A/N: Okay to clear any confusion. Bella is not Edward's singer, but he still can't read her thoughts. I wanted to make Edward's attraction to Bella different to the book. Bella is meant to be good looking in this story that is why everyone was staring at her on her first day because they thought she looked like she could be a Cullen. She thinks she is plain and boring though so she is thinks they are looking at her for a different reason. But Edward sees her differently to everyone else. There is a physical attraction greater than the others but it's almost as if he feels or just knows that she is a beautiful person in general. I suppose it's like love at first sight but I didn't want to rush into the whole love thing just yet, more like a connection at first sight. I suppose that makes more sense. If this doesn't make any sense to anyone, just read on.
EPOV
I spent my lunch in the music room just fiddling around on the piano. The entire population of Forks High was thinking about the new girl and I was getting agitated by all of the excitement. I only caught glimpses of the new girl but because I tried so hard to push away everyone's thoughts I didn't get a good look. I wasn't interested in seeing her face. It's not like I cared at the moment anyway. She was probably just some silly girl who would fawn over my family's looks and then eventually get bored when none of us paid attention. Nonetheless it didn't matter who she was, I was only interested in finding out who the beautiful girl I saw in the meadow was. I couldn't get her out of my head. I just knew there was something different about her that made me want to meet her and mean something to her. It felt like something was trying to pull me closer but the monster inside me pulled me back. I just wish I would have been able to act upon my feelings like a human would have. I know it's silly to be having such feelings over a girl I had only seen briefly and especially when she is a human.
But I knew my feelings meant nothing. They meant nothing because I will never see her again. They meant nothing because even if I did see her I knew that because she was human I had to keep away from her. It made me upset to think that I finally found a girl that held some form of attraction to me and I will never be able to be anything to her but a memory, a boy she once saw in the distance staring at her. I was so confused about my feelings that I don't even think Jasper could decipher them.
The bell was going to ring soon, so I gathered my things and walked glumly to biology. It's odd how you can be extremely happy and elated about something but you can also feel completely bummed. The classroom was empty which I was thankful for. I didn't want to walk into a classroom full of students that would easily notice my seemingly more depressive expression. Students came in through the classroom door one by one. And there thoughts came at me like a wrecking ball.
She looks like a freakin Cullen
She's taking my entire spotlight; she's not that good looking anyway
Man what would it be like to be her girlfriend?
The shallow thoughts of the human race never cease to amaze me.
Yes, she's in our class
I looked up towards the doorway, knowing that I was going to see her eventually so I may as well look. When I looked up at the girl, it felt like my air supply was shut off. Talking to Mr. Banner was the girl from the meadow. The one and only girl who had ever occupied my thoughts the way they did was standing at the front of the class. She turned around at hearing my gasp. When she saw me, recognition and shock were written on her face. Bella, she was the girl I had wanted to talk to yesterday and now she was in my class. We just stared into each other's eyes completely unaware of the rest of the class beginning to notice our exchange. A mix of emotions rushed through my body all at once. Happiness was definitely detectable but sadness was there too. I knew why I was sad. She was going to be within only a short distance from me every day and I was going to have to endure the fact that I could mean nothing else to her than an acquaintance. She wouldn't want to be anything else to me anyway. Not if she knew what I really was.
Someone cleared their throat pulling me out of my reverie. Bella had turned to face Mr. Banner where he told her to sit in the seat next to me. A blush appeared on her cheeks. It was the most exquisite blush I had ever seen. The hint of red on her cheeks made the rest of her face just glow, tempting me further. How could a human be so amazing? She walked closer to my desk stumbling along the way. A few giggles erupted out of some students mouths; I found her lack of balance in this current situation rather cute.
She sat down in the seat next to me. I couldn't keep my eyes off her beautiful face. I tried tapping into her thoughts like I did yesterday. Blank again. I couldn't understand what was happening. I could hear everyone else's thoughts just fine. Maybe I'm going slightly insane. I mean that would explain my reactions towards her beautiful person. I decided I wanted to smell her blood again. I was disgusted at the monster inside me wanting to use my vampire instincts and smell her intoxicating blood. But I remembered how wonderful she smelt yesterday that I gave into the temptation. Her blood was just as beautiful as it was yesterday. It was somehow tempting, but not in a way that made me want to kill her or suck her dry.
She seemed to notice my intense staring because she began to squirm. When Mr. Banner announced that we should start our experiments she blushed slightly and looked up at me expectantly. I couldn't seem to keep the smile off my face she was just so adorable.
"I'm Edward Cullen," I knew that I shouldn't have been so forward and inviting but I couldn't help it. The monster inside me was raging at my stupidity but I didn't listen to it. I didn't want to listen.
"Bella Swan," her voice was calm and beautiful. It was so smooth, just another element to add to her beauty. In her eyes it looked like she was fighting a war of her own. This was when I really wanted to read her thoughts. But yet again my power was unsuccessful.
"Were you –"
"Were you –" We said at the same time. I smiled at our exchange. Bella made me feel so happy for some strange reason. I felt comfortable with her but at the same time she had me on the edge of my seat. We had barely spoken to each other and i knew that I shouldn't feel this way. It's too dangerous. I could expose our existence if I got in too deep. I could endanger her life. But for some strange reason at this particular moment I didn't listen to my rational thoughts and I did what I wanted to do.
"You go first," I told her.
"You just looked familiar and, well, I was wondering if you happened to be the person I saw at the meadow I was at yesterday," she said quickly.
I chuckled quietly and told her I was going to ask the same thing. My smile grew when she smiled back at me. This felt so right. Making her smile felt like a natural thing for me to be doing, and I was enjoying it very much.
