AN: Its been a long time coming, I do beg my readers for forgiveness in the delay in the story, but here it is, and too Shannon you are always able to find the Diamond in the ruff, and to all my readers, keep it real and enjoy the next few chapters coming at you.

Such a lonely day
And it's mine
The most loneliest day of my life

Such a lonely day
Should be banned
It's a day that I can't stand

Such a lonely day
Shouldn't exist
It's a day that I'll never miss

Such a lonely day
And it's mine
The most loneliest day of my life

System of a Down

Five Vampires from the loft walk slowly down the alley, their white eyes flare in the light. I place my hand on the hilt, shaking.

"Trinity?" Sam's voice trembles. He begins walking back.

"Sam go!" I order, cracking my neck.

Sam runs down the alley, disappearing around the corner. I put my attention back to the group approaching me. "Trinity," Jake's voice shakes from beside me. I spin on my heels, staring at his cold black eyes. "What are you doing?" He reaches for me.

"We had a deal Jake," I hiss. The others walk up, each growling as they change, their eyes twist in the moon light.

"Make it look real," Jake looks at his nails, crossing his arms. "I figured it was real enough."

I pull my sword from it sheath, for too long had I let it go to waste in my closest, it shook in my hands and for once I knew what had to be done, "I will kill every one of you."

Jake tenses. Looking at me hungrily and licking his lips. "I remember this, but it was your father with the empty threats. And you know what Puppet? I enjoyed tearing his throat out, as I will with you."

"And you think after all these years I wouldn't learn a little?" I smile, looking at the five vampires descending upon me.

"The council will hear of your betrayal." Jake screams.

"And you tell them when they killed my brother all deals were off!" The blood rushes to my head.

"Fine, bring me her head." He disappears into the darkness; his laughter is the only thing that reaches my ears.

I raise the blade, watching their faces as they circle me. The first one lunges at me. With a flick of my wrist it stumbles back. Its head drops to the ground, followed by the large body. Stepping back, I press my back against the wall. A blond female grabs for me while the red headed one swings. I duck just as her fist connects with the wall, but in my haste I leave my back open to the blond. Her heel drives into the back of my knee, forcing me to drop my blade. The red head retrieves it and spins around. Her eyes glitter as she pulls back to drive the blade deep it into my side. The blade burns as it ripples through my side and exits my back. I close my eyes, my hands wrapping around the blade, pulling it into me, pulling her closer. Her eyes fill with shock.

"They said you were crazy but this takes the cake," the vampire's voice whispers.

"Crazies all I got." Slamming my head against the bridge of her nose, she staggers back. Quickly I pull the blade from my side, falling to the ground. My knees touch the pavement just as the bald vamp reaches down for me. Raising the blade up behind me, I thrust it into his chest. In a flash I am standing, a small throwing knife drops out from my sleeve and into my right hand. As I turn around, the knife grades across his throat. His body falls to the ground. I stand up slowly pulling the blade from his chest.

Panting, holding my stomach, trying to keep back the warm liquid that is slipping from the wound. I glance at the last three vampires. I stumble forward, using the blade to prop myself up into a standing position. My eyes make light of the situation, dancing with excitement. My body was meeting its limit, but I wouldn't let them see that. I suck the last bit of strength in, sticking my hand out I crack a large smile, my voice slips from my mouth teasing the last vampires. "Two down, three to go."

I gulp past the pain that is washing through my body, focusing on the two female vamps. By the way they stand; I can see the fear that is brewing from deep inside. The last one, the small vamp that killed my brother, looks at me, chest heaving. His hands raise from his side and he cracks his neck.

"Want to play little boy?" I spit the words at him at him.

"Your brother," his voice is low, his lips curl in a devilish smile, "tasted so good."

Everything fades to a blood red. I strike foolishly, my slice goes wide. He drives his fist into my open wound, instantly dropping me to my knees. I bite my cheek, holding back the cries that sit in my throat and try to stand again. This time a look of pure insanity crosses my face as I turn towards him, the blade falls from my hands, which clench into tight fists.

