Your family needs you (part 2)

She was getting ready for her trip with Merlin. She was anxious, she could tell. She was standing in this beautiful field of roses and trying to calm down but she failed. She was closing her flask of water nervously when she turned to see him coming.

"You return by nightfall right?" He said while he was reaching her.

"Yes. We'll go get this spark… thing and then I'm working my way back to you, babe." If she had a hobby that was to tease him; and quoting something was the best way to obtain the funniest expressions out of him.

"I know when you're quoting something" He smiled at her satisfied with himself. She hadn't tricked him this time.

"And I love that you never know what it is" Well, she had failed but she couldn't complain. The smile he gave her was far more than precious this moment. If only he could go with her. "Anyway, with a bit of luck we'll put Excalibur together tomorrow and then bam no more darkness.

He looked down before he took her hand in his. "Be careful Emma" He really couldn't go with her? He wouldn't stop her from doing what was needed if he did. Damn it. He knew he wouldn't go with her. He kissed her gently and then he left her hand to get a chain off his neck. He, seriously, wanted to laugh at her expression. The wave of her hands and the non-existed words she said were the most adorable thing he had ever seen.

"What is it Swan? I can't see the reason to panic."

She looked at him with a serious expression, not knowing what to say. "Killian…" She stopped to shallow hard.

"Well" He looked at her and smiled softly. "We both know I can't come with you today…" He took her hand again without giving her the chain and started to drop down to one knee. "… but I can give you something to make you carry me with you…" He looked up again, serious this time "…if you want it."

It was like she had forgotten her birth language. She couldn't find words to speak. She faltered a little before managing to speak. "If I want what?"

His look was now more insecure than ever and he needed to force all his strength to speak again. "Will you marry me, Swan?"

He managed a smile and she did too. He was really proposing? It all happened so quickly, she needed some time. "Are you planning to make me wear the whole thing or the chain is a bonus?" It was an insecure try to earn time and she was surprised to hear him laugh.

"I'll need a little help to get it off the chain… Well, you know." he said and lifted up his hook. She laughed too and he couldn't wait anymore. "Don't torture this poor man Swan. I'm waiting for an answer.

She closed her eyes to gather the courage she needed. She knew exactly what her answer would be. She just couldn't imagine she would have to give it so soon. She opened her eyes again ready to speak but the smiling man she was remembering wasn't in front of her. His eyes were filled with pain and his hand left hers in an instant to touch his neck. And then she saw it. A wound was suddenly bleeding at the base of his neck and he fell to his both kneels. She reached him without thinking. What had just happened?

"Killian" She begged him to give her a sign that he was ok, to reassure her as he always did.

"Emma…I'm..." He was struggling to breath and she helped him to lay down to the ground. "I'm sorry."

"Killian, no! No, no, please. I've told you, I can't lose you."

"Emma…" He wasn't able to finish his sentence. And she cried over him. "No. You can't leave me. You have to stay, Come on, Killian."

She felt his holding at her hand weakening and she noticed him, to see his remaining breath leaving his body.
She hugged him desperately and sobbed over his body when she heard a loud noise, something like a howl over them. She looked up and before she could react she saw a big, black furry lifting Killian on the air and taking him away from her. She cried out not knowing what to do. She noticed the chain he was about to give him. It had fallen to the ground -as he did- and it was now dirty in her hands. He was gone and she was sitting alone there. All alone once again.

She woke up, soaking wet because of the sweat and unable to breath normally. It was all a nightmare. She was in her old room and it took only a moment before the realization hit her. He was really gone.

It was after seconds when she saw her mother appearing.

"Emma, honey, what happened?"

She looked at her and it was as if she was lost. "He is gone."

"Oh, Emma." She hugged her daughter softly in a try to comfort her but she knew it wasn't enough.

She took advantage of the time her mother gave her to calm down. She couldn't continue living like this. She had to find something. Was this really over?

"I'm ok now mom, thank you." Her voice was weak once again.

"Is there something I can do for you?" She asked quietly.

"Yhea, actually… Can you bring me an advil? Or two?"

The worry in her eyes became stronger. "Why? Are you feeling sick again?"

"Yes. All this situation is making me more and more weak." There was no point to refuse that.

"What do you mean? Emma, for how long does this keep happening?" She was so serious that she thought she show fear in her daughter's eyes.

"I don't know. About a week? Or two… I don't remember." She was confused. Why was this so important?

"You mean since we came back here?" She persisted.

"Yhea, almost…" She responded.

"Wait a minute"

She wanted to ask her why she was reacting like this but she had already left. When she came back, after some minutes she was holding a pendant.

"What is this?" She asked him, curiosity filling her voice.

"This…" she exhaled, "…is something your grandma gave to me."

She couldn't hide her shock. "My…. Grandma?"

She smiled at Emma's expression. "Yes. David's mother."

"Ok… so. How can this help me?" She still couldn't understand.

"I don't want to freak you out but… this can show you the sex of your next child. If you're going to have a child." She tried not to scare her but she failed.

"Whoa… mom. What are you saying? I'm just… I mean… The man I love is gone. Feeling sick doesn't mean… this" Ok. She was literally freaking out.

"You're right. It doesn't. But it worths a try, doesn't it? If it moves it means that you are pregnant, which is sad but beautiful, or if you're going to be, which is hope." She smiled at her encouragingly.

