I played with the end of my sleeves as I walked into my first class, biological science. It was one of the classes I actually had with people I knew. We piled into the lecture hall with probably close to 400 seats in it. We took a seat in the second row while we waited for class to start. We left early figured we aren't 100% where everything is...better to be early than late.

"You guys are in here early" I heard a woman say without looking up.

"Yeah...just to make sure we got here on time, ya know?" Izzie smiled sweetly. "Are you the TA?" She questioned.

"Yeah, actually...I figured I told you"

"That's awesome...ya know? Because I like know you" izzie giggled.

"Well I'm not giving any undeserved grades, this is a TA taught class and I really need it for my resume"

"Meredith right?" I hear My name and my head shot up before my face turned 4 shades redder.

"Hi…" I smiled awkwardly. It's that girl, that girl um….Allie?

"Oh crap…" izzie bit back a smile and I shot her a look.

"I don't think we really met, Addison" she stuck out her hand and I stared at it for a few seconds before reacting by shaking it quickly. I subconsciously started to mess with my sleeves again

"Hi...I'm...you already know my name" i spat our quickly.

"I have to thank you...whatever you did, really helped lift him up. You should come by sometime, he won't admit it but I think he might really like you"

"Thanks Addison um...I um….maybe" I needed this grade and this class to be great so I would just try and smooth things over without committing. It seemed to work as she smiled and walked away to introduce herself to the now filling room.

"Wanna drop out while we can still get our deposits back?" Cristina asked.

"I wish" I mumbled back

—

The first block exam was coming up which meant that we were supposed to study...a lot. Which is saying something because we are always studying a lot. I had my textbook open as I mindlessly highlighted and marked text that seemed important.

"Hey, guys" Addison said as she came into the apartment. She always looked well put together, always. She had a soft grey top with fitted pants on, round black sunglasses, small hoop earrings, a small faced watch, a necklace, a purse that I'm pretty sure was different last week and perfectly manicured nails. She was perfect….not my type, it never even really occurred to be that she could be someone who could ever be my type. Don't get me wrong, I love Addie to death just….not in love...this is irrelevant.

"Hey Addie, how was your kindergarten class?" Mark asked from the couch, resting his textbook on his lap.

"Good good" she had a little smile on her face as she stepped closer to the kitchen. "Guess who I saw today?" She sang..

"Who?" I muttered continuing to not look up from the pages covered in neon now.

"Meredith" she grinned as my head shot Up and I felt my stomach plummet.

"Really" I managed to mutter in what I felt was a casual tone.

"Really?" Mark asked shutting his book and walking to the kitchen.

"Mhm, she's in my class, she's smart. You'd be lucky to have her"

"So that means you banged a first year hah!" Mark laughed.

"I did not" I claimed, I wasn't really sure to be honest. She didn't look that young and she got into the bar..

"I'm sorry der, but it seems unlikely that'd she be in a first year class otherwise" addison sighed taking the seat across from me. I ran my hand through my hair and nodded.

"Did you say anything to her?" Mark pressed.

"Yeah well sorta" Addison sighed.

"What? Addie why?" I sounded like a kid, I know I did...I couldn't help it.

"She didn't really talk too much, it was short" I shrugged.

"Well what happened?" Mark exclaimed after a few moments of silence.

"I said "Meredith right?l and she answered embarrassedly, I thanked her for making you more bearable and she replied again uncomfortably followed by me tellinghrrsheshouldcomeby" she spat the end out so quickly my brain didn't process it at first"

"Addie! That's….she's gonna think I'm crazy" I sighed rubbing my hand through my thick curls. I

"Oh, please. You'll be fine" she laughed tossing her long auburn hair behind her shoulder.

"Seriously" I said more sternly.

"Derek, unless you plan to see her again, why does it matter? Do you plan to see her again?" She asked seriously.

"I don't know, Okay? This is my they call it a PRIVATE life" I mutter gathering my stuff quickly and heading to my room.

