CHAPTER 4!

Author's Note: I know no one wanted Emily to leave. But I have had this story in my head for so long! Let it play out and you might be surprised at what you read! And I know I PM'd someone something about the story line. But I changed my mind. Thanks for the R&R!

Author's Note 2: By the way, writing this while watching Criminal Minds, foreshadowing!

**JJ's POV**

The whole morning was brutal, with Emily leaving and a new case popping up I was living in hell. This guy had been reliving childhood memories through interaction with other men. He would get aggravated then he would slit their throats and leave them in a dumpster.

I don't even want to talk about Emily leaving; I had the worst aching pain all over my body. How could she spend this beautiful, intimate night with me then just got up and leave when I fell asleep. I was so fucking mad at her but I still cared about her so much! Human emotions are weird.

And yet again my office was a complete mess! This is just not my week. I was trying to find the case file for our current case when Jason knocked lightly on my door.

"Hey, JJ you okay? You seemed kind of out of it in the briefing."

"I'm fine, just having an off day. Nothing to worry about." I said forcing a smile.

"Okay, okay. I'm rooting for you two though." Gideon said winking at me. Wow, did the whole fucking planet know?

"Wait, Gideon what are you talking about?"

He just smiled at me and walked out talking to Hotch.

Oh my God.

As the day went on we had gotten on the plane and were headed to Northern Texas. It was going to be a long flight!

I went and sat next to Morgan who had been listening to his music. When he saw me sit next to him he pulled off his headphones and just looked at me for a second and let out a chuckle.

"What?" I asked

"You," he shook his head "and Princess. Good one, JJ"

"Wha- How does everyone know?!" I said almost shouting.

"Blondie, it was pretty obvious. And you are working with profilers here."

"Yeah, understandable."

"So how's it going with you and her? Do you know why she isn't here today?"

I shook my head no.

"Oh, well uh-…"

"I gotta go," I said.

"Where are you going to go? We're on a plane!"

"Going to lie down." I said flopping down on the couch next to Reid.

I knew Reid knew, hell if Morgan knew Reid knew. And I know Garcia probably did too. Just hadn't had the chance to talk to her about it yet. Spencer always acted to nonchalant about things. That's what I liked about him. Even if the situation was unbelievable he kept calm; kind of like he knew it was all going to work out in the end. I wish my mind worked like that.

And I know he would accept me no matter what. Over the years we had formed a very tight friendship. I loved him so much. Well like a brother! But it was still love.

"So I'm guessing you know too?" I said glancing over at him.

"JJ, I knew you were going to be with Emily before you knew it." He said looking up from his book.

"Right." I said smiling.

"And I'm guessing it hasn't worked out?"

"Why would you-."

Cutting me off he said, "she isn't here today, you are. And you're clearly under some stress and the case has barely started."

"I-."

He cut me off again, "it's okay, we're all here for you." He said patting me on the shoulder and going back to his book.

The rest of the plane ride was spent in silence. I tried to fall asleep but my thoughts were too loud. Had I done something last night that Em didn't like? It sounded like she liked it. And I couldn't have said anything, we barely talked the whole time she was there. Maybe we didn't talk enough? Ugh, I hate this!

I just want everything to go back to the way it was before. Why did Hotch have to say something to Emily that would make her want to leave?

XXxxxxXX

It was the end of the case; it had only taken two days. It may have seemed like a tough one but the unsub was sloppy with his cover up. Thank god I just wanted to go home and sleep for a week, block out the world.

Still at the arrest scene and the last murder place I was thinking it over. This guy had been through so much in his life he felt like he needed to kill anyone who had a better life than him. Complete asshole. My childhood wasn't all that good. I lost my older sister when I was 11 but you don't see me going around killing the depressed youth. Everyone's life is fucked up, but it takes an even more fucked up person to make a serial killer. I wish there were less of them; that would sure make my job easier.

I had been standing by myself obviously starring off into space because the rest of the team had been staring at me. I looked at them all and quickly looked away wiping my thoughts out of my head as Hotch walked over to me. I really didn't want to talk to anyone, but he is my boss it's not like I could do much about it.

"Hotch?" I said

"Crazy things people do to each other, eh?"

"Tell me about it. So what's up?"

"What makes you think something's up?"

"You wouldn't just come over here to talk to me about a case we have talked about for 3 days Hotch, just tell me what you have to tell me."

"JJ, I don't know if here is the right place…"

"Just say it, I can take it."

"Prentiss is gone. No one can reach her cell or home phone. I'm sorry, JJ" he said as he walked back to the rest of the team.

I had tears in my eyes as I looked at all of them again. Reid tried to come up to me but I walked away. Got in the car and went back to the hotel. I refused to speak to anyone about Emily the whole ride home. I didn't even want to think about it. I wanted to forget everything we shared together.

Getting home I had to talk to my best friend. So I called Garcia and asked her if she wanted to get a drink, I didn't know who else I could talk to about this.

We found a nice pub so it would be quiet enough to talk but loud enough so no one could listen in to our conversation. Penelope was always my go to advice lady. She talked about things like she had been through it. Though honestly I don't think she had ever been through this.

"So what's on your mind, cupcake?" she asked right after we ordered our drinks.

"Emily Prentiss," I said fidgeting with the salt shaker.

"Ah, young JJ is in love?"

"I-I don't know, all I know is I have never felt this way about anyone." I said looking up at Garcia.

"And all I know is, I had never seen you happier then when you and Em had that "secret" relationship"

"Why did you put quotes around secret?" I said giggling.

"Well you thought it was a secret, but we all knew what was going on."

"We should have just told you guys from the start. It might have made things a lot easier than they are now."

"I don't know, Strauss might have found out if you just came out and told the team. Then you both would have been in deep shit. Maybe it's a good thing that Emily left."

I started to cry.

"Or maybe it's not, because I have never seen you this upset. Not even with the Hankel case."

"I just want her back, Pen."

"I know honey, I know."

Ending Note: Sorry no Jemily in this chapter. Leading up to it, don't freak out! Love the readers; love the nice reviewers even more!

XOXO,

Kendal