Hi all! Warning, mentions of rape. But I guess most of these chapters have mentions of rape. And these characters are still not mine. I so appreciate those lovely reviews and favs! :)
Regina's eyes widened seeing Emma Swan, standing on her porch, staring back at her, a look of despair on her face. Without much thought, Regina stepped up to her, threw her arm back and slapped her as hard as she could. Rage filled her as she stared at the blonde holding the side of her face. "How dare you!" The mayor seethed. "How dare you come to my house after what you did!"
"Regina… I know I have no right-" Emma looked ashamed, wiping the blood from her lip. "I wanted to explain… I didn't… I wasn't aware of what I was doing, I don't… I don't know how, or what happened" Regina glared at her. "I wanted to talk, and… I was hurt…something happened and I blacked out. I can't stop thinking-" Emma's tears unleashed. "I can't stop thinking of how much I hurt you" Regina stayed silent watching her as she continued to break down. "I want to…I need to talk to you"
"Well… I don't want to talk to you, get off my porch and stay the hell away from me" she started to go back in and shut the door but Emma's desperation got the better of her, and she leaped forward to stop Regina from shutting her out, grabbing the door startling the mayor who quickly conjured up a fireball. "Stop! Stay away!" she yelled the flames licking at her hand.
"Regina, please" Emma begged with tears in her eyes, "just let me in… I have… I need to talk to you" Emma's thoughts raced, she didn't want to wait too long to erase Regina's memories of the event and these last two days, she didn't want to wait any longer, it will be even harder to cope with if Regina had lost more than two days of memories. She had to convince Regina to let her in, and just get close enough for her to remove the unpleasant memories forever. "I need to make it up to you".
"Make it up to me? Ms. Swan, you violated me and you humiliated me. How does one exactly make that up?" Regina responded, enraged now she thinks that that Emma's delusion is that she can make all her pain go away with a talk.
"Please let me in" Emma said quietly, her hand still on the door, still looking into Regina's eyes trying to look for some mercy.
"I don't feel safe with you in my home" Regina said point blankly.
"I haven't prevented you from using that" Emma motioned to the fireball still sitting in Regina's hand. "I just need a few minutes, then I'll leave you alone" Emma looked at her with pleading eyes. Regina returned her gaze with suspicion. She didn't want to be alone with Emma at home. This was the only place right now that she felt safe, she didn't really want to risk Emma snapping again in Regina's home.
"Just a few minutes" Regina repeated, continuing to glare suspiciously at her. Emma nodded never taking her eyes off the mayor. Regina paused, contemplating, before opening the door to let Emma in and extinguishing her fireball. "I better not regret this Swan". Emma hated when Regina called her that, it's a signal that she's keeping her at arms-length. Emma relaxed her grip on the door and walked into the mansion, Regina waited for her to fully enter the house before she closed it. Both women stood in the hallway of the mansion facing each other. After a long minute, Regina was the one to break the silence. "Whom have you told?" she asked, her eyes fixated on Emma, her guards still up.
"Just Mary-Margaret… She came to the office that day… I called her I didn't know what to do…"
"What about Henry?" Regina wanted to clarify that Henry was safe from knowing about this.
"I didn't, I would never" Emma replied shocked that Regina would even think that she would reveal something this adult themed to their son.
"Good… " the mayor said satisfied with the short answer. "Come, if you're going to talk then we might as well be sitting down." Regina said motioning to the living room. In reality Regina's leg was throbbing and didn't want to keep standing on it. She lead Emma to the living room, as Emma watched Regina walk in front of her, she contemplated pulling out the dream catcher right then, her hand was holding the side of it but was interrupted when Regina started talking, telling her to have a seat. Emma sat down, nervously looking around her living room. Regina portrayed strength and did not allow Emma to see her as weak. Even though they had grown to become friends before this incident, Regina reverted back to speaking to Emma in a formal fashion as if she didn't know her or want to know her. "Well?" Regina stated, jerking Emma out of her daze noticing that the mayor had just sat down at the opposite end away from the blonde. "What did you want to say?"
"I'm sorry… " Emma said quietly focusing at the brunettes eyes. Regina scoffed.