"Hey I'll give her your number next class if you want" I heard her shout as a shut the door. "Was that a no?" She giggled turning to mark.

"I'm gonna go with that was a no but I'm all for it but you didn't hear that from me" Mark said putting his hands up in mock surrender.

"He might actually kill me if I did that"!she laughed opening her bag and pulling out binders.

—

"So that was terrible" Cristina laughed as we walked out of the lecture hall, she slid on her tan overcoat as we walked.

"Yeah…" I was attempting to forget what I had gotten myself into.

"What happened?" George asked running up to us.

"Nothing" I grumbled, this is just splendid...everyone is gonna know my business.

"Mer slept with our TA's boyfriend" Cristina laughed.

"Roommate" I said quick to correct her purposeful mistake.

"Oh…" George nodded and I turned to look at Him for a second hearing something in his voice. I had a feeling he had a crush on me, it was definitely nothing, but I felt a little bad.

"Whatever…she didn't really bother me after, she did ask me to come over though which was…" I sighed trying to move on.

"Weird? Mer are you gonna go?" Izzie asked

"No!" I choked "are you kidding?"

"Right well did you get his address?" She asked as we kept walking.

"Hah she doesn't need it, she's been there, remember?" Cristina teased.

"I hate you...all of you" I said as I turned to look at them.

—

I was now the "tagalong sister" which was….I don't know really. I feel like I can't tell if people want me there or not. I could hear Meredith and her friends laughing only slightly ahead of me as I ran up to them after our first class.

"Meredith, hey! Hi guys" I smiled...I am such a dork.

"Oh hi Maggie" Meredith smiled slightly...that was something. I knew she had been trying, I didn't understand it...any of it...I have a million questions and I would ask her these questions later...just...it might not be the best time.

"Hey, guys I have a rush thing I have to get to at 6 and I really need to change so I'll see you around, unless you wanna come? It's not too late" Izzie begged.

"No way am I getting involved with those girls" Cristina laughed.

"It looks really good on a med school application" she continued.

"I'll come!" "Fine I'll come" Me and Meredith said almost in unison and I looked over to her and smiled.

"You guys will? Ugh thank you...I don't know anyone yet" izzie smiled as we walked away.

"Hey have fun with your bratty rich girls" Cristina called

"Yang, you're a bratty rich girl" Alex laughed as he walked past.

—

Me izzie and Maggie walked towards the student center where we were all meeting up, we sat at a wooden table where a few other girls were already seated.

"Hi! I'm April...i um….what's your names? I mean...what's your guyses….what are you guys nameses um….you get what I mean" a perky redhead wearing an oversized grey turtleneck stammered. We went around saying our names and making boring general small talk, I mostly watched perky blondes attempt to be more social than their used to before a short woman came out and began speaking.

"Hello everyone, I'm Miranda and if you will all follow me and find a seat over in the center of the room" she boomed before heading off into that direction.

"This is a little…" I mumbled

"Nerve wracking?" Izzie whisper yelled.

"I bet they're nice" Maggie smiled as we headed into the designated room. The next part was just a "get to know you" thing where girls stood up, said their name, grade, something they are passionate about, and their best quality.

"Is that simple enough? Okay. I'll start off. I'm Miranda, I'm a junior, I am in pi Beta phi, I have a passion for helping children, and I'm very respected by my peers, now you go" she said after taking a seat. I wasn't really paying much attention as it was my turn and I quickly hopped up.

...um, I'm Meredith, I'm a freshman, I'm um….passionate about my future and medicine I guess and I guess I'm a pretty hard worker " I smiled before taking my seat. I sighed and looked around as the next person began to speak. I didn't care a lot but I didn't want to embarrass myself.

"Hi! I'm April, I'm a freshman, I'm passionate about helping people get further and just being a better person and ummm...I guess I'm pretty smart" she giggled.

