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Why Can't I

Chapter 4

"Y-Yeah, my name is Kairi," She stuttered a little shy, but then she locked eyes with Sora's sparkling sky blue ones and all her shyness went away and she was even able to smiled at him as she said, "I'm Kairi Lockheart, nice to see you again, Sora."

Sora was stun speechless for a moment, not being able to actually believe that it was Kairi. His Kairi, that she was really here, that she was back.

"K-Kairi, Kairi is really you!" Sora finally let out and before she knew it, Kairi was in his warm embrace.

Everyone was surprise at Sora's sudden show affection for the girl, even Sora. He let go of her though,as soon as he notice and blush immensely for it. Kairi just stood there, staring at Sora, also blushing deeply.

Roxas was trying really hard not to grin like a maniac at the look on their faces, as they both stare at each other embarrass. Though a small grin was visible on his face nobody notice, they were all to busy staring at the still blushing duo there.

Roxas decided to help them a little and clear his voice to gain their attention and ask, "I see that you already know Kairi, huh Sora? Well then, care to explain when exactly did you guys met?"

Sora was still blushing as he averted his eyes and started to stutter out, "W-well, we…um…I-we…we met-"

"We met when we were very little Roxas," Kairi cut him off when she notice Sora struggling and decided to help him, "We were childhood friends, until I moved away to Radiant Garden and we haven't seen each other in awhile." She finish saying a little embarrass of having spoken out, but at the same time she felt good about it as she saw the look of admiration in Sora's eyes.

She blush, but was able to smile a little before looking away form Sora's alluring eyes. Roxas grin at her and wink. Kairi's was really starting to regret ever accepting doing this, her face was all heat up and she didn't know what else to say.

Roxas notice her discomfort and chuckle deciding to give her a break as he walk close to her and put his arm over her shoulders and said in a more friendlier voice, "No way, you knew my idiot of a brother when he was a kid, that must have been awful for you." He tease, making both Axel and Hayner snicker and Sora to glare at him, though he didn't know if he was glaring at Roxas for what he said or for being so close to Kairi…

Kairi look up at him wide eye; both for his words and proximity. Kairi then shook her head and started to stammer a little as she said, "N-No, it w-wasn't like that. Sora was a really good friend he wasn't awful at all. He helped me and I-…" Kairi quickly shut her mouth when she notice she was saying to much. Every body stare at her then, Hayner and Olette looked at her curiously, Axel amuse and Namine and Sora, well…lets just say those two just plain didn't like that Roxas and Kairi were still so close to each other, but what Kairi had said a second ago had made Sora think if she really thought of him that way.

Roxas just smiled at her and shook his head as he said in a kind voice, "Don't worry about it I was just kidding."

"Oh," Was all she said feeling embarrass and totally mortified. Kairi let her head drop and was blushing so much she swore her head must have been steaming. Roxas just ruffle her hair and grab her hand, making Kairi looked up at him surprise and still blushing like crazy.

Roxas pull her toward the table and sat her down next to him. Kairi just look confuse at him as he kept smiling and ask her, "I'm starving got any lunch?"

Kairi blink twice at that and heard the guys in the table chuckling, well Axel and Hayner, Olette just giggle. As for Sora and Namine they both frowned and decided to take a sit across from them on the table.

Kairi's table…

"Oooh, did you see that! Kairi was finally able to talk to Sora!" Selphie cheer as she looked from her table over to where Kairi was. She was using her vernaculars, the ones she use to spy-(cough)-observe people as part of her training to become a gossip writer. At least that's part of it…

"Yeah, she did, but why is she sitting next to Roxas if she likes Sora ya?" Wakka ask, talking again with his mouth full. Selphie had decided to pass, what had happen with the spited food accident earlier, leaving Wakka and Tidus with a warning…and a few bump on the head. Which could have been a lot worse so, Wakka and Tidus didn't complain, and started gobbling their food, again.

'That's all those two ever think about, food and blitz ball.' Selphie thought, rolling her eyes at both of them.

She didn't answer Wakka's question and kept "observing" Kairi from their table. Wakka and Tidus just looked at each other and shrug, thinking the same thing, 'Girls are complicated.'

