It took me a long time writing this chapter. I've been really busy with work. I'm not really proud of this chapter. It was hard writing Alex's point of view. Anyway, hope you'll enjoy reading this chapter!

Alex is pissed. He is at Joe's surrounded by happy couples- Cristina and Owen, Meredith and Derek, Arizona and Callie and he heard Mark and Lexie finally got together again. He is not jealous that Lexie is with Mark. He is jealous that the two reconciled; that they were able to put the past behind them, forgive each other and start anew.

Not that he was not happy that the two are now back together as lovers. He is in fact, happy for them. It's just that he wished it could be them. That it was him and Izzie finding a way to be together. And the thought pisses him more, because at this point, it is quite impossible. He didn't even know where the hell she is. He knew nothing about her anymore.

Sometimes he can't help but wonder if she had moved on already, because on Alex's part he knows he has not. He is stranded. Every time he thought he was moving forward, the memory of Izzie haunts him. Yeah, he is an ass. A man-whore. He sleeps around with different girls, but he still feels weird waking up with a brunette or red headed woman and he can't help but feels disgusted sometimes when he looks into the eyes of his sex partner and find out that it's not brown and big like Izzie's. Even the thought of Izzie making love to another man makes him sick. He probably can't handle seeing her with another man. That would be fucking too much for him to handle.

"Hey! Here comes the Heroes of Seattle!"

He looked at the door to see Shepherd and Bailey coming inside the bar as everyone, including him, laughed at Mark's comment and congratulated the newly arrived doctors. He can't help but think about Izzie as he looked at his former resident. She was given an award for putting up the Denny Duquette Memorial Clinic, and if it were up to him, Izzie should be given too. It was the money that Denny left her that made Bailey's dream to have a free clinic possible. It was Izzie's selfless nature that…Stop. He should stop thinking about her and her qualities that made him love her more. If he really wants to move on, he should stop thinking about Izzie. He sighed as he realized how hard that task is.

"Where's Cristina?", he heard Derek ask with a loud voice. He then noticed Meredith was not with him.

"Why? Where's Meredith?", Cristina asked.

"She's at the car. She wants to speak with you. She told me to tell you that she needs you there.", Derek said.

"Can't she just drag her ass in here so we can talk? What does she want anyway?", he heard Cristina say before walking out of the bar.

"What was that?". Mark asked.

"Oh. Just some girl stuff. Come on, I need a drink."

And he was relived, he thought for a second something happened to his friend. Good thing it was only about some girl's stuff he wouldn't want to know anyway. He picked up his beer, his second for the night, and took a long gulp of it.

"Scotch please, Joe.", he heard Derek said as he sat in one of the bar stools where he was sitting. He gave the man a nod, acknowledging his presence.

Arizona smiled at Derek and said, "Congratulations. How does it feel to be given such an award?"

"Great, actually. It feels great." Derek smiled and then spoke again, "You know a pedes surgeon named Brad Keaton?"

Arizona smiled brightly and he can't help but smirk at her when she started speaking excitedly. "Oh my God, you know Brad? He's my friend. Great guy plus, he's hot. Really hot. Everyone's really.."

Arizona stopped and looked at them. "No, no, no. Don't get me wrong, I'm definitely not interested in him.. I'm a 100% lesbian plus I heard he's getting married with her hot girlfriend who I heard is pregnant. Our friends said.."

"Dude, stop talking. Shepherd's clearly not interested with your hot friend. And neither are we.", he finally said as he saw Derek not listening to Arizona's rambling anymore.

"Where the hell is Meredith and Cristina?", he asked Derek. It had been 30 minutes since Cristina walked out of the bar to go to Meredith. What the hell are they doing outside?, he thought. "Aren't you gonna check on them?"

"No. I think they'll be coming any minute.", Derek answered. "Don't worry about them. Just drink your beer, Karev. Joe, give him another one."

He was about to speak when he heard Owen, "Cristina, where have you been? I was looking for you."

"Dude, you're whipped.", he comments smirking as he waits for Cristina's retort, his eyes never leaving the bottle in front of him.

But instead of Cristina's, it was Owen's voice he heard. "Stevens?"

Upon hearing the name, he automatically turned around and saw Izzie.. He felt his heart stopped and felt the air go thicker, making it harder for him to breathe. She is wearing a blue dress, her hair's longer and she looked beautiful.. Damn, she always looks beautiful.

Their gazes locked and he saw her eyes went wide. She immediately looked away and gave the people a nervous smile. He was certain that if he had not been frozen with shock that the man behind her, whose hand is on Izzie's waist, would be feeling the full force of his fist by now.

Izzie could feel the tension building up inside the bar and no one seems to be able to react as they just continued to stare at Alex and Izzie. Finally, she heard the Chief clears his throat and walked towards her.