"I'm Addison, I'm in the med school across campus but I am here to help with recruitment and anything anyone may need help with…" I sighed, she is literally everywhere, literally...it's the strangest thing. "I care seriously about women's health and help out in any way I can, I was in alpha phi, and I would say I'm very courageous." She is everywhere, I looked up at her and caught her eye as she smiled at me before sitting down. Running her hands over her soft white dress.

"Hey Guys, I'm Arizona, I'm a senior, I'm in phi mu, I'm very passionate about helping children and under representation of lgbt people, and I am very honorable" a skinny blonde in a teal skirt said before taking a seat. Several girls spoke about fake passions and dreams throughout the night.

"Hey I'm Amelia, I'm a junior, I'm a member of alpha chi omega, I believe strongly in seconds chances and equality and I am very strong" a wavy haired brunette in jeans and a t shirt said.

"Hi! I'm izzie, ima. Freshman, I am very passionate about helping people in basically every way possible and I am very friendly" izzie smiled taking her seat and looking over to me and I gave her a soft smile so she knows she didn't mess up.

"I'm Callie, I'm a junior, im in alpha omicron pi, I'm very passionate about my plan for school and what that means for me, and I'm very tough." A dark haired girl in blue jeans spoke.

"Hi! I'm Maggie, I'm a freshman, I'm very passionate about finding out who I am, and I am very loyal." She said quietly before taking her seat. The rest of the room went around speaking and saying their own boring fake versions of themselves, most seemed boring as I drifted off.

"Alright anyone who is interested in doing house tours tomorrow, we'll meet here at 5." The dark haired Latina girl said.

"This is gonna be so fun!" Izzie exclaimed as we left the building, feeling the warmth of the early fall.

"Oh….my god" I groaned hiding my face behind Maggie before realizing she's too short and ducking behind izzie.

"What the…" izzie asked before looking up and smiling.

"Maggie, I um...I wanna teach you how to apply makeup...in the bathroom" izzie smiled grabbing her arm

"Right now?" Maggie asked confused as to what wa showing on.

"Mhm, right now" she said pulling her back into the building.

"Izzie don't…" I sighed realizing they were gone. "What are you doing here?" I sighed as I saw Derek walking towards me and pulling me to a more secluded area.

"My sister is here, also I'm addie's ride home. She does like to walk all the way home in the dark at night" he smiled sweetly at me. Idiot.

"You are really everywhere, your girlfriend is all over the place" I grumbled looking up at his stupid face.

"Hah not my girlfriend, friend, roomate, we've been friends since we were kids. Her mark and I"

"Why are you telling me this, this is not a date" I shook my head at him as he stayed close to me

"It could be, I could take my sister home, take Addie home and come by and get you" he offered

"You'd like that….actually why would you like that? You're very strange. I gave you sex and you won't go away, that's usually when guys turn the opposite direction so why are you still here?" I asked, I didn't understand why he wanted me so badly if I had already given him what he wanted.

"I like you Meredith, you are impossible to figure out and guarded but tough" he smiled. What a lie.

"You want a challenge?" I sighed leaning against the wall.

"No..I could walk away, If I was someone different maybe I would but I want to get to know you" he smiled down at me. "So...one date?" He asked again.

"I um….coffee, at the place on campus. I can get there myself" I nodded, I wanted control and figured that's what I had.

"Sounds great, I'll meet you there in 45" he whispered softly before walking away. I sighed outwardly as he left.

—

"God, where is he?" Amy grumbled crossing her arms.

"Hah I have a pretty good idea" Addison smirked as she saw Me coming around the corner with my lips turned upright.

"Ew why do you look like that?" Amy scrunched her nose at his new appearance.

"Like what?" I asked a smile still plastered all over my face.

"Like...happy" she said confused as

We piled into the car.

"I am happy" I nodded buckling my seatbelt.

"You found Meredith then I assume" Addison nodded knowingly.

"I'm just happy" I nodded pulling out of my parking spot.