Roxas's table…

Sora's POV

'Looked at him. All friendly and charming acting with her…Why did she have to be friends with him! Everybody knows Roxas is a player when it comes to girls. Wasn't he with Xion?' At that Sora took his opportunity and ask.

"Hey Roxas, where's Xion? Don't tell me you broke up with her? That's the third one this year." He said a little to sharp.

They all looked at him surprise he would say something like that and actually, it was surprising of him to say that, since he never criticize anyone, never. Especially his brother. He wasn't build like that, he wasn't one to ever point fingers at others, but boy did he feel like saying a few things about his twin that only he knew. Anything to get Kairi away from him.

'Chill man, what is up with you?' The voice inside his head call out to him. 'What's up with me, is that my playboy of a brother is hitting on my childhood friend here.' He growl back. 'So?' The voice retorted. 'So? What do you mean, so! His hitting on her! HER! Kairi, my best friend since I was four. I get to finally see her again after nine years and HE gets to sit next to her! Its not fair! For a moment there isn't a response to his mental outburst and then it finally said back, 'So what? Like you said, she's just a friend, right? Just a childhood friend nothing more…She isn't you girlfriend, Namine is remember?' At that, he finally shut up.

Sora didn't know what else to say to that, he was right after all. Namine was his girlfriend not Kairi, so if Roxas wanted to flirt with her he couldn't argue or ask him to stop it, it wasn't his problem. 'Why then…?' He started to wonder, 'Why then, does my chest feel so tight and my blood boils when I see Roxas so close to her? Kairi's just my friend, I'm not in love with her, I'm in love with Namine, right? Right.' He agree, though part of him-a part deep inside his heart-had disagreed and yell, 'Wrong!' so loud inside of him, he had almost…No, he couldn't believe that. He hadn't seen Kairi in years, he didn't feel that way about her anymore, he couldn't, he had Namine now…right?

Normal POV

A long silence had pass since Sora had said, those words to Roxas, in which Sora was still block in his thought, looking away from everybody. They all stare at him still shock, until Roxas was finally able to snap out of his shock and shook his head. He then grin at his brother, knowing Sora pretty well after two years of living under the same roof as him. Roxas could tell Sora was in deep thought and probably confuse about what he was feeling toward Kairi.

'Poor, Sora.' He thought mischievously. 'Don't worry bro I'll make it easier for you.' And with that he decided to finally answer Sora's question, but to make it so people stop thinking Sora had been replace by some evil robot(No kidding that's what Axel and Hayner were thinking) He laugh to make it look like Sora had been joking and said, "Yes, I definitively had busy year, Sora. Good one." He kept laughing, surprising every one even Sora and after a while every body else join too and laugh with him.

Except of course Sora and Kairi. Sora cause he felt guilty for calling out his brother like that and Kairi cause she knew something was up with Sora and was a little worried about him.

Kairi looked at him then and notice that he, just like her, wasn't laughing. He looked sad and that didn't fit Sora at all.

Roxas slowly stop laughing and said with a little bit of mirth still in his voice, "Well, your right about something, Sora. I did break up with Xion." At that Sora looked up at him surprise evident on his face as Roxas continue, "She was too jealous for me, so I dump her. Unfortunately I broke up with her the moment I was giving Kairi her notebook back and she thought I was cheating on her with, Kairi. Can you believe that?" Roxas exclaim, but chuckle a little, making Kairi arch a brow at him knowing the reason behind that chuckle.

It wasn't with her, he had been cheating Xion with, it had been Namine. Kairi really wanted to face palm herself right now at the cliché of this, but she couldn't so she just roll her eyes and hope nobody notice her annoyed expression.

"So, you didn't break up with Xion because of Kairi?" Hayner ask, dubious earning another elbow hit in the arm from Olette. "Ouch!" Hayner complain rubbing his sore arm, while frowning at Olette.

Axel just chuckle, while Namine looked nervous and Sora was getting mad at Roxas, again.

