Yes, my dear readers, I am not dead yet. I must apologise for the extremely long wait for this update. It's just that my laptop charger broke on the half term and I was planning to write the chapter and post this up during that time. The warranty couldn't find me a replacement charger so I had to buy a charger replacement during the half term. The charger cost a bloody £80! I'm never going buy Toshiba again. After that, my laptop decided it was a convenient time to breakdown and after I got it fixed my exams came up so I had to revise until I couldn't think about anything else except equations and formulae. I had a series of writers block and started reading about 25 different manga for good inspiration. I apologise again for the mahusively long wait for this and the fact that I'm borrowing Inuyasha from Takahashi-sama. I don't get anything except the comments from you guys who review –nudge nudge-. I don't own any manga but I do own the charger I bought … I think. To make up for this delay this chapter will include 1 narrative song plus Kagome and Inuyasha singing a couple of songs to each other and as a bonus, the will also share a song (I wouldn't consider it a duet). This will be very long! I hope you enjoy and forgive me for the wait for the last chapter.
Italics narrative song
Bold italics Kagome singing
Underlined italics Inuyasha singing
Bold underlined italic both singing
Aisaretai demo aisou to shinai
Sono kurikaeshi no naka wo samayotte
Boku ga mitsuketa kotae wa hitotsu kowakutatte kizutsuitatte
Suki na hito ni wa suki tte tsutaerunda
(I want to be loved, but you don't seem to love me
I wander within that repetition
I found one answer
that even if I'm scared, even if I'm hurt
I can say "I love you" to the person who I love)
Koga had turned to an empty shell without Kagome but he eventually got better as Ayame nursed him back to health. He's in love with Ayame now. Inuyasha truly loves Kagome and she said that she loved him. But since she never came back even after all those days, maybe she doesn't love him anymore. There wasn't much left to live for in his life so if he's ever going to tell Kagome his feelings he should do it now.
Anata ga boku wo aishiteru ka aishitenai ka
Nante koto wa mou docchi demo ii n da
Donna ni negai nozomou ga
Kono sekai ni wa kaerarenu mono ga takusan aru darou
Sou soshite boku ga anata wo aishiteru to iu jijitsu dake wa
Dare ni mo kaerarenu shinjitsu dakara
(Do you love me? Or not love me?
As for things like that,
it's already fine either way
No matter how I wish
There are many unchangeable things in this world, right?
That's right, and because only the fact of my loving you
Is the truth unchangeable by anyone)
Even if she doesn't love him he'd happily watch over her from far. Something's in this world just can't change no matter how many times you wish. For example; there never had been a single minute in the last 30 or so months when he hadn't wished that he just told Kagome three simple words. Just as long as she knows he loves her and he can continue loving her, it was fine.
Sen no yoru wo koete ima anata ni ai ni yukou
Tsutaenakya naranai koto ga aru
Aisaretai demo aisou to shinai
Sono kurikaeshi no naka wo samayotte
Boku ga mitsuketa kotae wa hitotsu kowakutatte kizutsuitatte
Suki na hito ni wa suki tte tsutaeru n da
Sono omoi ga kanawanakutatte suki na hito ni suki tte tsutaeru
Sore wa kono sekai de ichiban suteki na koto sa
(I'll overcome the thousands of nights and go meet you now
There is something that I must tell you
I want to be loved, but you don't seem to love me
I wander within that repetition
I found one answer;
that even if I'm scared, even if I'm hurt,
I can say "I love you" to the person who I love
Even if those thoughts aren't fulfilled,
I can say "I love you" to the person who I love
It's the most wonderful thing in this world)
Inuyasha decided he would visit Kagome for his wish on the sacred jewel. He would say those words to her. Even if she never waited for him, it was fine for he would search for her. His resolution stood firm; he will use up his wish to get to her and tell her what he feels no matter how scared and nervous he would be at the time…after all he wanted was for her to know before it was to late.
She's an extraordinary girl
In an ordinary world
And she can't seem to get away
Kagome sat once again on top of the roof tops of the shrine even though it was raining heavily. It was lame hoping for him to come to get her so why did she still wait for him? He couldn't come here in the first place; she was the one who blocked this end of the well. It has been nearly three years after she left him but why can't she move on? He would never come back to get her. He's probably eating Kikyo's face of right now. He never had taken her seriously. She would have probably preferred to be with Koga who would at least take her words to heart. Maybe she should have stayed there but join Koga. But all those feeling got pushed back again once again as she remembered the time when he chose to show his human form to her. Maybe he did take her seriously, but not the feelings? The heart break that had caused would make it impossible for her to go to the feudal era just so that she wouldn't have to see there faces. It's these thoughts in her mind that makes it hard to let go of the feelings.
