching them detail my car something so satisfying" Santana catches my attention.
"I know I know and the only thing that would make it better is if they were flipping our burgers and super sizing our fries."
We look at each other smiling and laughing. We liked watching the ones that torcher us work especially if it's working for us. Once Santana's car is next in line Puck walks up to us and ask
"What will it be wash and wax, clean your leather, shine your rims?"
"Is that code for something, cause I already told you, you're not my type anymore" Santana spats back
I look at him and bit my lower lip Ouch that hurt I thought
"Yeah I know" he says lowering his head as he rubs his hands together clearly feeling stupid for his comment "So are we ok from last weekend I mean after I got stupid and messed things up?" He asks
Last weekend Santana, Puck and I were at Santana's house getting ready for a party. Santana and I were trying on all her clothes trying to find the prefect outfit for the party. Things between her and I started to get heated. It must have been all of the clothes coming off and being around each other in our under ware but we almost had our first kiss. We were sitting on Santana's bed waiting for Puck who was in the bathroom. Santana admitted to me that she was thinking about kissing me and I confessed that I did too. She told me not to be scared and leaned in grabbing my chin but before our lips could connect Puck walks in totally ruining the moment. I didn't know what had come over me to even consider allowing her to kiss me but I couldn't take the feeling that was surging through my body so I just went home. Santana called to check up on me and we made things alright between us.
"You didn't mess things up you helped clear things up" I told him
"Good cause that night goes down as one of my top favorite nights" he says.
We all smile and shake our heads and what Puck just said then Quinn walks up to us
"What are you guys doing here I know you're not her supporting the team" she says
Santana in a sarcastic voice says "You got me I am just here for the wet T-Shirt contest" Quinn just half smiles at her "But I do have to say I am disappointed" she continues
That caused me to spit and laugh crazy which caused Santana and Puck to join in. Quinn gives us a dirty look and walks up to puck
"When you're done ogling the gay box move the car into the line" She turns to Santana "Oh and don't worry we aren't going to scratch it we wouldn't have to want you to need to ask mommy and daddy to fix it that would mean they have to care." She shoots Santana a ugly glare.
Quinn sticks out her hand waiting for payment. Santana reaches into her bra and retrieves her money dramatically handing her the money. Quinn grabs it with the tips of her fingers. We laugh at her as she walks away.
"Don't worry I will make sure she gets the hose to the hair" Puck says as steps in to Santana's car.
Santana and I walk over to a table where they have drinks and popcorn.
"Don't let her get to you" I tell her
"I just hate that she knows anything about me that's why I like new friends you can reinvent yourself edit it out the bad and just start fresh"
"Wait does this mean you're going to kick me to the curb I know too much"
Santana turns to me and smiles then we hear some girl she is asking Santana a question
"Is that one yours?"
Santana nods her head
"It so hot if I could pick any car that would be it" the girl says
Santana walks over to the unknown girl
"Thanks! Are you new to Mckinley I haven't seen you around?"
The girl smiles at Santana which sends jealousy racing through my body.
"No I just heard the music and saw the cute guys with their shirts off" she says
Santana rollers her eyes when she hears the last part
"I am staying at the youth hostel in town" The girl informs us
"The youth hostel, from out of town?" I ask to clarify
"Yeah from Seattle" She gives up "I'm Josie" She reaches out to shake our hands
"Brittany"
"Santana"
We all smile a welcoming smile to one another but the way she smiles at Santana makes me mad and I have to hold back from kicking her ass right here and now.
"Yeah I am just traveling I am home schooled and I am way ahead so I took some time off"
"Uh I so wish I could do that" Santana says
I didn't like Santana falling for this girl's game, there was something about this girl that just didn't sit right with me. I don't know call it intuition but she gave me this dirty feeling inside the total opposite that I am use to when I in Santana presences
"Ah come on and miss all this team spirit" I say
They look at each other and smile giving me are you crazy kind of look.
"Ok or maybe not I am gonna go see my uh brother" I walk away leaving the two of them.
Santana and Josie continue talking and then Santana heads over to her car. Josie walks over to the table that hold the money, popcorn and drinks picks something up I couldn't tell what it was but she was close to the money box when she reached down then I saw her walk over to Santana's car.
Lunch time the next day and still now Santana. I sit at one of the tables in the court yard and take out my home made lunch. I put a grape in my mouth, that's when Santana rounds the corner and walks up to the table that I am sitting at. She sits on the top of the table grabs one of my brownies and says
"Oh god I love your mom's brownies"
I stay quite I was mad at her for ditching cause I know what will happen if she gets caught. I know she probably was with that Josie girl and that just added to my frustration. I keep my eyes on my grapes and say
"You have a problem you picked up a complete stranger"
When I say stranger I look up into her mocha eyes. The only thing she can say to me is
"How else are strangers gonna become friends?"