"No! Look you guys, Kai and I are just friends see," He said and gave Kairi a one arm side hug, making Kairi go from white, to pink, to red in a flash. They would all had laugh at that if Xion hadn't pass by their table in that moment, looking at Kairi and Roxas like she wanted to burn them on a stick. She glare at them for a few more seconds before she finally walk away from their table.

"…"

"Man, that's one scary chick." Axel commented finally breaking the silence.

They all looked at Axel then and after a few seconds started laughing like crazy. Even Kairi was laughing, a little self depress since she was now on the hate list of the scary chick, but still she laugh, until the bell rang announcing lunch was over. They all complain, though while getting up from their table to go to each of their classes.

"What! Lunch is over, but I haven't finish eating yet!" Hayner groan. Olette just grab him by the arm, and drag him to their class.

"That's because you were to busy, ogling Kairi." Olette mumble so low Hayner didn't catch it and then said more louder so the others could hear her, "Were going to our trig class, so see you guys later, okay! Oh and it was nice meeting you again, Kairi!" She half smiled at her and Kairi smiled back while waving goodbye at them. At least she was starting to like her a little.

"Damn, that means I have to go and give class to those snotty little kids in English class today." Axel grumble, which made Roxas arch a brow at him and said with a fake insulted voice, "Excuse me, but if you may recall, I am taking your class now. Does that make me a snotty little kid, too?"

Axel just grin and ruffle his hair while walking pass him and said in and amuse voice, "Yup,"

Roxas just growl at that and yell while chasing after him, "You take that back, you weirdo of a teacher!" Axel laughter was hear after that.

Namine sighed and said, "I better go after them too, since I'm one of those snotty little kids in Axel class too…unfortunately." She said that last part with an amuse little smiled and turn to Sora. "I'll see you later, kay." She got on her tip toes and kiss Sora cheek and went after Roxas and Axel without waiting for a response.

'Isn't Sora suppose to walk her to class or something?' Kairi thought confuse, though part of her didn't really mind that, since that left Sora practically alone with her in the cafeteria. 'No, no, no! I am not suppose to think like that at all! He has a girlfriend Kairi, remember that.' She chided herself inwardly.

'Don't I usually walk Namine to class or something?' Sora ask himself the same question, but then he glance to his left and saw Kairi looking toward the exit were all their friends had left and he knew. He didn't ask Namine if he could walk her to class, because he wanted to ask Kairi if he could walk her to class. 'Is that right?' He thought suddenly not really sure. 'I mean is not bad or anything, we're just friends after all, what harm could it be to walk a friend to her class. No big deal right? Right.' After he had his thought strait he clear his voice getting Kairi's attention, like he had intended to and open his mouth to speak, though a little hesitant.

"So, um Kairi. Mind if I walk you to your class?" He ask, hopping she would say yes.

She looked up at him surprise, her eyes wide and he could see a hint of a blush on her cheeks as she looked away. She didn't say anything for a while and he started to think she was going to reject his offer and that really bother him, a lot and he didn't know why. He was about to chicken out, thinking she was going to say no, but she looked back at him with one of her bright smiles and nodded before answering out loud to his request, "Yes, I would like that Sora, thank you." She said in a kind voice, making his heart soar almost out of his chest and he smiled widely at her.

Kairi saw Sora smiled at her and her heart did a double flip in her chest and her cheeks tinted slightly pink. They walk to her class then, first both silent as they were to nervous to talk, until Sora gather enough courage to say something, "So, Kairi how long have you been back in Destiny Islands? Since I haven't seen you, I guess you must have gotten back not to long ago, huh?"

Kairi heart stop for a moment in her chest as she felt a cold shiver run up her spine. How was she supposes to tell Sora she had been back now for two years? What would he think of that?

'He would probably think I was evading him…' She though and wince. That would probably hurt Sora's feeling a lot.

"Kairi? Aren't going to answer me?" Sora ask her again, since she still hadn't answer his question.

Kairi blink up at him, when she notice she was taking to long to answer and said a little nervous at first but then let lie flow a little more freely since it wasn't exactly a lie, "W-Well, I haven't r-really notice how long I've been back. To be more precise, I practically just came back, if you looked at it in a way."

