Author's Note: umm… I've been having such a crappy day (2/16/07), but regardless of that I will not take it out on the story what-so-ever, -' cheer me on I could use the support! Uh… now let's see, we're now going into Kotarou and Anji's POV Kay?

Update: Sorry bout the lateness really! I've been on break from school and my mom keeps making me sleep over places ! Enjoy though!

Chapter 4: Stop Me from Longing

I turned over in my bed… restless, as always. Kamiya thinks its fun to threaten my life first thing in the morning, so I have gotten used to staying awake to avoid a life threatening wake-up call from her. I lay there waiting it should only be a few more minutes probably 1:03 A.C. to be exact. It was now 1:02 A.C. though…

"Mmm…" I heard her being to stir and waken. I was in one room and she was in another. I worried and cowered in my bed. Then "ANJI-CHAN WAAAAKE UUUUUUP!!!" I heard her footsteps rush closer to my door. She threw it open and all at once jumped towards my bed her foot flying towards my face. I then duck and watch her crash into the wall next to my bed.

"I have to ask, why do you bother?" I said. She turned and glared at me, her face turning red with either embarrassment or… anger. I feared anger because then I'd know to run far away.

"You… are… so… HORRIBLE!!!" She screamed and I knew that was my cue to leave. I grabbed my pants and slipped on my shirt and shoes as quickly as I can. I ran out the house and hid under a nearby bush as I heard her run and scream the other way. I sighed and put my pants on deciding to go for a walk and let her cool off.

As I walked I took time to think about anything. Why does she insist on beating me up…? Does she like, get off on that? Then again… why does she bother, I already know all 50 of her death moves. I sighed at this. As I continued to walk I look ahead spotting Wizard looking around with a discouraging scowl. Hey Wiz, That's what I wanted to say but being where we are right now, I knew that was a bad idea. After all, this was still a Layer.

"Anji?" I look up to glance at him and nod in response, I continue to walk but he grabs my arm, his face looking desperate. "H-have you seen Mi-Hikaru?" I shake my head. Knowing that I'd rather not exchange words with this guy, but I:

"If I see her I'll tell her you were looking." I say that and continue walking. I can feel him staring at me as I walked off. I don't think he really understands why I hate him so much. Ever since he appeared I knew he was just trying to lure Misaki. I know that a lot of people would think I was just being jealous but I know that's not the case. Before Misaki had even met or heard of Ohjiro he had been a major player. This was well known info amongst female players of Angelic Layer. Hatoko brought it to my attention because at the time I was a fan of him (being he was one of the few popular male Angelic Layer players). Hatoko just sat by me and told me "He's a pig!" I looked at Hatoko trying to figure out how she knows this much. She explained to me how this newbie was lured in like 1...2...3! She was a very promising player she had a strong uniqueness about her but made her play almost like a pro. Hatoko says after she had a very tough spar with Ohjiro he went over to woo her, he had won but told her that he would give the girl private lessons. After that the next time Hatoko had seen the girl she had given up angelic layer and decided to go to medical school. Later on it was a lie and the girl had an abortion. After hearing this I couldn't help but develop a strong hate for the guy. After all, the same thing had happened to me and Hatoko. While my mom had been pregnant with her my father pushed for her to get an abortion and quit her job. My mom kicked the guy out, divorced and Hatoko was born.

As I walked I could feel myself becoming more infuriated, like I wanted to run back and just punch him in the face. I continued to walk and noticed a young girl walking about. Her bright salmon pink hair caught my attention right away, it was Haruko. She seemed to be in a daze and looked a little out of it. Her face was mixed up with concern and fatigue. As I got closer to her she looked at my face confused like she didn't know who it was. Her eyes rolled to the back of her head and she passed out. I grabbed her before she fell to the floor and took off my helmet to warn everybody.

As I began to make my way over to her she was passed out in the chair I shook her and yelled:

"Somebody get some water over here!" I yelled I saw Misaki's mother scurry to the bathroom with a bucket. Ohjiro came around to Misaki and as much as I wanted to push him away I couldn't. I stepped back reluctantly to bump into a scared and worried Hatoko. Tamayo seemed a little indifferent, like she wasn't really paying attention to what's going on. I walked over to her and she just starred at everyone fussing over Misaki, frowning.

"She's so fragile Kotarou-Chan, like a porcelain doll." She looked up at me and I can see the tears forming in her eyes. I placed my hand on her head and pulled her into my chest. I knew exactly why she was crying, she wants what Misaki has, the popularity and attention. She couldn't take it. She had been destroying herself little by little ever since Misaki won the games, she went crazy. I always stood by her side though, helping her and her self esteem problems. When I tried to bring this attention to her mother she would shrug and tell me:

"She's probably just falling into that drama and depression stage that most teens go into, they get all sad and think they're life is falling apart when really its just they're imagination. I think that's when most teens lose they're imagination at the same time this happens. That's why there are so many depressed adults, they just we're too busy worrying about life instead of enjoying it." She just looked off and seemed to drift away into her own thoughts, like she experienced this first hand and she didn't want it to happen again. She looks back at me and tells me something I can agree with "She probably wouldn't listen to me even if I tried."

I look now and see Misaki has finally woken up. I look over at her and let Tamayo see that she's okay. Misaki just gets up and tells us she's okay and that we should continue. When we decide to go back I notice Icchan left the time running I guess for Misaki's sake. Who knows why she fainted but, I really wish that I could do something more than stand along with Tamayo, forced to stand by and watch.

Author's Note: that took sum time huh? Sorry bout the lateness of this chapter again!