The Stolen Wings of the Fallen Chapter 4: I'm Not Okay I Promise, a vampire kisses fanfic

I'm Not Okay (I Promise) (My chemical Romance)

Chapter 4

I woke in a daze, what exactly had happened last night? I rolled, in the bed I was sleeping in, before I realized I had no idea where the hell I was? I sat up quickly, before, falling down just as fast from whiplash. I was comforted to see that I was in my own room, though I had no idea how exactly I had gotten here? The last thing I remembered was being at the club, and dancing with Alexander, but other than that everything seemed to be fuzzy. What exactly happened last night? I sat up again, this time slower, using my blanket to cover my naked body.

I had the strangest headache. It was weird; it wasn't like I drank last night.

I got up and got dressed, all while trying to find any memory of what happened last night. I was almost dressed, and was walking to my dresser to grab some sox, when I felt something metal stab my naked foot.

"Ow, crap!" I said lifting my foot. I saw a gold watch. "What the hell?" What was this doing in my room? It wasn't my father's, and Billy wasn't old enough to have jewelry like this, maybe it was Alexander's? It didn't look like something Alexander would wear? I decided to go check the messages on my phone.

6 new text messages

Huh, that was odd. I checked my text messages.

Hey, where did you go?

~Alexander

Hey, I can't find you, where did you go off to?

~Alexander

Did you leave, I don't see you anywhere?

~Alexander

Raven, you are really starting to worry me. Why won't you answer my calls?

~Alexander

Raven please, did I do something wrong?

~Alexander

Listen, I am going to head home. I still can't find you anywhere, and you still aren't answering any of my calls, please call me when you get this messages.

~Alexander

I looked at the time. Crap, it was 12:45 PM, I couldn't call Alexander yet, he was still sleeping. I shut my phone and walked in to my kitchen.

What was going on, I thought while I poured myself a bowl of cereal. I barely remember last night. I remember going to the club, eating a wonderful dinner, prepared by Alexander, then helping Jagger open the club, then dancing with Alexander. I concentrated, trying to remember anything after that, it was all very sketchy. I saw flashes of the crowded dance floor, fighting my way to the dance floor… and then…Alexander and I…. I felt a blush spread across my face. We finally did it. Or at least I think we did, I don't even think I remember even leaving the club, how the hell did I get back here? I played with the watch in my hand and then put it in my pocket, put my sox and shoes on, finished my breakfast and then headed out. I hopped on my bike and startled peddling towards Hatsy's diner. I needed to get out of the house, and I was desperately craving a Hatsy shake. I walked in, ignoring everyone around me, and went straight to the counter, my hood up. I know I didn't actually change, but for some reason I felt like everyone could tell that I was different, like somehow they all knew I lost my virginity.

"One chocolate shake," I told the person at the counter. I waited patiently as the employee disappeared into the back where they made the shakes and malts.

"Raven?" I heard someone say from a booth. I jumped and pulled my hood trying to hide my face. It was no use, there was no way you could miss me, the only known Goth in town. "Raven!" they said, now closer.

I turned to see Becky. I sighed relived that it was only my best friend, and maybe not someone who saw me at the club last night.

"Hey, Raven, what's up?" She said beaming.

"Oh, ah, hey Becky… I didn't see you there," I said still a little paranoid. She walked over to me, with Matt at her side, they were both smiling happily.

"What's up?" she asked.

"Oh…nothing," I lied. "Just getting…a shake."

"We were just heading to the roller rink," Matt said sipping on a shake of his own. Becky smiled cutely, but then looked at me apologetically.

"We thought you and Alexander may be too busy," she said. "I mean I tried calling you last night, but no one answered. You can come with us," she offered. I mulled it over. It didn't seem like I had any plans till sunset and I did feel a little guilty for forgetting my best friend all break. Plus some fun girl time with Becky may help me feel a bit better about this whole virginity thing, not that I was ready to talk to Becky about, especially not with Matt here. I really hope she listened to me and didn't tell Matt about this whole thing. I knew I really had no reason to feel ashamed about what I did, I mean it was with Alexander, someone I love with all but heart, but still, I really didn't exactly want that information floating around the town, not that Becky or Matt were that sort of people, however I knew of one blonde haired troll that would I've to get his claws on news like this.

"Alright," I agreed. "Sounds like fun…as long as I'm not getting in the way of your plans." I was so busy thinking about my problems that I didn't even consider that maybe I might be interfering with their date night.

"No of course not," Matt said. "We were just going for fun, they were having a spring break sale, and Becky and I wanted to go before the sale ended. It would be awesome if you could come with us, why don't we invite Alexander too, we can make it a double date."

"Well, actually Alexander can't make it, he has some online test to take for school," I said covering for my boyfriend.

"Aw, that's too bad," Becky said genuinely disappointed.

"But, I'll still go," I said. "I love hanging out with you guys."

"Yay," Becky cheered hugging me.

"One chocolate shake," the girl working the counter called. I turned back to her, handed her my money and then took the shake. I turned to Becky and Matt who were making their way out.

"C'mon Raven," Becky called to me. I smiled and ran to catch up with them.

