Cat dreams in black and white, loud noises, and she can't remember her name. She remembers being cold, very very cold, like her life was being sucked out of her. And she remembers screaming and crying a lot, no matter how strong she tried to be. Her throat is hoarse and she screams for Supergirl, the only name she can remember and she pleads to the powers that be to save her. And every time they inject her with something half the time it burns and feels like she's being torn apart and the other half she falls into a sleep she wishes she'd never wake up from. And then she dreams, nightmares of still being in that place, which she is. And dreams of being with Kara, who she damn well knows is Supergirl. Supergirl. Supergirl. She dreams of being with her son's, being happy, being not...there.
That is until little by little those memories, dreams, fantasies all disappear one by one. And there is sometimes a gray nothingness that she wishes she could stay in but she's always drawn back out. But she's not there anymore, she's asleep in her own bed, safe with Kara in the next room.
But Cat still dreams in black and white and loud noises but she remembers her name. She dreams of floating in the ocean. Wrapped in warm water, the sun shining just above the surface and she opens her eyes and looks up. A hand from Supergirl reaching down to pull her to the surface and she reaches for it but she's yanked down into the darkness of the ocean where it's cold and lonely and the pressure pushes in on her head and she screams as that hand fades from view. And suddenly she can't breath and she's gasping for air and screaming for Supergirl as she tries to reach out to the surface.
And in a minute Kara is in Cat's room, finding Cat tangled in sheets trying to reach out for something, screaming for Supergirl...for her. Kara reaches out and pulls Cat into her arms while trying to soothe her. Cat slowly begins to calm as she starts to become conscious and her arms are now wrapped around Kara's neck. And she's crying into her neck gasping for air.
"Kara."
"It's okay Cat, I got you. You're safe."
Holding the small woman in her arms Kara didn't know such a strong woman could ever feel so fragile to her like she did in that moment.
"Hurt. They hurt me. Kara. To get to you. They-"
"Shh..it's okay now, Cat. You don't have to explain right now. You should get some more sleep."
Kara tried to move but Cat's nails dug into her shoulders holding her to her, "No. Kara, stay."
"Okay, okay, I'll stay but only till you fall asleep. First you're going to have to let go of me."
Cat hesitated but pulled away from her, tears tracking down her face. Kara situated herself on the other side of the bed while Cat climbed under the covers and reached her hand out to grasp Kara's. Perhaps if she were to have another nightmare as she fell asleep at least this time she'd be able to reach out and grasp Supergirl's hand. She hoped. And Cat fell asleep looking at Kara's face and Kara never did leave her side even after that. And she fell asleep soon after, still grasping Cat's hand.