"I dunno you can start with coffee, a movies or something like that"
"Yawn Josie is cool ok? We have things in common unconventional families and life styles"
"I think you might need attention because you're not getting enough at home"
"Great another shrink" she says
She grabs another brownie and stands up "And who are you to be talking about my parents, just because your mom makes your brownies and cuts your sandwich doesn't mean that they are prefect or even normal when do you think the last time they saw each other naked was?"
"Don't change the subject you hook up with people for no reason at all"
"I like what I like and I go after it" she snaps at me
"You like too many people"
"Relax she's just a friend nothing to get all jealous over its not like your my girlfriend"
I look down kinda sad. All I could do was shake my head. She was right I was jealous but I wasn't going to admit it.
"Wasn't it you that says I was allowed to have other friends?" she asks
"Fine have other friends" I shoot back "And I am not Jealous"
I look up at her with an unsure face.
"Good Cause I am skipping the rest of the day and taking her out on the town"
She walks for the table and I follow her with my eyes until she is out of site. She left there with my thoughts racing through my head and a bit of heartache. I get pissed and throw the grape that was in my hand down on to the table and reach up to my forehead closing my eyes. The rest of the day was a blur I went to my classes and at the end of the day I went home to just rest and get my head together. Santana drives me crazy on so many levels.
The next day at lunch I am sitting at the same table as the day before looking down at one of the school books. Santana walks up to me today she doesn't have the same cocky attitude that she had yesterday. She seems to be sad in fact. I can't help but to not be mad at her once I see that she is upset. She sits down on the bench next to me
"Ok please don't say I told you so but I got suspended again, they saw me at the beach"
"Josie?"
"Yup" Silence "So what were you doing last night I tried to call you?"
"Nothing that would interest you cool people"
She rolls her eyes and with an apologetic face she looks up at me.
"Just watch TV with the Brady Bunch" I continue
I look over at her and see the sorry on her face
"How's your new friend?"
"About to go to Thailand and after that India"
"Well tell her to say hi to the dahlia lama for me"
"I will do that"
She widens her eyes and looks down to the floor
"Ok I better go" She says standing walking over to the other side of me. "They don't like suspended kids hanging out they think we might start a walk out."
"Yeah well I have a test I have to study for anyways" I say as I reach for my notebook
She leans into me with her knee hovering over me
"Well what are you doing later? Wanna hang out?"
"Why is Josie busy?"
"I don't know"
I lie "I can't I have plans"
She looks away and sadness covers her face.
"Say hi to Puck for me"
"It's not Puck!" I am still a little hurt from the fact that she choose Josie over me "Not that that is any of your business ways"
"You absolutely right what you do is none of my business and what I do is none of yours" Venom fell from her mouth
"Exactly"
"Perfect"
She turns around and walks way again leaving me alone with my thoughts.
Later that night I get dressed up my mom and I plan on having a ladies night out. First we are going to grab some food and then hit up a movie after. I keep replaying the conversation I had with Santana earlier today at lunch. I hate the fact that we fought. All I really want is to be talking again. I give in can call her as I wait for my mom to come down stairs so that we can start our night out. I dial her number and wait
Hi you have reached Santana's phone leave a message after the beep BEEP
I look at my phone with a frown click the end button close my phone and return it to my pocket. As soon as I finish putting the phone in my pocket my mom comes down the stairs.
"I'm ready! You look beautiful" she says looking at me
"Thanks"
I hear a knock at the door and I rush to open it hoping its Santana, but it's only Puck and Sam Puck looks at me and says
"Wow you look hot" he sees my mom walk up behind me "uh I mean pretty"
My mom laughs and agrees with him.
"Uh the boys are in the living room I inform them and they walk past my mom and I down the hall way and into the living room. I look at my mom and ask
"You ready"
"Yeah"
We walk out the front door, closing it behind us walk up the path to the drive way and get into the car. Buckle our seatbelts and head to the restaurant. After the movie we grab coffee and sit and talk.
"I am glad we had this night out together sweetie I am just sorry I didn't like the movie a little bit more" my mom says
I stand there quite with my mom's arm wrapped around me.
"Look Brittany I know with my crazy work schedule I have been less then available I want you to know I am sorry."
I still don't say anything looking down at the floor.
"I dunno I feel like I am losing you" she continues
"No I am still here" I respond with a quiet voice
"Look I maybe your mom but I know what it's like to be a teenager I have been there and I'm just trying to help"
I cut her off "No you're just trying to tell me what I should do"
I walk away towards the car
"Brittany" She looks at me angrily
"Do you know how hard it is to be my age and in LA at this time, I mean I don't remember hearing about any high school shootings in the eighties"
"Ok I haven't had your exact experience"
"Yeah and do you know I can buy basically any drug I want at school I mean could you guys do that?"
"Well we didn't want too"
"yeah yeah and sex wasn't nearly as big of an issue as it is now"
"Guns maybe new at school and Drugs maybe worse but I can assure you sex has always been on the top of the list when it comes to teenagers" she says half laughing "I am sorry is there something you're trying to tell me?"