"That's not how you treat a lady." My voice is toneless. I feel the full weight of someone on my back. Blond hair falls over my face. I stumble under her weight. They never like to play fair. But neither do I. My long finger tangles in her hair, flipping her over, snapping her neck like a twig. Her body goes limp in my hands and I toss her aside. I don't hear the red head's screams as she runs at me. I turn, sliding my foot under my blade, kicking it up into the air. My hands link, grabbing the hilt, and with one fluid up movement, the girl splits into two. Her white eyes roll in her heads. She crumbles to the ground.

I turn to the last vampire, "and now there is one." I step forward. His eyes widen. He steps back, his head shaking as he looks at his fallen comrades.

Two blaring headlights fill the alleyway, breaking my concentration. The black Impala screeches to a stop. Sam jumps out, ready for the fight, stopping as he takes in the carnage I created. I look back for the last vamp, but he's gone. My heart screams. I stagger towards Sam.

"Trinity?" He steps over bodies, grabbing my arm to hold me up. "Lets get out of here."

I am too mad to say anything to the shocked Winchester. I wipe my blade off on my sleeve before putting it back in the sheath. "Yeah, lets, their smell is sickening." I walk to the Impala, looking at Dean who's sitting in the back seat, his eyes half open, staring back at me.

I ease behind the steering wheel, ignoring Sam's cries of displeasure. "Listen, I just smoked four vamps and I really don't feel like listening to you right now. I'll drive." I slip the car into gear to speed back down the alley. Glancing up, I notice Jake standing on the top of my apartment building, flames licking all around him. His head snaps back and his laughter echoes eerily in the air.
The city fades behind us. My foot steps on the accelerator, making the car cry out, flying down the highway. Sam stares at me. I wipe the blood from my face, grumbling about my blood stained clothes. I don't want to look at him. I don't want to see the disgusted look on his face.

His words are almost impossible to hear as he slides down the seat. "Like old times, huh?"

I turn to reply but find his eyes shut tight, his chest slowly raises and lowers. I glance back at Dean. He, too, is back to sleep, his head resting against the window. I can't help chuckle at my situation. I know Constance will kill me and Sam and Dean will do the same once they figure out I betrayed them. I groan, a stabbing pain ripples through my body. Glancing quickly around the front seat I look for anything to temporarily patch my wound, but I find nothing. I place my hand over my stomach, pressing firmly, biting back any signs of pain. I know that the bleeding will stop and heal itself. It always has, but with Sam and Dean out for the count I can't afford to rest and wait for my body to repair itself.

I keep my eyes trained on the road, while my mind races through every possible scenario. No matter how I do it my secret will eventually come out and I will be screwed. If the vampires don't get me, Sam and Dean will. My life just keeps getting better and better.

I reposition myself yet again. The blinding pain ripples throughout my body. My side burns. I gently graze my side. A deep hiss escapes my lips. Painfully, I pull my shirt up to glance down. The skin isn't healing around the wound. I reach around to my back, running my hand over the dried blood. I can no longer feel the exit wound.

"Holy…" Sam's voice makes me glance up. He's staring at my side, "pull over!"

"I'm fine, it's just a flesh wound." I gingerly tug my shirt back down; trying not to show the pain I am in.

"And I'm freakin' Santa Claus,"

"Really? Because you know, Santa, you skipped me for the last few years, and I've been a real good little girl." I smack at his hand as he tries to grab for the wheel. "Hey, who's driving here? I'm fine, all right."

His eyes search mine before he turns away. "Bull." He crosses his arms and sits up. I can't help but to laugh out. He looks like the five year old Sammy that would pout if he never got his way. I look back out to the dark highway. My vision blurs.

"Maybe we should take a breather, make sure Dean's all right." I massage the bridge of my nose. "There's a truck stop just down the road."

Sam looks up at me, a small smile etched across his face. He looks back at Dean. "I'm sorry about your brother," Sam's words find no holes in my armour. I shrug them off.

I can't look at him. I don't want to look at him. My fingers tighten over the wheel. I swallow the lump in my throat down as I park the Impala under a lamp post. Its dull glow fills the car.

It is too quiet for me. Sam stares at me, trying to find the words.
The only thing I can think of is to stare out the window. It's Dean's voice that finally breaks the silence, "where the hell are we?" He shifts, opening his eyes.