He lacks the courage in his mind
Like a child left behind
Like a pet left in the rain
Little did she know that Inuyasha was right underneath her. He was feeling so damn nervous. Inuyasha took in the smell around him and instantly picked up Kagome's scent. He could sense the annoyance rolling of her. Her sweet aroma was tinted with the smell of tears that had been shedding. Were these tears about someone else? Does that mean she doesn't care about him anymore? Has she already forgotten about him? He smelt it again. There was definitely a trace of another guy on her, well more like the titchy traces of a lot of guys. The doubt of her forgetting him grew in his mind. He opened the door and stood in the rain, drowning himself in the water and her scent. He's sure that he had been left behind long ago but no matter how hurt he is, he will voice his feelings.
She's all alone again
Wiping the tears from her eyes
Some days he feels like dying
She gets so sick of crying
She sat there wiping the tears that had mixed in with the rain. Her clothes were completely soaked and she couldn't careless. If she was to keep backing away from reality and its options, she'd rather die anyway. The tears annoyed her so much. She gets so sick of her feelings, the tears and reality.
She sees the mirror of herself
an image she wants to sell
To anyone willing to buy
Every time she got in a serious relationship (which has been with at least 10 times) and the guy asked "let's get married" (at least 3 times) she would remember Inuyasha's face melted on to Kikyo's and she would break up with them. She knows that he like's her past incarnation. But why does it have to be rubbed in so much? She would willingly pay anything to get the tormenting moment that was framed in her mind. She was sick of all the feelings that had built up. It truly sucked knowing that what you thought was the love of your life to be just a one-sided puppy love. It's truly sucks!
He steals the image in her kiss
From her hearts apocalypse
From the one called Kagome
Inuyasha also had that image in his head. The moment Kikyo kissed him and the moment Kagome ran. She never knew that he loved her more than any words can describe but he didn't know how to tell. If he doesn't now, he's never going to tell what he truly feels. He waked in to the pouring rain and walked towards the top of the shrine, were her scent was coming from.
She's all alone again
Wiping the tears from her eyes
Some days he feels like dying
She gets so sick of crying
She's all alone again
Wiping the tears from her eyes
Some days he feels like dying
Some days it's not worth trying
Now that they both are finding
She gets so sick of crying
She's an Extraordinary girl
an Extraordinary girl
an Extraordinary girl
an Extraordinary girl
Kagome she was so sick of those tears that she was letting out today. But why was she crying today? Another tear rolled from her cheek to meet and mix into the grey rain. It felt like she was drowning in an ocean of her tears and Inuyasha was looking at her drowning, not doing anything.
Water grey
Through the windows, up the stairs
Chilling rain
Like an ocean everywhere
Don't want to reach for me do you
I mean nothing to you
The little things give you away
And now there will be no mistaking
The levees are breaking
All you've ever wanted
Was someone to truly look up to you
And six feet under water
I do
The cool wind wrapped around her as she sang to herself. Tears came up to her eyes as she sung about how Inuyasha would never love her but she's trapped hating every second of life because he doesn't love her back. All hope had turned to ashes and no one could ever do anything. They just stare. They haven't felt this pain. They haven't felt the pain of knowing that all that the person you loved wanted was not you but someone who looked exactly the same.