The teacher told us off for not beginning our work, so we dropped any further conversation, to my intense disappointment. Bella was incredibly smart, she knew exactly what she was doing and she didn't get one answer wrong. She was absolutely perfect in absolutely everyway. Well at least to me she was.
Class ended too soon for my liking. Everyone gathered there things and left. I turned to look at Bella, wanting to ask her something. She looked at me expectantly. I opened my mouth to ask but I hesitated. I decided I would ask her some other time.
"Goodbye Bella," was all I said before I walked out without a second glance. I knew that if I looked back I would be entranced by her beautiful eyes that I wouldn't be able to look away.
BPOV
My afternoon at home was uneventful. I'd completed my homework at school so I didn't have any to do. I cleaned up what little mess there was around there house and began cooking dinner for Charlie. It seems our home lives were already becoming routine. He would get home right when I was ready to serve dinner and we would talk about the same things. Charlie and I would then clean our dishes and he would go off to watch a game. It was a bit early for me to go to bed yet so I went up to check my emails that I was sure to have from Renee. She had sent me three. I replied to them quickly, telling her about the people I had met at school – skipping Edward of course. I also mentioned something about the weather and I told her I was enjoying it down here.
And I really was enjoying it here. I had never felt more at home. So far school seemed okay and I had some people I could talk to. Charlie and I got along really well. There was always the weather problem but that was to be expected. I was happy that I got to have the chance to live down here before I finished high school and went on to college.
My morning routine was the same as yesterday. Get up, have a shower and get dressed. It sounded rather dull but it was a lot more easy-going than it was with Renee. Renee always found a way to complicate things. She was either just in my way all the time in the mornings while I was getting ready or she was burning toast or ruining her breakfast in general. Don't get me wrong I loved living with my mom it was just an extremely hectic lifestyle sometimes.
Over breakfast I began thinking about my dream. It was about Edward. It was the best dream I had ever had. He was just sitting in the meadow, thinking. And I just watched him. I watched his face scrunch up in confusion; I watched his face grow into a smile. His smiles, they were so beautiful. I had never had someone effect me the way he did with just a smile. It was very unnerving but extremely satisfying.
I had decided near the end of gym class yesterda that I was going to become his friend and the plan still stuck. He seemed like a nice guy so I'm pretty sure he'd give me a chance.
I was thankful the weather wasn't as bad as yesterday. It was still raining softly but nowhere near the ferocity that it was. It wasn't long before I found myself in the school parking lot. I stopped in a spot right next to a shiny silver Volvo. It was probably the newest and most expensive car in this whole car park. I wouldn't be surprised if it was the newest car in the entire town. I could see someone inside sitting in the driver's seat but the windows were too dark tinted to make the person out.
I still had ten minutes till class, so I tilted my head back for a moment and closed my eyes. My nerves were still in the pit of my stomach even if it was my second day at this school. I was pretty sure I was still going to be labeled as the new girl. I took deep breaths to calm myself down. I could hear students walking past the front of my car and I took that as a sign that school was nearly starting. I grabbed my bag off the passenger seat and slipped out of the cab. And I mean I slipped literally. I fell onto the ground in a heap barely missing a puddle not two feet away.
I groaned in frustration. All of a sudden a hand came down right in front of my face making me jump. Following up along the arm I saw that it belonged to none other than Mr. Perfect. He had a smirk on his face, obviously amused by my position. I glared at him playfully and I grabbed onto his hand heaving myself up. The instant my skin touched his I noticed how freezing his hand was. Sure it was cold outside but I wasn't expecting someone's skin to be that cold. I brushed it off and once I was steady, I let go of his hand.
"Thanks," I said breathlessly.
"Something tells me that this kind of thing happens to you often," that sexy smirk still on his face. Whoa Sexy? Where did that come from? Get a grip Bella.
I blushed.
"Yeah," was my lame response Bella. He probably thinks I'm an idiot. But I can't help it; he just makes my mind go all hazy and I can't think of anything smart or intelligent to say.
"Well I've got to go Bella," he sounded reluctant to leave for some strange reason. "I'll see you in biology."
With one last smile flashed my way, he turned towards his first class. I stood there dazed for a moment, but I was pulled back into reality when I heard someone calling my name. I saw Jessica at the entrance to the school waving me over, so I scurried over as quickly as I could without tripping over.
Up and till lunch classes had been okay, but Jessica was beginning to get a little on my nerves. I like her a lot but she talked a lot about herself that she was a bit much for me to handle. I didn't really want to endure any more of Jessica's talking and I wasn't all that hungry, so I chose to skip lunch and find somewhere quiet to sit. I walked through the halls not really concentrating on where my feet were taking me, when I heard music coming from just up the hallway. I walked quietly not wanting to disturb whoever was playing, but I was just too curious to ignore it. The music that was playing was beautiful and soft, and played with so much expression that I wondered how it was possible someone could pay something so moving. I peeped through the crack in the door slowly pushing it a little wider so I could get a better look. As if Edward could be any more amazing he just happened to be an amazingly skillful pianist. I was very surprised. The first impression I got from him I wouldn't have thought he could play the piano, but when I think about it, it just seemed to fit his personality. I listened on as I relished in the feeling that the music filled me with. I mustn't have realized that the song had ended because the next thing I heard was Edward's voice coming from across the room.
"You can come in if you want Bella."
A/N: Sorry I ended it. I was gonna keep going but I'm REALLY tired and I need to sleep. Sorry if the story is taking too long to reel you in but this is how it's gotta be if I want it to work the way I want. I shall update again tomorrow. xx