"Not about that"
"Then what about?"
I stay quiet for a minute and lean up against the car looking down at the floor. Do I tell her the truth?
"Right now I am just worried about Santana"
"Oh" she says in an unhappy tone
She comes and leans against the car with me
"Look Britt I just really wish you would expand your circle"
I cut her off again
"You see that's what I mean, you ask me what was bothering me I told you and now you don't wanna talk about it."
I push myself off the car and walk to the passenger's side door
"I'm sorry it's just wait a secount"
She walks up to me again
"Alright so what's going on with Santana?" She asks
I look up at my mom does she really wanna know is she going to finally except my friendship with Santana?
"She's just got a lot going on right now" Pause "I mean she's my friend mom that's not going to change I can't help it I just know that she has a good heart"
I hold back tears in my eyes
"You really think she's got a good heart?"
"Yes" I practically scream
My mom looks down at me and shakes her head like she understands
"I mean she doesn't have what I have, you and dad. She's hanging out with some girl that I don't trust, she got suspended from school today, I am really worried about her and I just wanna know that she is ok."
"And I just wanna know that you're going to be ok. Every time I look at you Britt I worry. I am just trying to be the best mom I know how and I really don't know what to make of Santana I'll try not to question your friendship so much."
"Really?"
"I said I would try"
I look up at my mom and smile I am happy that she is going to try and get to know Santana. I know if she gives her a chance she will see her the way I do. Santana is Kind hearted, sweet and loving.
"Now let's go check on the boys" she says
I shake my head smiling and open the car door. When we pull up to the drive way I see Santana sitting on a bench outside my house. I get out of the car and make my way up to her with my mom by my side.
"Hi" Santana says
"What are you doing out her" my mom asks
I was kinda wondering the same thing. I stand there looking at her biting my bottom lip until I realize what I am doing and stop.
"You're not a big fan or poker" my mom jokes
"Not uh" Santana replies
"Right well I will just leave you two alone" my mom says
My mom bends down and kisses my head before she leaves towards the house.
"Thanks I had a good night" she yells back
"God she hates me" Santana says with a sad face.
I laugh and Smile at her
"Give her time she will come around"
"Yeah right I doubt that" Pause "Look I'm sorry"
"Sorry"
We say sorry at the same time
"No I am sorry you were right" Santana looks at me "My parents do suck" she says
We sit down on the bench she was sit on when I pulled up. She pulls her left leg up on to the bench and pulls it into her chest. I look in her direction
"And I do like attention and I do try and get it the wrong way sometimes"
She looks into my eyes and brown meets blue. I shake my head
"Everyone makes mistakes sometimes"
"Not you"
She looks over her shoulder at the house
"You have this great home with your great brother's ok wait one great brother"
I smile and laugh
"Mike and your mother kisses you and lets you hang out with teenage lesbian freaks"
"You're not a freak you just act like one sometimes"
That comment makes us both laugh and she looks at me again. I put my elbow on the back of the bench facing Santana. I put my head in my hand playing with the back of my hair.
"Speaking of freaks where is Josie?"
"Who knows" she says
Her tone caught me off guard and I turn to look at her
"I let her stay at my house and she eat all my food, made so many phone calls and when I woke up she was gone along with half of my clothes and my favorite bootleg Damien Rice CD and my Ipod."
I look at her with disbelief
"Ouch" I say
"I am so stupid you tried to tell me but I wouldn't listen"
She looks into my eyes then down at the floor I can't help but laugh a little. My mom walks out with a batch of brownies and two glasses of milk.
"Hey guys I thought you might like a snack."
Santana stands up and face my mom like she felt that sitting next to me would make my mom mad or something.
"Thanks mom" I say
I take the brownies and pull Santana down to sit next to me again.
"So Santana I was thinking why don't you stay the night" my mom says
We both look up at my mom me smiling and thanking her with my eyes.
"Really?" Santana asks
"Yeah made your bed up on the couch"
"Ok thank you"
"You're welcome"
My mom smiles back at me and heads back to the house I turn and look at Santana
"See I told you I talked to her" smiling "It's not so bad living with the bradies"
Santana smiles so cute as she looks into my eyes. God I don't ever want her to turn away. She looks so beautiful tonight.
"I am glad you came back tonight" I say
Her face changes to a serious look but still looking at me like I was about to say something important
"I couldn't stand going another night without talking to you"
"Me too" she says
We look into each other's eyes again
"I Love" Flows out of her mouth
I look at her like is she really going to say it?
"These brownies" she finishes
She stuffs the brownie in her mouth. I just sit there looking at her I knew what she wanted to say because honestly I felt the same way. We sat there for a while longer eating the brownie and drinking the milk then we headed into the house and went our separate ways like the time before, me to my bed and Santana to the couch.