Hope decays
Generations disappear
Washed away
As a nation simply stares
Don't want to reach for me do you
I mean nothing to you
The little things give you away
But there will be no mistaking
The levees are breaking
All you've ever wanted
Was someone to truly look up to you
And six feet under water
I do
All you've ever wanted
Was someone to truly look up to you
And six feet under ground now
Now I do
Little things give you away
Little things give you away
Little things give you away
Little things give you away
Little things give you away
Inuyasha could see her crying and it was hard for him. He walked towards her deathly quiet and hugged her from the back. Kagome was shocked. She was sure it was a hallucination. Kagome just ignored the feeling to hug him back. "Let me stay like this" he whispered in her ear. A shiver ran trough her spine. This was definitely not a hallucination. Kagome reminded her self that he loves Kikyo; he probably had a big fight with her. Even though she was enjoying the moment she wanted him to let go and stop confusing her. She couldn't say sit in this position since she'd end up on the floor with him. "Inuyasha please let me go," Kagome ask him, "just go away you've caused me so much pain so please don't confuse me." Inuyasha hugged her even tighter, "I will never let you go again and I would be crazy to let you go now. I've regretted going to Kikyo that day. So please let me stay with you." Kagome looked away since she didn't want him to see her eyes when she lied, "I think you should leave now. You love Kikyo and I don't love you anymore" That sentence stung Inuyasha. He turned her head and looked in to her eyes "tell me that you don't mean it. I stopped loving Kikyo ages before came. You don't believe me do you Kagome? I came here using the sacred jewel to see you." Kagome was deeply touched by the fact he used up his wish for her but it was hard for her to know that he thought of her as a reflection. "Inuyasha, please leave. You love Kikyo and I saw it myself so I can't love you"
Telling me to go
But hands beg me to stay
Your lips say that you love
Your eyes say that you hate
There's truth in your lies
Doubt in your faith
What you build you lay to waste
This truth in your lies
Doubt in your faith
All I've got is what you didn't take
So I, I won't be the one
Be the one to leave this
In pieces
And you
You will be alone
Alone with all your secrets
And regrets
Don't lie
"Tell me that you don't mean it Kagome." Inuyasha told her again. The rain hit her face making it difficult to notice if Kagome was crying or not. Kagome looked at him "You can't. What about Kikyo?" Inuyasha stared blankly at her, "How many time have I got to repeat this? I don't love Kikyo and she turned to ash the moment you left. Please Kagome, believe me." She just looked away "So is that the reason you came here? You came because I'm a replacement for Kikyo! I can't believe you Inuyasha! First you said that you cared for me and kiss Kikyo and now you want to use me as a replacement! Well, you can keep all your 'regrets' and secrets to yourself. I'm just all the things that you didn't like in Kikyo!" Inuyasha was shocked in how much she hated him "Kagome just listen to me…" he began went Kagome stood up "The fact that you hold me even after all this disgusts me"
You promise me the sky
Then toss me like a stone
You wrap me in your arms
And chill me to the bone
So I, I won't be the one
Be the one to leave this
In pieces
And you
You will be alone
Alone with all your secrets
And regrets
Don't lie
So I, I won't be the one
Be the one to leave this
In pieces
And you
You will be alone
Alone with all your secrets
And regrets
Don't lie
Kagome was about to run off when his hand grabbed her arm. "Kagome, please just listen to me. I love you not anyone else. I'm sorry for all the pain I've caused because the pain you felt has caused me pain. Kagome, I love you so please don't leave me" Kagome looked at him. She saw how nervous he was when he said that. She saw how he had regret in his eyes. Kagome embraced him. "You know my feelings don't you. I would never truly want you to leave me again. Do you know how much the thousand nights I wasn't with you had hurt me?" The rain fell hard on their backs melting them together. "Yes I do. I felt the same pain. Kagome, tell me that you love me again" Inuyasha whispered to her. "I love you, Inuyasha" Kagome whispered back. The rain stopped as the sun was setting. Kagome and Inuyasha had finally over come the thousand nights and the doubt that had separated them.
I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with every day
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
A/N: How was that? I'd appreciate some comments on how to improve. You can all party that there is no more depression and watery eyes. I hope you enjoyed it and you didn't find the ending to cliché or cheesy. And if you haven't noticed, yes some of the songs were cut short. The songs I used in this chapter were:
Sen no yoru wo koete by Aqua timez (What is up with the band names?!)
Extraordinary girl by Green day
The little things give you away by Linkin Park
In pieces by Linkin Park
The reason by Hoobastank (look, I don't name these bands so stop looking at me like that!)
I will be returning the characters back to Rumiko Takahashi until another time. Since this story is finally over, I might start on a bleach one or maybe another Inuyasha fanfic and borrow the characters all over again! Did the chapter compensate for the wait for it? If you thought it was good, I want you to press that little dropdown list and select the little part that says 'author alert' and press 'go' (you don't actually HAVE to). If it didn't, too bad!
Beckie: Oh my cod! You're too damn mean. You meanie!
Sun: Don't you mean god and why are you here instead of Kaz?!
Beckie: Katherine's sick and I can't say god because I am god. (Long story cut short on my profile)
Sun: Couldn't you just say 'Oh my gosh' or something like that instead of referring to a fish?
Beckie: ….oh yeah!