"Who's Meredith?" Amy asked crouching forward.

"Nobody" I shook my head, the last thing I needed is for somebody in my family to be giving me relationship advice.

"This girl he keeps meeting up with everywhere, how'd it go tonight?" Addison asked looking out the window.

"I'm just happy, I have that feeling of fulfillment." I sighed, feeling completely relaxed.

"Hah I bet you do" Addison laughed.

"Addie!" Me and Amy said at the same time.

"Gross Addie, that my brother." She rolled her eyes and unbuckled her seatbelt as we neared he Rhône.

"Haha well I'll see you tomorrow at 5 for the rest of recruitment?" Addison asked.

"Totally, bye Addie by der. Love you!" She waved as she turned to head for the door.

"So...Meredith?" She asked and I just laughed fully.

"I'm um...not talking about this" I said shaking my head softly

"Oh please, I know she was there. I'm gonna find out eventually" Addison begged.

"I don't know about that, Look I'm gonna go out for a little bit. I have a couple errands to run" I said smoothly.

"Hah, okay where do you have to go at 8pm on a Monday?" She asked crossing her arms over her chest.

"Places" I shrugged.

"Uh huh"

"Yes, important business places" I nodded and kept my eyes on the road. I could still feel hers boring into me though.

"I'll see you later, Addie." I smiled as we pulled up to our apartment complex.

"I hate you" she said matter of factly.

"I know, now get outta my car" I laughed shooing her away.

"I want to know what happened after!" I heard her call as I drove off.

—

"What about this?" Izzie said placing the final part of a very pink outfit onto my bed. It was pale pink jeans, a light striped shirt with a pale denim jacket

"Iz, that's not me" I shook my head and hopped on my bed.

"Cristina help!" Izzie whined "you guys are both unfashionable"

"Hah I'm not helping her until she tells me what this is for"

"It's a date, it doesn't matter...it's not even really a date" I shrugged pulling things out of my closet.

"Wow that was a tremendous help, thank you" I rolled my eyes as I heard the sarcasm dripping from her lips.

"I think this is good, is this good?" I asked as I looked in the mirror. I had on plain pair of jeans with a low cut pink shirt, my messy waves flowing naturally.

"Yes, you're so cute" Izzie smiles "and don't worry, about the date wthats not a date with whoever it is"

"Alright, I'm leaving. Don't wait up" I called as I left the room.

"Where do you think she's going?" Izzie questioned.

"To go get laid, she's lucky" Cristina laughed. I left and made my way to the small coffee shop on campus running my hands through my hair in attempt to remove some of the knots in it.

"Hey" he said from behind me and I jumped about 3 feet.

"This is teetering on stalking" I say before heading to the entrance.

"Maybe it's fate, like we are supposed to end up together like some kind of fairy tale" his eyes sparkled as he looked at me and I turned away to avoid blushing.

"That's a little unbelievable, don't ya think?" I questioned as we grabbed seats in the corner of the shop.

"Hm we'll see" he quipped.

—

"So...I don't know about you but I had fun" she sighed at my comment as we stopped at the exit.

"Yeah, it was nice…...you know I'm a freshman right?"

"I assumed" her face was a natural beauty; glowing in night sky from the combination of the moonlight and dim streetlights, eyebrows softly plucked and arched, her nose was small and crinkled on the sides very delicately whenever she laughed. I had spent the last hour working just to see that happen again.

"In college...a freshman in college"

"Yeah, I figured as much. Look Meredith, I already know you...it's not like it's illegal….you're legal right?" I asked stupidly.

"Yes, jackass" she rolled her eyes, breaking our eye contact.

"Good good, so Meredith I don't care what grade you're in.." I glanced down at her lips which were soft and pink with a light gloss across them. She glanced up at me, her eyes were bright with thick dark lashes.

"I um..had a good time" she whispered, not moving away from me.

"Meredith" I said attempting to gather her feeling.