"That's all? You think sorry is going to make up for what you did to me?" Regina said angrily "Emma, you raped me"
"I KNOW!" Emma yelled, "I know! I don't remember doing it, but I KNOW I did, and I'm going to fix it" Regina eyed Emma's hand going into her jacket pocket, and kept herself on guard, preparing herself for whatever she will pull out. "this will solve the problem" she said as she showed Regina the dream catcher. Immediately Regina knew what she was about to do and stood up a little too quickly, wincing at the pain that it caused to her injured leg. Emma did not fail to notice it, knowing exactly what it was.
"Emma, don't" Regina said backing away. "You're not going to fix this by wiping out two days of my memory"
"Regina it will be like it never happened" she said standing up "please trust me" advancing slowly.
"Trust you?" Regina backed away placing her hands up defensively. "I don't want this, Emma"
"It will be better, Regina you will see" Emma said carefully approaching her and holding the dream catcher up to Regina.
"No!" Regina yelled, squeezing her eyes shut and turning her head, a fireball naturally forming in her right hand. The memories floated out of the brunette's forehead into the dream catcher. Emma was clutching it, tears running down her face watching Regina's face as her memories left her. The dream catcher finished its job and Regina collapsed onto the tile, passing out. Emma went to her, pulling her onto her lap, wrapping her arms around the brunette, wiping the tears she noticed that Regina had on her cheeks.
"I'm sorry, Regina… I hope one day you can forgive me" she said holding on to the brunette and burying her face into her neck, remaining there for several minutes before picking up Regina, bridal style, and carrying her up the stairs to her bedroom. She laid her in the bed, trying to come up with a story as to why she has no recollection of the past 48 hours, and how did those marks get on her leg. Emma couldn't figure out why the mayor hadn't just healed them with magic. Emma slipped off Regina's shoes and sat on the edge of the bed, gazing down at her sleeping form. Her gaze shifted from the mayor, to the dream catcher she had in her hand. "This is better" she attempted to convince herself. "This way she will be okay". She squeezed Regina's hand before she left the bedroom to leave the house, hoping that when Regina does wake up, she doesn't have a hard time adjusting to not remembering the past two days.
Emma entered Mary-Margaret's apartment relieved that no one was there yet. Unfortunately she unexpectedly heard her mother's voice from the back, as she came forward in a hurry. "Emma?!" she called out. Emma's eyes landed on her mother.
"You're right, she didn't agree to it" Emma replied to her name.
"So… you didn't do it?" Snow said, hopefully.
"I did do it. She won't remember anything when she wakes up" Emma said taking out the dream catcher that contained Regina's memories. "I just don't know what to say to her now to explain her memory loss".
"Emma… are you alright?" Snow said, walking up to her daughter and placing an arm around her shoulders.
"No, not yet… I will be though when it's my turn to destroy my memories"
"Emma please, re-think this. I know it's horrible but you are taking away a part of your history that happened. It needs to be there, we have to figure what happened not ignore it!" Snow insisted. "Please" Emma didn't respond, she just stared at the dream catcher, replaying the memories that she had taken from Regina. She watched Regina standing in her office pondering something with tears in her eyes, right before Emma knocked on the door. She watched as Regina wiped away her tears and attempted to compose herself before reaching for the door and opening it, finding Emma standing right outside. Emma closed her eyes and put down the dream catcher, not eager to watch the rest of the memory.
"I don't want this to happen again" Emma said looking away. "I'm scared that it will happen again"
"And that's why you need your memories, you need to have them so we can find a way to stop whatever went wrong…and we need help" Snow said reassuring Emma that she has her support. "We need to talk to someone that knows about this kind of stuff"
"No!" Emma said startling Snow "No we can't! Regina's first question was whom did I tell, I can't tell anyone what I did to her"
"We need to Emma, we need to say something, how else are we going to find out? Regina can't help she doesn't know what happened anymore! Rumpelstiltskin is the only other one that would know of this kind of magic."
"What if it wasn't magic" Emma replied, Snow looking at her quizzically. "What if it was …me… what if I just snapped and…what if it was all …me".