She looked at her mother as if she was insane. "Ok. Do it. If you need this to reassure yourself, I won't stop you. I know it's not going to move"

Snow smiled again and lifted the pendant in front of Emma's body. She was looking at it with hope while Emma seemed like she just waited for her to finish. Two pairs of eyes started to widen when the pendant begun to move from north to south.

"Wait, what?" Emma asked before she could think. "No… It… It must be broken or something."

"Emma" She tried to stop her with a big smile. "It's not"

She saw the shock becoming fear in her daughter's eyes and she hugged her. "It's ok Emma." She tried to reassure her. "I think you should take a test now and if it's negative… we can hope for the future." She continued to smile in order to give her strength.

"Ok" she whispered and nodded. "I'll do it"

She stood up from the bed. She was already dressed up from the last night. Her hair was a mess but she really didn't care. She begun to leave when she turned around one more time.

"Mom. Don't tell anyone. Please." She was actually begging her. The last thing she needed now was questions.

"I promise. Don't you want to know the sex?" She asked happily.

Emma smiled weakly. "No. There are most important things to learn right now." And she left the room without another word.

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The last time she was in this room she was holding Excalibur in her hands and she was hearing Killian to threaten her. But he was just playing a role. If only she knew. How bad he may had felt all these moments he pretended to be dark?! He had died to save her, and here she was now, carrying his child without knowing how to react. Was she right to feel happy? Who was she trying to fool? Of course she wasn't happy. She was pregnant, alone and desperate for the second time in her life and she wanted to scream. What had she ever done to deserve this?

Will you marry me Swan?

The dream she saw the night before was coming back again and again, haunting her. A dream that was later transformed to the worst nightmare she ever had. She wanted this future. But she wanted it with him. There was no future for her alone, and she wasn't willing to replace him. She was searching for a plan to take him back the whole morning. She wasn't hurry to take the test. He wasn't here to share the news with him. She took her time to walk. She went to the Jolly and to the beach. The ocean could calm him. Now the same ocean was the nearest thing she had to him. No... She knew now that she might had more.
When she came to their home and took the test she was afraid to look at it. She hoped and wanted to cry at the same time. She was alone again with a pregnancy test in her hands in a place bigger than her previous cage but still feeling like prison. The prison of their future they could never have together.

She was holding his ring in one hand and her belly with the other when a loud whisper started. A strange but extremely familiar whisper. She stood up from the couch and took her phone from the table while she was almost running out of the house.

They were in front of the lake. At the same place they were last night… but someone was missing. Well, not for long. She would get him back. She looked at the crocodile -He was really a crocodile after what he'd done- with the most determined look. "Do it" Her voice was finally strong and steady.

"Are you sure about this?"

She wanted to shout but she had only to show him that he was about to give her what she wanted. This was the best satisfaction. "Do it" She said again, firmly.
She looked back at the others. Of course she was sure about this.

"Are you going to hell?" Snow couldn't hide her surprise. This wasn't the Emma she remembered from this morning. Was there something she needed to know? No. She said the test was negative and they had promised to not speak to anyone about this.

"The underworld." She made an effort to explain but she failed.

"That's quite a distinction." He father teased her but he was serious. Had she ever seen him so serious before?

"I'm getting him back. This isn't fair to Killian. Gold tricked him. Everything he gave up was based on a lie." She needed to make them understand so badly.

"Emma you know how this works. It's one for one trade. To get him back someone else will have to die."

He really believed she hadn't think of it?

"And you've just got back from being the Dark One. You can't give into the darkness again"

She could understand her parents' worry but she wasn't eager to step back. "I won't. I'm giving into love." This wasn't enough. She knew that. "You're Snow White and prince Charming, what you've always wanted was to save everyone. That's what this family does." She waited for their answer and when they didn't gave her any she took advantage of this time to continue. " I am doing this right. I've learned my lesson. I'm taking a page out of your book. You two share a heart. So will we."

"It could work." Regina accepted.

"It will work!" Emma corrected her. If she was sure about one thing that was that her love for Killian was enough for both of them.

"Ok." Snow was the first to agree. "But if you want to do this you won't go alone. I'm coming too."

"Me too." David added. Emma tried to say something but he stopped her. "We won't fail you this time Emma. We're doing this together!"

She couldn't help but smile at her parents but her eyes widened when Henry spoke. "I'm coming too."

"No!" Emma and Regina reacted as one person at their son's declaration.

"If you really believe I won't help to find Killian you don't know me!" the boy insisted.

"Henry you can't come to the underworld." Emma tried to explain.

"I think I'm part of this family, aren't I? And we always find each other. I'll be alright. We all know that you won't let something happen to me" It was his turn to persuade them.

"Ok. So we're all going?" Regina asked

"You're coming too?" Emma's question left her lips in an instant.

"You helped me with my happy ending in the past. It's my turn now. And I'm not letting my son alone with the "full of hope"-charming family in the underworld. And… I already need someone to mock. This pirate must come back!"

They all smiled at her comment and begun to get ready for their mission.

Yes. She was more sure than ever and she had her family and friends at her side. With these thoughts, she was the first to walk into the water and towards the boat. She heard everybody following her and she felt her strength coming back. She touched her belly distinctively. Henry was right. "Hook…" This family was always able to find its members "We will find you…" and Killian was definitely one of them. "I will always find you."

AN: Just a note about the pendant. We saw in the series that it was about the first a child a woman would have but I wanted to use it, so I changed that a little.