She almost flinch at the last part. Okay it was a lie, and Kairi really hated lying, but she had to. Other wise Sora would had hated her for evading him all this time.

"Oh," Was all he said since she had totally lost him back there, but he wasn't going to tell her that.

'She probably think I'm so kind of idiot or something.' He thought dejectedly.

Though, he soon perk up as he thought of a good topic to talk about with Kairi. He knew she couldn't resist.

"Hey Kairi guess what?" He said and stop walking for a second. Kairi stop too and had her full attention on Sora(Actually Sora always had her full attention, is just he didn't know)and finally he told her, "I still have your lucky charm with me!"He grin when Kairi's eyes went widen excitedly.

"No way! You really still have it with you?" She ask, dubiously, but also with a little hopeful. Sora didn't know how much that met to her, that he would still have her lucky charm with him, it was a symbol after all. That he and her would always be together, though only if he gave it back to her. It was kinda like sharing a paopu fruit, if he gave it back to her it would be like sharing it with her and maybe if she was lucky, her charm would work like a paopu and entwine their destinies together!

'Earth to Kairi, heeeeyyyy! Are we forgetting something?' Kairi frowned inwardly and wonder what she had forgotten. 'Namine, you numskull, his still with Namine!' Her mental voice yelled at her and she wince inwardly. 'Oh, right Namine…' She thought crestfallen.

Sora notice Kairi sudden mood change, and gaze at her concern evident on his face. "Kairi? What is it? You don't believe me, is that it?" He ask feeling a little hurt at the idea that Kairi wouldn't believe he kept his promise to her.

Kairi looked up at him again, shock written all over her face at the conclusion Sora's mind had taken him for why she had reacted that way.

She shook her head furiously at him and try to reassure him that, that wasn't the reason she had reacted that way as she try to explain with out really thinking her words threw, "N-No, no, Sora! I-I mean yes. I mean, um…I do believe you, Sora. How could I not, your were my best friend. N-Not that your not right now, I-I mean…Its been a while, but I still care about you a lot and-" Okay, that had been twice today she had talk to much and she promptly close her mouth shut, though not before turning ten shades of red in record time and looking away from Sora totally fluster.

Sora couldn't help, but to grin like a total idiot at Kairi's words. 'She said she care for me a lot.' He kept repeating in his head. Sora was really happy, he didn't remember the last time he'd been this happy. Maybe before she left, but…

He shook his head dismissing the thought and smiled down at Kairi, who was still looking away from him embarrass. Sora chuckle at that and walk closer to Kairi with out her noticing and slip his arms around her from behind.

Kairi was shock, to say that least, as she felt Sora, strong, but gentle arms held her in warm embrace as he stood behind her. He lean his head slightly closer to her ear and whisper tenderly at her, "I still care a lot about you too, Kairi. I never forgot you and your still my best friend , too, so don't worry about it."

He was smiling, she knew he was even though she couldn't see it and she smiled too, closing her eyes and letting Sora's warmth surround her as she gently place her hands over his arms. Kairi felt a blissful warmth spread from her chest to every cell of her body and she sighed contently as she let herself forget about everything, forget about every one else, all, but Sora. Because right now it was just Sora and her, nobody else. Not Roxas, not Xion, not Namine-

Kairi's eyes snap open as she remember, her name. Namine's name, the name of Sora's girlfriend. What was she doing!

She pull away from Sora's embrace and instantly felt cold with out his warmth around her, but she wasn't going to let herself be weak again, she couldn't let herself be weak again, it wasn't right…

Sora looked stun at Kairi's back. He was still a little daze from holding her in his arms liked that. He had hold her so close to him, he had been able to smell her sweet flowery sent, making his head swim. Had also even been able to enjoy Kairi's warmth and had felt the velvety soft skin of her arms and hands. And her hair! It had felt like soft feathers against his cheek.

As his daze mind started to clear up, a sense of longing started to erupt in his chest for the girl in front of him and Sora stiffly push it away. 'I shouldn't be feeling this way.' He told himself determine to bury those unreal emotions away, but the more he tried, the more the unreal emotions fought back.

"Sora?" Her sweet voice called him, making him forget for a moment his worries and looked at her with a genuine smile.