"Hm?" She asked. I leaned down a pressed my lips softly against hers waiting to see how she reacts. Her arms slowly wrapped around my n class as I smiled putting my hand to her cheek. From there things got more heated until it was becoming a little risqué from public and she pulled away.

"What now?" I challenged, my breath still uneven from the kiss.

"I um...don't have my car" she hinted and the side of my mouth perked up, her eyes a dark shade of green blue.

"I could uh...give you a ride?" I said pointing to my car behind us.

"Yeah, that'd be good." She nodded grabbing my hand as we walked towards the car.

"Or…" I started as we reached the car "we could go back to mine, save gas...for the planet and all" I smirked at her as a placed my hands on her hips.

"Yeah…I..um am a big believer in….planet….something" she muttered as our lips met again.

—

I didn't know how these things kept happening, I mean I knew...his eyes are a real and his hair is wondrous. We where now in the parking lot of his apartment...again. Except I wasn't drunk and neither was he. The door flung open to the dark apartment, we kissed as he lifted my top over my head as I heard the fabric snap and I giggled like an idiot as we attempted to move towards his bedroom door.

—

The next morning I woke up early, not on purpose but not necessarily a bad thing. I wanted to do this right, without her running off again. I looked over at Meredith sleeping peacefully next to me, her smooth shoulders and back exposed to the air. I hopped up and headed to the kitchen and quickly pulled out the ingredients for breakfast. After working for about 10 minutes I hated marks door open. He looked up at me and around the room.

"Nice" Mark nodded "are you making breakfast?" His brow furrowed as he saw the stove on.

"Yeah…" I mumbled as Addison's door opened shortly after.

"Hah looks like your date with Meredith went better than expected" she smiled.

"Meredith's here?" Mark asked shocked.

"Is she still asleep? Are you cooking?" Addison asked as Mark tried to grab the bacon from the plate and I smacked his hand away.

"I don't want her to run off, pleas be on your best behavior" I begged and as if right on queue my bedroom door swung open to reveal Meredith, her hair now tied up in a loose ponytail with my oversized college t shirt covering her.

"Meredith! Hi! I don't think we met, Mark Sloan" he stuck his hand out towards her as she contemplated taking it.

"Um….hi" she rubbed her eyes and taking his hand for a second before walking past him.

"Hey" I grabbed her hands and pulled her over back to the bedroom to talk for a second.

"I didn't want your roommates...my clothes aren't in here" she frowned. "I hope it's okay" She took the skin of her lip Between her teeth.

"It's cute, it suits you" I smiled brushing my thumb over her face .

"Good" she nodded, looking down embarrassed.

"I made breakfast for you" I said pulling her back to the kitchen.

"You cooked for me?" Her face was puzzled as she saw the plates of food scattered all over the table and counter.

"Yeah, Meri you must be something...he won't even cook for us" Mark smiled attempting to grab at the bacon again.

"Hi Meredith" Addison smiled sweetly st her, she wasn't being malicious, I knew that.

"Hi" she looked away, her eyes pleading for help.

"Meredith, here" I smiled handing her a plate as she hesitated before she took a seat at the small kitchen table.

"So what's your major, meri?" Mark asked her as she twirled her fork.

"Hm...biology, pre med" she breathed out. Her eyes kept low on her plate.

"Nice, right...addies your TA...I heard that" Mark nodded as Addison and I both kicked him under the table.

"Ow!" He whined "what?" He asked looking between me and Addie.

"Look, I get it...this is weird, I um...should go, I'm sorry" she expressed before standing up.

"Meredith, please...marks just an idiot, ignore him" I glanced at her.

"Yeah, come on meri...I don't mean any harm" Mark smiled hugely. She sighed and rubbed her head before taking her seat again.

"So, pre med...your parents must be proud then, huh?" Mark quizzed. Leaning back in his seat.

"No…." she took a bite of the fluffy eggs, keeping her eyes low.

"They should be, future Dr. um…." Addison proclaimed.