"We're resting." Sam looks at him, joy filling his face. "Trinity is hurt and---"

"I'm fine. I'll go freshen up and you'll see," I bark, pushing open the door. The cold night air rushes in. It feels so good against my burning skin. I sit for a moment, letting it cool me off. I lean forward, but nothing happens. My head is telling my body what to do but nothing is listening. "Great," I mumble. Dean reaches out, touching my arm.

"What?" Dean's voice is distant and muffled. I am ripped from the conscious world.

Fallyn stands before me with her back toward me, her long white hair gently tossed with the wind. She wears the long white dress which she always chooses for the dreamscape. I stand staring up at her, my body numb. I know I am not sleeping. She tore me from reality. My mind swirls with voices, the voices of the council. They are so loud I drop to my knees, covering my ears, trying to block out their hideous voices.

"Why?" her voice is angelic, "why so much hatred, so much anger, my child?" She reaches down to me.

I pull back away from her light. "Don't ever touch me," I glare at her, "bitch."

"Trinity," she crouches down next to me, touching my shoulder. "I have protected you, loved you, nurtured you in your time of suffering, and this is how you speak to me."

"You killed the only thing that I held dear, you betrayed my loyalty." Tears roll down my cheeks. I wipe them away quickly so she cannot see them.

She looks at me holding her hands out. "You begged me to save your from damnation. I can only hold the door open, it is up to you to pick the right one." Her voice echoes in my head. "Do you remember?"

"No," I shake my head, "don't."

The light flickers as I stand staring at an eighteen- year old carbon copy of myself. My short spiked hair, my thick black eye liner streams down my cheeks as I hold the head of my father. He gasps for air. The lifeless body of my mother is just out of reach. I shake, looking at Fallyn. She walks towards me. Blood slips from my father's mouth, his back arches. His large hands, once rough and powerful, now weak and soft, pull my face to his mouth.

"You have never done me wrong baby girl." His voice gurgles, his hands slipping from my face. He rolls back, staring at nothing, staring through me.

The eighteen-year old version's head snaps back, pulling him into me, screams tear from my throat, shaking the ground. Soon that fades to muffled sobbing. She buries her face into the dead man's chest.

"How could you?" The images fade into nothing.

"My child, I saved you that night, remember?"

I watch myself running down a poorly lit street, two vampires laughing as they follow me. The one I recognize is Jake, his black hair bounces with every step. My father's blood still soaks my clothes. I stumble, falling to the ground, waiting for my own death, waiting to be with my father and mother. I shake in anger, watching Fallyn walk out from the darkness. Her long jacket covers my shivering body. She kneels next to me, taking my face in her hands.

"I can take you away from all of this." Her voice is comforting, and kind. She wipes the blood and tears from my face. "I can teach you to be stronger, better, faster."

My head nods as her arms lift me up, pulling my body into her chest, her fingers stroke my hair. She hums a lullaby to me, stepping back into the darkness.

"And out of my love you were born." She touches my shoulder, snapping me back, tears stream out from my eyes. This was a memory I never wanted to remember---that I had fought so hard to hide in the back corners of my mind. Her long fingers stroke my hair. "Trinity, I need to know where you are, where you are taking Dean?"

"What?" I look at her, my head cocks as I hear the harsh words from the council filling my head once again. "You're going to kill them all, but…" I pull back, "you lied to me. You lied to me!" I push her back with everything I have.

"Sam. Wake me up!" I scream at the top of my lungs, as Fallyn walks towards me, her eyes roll, dripping blood. "Dean!" I stare in horror. Her skin dribbling from her face, exposing the creature inside. Hands rake across my stomach as I lurch forward. My own blood explodes through the three cuts along my side. "Wake me up!" I yell as she descends upon me, her long black fingers pulling my head towards her gaping jaw. Her scream rattles my every fiber.

"Someone wake me up!" I feel the air being sucked from my lungs. My cries now turn to low pants, using all my energy to pull away from the beast that stands before me. In a last attempt to free myself, I jab my hand against my side, where my wound is.

A new pain ripples through me, a pain I would welcome any time to this. My body flickers, falling from Fallyn's grip. A smile streams across my face. "See you in hell."

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