"Guess, would should keep going before your late for your class, huh?" He said, playfully.

Kairi just grin and wrinkled her nose and Sora blush at how cute that made her looked.

"Sora, I think I'm already late." She said, though she didn't seem to mind.

Sora just grin at that too and said with a tone in his voice she remember from her childhood with him that it met he was planning something, "In that case, lets make you not so late."

He said the last part with a mischievous grin, making Kairi race her eye brows at him and before she knew it, she was on his arms as Sora dash across the hallway with her in his arms.

"S-Sora, put me down!" She exclaim, but had her arms wounded around his neck pretty tight as she was afraid he might drop her.

Sora chuckle and said though panting a little as her ran, "No way! This is a lot faster to get to your class, anyway."

"But your not even going the right way!" She complain, frowning up at him. Then yelped when he made a sharp turn to the left and he smirk.

"Then tell me were it is, before I carry you all over the school!" He offered.

Kairi just kept frowning at him and said, "Just put me down Sora!"

"Nop!" Was all he said, before laughing out loud when he took another turn and Kairi let out another high pitch yelped thinking he was going to drop her then.

"Okay! Okay! Is in the science building, with Professor. Vexen in class C-4." She said in a breath, burring her face against his shoulder. He could run fast even caring her wait, but what really scare her was that he might drop her. Sora wouldn't, she knew that, but still, it didn't stop her from getting scared every sharp turn he took. Also, though she wouldn't admit it not even to herself, she felt a little embarrass to be carry like that in Sora's arms. She felt like a bride, one that was afraid the groom might drop her at any second, but still it made her heart do funny things inside her chest and made her blush immensely.

Sora knew were that class was and dash to the science building. Kairi kept holding tighter to him, but not to tight to choke him. Though he did blush a little, he shook it off and finally made it to her class. He place her on her feet gently, though she wobble a little since she was a little dizzy from all of Sora's dash and turns.

He held her by the shoulders and she held him back. When Kairi felt steady she looked up at Sora, going to thank him for the lift and say goodbye, but then she notice how close their faces were to each others and her breath hitch in her throat. Sora too, felt his longs give out as his lips were temptingly close to Kairi's petal pink ones. They still held each other when the space between their faces seem to get smaller and smaller when…(SWAT!)

"I will not have any more clowning around in my class! Did you understand young man?" The professor scold loudly at who ever kid had been stupid enough to get Ice cold Vexen mad.

Thankfully(or not) that had snap Sora and Kairi from getting just a little bit more closer and wend they notice this, they let each other go immediately, blushing both so hard their whole face went red and steam was practically visible over their heads.

They were quiet for a long moment before, again thankfully Sora was able to speak-not really looking at her yet and still blushing a little-and said in a most casual voice he could master at that moment. "Geez, I'm sure am glad I'm not that guy, though I can say the same for you Kairi, since you have to go in there, huh?"

That urn him a smile from Kairi, though he didn't get a chance to see it, since he was still not really looking at her. "Yeah, guess I better go inside or it would get a lot worse." She said back, also not looking at him.

She walk toward her class door, but before she got in Sora called out to her, "Kairi, wait!" Kairi turn then and again she felt Sora's warmth surround her as he hug her one last time before whispering against her ear, "I am so happy I got to see you again, Kairi. I miss you…" Kairi's eyes went wide at his words, she held back the tears that wanted to spilled and before she could say something back, he pull away and ran back the way he came from.

She just stare at his retreating figure before he was finally out the building's doors. Kairi felt the tears she been holding back finally spilled and she clutch her chest tightly with both her hands holding back a sob.

'Sora, Sora!' She called at him in her head, 'I miss you, too, Sora. So much! And I love you, I love you so much and its killing me! Because your not mine, your Namine's!' And with that she finally felt to the floor on her knees and sobbed freely. 'What am I going to do?'

Totally sad right there, but oh well!^^

Hee-hee! This is the good thing about being the writer you know what's going to happen next! As for you my kitties you'll have to wait until the next chappy to find out what's going to happen with Sora and Kairi and what will Roxas do to get them together? Find out in the next chapter!

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