"Um...grey" she mumbled so quietly I could barely hear it. She was a completely different person than who I was with last night.

"Dr grey, that'll take you far...people might just subconsciously relate you to Ellis grey" Mark chuckled taking a sip of his coffee, her shoulders tightened at his comment.

"Yeah….she's my Mother so probably" she grumbled and my head shot up and Mark choked slightly on his coffee.

"You're kidding, right? That is so cool! I was just learning about her in human anatomy!" Mark said staring at her like something under a microscope.

"Yeah...I'm pretty sure" she nodded pushing the plate away and looking up at me.

"Meredith, you don't...we can change the subject. Let's change the subject. So how wa shout first day?" Addison asked and Meredith visibly relaxed, avoid Mom talk...noted.

"It wa good, nothing too hard…" she nodded, finally looking at Addison.

"I don't know if that's a compliment or an insult." Addison joked and Meredith laughed and I felt my body lighten at the sound.

"No it's um….it means you're a good teacher" she nodded, her blue green eyes now as bright as when I saw her last night.

—

I grabbed up all my clothes off the floor and headed back into Derek's room, him following short behind me.

"I want to see you again" He said straightforwardly and I turned on my heel to look st him with my eyebrows raised.

"Seriously?" I swooned for second before rationale came back. "Because you know who my mother is…" I nodded in realization.

"What? No! Meredith, I like you, I told you. I want to see you again for you" he sighed, rubbed his temples.

"Oh…" i acknowledge, nodding slightly before making my way over the the bed. He followed behind me, we sat there staring at each other for a few minutes before I dropped my gaze and sighed.

"What happened to you?" I sighed, keeping his gaze on me. I grabbed my jeans and started putting them on.

"I'm damaged, it's not worth your time." I mumbled as I stood up, still wearing his shirt.

"I still want to see you again, damaged and all" he admitted, tilting his head softly to the side as he watched me. I pulled his shirt off and attempted to put my bra back on.

"Are you just gonna watch me?" He laughed going around to attempt to help me, after numerous tries...he eventually succeeds and kisses me on the shoulder after. I sigh again and turn to face him.

"So, can I see you again?" His eyes were hopeful as he grabbed my shirt which was ripped at the seams on one side and stretched on the other, holding it up to me. "This is….."

"Humiliating on So Many levels" I grabbed the shirt from his hands.

"Take mine, and you never answered me" he grabbed the shirt I had abandoned off the floor and handed to to me.

"Um..thanks, look….I'll give you my number. If you call me, cool and if you don't, I will be right" I said pulling my hair tie out.

"Okay" he nodded exuberantly, grabbing his phone off the nightstand and handing it over. I typed it in quickly and threw his shirt back over my head, pulling my hair over the top of it.

"This look like the walk of shame?" I called as I walked towards the door.

"It's very cute" he smiled opening the door for me and I rolled my eyes, heading to the living room.

"Meri! Are we gonna have breakfast again soon?" Mark greeted as I walked out.

"We'll see" I nodded grabbing my bag and pulling it on. "I have class in 30 minutes so I should go" I leaned against the door.

"Okay, i'll call you." He claimed as he stepped closer to me before kissing me quickly on the cheek and looking towards his friends who were staring intently.

"I um...bye," I laughed awkwardly.

"I'll see you tonight at the sorority thing, right?" Addison asked.

"Um, it depends if Izzie makes me go" I said turning the handle and stepping out. I pulled my phone out and saw one text from Izzie (I'm assuming you're date went well...if I don't hear from you by tomorrow at noon, I'm calling the police). I laughed before dialing her number.

"Hey iz, I'm heading back. I'm gonna change and we can head to chem" I said as I headed for the bus.

"Ugh, thank god...I know you're all grown and stuff but I hate that you don't call" Izzie whined.

"Yeah, sorry...tell Cristina I'll be there" I hopped on the bus and took a seat.

"Good" She said before clicking off the phone.

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