All three of us got in to Matt's Camaro; Becky was nice enough to sit in the back with me. I gazed out the window while Matt pulled out of the parking lot. Becky flipped on the radio to some Pop station and then got into a debate with Matt about celebrity gossip. I tuned them out. I focused more about trying to remember some more details of what happened. I remembered the feel of his warm soft skin as he began to undress me, the silkiness of his long hair between my fingers, the sparks when he cupped my breast with his strong, confident hands, the feel of him inside of me, the taste of him as I pressed for more, the way he touched me, and the way my body seemed to respond perfectly, the way I moaned with pleasure without even thinking about it…

"Raven, Raven!" Becky called trying to get my attention. Suddenly the car was not moving anymore, and Matt and Becky were no longer in the seats in front of me. My car door was open. I looked around confused. "Raven, what are you doing, we're here?" Becky said, she looked at me as if she were suddenly concerned for my mental health.

"Oh, I'm sorry…I guess I am just out of it," I said, blinking trying to come back to reality.

"Are you alright?" she asked still not sure.

"I'm okay, I promise," I told her as I took off my seat belt and began to get out of the car.

"Alright…" Becky said still not completely convinced.

"Alright, let's go roller skating!" I said faking enthusiasm.

Becky, Matt and I were very happy to see that not too many people had heard about the spring sale, which meant we would have most of the rink to ourselves. There was only one group of elementary school kids here for a birthday party, a few cheerleaders, the speed freaks and a few preps, but for the most part the floor was empty. Matt volunteered to go get us some snacks while Becky and I got our skates. Becky got pretty purple ones, and I got nice sparkly black ones, which reminded me of the night sky, they went nicely with my black and red stripped knee high sox.

Becky and I skated over to Matt when we were all laced up. Beck made sure to grab Matt a pair of skates before we left.

I didn't really go to the skating rinks that much, not because it wasn't cool, but more because of the crowds that hung out here after school; mini jock and cheerleader central. All the little middle school and Jr. high school kids loved to hang out here. So in terms of cool, I guess I didn't really consider it that cool, but everyone else found it awesome and hip and stuff, I don't know. But because of my lack of roller skating trips, I was not a good skater, at all. Becky had to hold my hand as I began to skate at a terribly slow pace. Considering how much time Becky and I spent together in Jr. high school and middle school, I really began to wonder how she learned how to roller skate, I mean she was raised on a freakin farm!

Becky and I skated, looking like two noobs, to the table Matt was wait for us at, burgers and nachos on already on the table. I sat down, happy not always feel like I was going to fall over backwards. Becky sat next to me, and Matt sat across from us. I kinda felt bad, because it seemed like I was separating Matt and Becky, but Matt didn't seemed bothered by it, he just smiled happily.

After a few minutes we were done with our burgers, and we all got up to skate. For about an hour and a half we all skated together, arms linked (mostly to keep me from falling) until something happened and lost my balance and fell flat on my ass. I got them to sit with me at the table for a while. We continued to chat until a Rolling Stones song came on.

"Oh baby it's our song," Becky cried, grabbing Matt's hands.

"C'mon, let's go skate," Matt said getting. Becky got up completely pleased, but then looked back at me.

"Oh Raven, I know you don't know how to skate, but can Matt and I just have this one song? I promise I'll come back." She begged. She did the puppy eyes. I knew I couldn't resist her, and I did kind of invade her plans.

"Sure," I sighed. It seemed like I could never win, either I was invading her plans or I wasn't spending time with her at all. I got up grumpily. I began to skate towards the snack bar; I needed a refill of soda.

I was about halfway there, when I began to lose my balance. I reached out but completely missed the wall I was trying to and fell, knocking the breath out of me. I tried to get up and brush myself off, and not draw attention, but I froze when I heard familiar laughter. I looked up to see the golden haired troll himself, sitting at his own table, watching me as I struggled to get off the floor. He skated over to me, with unbelievable grace and took my hand, helping me up, not once looking as if he were beginning to lose his balance.

"Hello there lady graceful," he said chuckling.

"What are you doing here," I asked. "Did you finally get kicked out of all those parties?"

"Baby, I am the life of the party," he said. "And no, just thought I might head out into town. You know there is life outside that black cave that you and Monster Boy hang out in day and night. Where is Monster Boy, did you tell him the news?" Trevor said looking around.

"He's not here," I said. I'm not exactly sure what he meant by "the news", but I wasn't going to give him benefit of having me to ask. I heard the final cord of the Rolling Stones song as it faded in to Linkin Park's One Step Closer. "Now if you'll excuse me, I'm going to go skate with my friends. I went continued to skate when I felt stop my wheel, I practically fell over again. I scooted backwards again. It was the gold watch I found in my room this morning. I picked it up and looked at, making sure I didn't break it or anything. It was unharmed.

"Oh hey you found my watch!" Trevor said taking the watch from me.

"Your watch?" I asked "I found this in my room this morning, what the hell was your watch doing in my room?"

"I must have left it there last night," Trevor said. I expected him to look up at me with that dorky flirtatious smile he used to do all the time, but he didn't. He just calmly put on his watch, and then looked up questioningly. "You do remember what we did last night, right." now the flirtatious smile came out.

I began to back up slowly, is pressed my hands against the wall to keep myself from slowly. "No, no, no," I said. "That wasn't you! It was Alexander! It was perfect!" I yelled. I went back to the table and began to untie my skates. I needed to get out of here. I got up holding my skates in my hands and came face to face with Trevor.

"You don't remember it," he said. "Well how about I refresh your memory." He caught me off guard as he pressed his lips against mine. I moved to push him away, but was taken by surprise by the sudden rush of memory. What did I do?