AN: Hello there lovilies, so my goal today is to get 2 chapters written, obviously this one is up now, the second one will either be up today or later on this week! Just so you are aware I know that I am jumping around a little bit on the episodes. This week it is going to be Bloody Mary and Skins. This was the way I could think of to get you Hollands past a little bit. I will also be doing some originals. Also, this story jumps around a lot. I want to get in what has happened to Holland, so we can really get the show on the road :) Side note; if anyone is interested in Betaing please let me know. This story is doing very well so I would like someone to take a look at it with me in order to give you guys amazing work. Anyway this is the newest chapter! I hope you enjoy.

Disclaimer: This deals with the mention of rape, thoughts of suicide and self harming, please be aware that they are mentioned, and the self harm goes into slight detailing, please do not read if these are triggers for you.

Disclaimer 2: I do not own any of the original cast or the episodes.

Hollands POV:

I have been traveling with my brothers for a couple months now; we hunted a Wendigo, a phantom traveler and some other cool things. We have kept it pretty chill. We hunt, hang out, and Dean has dropped the whole having me talk to him about my nightmares, because the fact is, I wont. Anyway, Sam is having nightmares now as well, so I do not want to burden him with my problems. I get limited sleep, but this way, when I haven't slept in a couple days I am so tired that going to sleep is instantaneous and I am so deep into sleep, I don't dream, for the most part.

Anyway, now we are on our way to Toledo Ohio. Sam just woke up from having another nightmare, and I am in the back seat watching as Dean and Sam interact.

"So what's with this case." Dean asked Sam.

"Well, this guy Steven Shoemaker was found dead in his house, and his eyeballs…..liquefied." I shivered a little bit.

"Ew." I said.

Dean smirked into the rearview mirror. I typically stay pretty quiet, so whenever I talk, even when its cause I am mad, or anything he always smiles. He told me its because he misses the sound of my voice. "Took the words right out of my mouth Holl." He says, still looking from the road to the rearview mirror at me. I smiled a little bit. We went on with this case and figured out it was bloody marry.

In a run down motel room:

"So Bloody Mary huh." Dean says to Sam, and Sam just nods his head.

"Yah, so this girl, she dies in from of a mirror, her name is Mary Worthington. She was murdered, and her eyes were removed. So now the spirit of Mary is trapped in these mirrors."

"Ok, so what does she have to do with these deaths."

"Well the story goes that you have to say 'Bloody Mary' in front of the mirror 3 times in the dark. This summons the spirit of Mary, and then if you have ever killed anyone, she kills you." My breathing starts to pick up and I feel light headed. I run into the bathroom and shut the door quick.

Memories start flashing back to me.

*In a bar back in Jericho after John leaves Holland*

I sat in the bar looking around trying to figure out how to make some money, this was before I got the job.

"Hey there pretty thing." I immediately blush before turning around to see a tall, tan boy with beautiful blue eyes, and the darkest black hair. He was gorgeous. I smile and look down at the table. "O, your shy." He says still smiling. "Well let me get you a drink." He walks off to the bar and comes back with two rum and cokes. I never really drink, but I did on occasion with Dean when he would let me. I took a sip and he smiled. "Im Julian by the way." He says to me when he scoots in next to me.

" Sheridan." I say, giving a fake name. "Every calls me Sher." I speak again in a small voice.

"Well Sher, you have to be the most beautiful girl in this room." I smile and blush again. I take another sip of my drink and realize I am starting to get light headed. I look at him and then too the drink and notice something fizzing on the bottom. God, how could I be so stupid. I try to get up to leave the bar and start to stumble.

"Whoo," He said grabbing me tightly around the waist. "You gotta know your limits dear." He says to me, announcing it to the bar so I look like another sloppily drunk girl in the bar. "Lets get you home." He says with a sinister grin. What have I done?

He dragged me to his place, stripped me down, whipped me raw and then took advantage of me. I was awake for the whole thing. Trying so hard to protest as he took away my hope and the one thing that meant the most to me, my purity. By the time he was done he went into the bathroom. I lay there naked, looking down at the stinging wounds all over my body. He kept me there for 3 days, until I got up the strength to find a weapon, and I killed him in his sleep.

*Back to the present time*

While remembering this I had gotten into the shower and started to rub my skin raw, looking down at the scars all over my stomach, and the ones on my wrist, those ones I had placed there. I found the razor, and allowed the cold metal to graze my skin, I did this four times before I stopped and let the blood run clear in the shower. Then I got up and cleaned myself off. There is work to be done.

Once I go out of the shower and got back into the room I grabbed my bracelets from my bags. I typically wear long sleeve shirts, but it was way to hot for that. I wore a shirt that was three quarter sleeve so you could not see the scars on my upper arm from the rape, and then bracelets so you could not see the self inflicted ones on my lower arm towards my hand. Dean was giving me a concerning look, but I put on my face and smiled at him.