"Stevens, I'm so glad you were able to join us. He smiled then looked at the man behind Izzie. "Can I borrow Izzie for a while uhm..?"

"Dr. Brad Keaton."

"Dr. Richard Webber. Is it okay? I just need to talk to her."

"No problem, sir. I think I'll just go get some drinks first."

Chief Webber nodded and guided her at the table somewhat far from the other doctors. She glanced at Alex and saw him glaring at her. She can't help but feel sad as she saw his hazel eyes look at her with too much anger and disgust that she immediately felt her body trembling slightly.

Alex couldn't believe that Izzie is in Seattle, inside Joe's bar where he is currently drinking, parading her new boyfriend or husband or whatever. He doesn't care. You don't care. She left you. You don't deserve her. You don't care. She left you. You don't deserve her. Maybe repeating those words would stop the rush of emotions that were going though his body. And he failed. Damn it.

He looked up and saw Meredith walking towards Derek who is still beside him, her gaze purposely ignoring him. It didn't take him a moment to realize that the man Izzie is parading is behind Meredith.

"Arizona!"

"Brad!", he heard Arizona squeal. "Nice to see you. Sorry I wasn't able to go to your engagement party. Callie, my girlfriend, and I were really planning to go to see you and our friends as well but something came up."

"Yeah. Abby, Mike, Pete and Aaron went to L.A. It was fun. The gang misses you but its okay. No worries, man."

Callie who came from the comfort room then joined Arizona and Brad.

"Brad, this is Callie, my girlfriend."

"Nice to meet you, Callie"

"Nice to meet you, too.", Calie said with a smile.

Suddenly, Arizona tensed a bit before proceeding. "Uhm.. this is Alex Karev, another doctor."

"Hey, Alex.", the man simply said. There's no uptight sense in his voice, just plain cool and casual. And Alex can't help but admire the guy for that. Because he is, well, losing his cool and he could feel any minute he would explode with anger as he realized that if this guy is engaged and he's with Izzie.. then Izzie is the one he's engaged with. Fuck. He felt the bile rose to his stomach as he contemplated whether or not he should acknowledge the other man. He saw Meredith finally look at him, with a look that says be nice or something like that.

So he simply nodded to the other or Izzie's new man.

Arizona smiled. "And here's Derek Shepherd but I think the two of you already met."

"Yeah. I met Brad at the resto earlier."

"What brought you here in Seattle. I mean..", Callie asked, tensed.

"Izzie was awarded for putting up the clinic.", Brad simply said, as if it was so natural to find him where Izzie is. The man saying Izzie's name made the tension grew stronger around the small crowd.

"Really? That's great!", Arizona said brightly, trying to lighten up the tense mood.

"Izzie! Cristina! Come here guys!", he heard Meredith yell.

The two walked towards them. Once again, he and Izzie's gaze locked and this time, it was him who looked away first. He can't look at her now. He didn't want to look at her.

"Congratulations Dr. Stevens!", Arizona said.

"Thank you. Please call me Izzie.", Izzie said with a smile.

"Hey,Iz. She's the friend who works in Seattle who was not able to attend the party.", Brad said.

"Oh. I'm sorry about that." Arizona quickly butts in.

"Don't be. It's okay.", Izzie answered tensely before looking at him, wondering if he knew about the party Brad was talking about.

"Izzie!", Joe exclaimed.

"Joe! It's so nice to see you again." , she grinned and went to the bartender to give him a friendly hug.

"You look great. Hot. But still, not my type.", Joe said.

Izzie laughed at this and it hit Alex how much he misses Izzie's laugh. If he had to be honest to himself, it was not Izzie's laugh that he missed. It was Izzie.

"So what's your poison?", asked Joe.

"Give her tequila. She needs something strong.", Meredith said, smiling at Izzie.

"Mer, I don't think Izzie's up for tequila.", Derek whispered to Meredith.

"Why not?" , asked Meredith in a normal voice and then Derek whispered something again to Meredith.

"You're pregnant?" Meredith's eyes went wide and it was too late before she realized her mistake. She looked at Alex with a worried look knowing how much this would affect Alex. And it did as she looked at Alex who is frowning at Izzie, the muscle in his jaw tight.

Alex stood up and gave Izzie a disgusted look before turning around to leave the bar.

Izzie can't help but panic as she watch Alex walk out of the bar. She felt the tears that were about to fall from her eyes. This can't be happening. She wouldn't let Alex walk out on her when they weren't talking yet.

She immediately went out of the bar to go after him. She looked around, it was too late. Alex is gone.

"Izzie!", she heard Meredith say.

"Mer, he's gone. Alex is…gone." She said sobbing, her hopes about getting back with her ex- husband already diminishing.

"Then go after him. Here's my car key. He must be at Mer's house." It was Cristina.

She grabbed the key from Cristina and hopped inside the car. She drove as fast as she could, praying and hoping that once and for all, things would be okay between her and Alex.