"Sorry, needed to clear my head, this blood mary stuff really freaks me out, with the eyes and all." I said quietly. Sam was typing away on his laptop and just nodded along, but Dean smiled at me and nodded.

I finished getting ready and Sam finally spoke.

"So in order to get rid of her, it looks like we need to smash the original mirror."

"How are we going to summon her?" Dean asked.

We sat in silence for a moment, I almost considered speaking up telling them I would do it, however there would be questions.

"Ill do it." Sam finally spoke up, this made Dean frustrated and he slammed his hand on the kitchen table. I jumped from his action, it was so aggressive. I looked down at my hands not wanting to make eye contact.

"Whats that suppose to mean?" Dean asked almost yelling. Sam didn't speak. "Is this about Jess. Sam that was not your fault." He said, and I had to agree, he was blaming himself for something he couldn't control.

"You just have to trust me." Sam said.

"Bullshit. Im not doing this, you are going to tell me now." Dean said. I considered getting up and leaving. The room was getting so small. But I sat in my spot.

"I cant tell you, not now at least. Please." He said. Dean was really mad and he got up and left. I was still looking down at my hands, fiddling with my fingers. I did not even hear Sam get up until he placed his hands over mine.

He squatted down so we were face to face. "Sorry about that Holls." He said. "I know you hate it when we fight. Especially after everything you have been through. I am trying. I can promise you that." I looked up to him and just nodded. He sat down next to me and gave me a hug on my side and started to rock me back and forth. I heard the door open and close and Dean walked over and sat on the other side of me. He placed a hand on my back and started to talk.

"Well if we are going to do this, we do it tonight. You in squirt?" He asked me. Not like I had a choice. I had to go everywhere with one of them, for everything. I nodded and we all go up and started to get ready for tonight.

*Few Hours Later*

"Ok, so we just need to find the one that Mary died in and then we are golden." Dean states as if its going to be easy, until we enter the room and notice a whole bunch of mirrors. "Well this is going to be harder then I expected." He deadpans. Then we see police lights through the mirrors. I look up to him, my eyes wide. "Must have tripped the security, you two deal with this, Ill deal with them. Be careful." He says looking between us and we nod. He hands me his crow bar and we start looking. I was in one room and Sam was in another when I found it. I was going to grab Sam but I knew I could do this.

"Bloody Mary, Bloody Mary, Bloody Mary." I said while looking in the mirror with my crowbar elevated. Suddenly I felt this agonizing pain in my head and wet liquid started seeping from my eyes.

"You killed him, he just wanted to be loved and you killed him. He just wanted your approval. What did you do?" Mary said to me as I started sinking to the ground. I felt someone grab me and push me back. Still holding my head I heard Mary talk to Sam about Jess, and how she killed her, and how he was dreaming about it for months. What was she talking about? My head was spinning still and I just lay there. I suddenly heard glass smash and Dean asking Sam if he was ok before running up to me. He helped me up and looked at my eyes. I saw Sam's eyes dart to my wrist and I looked down to my bracelets that had moved and you could see the starting of the red line. I brought my arms across my chest when suddenly, the pain in my head started again. Mary was crawling out of the mirror and we were all bleeding from our eyes. Dean thought quickly and showed Mary a mirror, this killed her, and finally this hunt was over. Dean picked me up bridal style; I was just so exhausted from lack of sleep and the emotional crap that happened in this hunt. Suddenly I heard him make a comment about how this had to be 700 years of bad luck.

"Is she ok?" I heard Sam ask as Dean laid me down in the back of the car.

"Yah, she just is really tired." He said to Sam as he shut the door.

"Im not so sure she really is." Sam said.

"What are you talking about?" Dean asked.

"She summoned Mary. And I don't know, something just seems wrong with her."

"Well I mean she was abandon by all of us for what 3 months, Sam she has not talked at all about what happened in those months. I'm sure there is more going on then we are aware of, but trust me when I say, I will figure it out and I will not let anything happen to her, or you. Also, now that this is over I want to know what all this was about."

"Dean, you know I trust you, but there are something I just need to keep to myself." Sam said while getting into the car. Dean huffed and we made our way back to the hotel. The whole way all I could think about is how much this case screwed up everything,

AN: SO I hope you liked it. I know it was no wear near the same as the episode but I made adjustments for my OC. I hope you still enjoyed it. Next time Sam and Dean figure out what really happened when they were gone. So funny story about this episode I had to share. I watched this episode when it first aired back in like 2005, at the time I was like 11, my sister and I got so scared we swore we would never watch this show again. Now Ive seen every episode multiple times and my favorite episode is Bloody Mary, however my sister is still to scared to watch Supernatural haha. Stay tuned for Skins